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(Flashback)
I sat in the darkest corner of my room, you would know it if you walked into my room everything was untouched but this one corner. My blanket was stashed in the corner with small drawings on the wall. I Iiked the darkest corner because it was like my mind most of the time. But unlike most days that I sat in this corner singing to myself and drawing on my wall, I was pushed against the wall and my tiny body was wrapped straight jacket as I glared at my doctor as she psychobabble at me. "Peyton you can not just attack people like that! It is not normal."
"But im not normal, I don't want to be." I stuck out my bottom lip and turned my head away from her
She sighed and placed her well manicured fingers on her hip, "You just got your privileges back and you decide that, that is how you want to spend it? I just don't understand can you help me understand?" She asked me as if she was speaking to an imbecile
I knew why she was upset but, I didn't want to talk to her, I just wanted the darkness. I had my privileges back for three days as she so thoughtfully put it, but I still wanted to be on my own. There weren't many children in Arkham so in the common rooms there was adults who either wore diapers they were so sedated or on the break of a mental breakdown. So, my first three days were uneventful, I was left alone for the most part. Except for this boy that was maybe a couple years older than me, with this wildly orange hair. He liked to bug me, he would run up and scream at me, no words just screams, he would push me or take the thing I was playing with and throw it across the room. So, by day four I was angry at him or really irritated I didn't really know the difference by this point. So, when I choose to sit on the opposite side of the room where the big window was and play checkers by myself I thought that he would leave me alone. I was wrong…
I was mid game with myself when he ran up to me, picked up the corner of the board and flipped it, sending the little pieces everywhere. Then he turned to face me and threw his hands behind his body before he leaned forward right in my face and screamed. This time I stared at him as he stupid slobber landed on me and my eye began to twitch. Before the boy had a chance to react I screamed back and grabbed the back of his hair pulling him behind me and smashing his face into the windowsill. The boy cried as I let him go and he hit the floor, I could see the guards coming for me but, I wasn't done. I knelt down quickly beside him and grabbed his arm in my tiny fingers and clamped my teeth into his arm. I felt the blood slipping between my lips before I heard the boys scream. I felt the hands grabbing at me trying to rip me away from him, but I wouldn't let him go. It wasn't until one of the guards hit me across the head that I yelped and released the boy.
And now here I was, I hated this place. I wasn't completely insane just not normal. "I didn't like him."
"And that was a reason to bite him?"
"Yes."
"No, it is not. You need to understand that, that is wrong. People do not attack others and people do not bit other people."
I didn't want to talk to her anymore and this jacket was making me uncomfortable. I shifted away from her and turned to face my corner and I closed my eyes. "I see that you will no longer listen to me but, this will not be over. Our next meeting is in one week and this will be the topic of discussion."
I sniffled as I faced the corner, this was my life and as I faced my darkness again I hardened my heart knowing that this would be my life. I would never love or feel loved, the darkness was my life and my solitude.
(End of flashback)
I woke up from my dream with a start, stupid dream…stupid past. I rolled onto my back and stared at the ceiling it was morning and it wasn't a surprise that J was not in bed with me anymore. It had been 3 years since I met J and we had grown insanely close since then. We had wrecked havoc in the city of Gotham, everyone knew me as his Queen, his partner and crime and I loved it every moment of it. We had fallen into a pattern of behavior over the years and I still sang in his bar just not as often. I more or less ran his club for him while he handled business upstairs. If he ever whistled for me, I knew something was going to go down and it was my turn to go upstairs and join the fun. I was so well known that batman had tried to arrest me many times. This was the life I never I would have, I thought I would rot in that hell hole and never find love. I hadn't said anything to J but, over the years and with the little sanity I had left I came to realize that I loved him. I would give my life for him, his laughs were what made my day and I did not want one moment awake without him.
I rolled my eyes as I heard the sounds of construction and looked over at the clock that said it was almost nine in the morning. J decided we needed some modifications to our home, said that he needed bigger and better, which some days I tended to agree with. I rolled out of bed and stretched my naked body as I worked out the kinks in my body. I walked into our in-suite bathroom and hoped into the shower. I let the water cascade down my body and after I felt refreshed I dried my body off and tried to dry my wavy locks the best that I could. Before I left I looked at myself in the mirror and admired the ink I had acquired, or rather J had drawn and had inked himself. I had tattoos basically everywhere and it all linked together in some form or another. But, J refused to ink my face or chest, he wanted my beauty to shine. My tattoos were a mix of classy and in a style, I called J's style. I had three favorite tattoos, which J an I created together. One was on my foot, it was two ribbon that wrapped around the ankle and met at the front with two large feathers on the side of my foot and over the top. My second favorite was the lace garter that wrapped around both of my thighs that had a mandala underneath the backside of my thighs. Then there was J's initials above my left collar bone followed by some haha's that went down to my shoulder blade where a set of four queens in each suite lay with the joker card laid in the center and more bolded haha's below it. But my favorite was one that we shared, it was an anchor with a whip that wrapped around it and a crown that sat on top, on top mine said My King and his said My Queen and below it said My Anchor. It was a tattoo we shared and even though neither of us had said the L word, it showed the passion or care we had for each other.
I heard the drill again and rolled my eyes as my concentration was broken, where the fuck was J? I slipped on my green silk robe and tied it around my body so that I was covered enough to leave our room. I began to look for J upstairs but after searching each room I did not find him. I walked quietly down the stairs, "J?" I called out
I waited at the bottom step and got no reply. I listened for any sound but, I didn't even hear the construction anymore. I let my hand slip off the railing and walked past the kitchen, past the living room and to the area that was being built. I pushed open the curtain that hide the area and looked around, once more not seeing J anywhere. I looked around the room that was going to be the meeting room or in my opinion the poker room and I smiled as I looked beyond that to what would be my library and I was so excited! I couldn't wait to see the finished product but if the 'Peyton stay away!' that was painted on the curtain didn't get the message across well J's personal warning a few nights ago would be for sure. My eyes wandered to the nail gun that was sitting on the table and I grew curious as I walked towards it. My fingers grasped the handle and I held the semi heavy piece in my hand. I stuck my tongue out as I concentrated on the piece. I tossed the gun back and forth in the same hand and as I held it pointed towards me I saw the trigger and just as I would with an actual gun, I pulled the trigger. It shot behind me and I heard a grunt followed by an amused laugh, a laugh I would know anywhere. I flipped my hand, so the gun faced forward and turned to face the voices. I had to stifle a laugh as I looked from J to Jack who incidentally I shot in his right leg. J looked as amused at me, "I'm so sorry Jack, I didn't know you were there." I apologized
J began to walk towards me with his hands out to the side, the amusing smile never leaving his face, "Pey darlin' not that I don't enjoy seeing you like this but you're a little dangerous with that."
I looked down to my hands to see the nail gun still in my hands which was pointed at J. I laughed, like I would ever shoot J…on purpose. I opened my hand to him and shrugged my shoulders, "It looked like fun. Where were you?" I explained
J had reached me by this point and wrapped his one arm around my waist and his other hand wrapped around my fingers pulling the gun from me, "I was just outside, what did I say about being in here?" He asked me with a deathly serious tone
I looked up to him with a pout, "You said I could go in there not in here. Besides I was looking for you."
He raised his non-existent eyebrow at me as the corner of his mouth twitch, "I was not far my kitten."
I placed a hand on his bare chest and leaned into him and I stood on my toes, so I could whisper in his ear, "I missed you in bed this morning, I had so many things I wanted to do to you."
I felt his grip tighten on me and a grow ripple from him throat. Our moment was interrupted though by an uncomfortable cough, I remembered that we were not alone, and I turned to face Jack, "I don't mean to interrupt sir but, I need to go get this looked at."
I pulled away from J, "Not necessary, come with me we will get you patched up"
I could tell J was upset that he didn't get to explore me more and I giggled in response. I grabbed Jack's hand and brought him towards the bathroom. "Stay, I'm going to get dressed," I reached over for a towel and passed it to him, "Add pressure to it and I'll be back."
I went into my room and threw on a loose fitting red t-shirt that was an off the shoulder and a grey pair of yoga pants. I walked back into the bathroom and Jack sat there looking impatient, "What took you so long?" he complained
I rolled my eyes, "I wasn't that long stop being a baby."
I walked up to him and knelt removing the cloth he was holding. He didn't seem to be bleeding much anymore but the nail was still in his leg. I didn't give him the chance to react before I gripped it hard in my fingers and ripped it out. He yelped in pain and held his hand over his leg. I pushed his hand away and held the cloth over his wound that was bleeding now. "Hold that." I told him as I reached for the first aid kit
Fixing his wound wouldn't be any different than the bullet wounds I fix once a week at least between the people who are out to get us or J's trigger finger. The only difference was I didn't have fragments to remove from him. I continued to treat him despite his whining, even as J entered the bathroom, I could tell he was upset about something but, it didn't look like he wanted to share. "Pey, I'm going to go to the clubhouse early. Don't forget your on tonight, I want you there early to show the new kid the ropes."
I nodded my head, I jumped up from the ground and wrapped my arms around his neck as I gave him a passionate kiss goodbye, I was trying not to get my bloody hands on him. Whenever we separated, we had gotten into this routine, "Careful out there."
"You know me, I'm never careful."
I raised an eyebrow at him and leaned down to whisper in my ear, I knew he hated looking weak in front of his men but, the fact that he would take the time to even whisper to me made me feel special, "I will wait for you."
My smile beamed at me, "Me to."
In all honesty they weren't the words I want to hear but, they were as close as I could get. The first time he said it, it shocked me. We were out for a late-night walk, we just finished lighting up a local jewellery store and were enjoying our loot when some idiot tried to rob us. At first the low-class criminal didn't realize who we were but once he did, the guy seemed to think he could run away. He shot his gun at me and I took the bullet in my left side. I wasn't going to die, the bullet did minimal damage. But, there was so much blood J didn't know what to do. He tucked us into the corner of an alley before he called Jack and Frost to come get us. In that moment I could see the panic in his eye's and his words still chill me to my bones, "Wait for me Peyton and if you won't wait just live for me." He said before his lips pressed onto mine with as much passion as he could poor into it, almost as if he was trying to poor his life into me
He almost pleaded with me that night and ever since then when we separated from each other one of us would always say it to the other. J gave me one more kiss before sending a warning glare in Jack's direction before he left us alone. I walked back to Jack and continued to wrap him up. Within an hour I had cleaned him up and wrapped him up. Neither of us had spoken much but as I finished tapping his gauze, he asked me, "Why are you with him?"
I squinted my eyes up at him as I sat on the floor and placed my black against the wall, "With who J?"
"Who else." He sassed
"Because he gets me Jack. How many times do we have to go through this?" I asked exasperated
I hated this conversation with him, he has been worried about me since I first met him but, he has gotten worse since I became a thing with J. But, he didn't understand how I felt and I didn't want to go through this with him again. "As many times as, it takes for you to understand the danger you are in. You have gotten worse since you got with him, your more….more…."
I stood up and towered over him, "More what Jack? More insane?"
"Yes! You don't seem to care what you do or who you hurt as long as you are with the craziest man in the whole city!" he shouted as he shuffled into a standing position
He just didn't understand I didn't do that stuff, so J will stay with me. I did it because I loved it, I loved the feeling and I loved the thrill. "I am no different then I have been since I was a child. You don't know me like you think you do. J gets me, he understands me, and he isn't going to change me. That's all you want to do ever since I met you. Just fucking accept me or get out, I don't need you here to change me I need you to accept me."
He pursed his lips and he seemed to mull over his words before he spoke. But before he could speak his phone went off and he pulled it out to look at it. He answered it and spoke into it, "Yes?"
I couldn't hear the conversation on the other side, but I felt my stomach drop at his next words. Jacks eyes connected with mine, "What do you mean batman got him? What the fuck happened?"
I didn't wait to hear anything else, I stormed down the stairs grabbing the keys for the car before I stormed out to the garage. Did I care that I forgot my shoes or that Jack was running after me as I speed away, absolutely not.
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