Chapter 4:Anna confesses her love
Anna's POV: (a few weeks later)
Tarrant and I had been spending a lot of time together lately and it's been really nice but it's also made me realize that i actually love him, i always thought it was just a crush. I sighed as i got ready for the day and started to think about if i should tell him how i feel or not. I walked down to the dining room and saw Mirana and Tarrant sitting down eating and I smiled as I sat down to join them.
"Good morning Anna, how did you sleep?" Mirana asked me with a smile.
"I slept alright what about you?" I asked , being polite.
"I slept well thank you." I smiled and as I started to eat my breakfast. As I ate, I started to wonder how I was going to tell Tarrant how I felt about him.
"You're awfully quiet Anna are you alright?" Tarrant asked after a while. I nodded and looked up at him.
"Yes, I'm fine just thinking about a few things." he smiled.
"Your mother used to say she would think of six impossible things before breakfast."
"She always did, I miss that about her the most." I said looking down for a second and then shook my head. I refused to be sad about my mother today, I wanted to be strong.
"Tarrant? Would you accompany me to the meadow you took me to a few weeks ago?" I asked and he smiled.
"Of course Anna, I'd be happy to. Might I suggest we take a picnic with us and enjoy the day."
"That sounds great." I said smiling as I finished my breakfast. After i was done i went up to my room to grab my guitar and smiled a little knowing exactly what I wanted to sing to Tarrant. I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed.
"I should change first." I said to myself and set my guitar down as I went to the closet and tried to figure out what I was going to wear.
Mad Hatter's POV: (A few minutes later.)
I was waiting for Anna to come downstairs so we could head to the meadow and my mind started to wander. I really liked being around Anna, she's really amazing. She has been through so much but she never lets it get to her. Plus she's accomplished so much already. I really hope to get to know more about her today while we spend the day together. There was just something about her that pulled me in. I sighed and looked up to see Anna coming down the stairs and I couldn't help but admire her. She wore a white and sky blue dress. The top is form fitting to her bodice and has sleeves rolled up and sit on top of her shoulders. The blue skirt was long and flowing with a hint of lace underneath with blue flats to match. She looked beautiful. I walked over and held out my hand to her and she took it. I helped her down the last few steps and led her out of the castle.
"You look very beautiful in that dress Anna." I said and she blushed.
"Thank you Tarrant. Mirana said that it was one you made." I smiled.
"I knew I recognized it." she smiled a little and looked at me.
"You're very talented Tarrant. Do you think you could teach me to sew one day?"
"I'd be happy to." I replied as we got to the meadow and I laid out the blanket I brought for us to sit on. Once it was laid out, I set the picnic basket down and helped Anna set her guitar down. We then sat down and I smiled.
"This is one place I always feel at peace." I said and she nodded.
"I feel the same way honestly." she agreed and looked through the picnic basket.
"What are you looking for?"
"Nothing i was just curious about what all was in there." she smiled and closed the basket again. I chuckled and shook my head. She really was like her mother in some ways but also completely different which made me like her even more. I looked out at the horizon and sighed.
"It's really beautiful up here isn't it?" she asked and I nodded.
"Yes it is, but you being here makes it even better." I said and she blushed a little. She seemed a little nervous and I couldn't figure out why.
"What's wrong Anna? You seem nervous."
"I-i want to sing you something but i'm not sure what you will think of it." she said and I took her hand.
"I'm sure I will love it. "I said with a small smile and handed her guitar to her. She took a deep breath, started to play and began to sing.
Every time I think I'm closer to the heart
What it means to know just who I am
I think I finally found a better place to start
No one ever seems to understand
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
I smiled encouragingly listening to her song.
Anna's POV:
I took a deep breath before I continued needing to steady myself. I looked up at him to see him smiling and I began to sing the next part.
You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
I kept hoping that he'd figure out everything I wanted to tell him with this song but I knew he wouldn't. I continued to play as I finished the song.
Been feeling lost
Can't find the words to say
Spending all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Oh, next to you, you next to me
I need to find you
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (need to find you)
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you (I gotta find you)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (need to find you)
I gotta find you (gotta find you)
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
I gotta find you(Song is gotta find you from: Camp Rock)
As I finished the last chord he started to clap and I blushed, setting the guitar down.
"That was a beautiful song, and you have a beautiful voice." he said and I smiled a little knowing it was now or never to tell him.
"I sang that song because it's how I feel about you. All my life I had been searching for someone who fit me completely and it's you Tarrant. I've always felt a connection to you. I always thought it was just a silly crush but actually being here and getting to know you, i've realized that I've fallen in love with you." i said too afraid to look up at him.
Mad Hatter's POV:
I was shocked. I couldn't believe that she was in love with me. I never thought anyone would love me. This isn't a good thing, I could hurt her. I couldn't live with myself if that happened. I sighed standing up and turning away from her.
"You can't love me Anna. I could hurt you. When my madness comes out I get violent and if i hurt you i could never live with myself. I can't love you back. I'll never love you the way you love me." i lied knowing i needed to make her give up on me.
"I don't care, I love you Tarrant and I trust you. You'll never hurt me." she said and I turned to see she was standing a little ways away from me and I sighed.
"Don't you get how dangerous I get? Didn't your mother ever tell you about the times I lost it?" I said getting frustrated now.
"Yes but she also told me how she could get you calm again."
"You aren't your mother Anna!" I shouted and I saw the hurt in her eyes.
Anna's POV:
I couldn't believe what he said. I never claimed to be my mother just that I could do the same. I sighed and tried again.
"I love you no matter what Tarrant good or bad. I'm not going anywhere and i won't give up." i said and he walked over to me grabbing my wrist a little hard and i winced looking up at him noticing his eyes were gold.
"You need to give up. I could never love you the way I loved your mother." he said in a scottish accent and I gasped feeling the tears build up.
"I'll never stop loving you." I pleaded and he shoved me a little.
"I think its time we stop hanging out. Like i said i don't feel the same and never will. The sooner you accept it the sooner you'll move on." as he said that the tears started to fall and I took off running my heart breaking. I ran and ran until I found myself back at the castle and ran to Mirana. As i bursted into the room Mirana looked up and walked over to me worried.
"Anna? What happened?" she asked and I shook my head.
"I want to go back to my world. I don't belong here and I never will." I said fighting my tears back. She sighed and walked over to her desk and took out a vial.
"This is Jabberwocky blood drink this and you'll return to your world. Although i wish you would stay." she said, handing me the vial. I took it shaking my head.
"I can't stay where I don't belong." With that I drank the vials content and when I opened my eyes I was back in the cemetery by my mother's grave. I walked back home and locked myself inside the house before I slid down the wall and bursted out in sobs.