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Post date: 11/16/2018

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Chapter 15

"Sebastian?" I glared at him for his abrupt stop. "Earth to the demon," I waved my hand in front of his face. The hell is wrong with him now. He's probably just trying to skirt around answering my questions, the ass. I huffed as Sebastian's eyes started to get all glassy on me. "Do I need to hit you so your brain restarts?"

Sebastian abruptly got up from the desk, swiftly pulling me into a hug burying his nose into my hair. The hell "Uhm ah Sebastian..." Sebastian moved his hand to my stomach as he pushed me down onto the bed. I was stunned for a moment, wondering what on earth had gotten into him. I'm sure I looked ridiculous right now. Sebastian was hugging me into the bed with me holding my arms out like I didn't know what to do with my hands.

I shouldn't let him distract me from what we need to talk about. Lord Bourbon had told me way to much all at once. While I wanted to know if Sebastian knew who I was from the start or not, I also needed him to work through it all with me. In the Manga, Sebastian was shown to always know the answer or who did what, but since Ciel never asked the right questions, Sebastian's knowledge wasn't used. I sighed, letting Sebastian hold me as we laid there on the bed with one of his hands on my abdomen, though that hand was wandering further down to my womanhood.

"You're exquisite, my Mafdet. Turley, I desire nothing more than to answer all your inquiries, but for now," Sebastian's Demon self came to the surface, His dark aura triggering my own, I felt my body heating up like nothing I could remember feeling. The friction of his hand sliding down to find purchase at my womanhood sent shivers down my spine. He waisted no time in rubbing little circle into my bundle of nerves.

"Ah, Seba... stain... I ... I hate..." Sebastian didn't let me finish telling him that I hated him by aggressively locking lips with me. The bastard. Sebastian smirked as he pulled away from me, affording him enough space to use his free hand to pull down his trousers, freeing his already hard shaft.

The kiss and teasing on my womanhood had my head fussy. My lack of response at what he was doing allowed Sebastian to pull my now drenched panties to the side, revealing my dripping entrance. It was now that I looked on, confused. When had my bottoms been taken off, and why am I just now noticing it? I looked back up at Sebastian as he chuckled at me. The vibrations filtering though to me, giving a relaxing feel.

"I Love you too, my dear Mafdet." Sebastian lowered himself as he looked me right in the eyes. I was captivated by him. The glowing red of his eyes was something that I always loved about him. Sebastian used this distraction, He was serving me with to slowly enter my cavern. My eyes widened as I felt him slide in with ease.

Bastard.

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I'm laying here in bed as if there isn't anything significant that I should be doing. Sebastian was next to me, keeping me close within his arms as if I would run away if he let me go. I can honestly say that I probably would if I found out he was lying this whole time. I keep telling myself that word and actions were all part of his act, his hunting instinct to get what he wanted. But I had fallen for it all. I felt stupid.

"What's today's date? Last I knew it was around February ninth." I closed my eyes and snuggled into Sebastian's chest. I almost felt as if I couldn't help it. It's like some primal instinct was guiding me. But I suppose that's what all this has been in the first place, Instinct.

"February twenty-fifth," Sebastian started to pet my hair as I tensed.

"I was asleep that long?"

"Indeed, my mate. Though you possess demon and witches blood in you, Your body is still mortal. It took time for you to recover." Sebastian moved his hand to my chin and tilted my face up to see him, I could keep my eyes closed and be defiant, but that would get me nowhere right now, so I opened my eyes and looked directly at him.

"Are we going to talk now? Or are you going to further put me off?" I feel so much better after such a long sleep, and I guess a destressing session that had me begging — fucking bastard. While I feel as if I'm almost entirely back to my indifference, I'm still slightly peeved, This new side of myself is proving to be annoying.

"Where would you like me to start?" Sebastian placed his forehead against mine.

"I want to know all of it, so start from the beginning."

"Alright then, I'll tell you all that I know." Sebastian pulled away from me to sit up, leaning his back against the headboard, Sighing Sebastian crossed his arms "it would have all started about the time you came of age."

"The first time that is," I grumbled due to not remembering any of it.

"Yes, some five or so generations earlier, in your line, I was guaranteed a mate that would comprise of a strong demon and witch blood for helping them come to power, I believe that occurred around the twelve hundreds, You come from a witch line that is thought of as the strongest amongst the different clans or covens. They hid well amongst the non-witches and even married into high ranking families. To keep the magic in their family strong, they would use spells to prevent becoming pregnant with the human's children and time their other partner visits so that they wouldn't get caught."

"How did I come to have demon blood then?"

"Your mother called on me just before her arranged marriage happened, told me that the debt was to be soon repaid and that all she needed was a strong demon to lay with."

"Who did you two end up picking to be my father?" I was curious because that was part of the story that Lord Bourbon didn't know.

"A high ranking Demon from my realm that also happens to be the first prince. Strong and royal. Though nowadays, he and I are on equal footing."

"And his name?" Sebastian sighed and was quite a moment before answering me.

"His name is Marduk." I looked up at Sebastian in disbelief,

"Wait as in the book of fifty names?" Sebastian chuckled at the aw in my voice.

"Yes, that Marduk, furthermore, he wasn't happy at being used as a breeding horse. But he did care for you despite the complaining." So the person that sired me cared for my existence. I didn't think demons cared about that, but Sebastian himself has proven me wrong with that, He already loved the children we have yet to have. Always creasing my stomach and making sure I'm cared for in his own way. I suspect this is how demons show their love for each other.

"You were born and raised with the knowledge that you were both Witch and Demon royalty, but also that do to your mother's marriage put in place to be a human Princess. I visited you often with the help of your mother."

"Lord Bourbon said that we were close and that you even helped pick my name." I turned in Sebastian's arms so that I was facing away from him but still close to him to cuddle me.

"Yes, Marduk and I talked about what you should be named, and that's what was picked." Sebastian moved his hand on my hip to my stomach, starting to rub his thumb over my exposed skin there.

"What about William? If we were so close and knew that I was born for you, how did I end up with him instead?" My body stiffened as a low growl left Sebastian's lips.

"I honestly don't know. I was contracted when it happened. You had already laid with him and eloped by the time I came back. I tried to take you by force back to my realm in my anger at losing you to him. When you saw me injure William, you lost yourself, and your demon blood fully took over, in our clashing, and your grief, you somehow sent yourself away."

Sebastian sounded so remorseful and sad. I don't remember that life, besides it was over, and I'm this version of me now.

William had killed himself in his grief, that's what I was told anyway. Regardless of the reason, it is a fact that he killed himself; otherwise, he wouldn't be a reaper now. I ran away, the reason I could see myself in any life doing so is if I thought Sebastian had killed William. That was the only explanation. If something happened to Sebastian, I would probably lose myself as I did over William.

"Did you know it was me by my name that day in Undertakers shop?"

Sebastian pulled me tightly to his chest, burying his face in my neck.

"I was angry at first" Sebastian's muffled reply was barely heard by my lesser hearing. "I thought, How dare another bare her name, Then I saw the raven on your shoulder."

I turned back to face Sebastian. I was startled by what I saw, This demon, This robust and stoic Man was near tears, something I didn't think I would ever see from him. He was braking his aesthetic. My chest hurt at seeing him this way. "Mephistopheles," I moved my hands to his cheeks and pulled him to me, kissing him softly. Sebastian pulled away from me to continue speaking.

"You don't quite look like you did back then, the only similarity is your hair color and eyes, I suspect that has to do with whom you were reborn. I didn't know it was you till I brought you here. You acted like the version of you I remembered, I had to have you in any way that I could. When you told me of your family in your world and saw the rest of your tattoos, I was further convinced that you were my Mafdet, but more than that, I knew that somewhere in your heat, I was still there."

Sebastian's voice was hiccuping by the end of his words, Tears falling down his face as he looked at me. My heart was breaking for him. He lost me to another and then hurt me to the point I had run away from the very world I was born to. He was so remorseful, and it now made sense why he acted the way he did when he found out about me drinking Reaper blood. It had always seemed to me that he was mad about losing a possible child, but it wasn't just that, He was feeling guilty, crushed by his very actions. Can I even be mad at him? He was more than sorry at this point. Sebastian loved me so much, or at least the version of me he knew.

"Sebastian, I'm upset that you didn't just tell me about all this, I'm not sure how to feel, but I know that holding onto anger isn't good for either of us, so I forgive you" Sebastian's tears fell more rapidly as he looked at me with such surprise. I could feel the sting of tears in my own eyes now. "However, on one condition," Sebastian stiffened, but I smiled and pulled him into an embrace. "Never keep anything from me again going forward."

Sebastian clung to me and me to him, the both of us let everything go as we sobbed into each other, We needed this, to break and then repair again. He could be faking it all for all I knew, but it felt genuine, call me stupid, but I think I love him more than I ever thought or knew I could. No matter who I was in the past, This me, here and now, Loves this demon. I no longer wish to return home, because right now at this moment I knew I was already there, in his arms.

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A few days later, March first eighteen eighty-nine, I spent the last two days straightening out the manor and making sure everyone's schedules were done. Using my spells to avoid Ciel as much as possible. That turned out to be a mistake because now I was in his billiards room at his request sitting across from him on the pool tables edge as he stared me down from his chair. I didn't help matters that Sebastian decided to mention to me only this morning that I was with child. I had gotten sick again from human food and had complained. He just hmmed and said, 'oh, it's probably due to you being pregnant.' I may have thrown a bottle at him that was on the counter in the washroom.

"Are you going to say the reason for requesting my presence or continue to stare?" I asked Ciel in a monotone voice. Ciel glared at me, but I guess he was done staring because he started to speak.

"Tell me, how do you know."

"Know what? There are a lot of things that I know." Keeping my voice board, I sighed.

"You bloody well know what it is I'm referring to." Ciel's grip on the chair turned his knuckles white.

"Hmm, if you're not going to be specific, then I'll be getting back to work" I stood up and huffed as if all this was too much effort.

"You would disobey your Master?" Ciel moved his hands up to rest his elbows on the chair's arms with his fingers crossed in front of his face.

"Master? I don't recall ever saying you were my Master; I'm sure that I said Ciel Phantomhive was the one I answer too." I turned away from him, taking a step away.

" I AM CIEL PHANTOMHIVE, HEAD OF THIS HOUSE AND GUARD DOG TO THE QUEEN!" I heard Ciel's chair slide back.

Summoning my Death Scythe, I spun around. The blade placed at the little Earls's throat, Sebastian, apaired out of thin air in front of Ciel to protect him. The blade of my Scythe grazing his tailored tailcoat. I didn't care why he did it, but he was no Ciel Phantomhive.

"You are no Ciel Phantomhive. Don't you ever say such a lie to me again, Sebastian might be your demon, but I belong to the true Ciel." I snarled out my words. Ciel was wide-eyed in shock at my words. Sebastian Flashed his demon eyes at me, a warning to chill out with his contracted soul. I may have been angry, but I also realized I revealed far too much in my anger with the little brat. I'm sure Sebastian will be questioning me at some point about it. Backing off, I straightened out my dress.

"Now then, you have a guest coming any day now, so I'll be leaving into the city for now. I'll return when you're done." I turned away from them, returning my Scythe to its charm, leaving the room, my anger rising within me still, despite my trying to keep calm.

I went straight to mine and Sebastian's room, I opened the wardrobe and pulled out one of the glass bottles that were there and downed its contents. Placing the container down on the desk, I undressed, changing into my regular clothes of shorts thigh-high boots and white top. Redoing my hair into interknit braids that came up into a half-up ponytail. Even though I had a spell for hiding my tattoos, I put on my black gloves.

"Leaving already?" Sebastian wrapped his arms around my waist from behind, startling me.

"Sebastian, must you?"

"You left yourself open."

"I won't be back till April nineteenth" Sebastian's arms tightened around me as a low growl escaped him. "It must be this way for what's going to happen next."

"Be safe; its not just us anymore." Sebastian kissed my neck as his hand moved down to my womb.

"I'll stay out of trouble... My Mate..." I whispered the last part looking off to the room's side, giving Sebastian more of my neck.

Sebastian turned me around, claiming my lips as he propped me up on the desk, Sebastian wasted no time ripping my clothes from my body. Keeling down, he spread my legs wide, moving forward. Sebastian Lapped at my womanhood, making me shutter. Damn him.