Tara woke up that morning more nervous than ever. She couldn't believe Jax was finally coming home. She didn't understand why she should be nervous, she had known Jax practically all her life and had love him for over have of it. She took Abel to work with her because he had a doctor's appointment. Gemma came to watch Thomas and Grace. Tara pumped enough milk for the morning for grace and Thomas. Tara had two surgeries and Abel appointment before she would go to the club house to reunite with Jax. All morning she struggled with whether she should tell Jax about the letters. On her break she read the letters over and over again while Abel colored. Reading the letters had given her a fear new found fear of clay and gemma. Tara decided that telling Jax was the best thing once he came home and they discussed their family. Just then there was a knock at the door and it was time to get to the club house. It was Opie with maid of honor stuff from Lyla.

Opie: Sorry to bother you Tara but Lyla made me promise to give this stuff to you for the wedding. Before we head up to Stockton to pick up the guys.

Tara: Thanks Opie, How are you doing on you big day (Tara could see that something was bothering Opie even though today was supposed to be a happy day.)

Opie: Yeah, I guess I know I shouldn't be thinking about Donna today but part of me feels like I'm forgetting her. I'm letting her down by remarrying. The truth is I love Lyla, she makes me feel okay again but a part will always miss Donna.

Tara: Ope your not forgetting Donna, your just trying to find some happiness for you and your kids. She will always be a part of your life. Do you think Gemma ever felt that way about JT.

Opie: I don't think Gemma that type of person, you know she is different from the rest of us. I guess she did, not sure, back in the day after JT died, Clay kinda stepped in and she seemed okay, no one ever questioned it. Jax wasn't to happy but then you came along and he focused on you and the club.

Tara: Smiles, Yeah I know. Ope I want you to know that I love Jax with all my heart and when I left, it had nothing to do with him. I wanted him to come to, but I had to get away from my dad, the death of my mom and how it haunted me. I felt like if I stayed I would hate myself later. The club stuff didn't help either.

Opie: Tara I know and I think Jax knew too. It broke him when you left, I saw it. I'm glad your back to stay this time…. Why you bringing this up Tara, you thinking of leaving again?

Tara: No Ope, I not but I have something to show Jax and I'm afraid of what he will do when he sees it. Opie, I am going to show you some letters and I want you to read them but you have to promise me you won't react and you will help me tell Jax the right way. I need you to promise me. Promise OPE

Opie: Jesus, you don't have cancer do you?

Tara: Not funny, Seriously Ope please, I tried to go to Piney with this but he shut me down before I could tell him.

Ope: OH SHIT, what is it Tara?

And with that Tara brought out the letters and Opie read them. For ten minutes Opie sat there quietly not saying a word after he read them. Tara giving Abel some more toys to play with look at Opie and said:

Tara: Sorry, Opie I'm so sorry to lay all this on you on your wedding day, it's just I don't know what to do. I cant tell Gemma, I am afraid of what Jax will do and if anyone came help me it's his best friend.

Opie: looked at Tara and said Clay and Tig killed Donna. He begin to explain what happen that night Donna was killed and how he found out. He told her Jax knew and was trying to protect him from not losing the club. Opie was in utter shock at what he had read. Opie and Tara talked about JT manuscript and what they both read. They decided that they would tell Piney and then Jax after the wedding. Opie had to go he was running late to pick the guys up from Stockton. With that Tara suggested they place flowers over Donna grave before he left to give him a little piece before the wedding. The both left the hospital and headed over to the grave. Tara, Abel and Opie placed flowers on Donna grave. Tara told Opie if Ellie or Kenny ever needed to talk she was there because she knows how it feels to lose your mother young and told Opie that he was a way better dad than the one she had growing up so he shouldn't be so hard on himself. Opie left leaving Abel and Tara standing there. Tara looked down at Abel and said: don't worry baby we are going to figure this out and our family will be okay, besides I'm not giving your dad the pleasure of dying so he can marry a porn star. Abel looked up at Tara smiling. Let's go baby, pick up your brother and sister and go wait for daddy. Tara and the kids drove over to the club house and anxiously waited for Jax to arrive. Tara felt some sort of relief and fear that she had confided in Opie. Part of her was relieved that someone else knew about the letters besides her and was going to help break it to Jax. The other part of her was a little mad at Jax that he never told her what really happened to Donna. Now more than ever she feared Clay and wonder if Gemma had a part in Donna's death to. At that moment Piney walked over to her holding Thomas and said some things should be left in the past darling. At that Tara said some things but not all Piney. Piney was taken back by her statement but before he could say anything Gemma walked over with Grace in her arms. Piney walked away and Gemma told Tara how proud she was of her making it work while Jax was gone with three kids. Tara smiled said I couldn't have done it without you (a part of Tara didn't want to believe Gemma was capable of what the letters had said since they had become so close after Gemma's rape but Tara reminded herself that Gemma can change if and when you do something she doesn't like). Just then Jax and the guys pulled in Tara's heart skipped a beat at seeing Jax free and coming back home. Jax jumped of his bike and ran to kiss Tara, Abel, Thomas and Grace. As Jax and the guys headed to church, he kissed Tara and she left to get the kids down for the wedding. At home Tara washed Abel, Thomas and Grace and put them down for a nap. Abel made Tara read two books before he would take a nap because he wanted to wait for Jax to get home. Tara looked at Abel and said please Abel take a nap, mommy read two books and I promise daddy will be home and you can have breakfast with him and show him your new trucks. Grandma is coming to watch you and your brother and sister tonight, while mommy and daddy go to uncle Opie's party. Be good and help Grandma with your bro and sis tonight. As Tara was talking Abel fell asleep and Tara walked out the room to her Jax walk in the door. Jax picked Tara up and threw him over his shoulder and took her to their room and they made love as they were the last two people on earth. Tara looked up at the ceiling then looked over at Jax and said so you did pick up some stuff while you were in Stockton while laughing. Jax looked at her and said only the best for you babe, I practice by myself a lot and in preparation for today I drew a map of your body with color pencils, markers and everything. They both begin to laugh.

Tara: Really Jax we need to talk about the kids, I learn so much while you were gone.

Jax: Babe I did to, as was beginning to say more a cry came from the boys room. Jax said looks like someone else wants a shot at those puppies. Tara looked at Jax, gave him a quick punch as they both laughed. Jax said I will get him before he wakes Abel and Grace. Jax walked back in the room and Tara sat up to feed Thomas as Jax handed him over to her. Tara noticed a ring on Thomas finger and looked at Jax in amazement.

Jax: We should get married Tara

Tara: You really want this

Jax: I want you to be my wife Tara, I always have. I've loved you since I was sixteen. When you left I never thought I get this chance again and there has been so many things to stand in our way but you stayed when anyone else would have bailed. You have given me two beautiful kids and taken Abel in as your own.

Tara: Jax I want all of that two, But

Jax: But how, do we make this work.

Tara: Yes, I look at the kids and I wander how they grow up in all of this. The club is not all that bad and I really like most the guys Jax but the violence and crime. I don't want you to go back to prison and I don't want anything to happen to them, to me, to any of us.

Jax: The answer is simple Tara they don't, we got a good thing going with the Russian now and it's going to bring a lot of money. I can stack up and they we can get our kids and leave this town. I'm not my father Tara, I'm not afraid to leave. JT lost himself on Irish pussy and was too afraid to leave.

Tara: Jax, don't talk about your dad like that besides your just saying that because you just got out. Gemma would have never let JT leave.

Jax: Then he should have ran her ass over. And took me and Thomas. I'm serious, this club is not the same as it was when my father was alive. This club has lost its way.

Tara: How do you get out?

Jax: When Clay steps down, he loses sway

Tara: All of this scars me Jax

Jax: I know babe, I know, it won't be easy or without blood but we will leave and change our kids destiny. Now let's get ready to drags Opie big ass down the aisle. By now Piney's drunk and Opie is trying to find his clothes.

Tara: Okay, don't forget the rings my finance…. I probably should tell the grocery guy I can't see him anymore now that I'm engaged right, Tara said laughingly.

Jax gave Tara the, I'm not playing look and said hurry up so I can stop and beat the grocery guy's ass just because you play too much.

At the wedding Tara and Jax looked at each other while Opie and Lyla traded vows. During the reception, Jax disappeared for a while so Tara took turns dancing with Unser and Piney. While dancing with Piney, Piney asked Tara what she meant earlier by that comment. Tara told Piney that now was not the time and that she had told Opie about what she read and that they would talk to him later. Deep down Tara was second guessing her decision to tell Jax, now that he was so ready to leave the club and she feared if she told him she would lose him to the club forever. He had already neglected to tell her what Clay and Tig had done to Donna, what else was there. Tara decided that she and Jax was going to really make it that she would have to be as truthful as she wanted him to be. And this was his father's, his decision and she had to trust that he was really changing. Tara and Jax danced at the wedding, Tara never felt better than she did when she was in his arms. This is nice said Tara, Yeah this is said Jax. At that moment Gemma was cleaning up as she put Abel, Thomas and Grace to bed when she found a note for Maureen Ashby about some letters that terrified her. Tara and Jax arrived home to a quiet house. Tara thanked Gemma for leaving the wedding early to watch the kids. Gemma looked at Tara with a side eye and said anytime doc, whatever you need just write it down for me Gemma said to see if that rattle Tara in any way. She knew there were letters but she didn't know, who found them. She assumed it had to be Tara because if it were Jax, he would have said something by now. Tara looked at Gemma and simply said okay unaware that Gemma had found anything about the letters. While Tara straighten up and let Gemma out. Jax walked in the rooms to check on the kids to find Abel and Thomas sound asleep in their room while Grace was up and quietly discovering her feet were just as good as any toy. Jax bent down and pick Grace up, while holding her Jax said hey princess, how are you doing? You know never in this life could I imagine wanting to play tea party or fretting the day when some little shit comes to take my baby girl out but now I can imagine not. I love you princess and I promised to be there for it all. I am going to give you a better life than me or your mother had. You know when I met your mom she was the best thing that could happen to me. She was all alone too because well your grandpop wasn't a very nice man and daddy had to….well that's a story for another time. Jax looked down and Grace was asleep, as he laid her down he looked up to see Tara standing there with a tear in her eye. Jax went over and hugged Tara and said babe I promise things will be better. Let's go do some normal shit like watch a movie and have sex on the couch like when we were teenagers. Tara looked at him and said Teller your so cool at times, now hurry up before my dad get home. Jax picked her up and said that Mr. Teller babe, Mr. Teller, now show me your crow tattoo. The next couple days brought a lot of changes for the club and Tara and Jax. Between club business, work and the kids and newly married life Opie and Tara hadn't had time to talk about how to tell Jax about the letters. After the club voted in the cartel and Opie and Jax and Opie killed. Piney decided to go over to Opie's house to talk to Opie about what Tara had said at the wedding. At the house Piney talked with Ellie, Kenny, and Piper, he and Opie excused themselves outside. Piney asked Opie what he knew about what Tara was trying to tell him.

Opie: Dad, Tara told me everything, Maureen Ashby put some letters in Jax's bag before he left Belfast. And Tara found them while Jax was in prison. Right before the wedding I stopped by to see Tara to give her some stuff from Lyla and she let me read them. Dad they were bad they talked about Clay and Gemma and JT wanted the club out of Guns. I told Tara about what Clay did to Donna and we talked about JT's manuscript.

Piney: Son, like I told Tara bringing all that old shit up is no good for anybody. She should let that go. But I'm starting to rethink that decision JT would have never let us get into drugs. This cartel shit will be the death of the club. A club that barely hanging on as it is.

Opie: Go to Tara and let her show you the letters Pop, but we can't do anything without Jax. We can't go up against Clay without having everything on the table. You can't do anything irrational, I already lost Donna. I wont lose Lyla or put Tara in danger. Jax will kill us all.

Piney: Okay son but this cartel shit has got to go. I think Bobbie would agree and be on our side.

Opie: Not now the undoing of Clay has to be whatever way Jax decided

Jax prepared for the run, while writing in his journal and watch Abel and Thomas sleep. Tara walked in with Grace asking Jax what he was doing. Jax looked up not wanting to say and prepared for the run while kissing Tara, Grace, Abel and Thomas goodbye. Tara left for work and Gemma again searched for the letters while watching the kids. She had been searching the house for days since finding the note from Maureen Ashby. She had told Clay about the letter, but he seemed uninterested and didn't feel they were a threat to them. Gemma decided to make a trip the hospital to see if Tara was keeping them there. At the hospital Gemma found the letters in Tara desk and was horrified at what she read. Her reading was cut short by Margaret who walked in Tara office looking for her. Tara immediately went to her office and unlocked her desk draw that held the letters. Tara left her office and made several copies of the letters before she would hide them in storage. She made a copy for her desk draw, and copies for Opie, Piney, and Margret and a copy to hide in the spare compartment her car under the tire. Gemma decided to enlist Unser in retrieving the letters. Tara walked in her office after being told that Gemma was in there by Margaret and that it looked suspicious. Tara asked Gemma why was the door locked and Gemma played coy as if she didn't know it was locked. Gemma made a plan to ask Tara to lunch so that Unser to get the letters out of her desk drawer. Meanwhile Tara pretending to need talk to Gemma about the twins first birthday party that would be coming up, went in the clubhouse and slip Piney the letters asking him to meet her at the hospital later. Tara and Gemma talked and ate lunch when they both looked up to see the time. Gemma said she had to get back to work because a tone of cars had come and Tara happily agreed that she needed to get back. While Gemma met Unser and talked to retrieve the letters. Tara met with Piney and discussed what they had read, letting Opie know, telling Jax, and JT' s manuscript. Piney was careful not to tell Tara about the cartel, after all the poor girl was scared enough and Tara left out the fact that Jax wanted out of the club, as she knew that was on Jax to tell them. As Gemma met with Unser about the letters, she was unaware that Clay had also tasked Unser with getting the letters. Clay had become more paranoid about the letter after Piney let something slip about knowing Clay was at fault for JT. Clay had put two and two together and realized that Tara must have went to Piney with the letters. As Clay and Unser discussed the letters and how disgusted Unser was with Clay for lying to him all those years ago about why JT needed to go; Clay realized that the letters was copies and that the only way to ensure the letters don't come out was to kill Tara and Piney. Clay said nothing of his realization to Unser and thanked him and left. After Clay left Unser, Gemma pulled up asking about the letters, Unser gave her the letters. Unser told Gemma that Clay had asked him to get the letters to and that Clay couldn't be trusted, he said Clay was like a wounded animal that was willing to kill anything and anyone in his way. Gemma stated she could control Clay. Unser looked at Gemma and asked was she willing to put the life of your grandchildren's mother on the line. Gemma later on gave Clay the letters and assured Clay that it was over. Clay said okay all the while making plans in his head. As the weeks went by things with the cartel kept getting worse. There was bodies dropping, Tara had received a death threat (placed in her car by Unser so she would be protected from Clay) and the club was divided. Piney decided that Jax needed to know and he needed to know now. Piney knew this was the only thing to salvage the club his best friend has started all those years ago.

Piney went to the cabin and called Opie, Tara, Jax to the cabin making each one swear not to tell anyone they were coming. Tara told Margaret she had an emergency and left work. Jax left the club claiming to be going to see Tara who had not been feeling well at work. Opie left the club claiming to need to go check on Piney who's oxygen levels were bothering. As all three arrived, each was surprised to see the other. The all asked what the other was doing here before Piney stepped out the cabin and said I called you all here, there some things that need to told and they can't a minute longer. As they all walked in Tara was terrified to tell Jax. Piney begun the conversation.

Piney: This club is going down a dark path and this not the path JT wanted. Jax I don't know why you would vote in the cartel and I don't care. But once upon a time you wanted to change this club, to get it back on the straight and narrow and I holding you to that promise.

Jax: Piney, things change, JT was a coward who lost himself. I am not my father, I thought I could be the man to change the club but that ignorance has almost destroyed me and everything I love. I …..

Piney: Boy do you ever shut up and listen sometimes. I won't tell you how much you remind me of your dad. Tara show him the letters. (Jax looking at Tara wondering what she could possibly need to show)

Tara: Jax, when you went in stockton, I found some letters Maureen Ashby put in your bag. I didn't want to tell you while you were in prison and when you got out I was afraid of what you might do. So I told Opie and Piney, hoping they would help. Jackson, I love you so much and before you read these letters you have to promise me to think and wait to react. Remember the promise you made to me when you asked me to marry you.

Opie: You need to sit down bro.

Jax sat down and read the letters that Tara gave him. Piney, Opie and Tara all watched as he read them. As Jax read the letters tears filled his eyes. After he finished the letters, Jax got up and begin to throw things and curse. Opie moved Tara out the way so she wouldn't get hit. Opie and Piney grab Jax, in a attempt to get him to calm down. Jax slowly calmed down and begin to piece things together.

Jax: Gemma and Clay were together huh… I remember him being at the house while JT was in Belfast claiming to be checking on us. He was checking on us all right. It makes so much sense now, why Lowell disappeared. Lowell always worked on my dad's bike and about two years ago when they pulled those bodies from off route 78 Lowell Sr. was buried with two Mayans. Clay and Tig told me that Lowell was a traitor and they killed him for the good of the club. All this time, all this time I have been hating my dad for abandoning me and my mom when we needed him most to make a family in Belfast, I was wrong. How could they, how could they do this. Clay wanted my dad's spot and Gemma wanted to remain the queen. Do you know different my life would be if JT had live and got the club out of gunsss. And Unser helped them to cover it….

Opie: Bro I know, I know

Jax: No Opie everything has been a lie. My life has been a lie. They killed my dad Ope, they killed Donna, they killed Lowell Sr. They all gonna die slowly.

Tara: Jax, please. You have kids, you need to be there for them. Let's just leave like we played

At the Piney and Opie looked at Tara and said LEAVE…

Piney: Leave, what the hell she talking about boy.

Opie: you were going to leave Bro

Jax: Piney and Opie, I love you but I love my family more. When I was in Stockton all I could is think about Tara and my kids. And how this club has lost it's way. I decided to leave when Clay stepped down and I made a deal with Clay to vote in the cartel and to put Opie as president when I left ( jax said looking so defeated). Opie I should have let you leave when you wanted to, maybe Donna would be alive bro, I'm sorry. Tara, I made a promise to you and I am going to keep it. I am going to change my children's future and I will be there to send them grow old. But I cannot let my dad club be ran by a traderis bastard any more. My children will never know our pain Tara.

Piney: Son, I know what your feeling and clay has to go and your mom has to be dealt with in another way. But maybe there is a chance to change all of our futures, your family, Opie Family and all with you staying at the head of the table. Hell I'm getting old for this outlaw shit anyway… Hey Doc, if we made a pack to get the club back on the straight and narrow, would you stay.

Tara: Looking at Jax, Opie and Piney. IFFFFFFFFFF and a Big IFFFFFFFF there was no more Cartel, guns, violence at all. And the club was just mechanic's with bikes then yes I would mind staying. Jax I love you, my kids, and my Job. I would be content here, yes. I even love you Piney, Mr. mean ass. You to Ope. I can't believe I'm saying this I would stay and be Mrs. Teller, old lady to Biker Jax teller. But that's a big change.

Opie: Yes it is, but I'm up for it. Are you

Piney: Hell, why not, anybody seen where I put my tequila?

Jax: I don't know how or what way but yess. Jax walks over to Tara kissing her and placing his head on her head saying Thank you babe for this, I know your scared, I promise to do this the smart way even though the sight of any of them makes me want to get my gun. We need to get Clay out, pull out of cartel and guns….

Opie, Piney, and Jax promised to be safe and to keep her safe. And with that the plan to take down clay, banish Gemma and find out what Unser new formed. Tara kissed Jax and left the guys to talk. So she could check on her patients before heading home. Meanwhile Clay secretly met with the cartel to put a hit out on Tara….

Tara arrived home to find Abel, Thomas and Grace eagerly waiting for her arrival. Neeta helped Tara get the kids into their jammies. And Tara made a make shift camping site so her and the kids could play and watch the new wiggles movie tonight. Abel looked at Tara and asked where daddy was. Tara smile and looked down and said he was at work but he would be home soon. As Thomas pulled on Grace's hair. Tara said do I need to separate you to. Tara and the kids played when Jax walked in and sat on the couch watching and smiling at them playing. Tara looked up and asked Jax was he okay.

Jax: Tara there is so much anger inside me, I don't know, how to face them and not kill them.

Tara: They same way Opie has, why didn't ever tell me what really happen to Donna?

Jax: Because I didn't want it to scare you off, beside the club had settled it and Opie agreed to keep it D-quiet. Then Abel got kidnapped and then you and you were pregnant, I went to jail. We have had a full plate. Right now babe I can't bear to talk about that. I just want to sit here and enjoy my family. As Jax and Tara laid on the floor and watch the kids play. There was a knock at the door. Jax got up and answered and it was Gemma. Jax jaw clinched at the site of her.

Gemma: hey baby giving Jax a kiss. I just stopped by to see my grandkids before bed.

Jax: looking at Tara for support Jax said hey ma, I was just going to shower, by the time I get out you will probably be gone. So see you tomorrow.

Gemma: See you baby, now how are my grandbabies doing. Grace grandma got you a new cheetah print shirt. Sorry Abel and Thomas you can't wear cheetah don't want you growing up to be pussies'.

Tara: looking at the shirt in disbelief cheetah print came this small said thanks Gemma. Can't wait to put this on her sarcastically.

Gemma: watch it Doc.

Tara: I'm going to check on Jax

Gemma: Yeah, right, I don't need any more grandbabies right now and since you spit out two at a time you might wanna clip it.

Tara: Ummmmmmm nevermind.

Tara walked in the bathroom to find Jax running a shower and smoking weed.

Tara: Jackson Nathaniel Teller, weed in the house while the kids are up.

Jax: Not now Tara, just tell me when she leaves.

Tara walked out the bathroom and let Gemma out and put all the kids to sleep before walking back in the room to Jax. Jax was laying in the bed looking up at the ceiling when Tara walked. Tara crawled into bed and laid her head on his chest and said Teller we are going to get through this, it will be hard but we will. No more secrets, porn whores, kidnapping though please. Looking up at Jax. Jax looked down and said okay, just promise me if you won't cheat on me with Opie and plan to kill me. Tara said promise. With that Tara and Jax made love.

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