More than anything so far, I don't want to write all these chapters.

Everything until now, even the stuff with the Time Twins, has felt like it happened so long ago I know how I feel about them. Which, doesn't even make sense, since it all happened kinda close together. So much of what happens to me all goes down right around the same time. From the minute that I defeated the Overlord up until the day the Time Twins went back in time, it felt like I never got a break from fighting. And then, when Wu was gone, I got a chance to catch my breath. Maybe that's why I know what I think about all of that.

But there's one reason that I don't want to talk about what happened to me lately. I know I have to, since everyone saw what happened to me. Everyone saw what I did when my father came back. You all watched me have the hope inside me beaten down into the dirt. But more than that, I made myself the symbol for helping save Ninjago from him. If I didn't talk about this, I would be cutting out a lot of important stuff. But when I think about it, I don't want to talk about it. And the reason why is because of one person. Her.

Harumi.

Just saying her name hurts. Just thinking about her makes me angry. I haven't hated anyone before. Not like she made me hate her. I don't mean that she did something to make me hate her. I mean that she did everything she could to make me despise her. Everything that happened to Ninajgo, everything that happened to me, it was all because of her. Harumi made sure that no matter what happened, I was hurting in some way. Even when I tried to get away from her, she tried to take my place with my father. I know that, more than Morro, more than Chen, more than the Overlord and Pythor, I hate Harumi more than anything.

And at the same time… I regret what I did to her.

I don't have any issue talking about Harumi. I don't have to think about what I want to say. I don't have to plan this out, or try to write this all down again. I don't even have to really do anything. I just have to start. And it isn't hard to start. And that's the problem.

Everything that Harumi did, was because of me. I can't come up with some reason to say that I wasn't the cause. The entire reason that Harumi did what she did was because… was because of me. If I never let the Serpentine out… if I hadn't been a stupid kid and tried to act like my dad, then her family wouldn't have died. She wouldn't have gone to worship my father. She wouldn't have made all of Ninjago suffer just to make me feel her pain. If I didn't hurt her, then she wouldn't have taken it out on Ninjago.

The others have tried to tell me that it wasn't my fault. They tried to say that she was acting on her own, and I can't be responsible for her actions. I can't let her try to get to me like that. I've tried for a long time to believe that. I've tried so hard to tell myself that what she did wasn't my fault. That the Colossus, the city, my father, all of it wasn't my fault. And I've tried, so long to tell myself that. And I just can't. I can't believe it.

Maybe it's because she tried so long to get in my head. Maybe she just wanted to make me suffer like this. She wasn't content at just bringing my father back. She made sure that I had to watch my friends die. She made sure I watched as they got crushed, right in front of me. She made sure I got to watch the city I'd spent so long protecting get turned into the seat of the Emperor. She did everything to make sure that I knew it was my fault that I had let Ninjago become… that.

Morro had something personal with Wu, and he used me as a vessel to do it. But the thing was, Morro didn't hate me, he hated that I was the Green Ninja. He didn't care who I was, not really. If Kai had been the Green Ninja, he'd have been just as horrible for him as he was to me. At least, that's what I've come to think about. Morro didn't really start to get at me as Lloyd until later on, when he needed me to comply more for his plans. Morro hated the Green Ninja, and I thought the Green Ninja was me.

Harumi wasn't like that. She didn't care if I was the Green Ninja. All she cared about, was that she hated me.

I've never met someone that's hated you for your very existence like that before. Someone that takes everything you've done in life and uses it to rip you apart. Someone that you can't reason with, because they just hate you. They just hate you because you're you. That was what Harumi was to me. Harumi hated me for being Lloyd. Morro hated me for being the Green Ninja. I want to make that clear here, since I spent so long talking about how Morro and I fought with each other. I don't want to act like what Morro did to me wasn't horrible. But Harumi did something that was unforgivable.

I'm the Green Ninja. I'm supposed to forgive and forget. I'm supposed to beat the bad guys and forgive the people that were dragged into it. I'm supposed to be willing to help anyone that needs someone to reach out and pick them up. That's, what it means to be a hero. That's what it means to be the big hero of Ninjago. I'm supposed to be perfect here. And here I am, saying that I hate someone so much I can't forgive what she did to me.

Am I supposed to? Am I meant to forgive someone like her? She hurt me in ways that I didn't even think were possible. It wasn't like she just wanted me to get upset, she ripped the very thing that I clung to for so long away from me: my father. She ripped him out of the Departed Realm to turn him into a monster to kill me. She took away the city that I worked so hard to protect. She isolated me and tried to make me feel as alone as I could. She killed my friends in front of me. I can't get that out of my head. Whenever I think about her, that's what comes to mind. And part of me says that's fine. It's okay to hate her. It's okay to not forgive her. It's okay to forever see Harumi as just a horrible person that… got what she deserved.

...But I can't think that. Not for long. Because then I remember why she was like that. I remember that it was all my fault. Harumi was making herself the arbiter of punishment for the sins I committed when I was a kid. It wasn't like I didn't know unleashing the Serpentine would start a big conflict. I didn't know that it would lead to Pythor and the Devourer, but I was at least aware that it was going to do something horrible. And I still did it. I still made the choice to do it. No matter what the others say, I know that she, had a right to at least hate me like she did.

I could probably go on for a long time about this, but that's enough for right now. I wanted to say all of that, before we started. I wanted to make clear how I felt about Harumi. Everything that happened to the city, and her are so close together that I can't talk about it without talking about her. And I think the only way for me to really talk about what happened, is to start at what happened after the Time Twins escaped into the past. Probably not a good transition, but it all starts there.

When Kai and Nya came back, we all made our vow to find Wu, wherever he was. Ray explained to us that Wu was lost in the Time Vortex, meaning he could appear anywhere at any time. Since Nya and Kai had cured him of the Time Punch before Wu engaged the Twins, we didn't have to worry about Wu being hurt. But we had no way of knowing when, where or even how Wu would appear. We didn't even know if he would appear again.

Because of this, I made a difficult call. Normally, whenever our team split up in the past, it spelled bad things. I didn't want to split us up, but I knew that we had to. I sat the Ninja down when we got back to Yang's Temple and told them we needed to do something. We'd made too many mistakes with the Time Twins. We hadn't worked together as a team like we should have, we made dumb mistakes that let the Twins advance their plan, and our 'victory' had come at the cost of Wu. I had to do something to make us all understand what we had to do next.

So, I told them we should go our separate ways. We would split up and go out into Ninjago to train on our own. I wasn't disbanding the team, but we needed to get stronger. As a team, we could only grow so much. I know some people say 'the whole is greater than the sum of its parts,' but those parts are still important. If we split up, we could search for Wu, wherever he could appear. I thought that I'd have to fight the ninja on that, since every other time we'd done that it always ended badly.

The thing was, none of them did. I could tell they all felt just as bad about this as I did. None of them felt like they'd done everything they could to stop the Time Twins, myself included. So, they didn't fight me. Nya was concerned about what it could mean for us, and Jay was worried it would lead to us breaking up for real. Zane suggested that we would go our separate ways until one of us made a call to the others, where we could come back together and form the team again. That way, we weren't breaking up, but just putting the team on pause. It wasn't the perfect solution, but nobody could really protest. We had one last dinner together, and the next morning the others had left the temple.

From what I understand, Jay and Cole teamed up not long after they split up and decided to work together. They decided to search the more remote areas and train there while they did. Kai and Zane did something similar, but with other parts of Ninjago. Nya learned about corruption going on in some of the villages in the deeper parts of Ninjago and decided to go undercover to figure out what was going on. She must have done it really well, since I lost track of her almost instantly. I kept tabs on the others for awhile, but eventually Cole and Jay stopped showing up and other than Kai making sure to message his followers, we all took the whole 'splitting up' thing seriously. We all made ourselves go our separate ways.

I wanted to go out and search Ninjago like the others. At first, I tried to do that. I went off to Jamanikai Village and tried looking around there, only to find out that Zane had already been there. It wasn't long before I realized the guys were taking their job of covering ground really seriously on top of splitting up. I started finding myself sticking around Ninjago City more and more. And, eventually I ended up just staying in Ninjago City permanently.

Now, there are a few things that I want to point out during this time. I used Yang's Temple as my house for a long time. I tried to train there and such, but without the others there, it didn't feel like a home. I couldn't get comfortable in such a huge place like that. So, of all places, I ended up going to the small apartment that we lived in back when I was still training at Dareth's Dojo. I could have afforded something much bigger, but I felt at home there. I knew it really well, and it let me live right in the middle of the city. It was a good place, aside from the leaking walls.

Yang's Temple… that's something that I guess I should mention now, since this is really the only time I can really fit it in. We forgot about it. I don't mean that we didn't go back there, I just mean that we forgot about it for a long time. Since I wasn't there, nobody was living there. It's probably floating somewhere, in Ninjago. Cole said he went to Yang at some point and told him that we weren't coming back… which, I still doubt Yang ever was in that temple, since I never saw him after Cole jumped through the rift. There's… a lot of things that we all just kinda, forgot about over the year we were apart training and searching for Wu.

You know how sometimes you forgot something important, even if the time to use it is starring you right in the face? During the entire time I was working to protect Ninjago City, I stopped using Airjitzu and my Elemental Dragon. I… guess I just didn't have any need for it. And, well, as time has gone on I kinda just, stopped even thinking about using them. Cole said something about how Airjitzu used some 'evil magic' and such, and that he went on this whole journey to close the scar on his forehead and, uh, I dunno. I don't know anything about that. I just know that I stopped using them for so long, I stopped really feeling the need to use them. During everything that happened, it never really occurred to me to even try to use them.

Looking back on it, though, it's not the worst thing I could have done. Not using Airjitzu actually meant that I trained my elemental powers more than ever. I started learning how to use it in more interesting ways. I tried to perfect Kai's thing of using your power to kinda hover in the air, and I almost learned it. As for the elemental dragons… over time, they stopped being useful. Nya said she stopped using it because she wanted to get stronger without relying on powers like that. I can understand that. Maybe I was doing that too. The last time I used my dragon, I almost died. And as useful as Airjitzu is, we can usually find ways to get around it. So I guess when I get down to it, it wasn't that important for me to actually use it. But it was still, kinda odd we forgot to use them and, well nowadays we just don't bother with them.

One thing that was weird during this time was Pixal suddenly came back online. She told us she was sorry for going dark for so long, and that whatever Nya had done to Zane in the Samurai X Cave had forced her out. She uploaded herself into our network and started communicating with me. She promised to help me find Wu, and was my main source of information on leads for Wu. Like I said before, Zane was always way closer to her than I was, so for me it was just a matter of surprise and just accepting what happened. I don't know why I didn't put two and two together with the whole Samurai X thing, but it wasn't that important in the end.

So, I spent a year training, watching over the city and looking for Wu. I spent a lot more time looking for Wu than training, though. While I was watching over the city, I was also going out and investigating rumors all around. Since we didn't know what would happen to Wu, we had to investigate anything related to him. And we looked for a long time. Like… a really, really long time. And no matter where we looked, where I looked, I didn't find anything. I never found anything about Wu, at all.

For that year, what kept me moving forward was finding Wu. I had to keep looking. I'd let Master Wu down with the Time Twins, and I had to help bring him back. I grew stronger so I could show him that I was getting stronger when I found him. I didn't want Wu to come back to see us all fallen apart and broken, like we were after what happened with the Golden Master. I wanted us to be stronger than ever. And, in a way, I guess we kinda did.

All of this started when I was still in the city. The police received a tip that someone was looking to steal something from Borg Tower on the night of last year's festival. Borg must have seen them in his security cameras around the area. I waited with Borg at the top floor that night, watching the security system. The guys that came to steal from Borg were skilled to make it all the way to the hidden spot and even fool the trip system. It wasn't until one of them set it off retrieving the mask I found out about them.

It was my first real battle in a long time. They were all wearing outfits to blend into the festival crowd, meaning I had to stop them before they got back. I took them on, seeing one of them had stolen what looked like some sort of mask. I defeated four of them, but two of them managed to plant a zipline to get away. I went after them, but the one that made it over first betrayed his friend and cut the line. I caught him and delivered him to the police, just in time to have Pixal catch me in my new car we'd developed to chase after the other one.

Long story short, he managed to get away, but not before I saw him parachute down into the canals towards the bottom of the city. It was seeing that parachute that started all of this. It was a painting of my father, but not Sensei Garmadon. It looked more like Lord Garmadon, back before the Dark Island. I'd never heard of the Sons of Garmadon before, but I knew when I saw it that I couldn't deal with this alone. Something was going on, and I didn't like it. That was when I called the team back together so we could investigate it.

During this time, the royal Family reached out to us through their Master of Arms, Hutchins. I don't really know what to say about them. To be honest, it's almost like they just, appeared from nowhere one day. I didn't even know that they existed for the longest time. Apparently, they were incredibly isolationist and didn't do anything for Ninjago. I'm not even sure why they're royalty, or where they were during everything that happened. Given how many times Ninjago City has been attacked, I would have expected to meet them or hear about them at least once. I didn't get to know any of them well enough in the short time we met. It wasn't the Emperor that was important, after all.

We all met together at Borg Tower for the first time in months. It was great seeing them all again. Apparently, at some point during the year I was gone, my voice deepened, which Nya felt inclined to point out. I never noticed it. Apparently it's common not to hear what you actually sound like. While none of us had made any headway on finding Wu yet, I could tell they had all gotten stronger. We'd all grown in our time apart, and they even looked a little different. I grew my hair out a little bit, and apparently I now had green eyes. I'm not sure how I didn't see that at first. But everyone had changed a little, and all for the better.

Hutchins arrived, explaining to us that the mask that had been stolen was the Oni Mask of Vengeance. Everyone knows what the Oni are now, but at the time we only knew they were some sort of ancient race that predated Ninjago. The masks were styled after their greatest Warlords, and if all three were brought together, they would unleash some great power. Not that much different from anything else we've had to deal with, to be honest. I guess Borg just likes collecting rare artifacts and just never told anyone he had it. Hutchins asked us to protect the Royal Family at their upcoming speech, explaining that

The Royal Family's last speech was the first time that I ever met Harumi. I remember the first time I saw her. I don't know why, but I thought she was one of the prettiest girls I'd ever seen. Looking back on that, I feel like an idiot. I stared at her for so long at that speech that the others took notice. I don't know why I thought she was so pretty back then. She looked so elegant and graceful standing there, like some sort of sculpture. I'd never seen someone like that before. You would never have guessed she was as twisted and evil as she was later on. Back then… she was just a Princess.

Thinking back on this, I realize that Harumi likely set up the false alarm of an attack on the Royal Family at their speech so I would dive in and protect them. I mean, that was the reason that we were let inside the palace. Harumi wanted us there so she could make us trust her. It may have been a false alarm, but I'm sure we were playing right into her hand. Everything was her plan, right from the start. I don't remember even thinking about it, I simply dived in and acted. Maybe if I hadn't, I wouldn't have had to go through all of this.

That night we were brought in to meet the Emperor, but I don't remember much about that meeting outside of Harumi. The first time she spoke to us, she sounded so kind. She took her time to complement each of us, saying she was fascinated by our 'heroics' that would 'go down in legend.' She was just trying to get to us. She got Nya to like her by saying she wanted to be like her, and acted like she was giving titles to the others. And then, when she got to me… she decided to bring up the fact that she didn't have parents, and was actually adopted by the family. Just to make me feel connected to her. She was just trying to lower my guard. Everything was just apart of her plan.

Hutchins told us there was still a threat to the Royal Family. It was Harumi's own threat. She was the one leading the Sons of Garmadon, and she probably ordered them to steal the mask just to panic the Emperor into making a speech to give us a chance to get closer to her. She wanted to keep us close so she could manipulate us, to keep us in the palm of her hand. I don't know how I was so stupid to actually trust her. But I did. And I paid for it.

We learned that the second Oni Mask was stored inside the palace, the Oni Mask of Deception. We were tasked with guarding both it, and the Royal Family. I accepted, and told Hutchins that we would. I was so stupid.

Harumi had set her plan into motion. I'd just been given my unwelcomed introduction to the leader of the Sons of Garmadon, and everything that was about to happen next.

"...Hey, Lloyd?" Jay leaned back in the chair he was seated in, "Are uh, you okay?"

"What?" Lloyd blinked, "Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry about me. You're not the first one to ask."

Jay didn't look as convinced as he wanted to. Lloyd wasn't sure why Jay was asking that. He hadn't gotten mad like he had before, or broken out into tears, or even let his power out like he had by accident before. He'd just sat there recording his chapter, like normal.

"I see…." Jay rubbed his hands together, "You just, sounded so angry. I've never heard you talk like that before, Lloyd."

"It's Harumi," Lloyd stated bluntly, "I'm not going to hold back. She made me suffer. It's my autobiography."

"I wasn't saying anything," Jay pointed out.

"Good," Lloyd stood up, "Then I think we're done for now. We can record another chapter tomorrow."

"Uh…. yeah, sure thing…" Jay bit his lip, "Lloyd are uh, you sure you're good? The others didn't say you were this, angry before."

"I'll try to dial it back a bit, but I'm not going to hold back a lot," Lloyd sighed, "I need to write this all down. Everyone deserves to know what Harumi did to me, what she did to Ninjago just to hurt me. Everyone already knows that Harumi was the one that revived my dad. They have to know about it."

"I guess you're right, but-" Jay started, but Lloyd cut him off.

"I'm cooking dinner tonight with Kai," Lloyd gave a small smile, "Sorry, but I gotta help him out. Can we talk more at dinner?"

Jay didn't exactly look happy with that response, but he gave a small nod of his head. Lloyd gave a smile and slid out the door to the room, making his way towards the kitchen. Jay remained quiet for a few more minutes, then stood up and put his hands in his pockets.

"You don't sound okay…" Jay muttered to himself as he left the room, "You didn't tell me your chapters were gonna sound like this…"

Regardless of his feelings, Lloyd had asked Jay to do this. It was just the first chapter, after all, so there was still time for things to change. For now, Jay put his apprehension aside and left the room, closing out the first chapter in the most recent of their adventures.

Author's Note:

Greetings Autobiography of a Legend readers! After almost 2 months of hiatus, I have returned, and I bring with it good news. As of yesterday, I have completed the entire fic. As I mentioned before, AoAL was always planned to end at Season 10. With the pro and epilogue factored in, the fic is 48 chapters long. No more hiatuses and no more waiting! It'll be a consistent weekly update schedule until we hit the end of the fic! Writing these were perhaps the hardest part of the entire fic, but I think they came out to what I wanted them to be! It's time to finish the legend.

Thank you for reading once again! I wanted to quickly mention that I have a Tumblr now called BionicStars, where you can follow me for updates on my other fic, Enter the Ninjaverse! I've set it up so you can also ask questions as well! I hope that you all stick around, and thank you again for reading this far!

NINJA-GO!