CPOV

Oh fuck did I just say that out loud? Yes, you did you prick as Ana is looking angry and confused.

" What the hell are you going on about Christian? If this is your way of joking I really don't find it funny."

" I am so sorry it came out like that. I wanted to tell you in a better way once we got to know each other more. I couldn't help myself Max was asking me to be his dad, and then you were saying how you hated him not having one. I couldn't control myself."

" I am back an all clean." I see Ana tense up once Max is back into the room. She picks him up as she cuddles and kisses him. She places him into his big boy chair to eat.

" How about we finish this conversation after Max goes to bed Christian."

" I nots sweepy I nots go bed Mama. I wanna be with Wistian."

" How about I read you a story buddy." I see Ana glare at me, and I think maybe I have overstepped the mark.

" Wes Wistian i woves you." Dinner is really awkward but Max is doing a good job of easing the tension, with his constant chatter. Looking at my son makes me feel so full of life, and happiness which I have not felt in such a long time. I just want to tell him I am his daddy and be with him 24/7. I think I have to talk to Momma Bear first and see if we can come to an arrangement or something. My biggest fear is that Ana will kick my ass out and never want to speak to me again. I wouldn't blame her if she did as it was such a shitty way to find out about me being your child's dad. I compliment Ana on her Mac and Cheese as it was delicious and I can tell Max enjoyed it as he is wearing most of it.

" Bath time baby."

" Ok Mama ggggrrrrrrrrrr." Max roars at her like a dinosaur and I don't think I have seen anything as cute as him right now.

" Come on dinosaur into the bathroom we go. Wait here Christian we won't be long and I guess you will be reading tonight's story."

I stand from the table and rinse the dishes and load them into the dish washer. Miss Jones would be so proud if she saw me doing this. I figure Ana has had a long day and it would be nice to not have to do anything after Max is asleep. I start to look around the downstairs of the house as there are so many pictures of Ana and Max. I see her sonograms and her pregnancy pictures. My father was right you could not tell she was even carrying a child inside her. I see the last picture on the wall and it makes me want to lose my shit. I see a picture of Ana and Max with some guy. Who the fuck is this man and why is he in my son's life? I know exactly what would get said to me right now, just because you're a sperm donor does not give you any parental rights. Well fuck that I will make sure I will be in my son's life. I won't go to extremes or anything, as Ana is an amazing mama to our son. I keep going over scenarios in my head of how this will all work for the three of us.

I am snapped out of my thoughts by my son running at me wearing a dinosaur onesie that is too cute. I need to get a picture of the both of us together. I try to take it myself but I can't. I don't know how people take selfies. I am even ashamed to know what they are called.

" Allow me Christian." Ana says as she holds out her hand for my phone. I pass it to her and thank her as I know this can't be easy on her.

" Ok you two pose." We both settle on crazy roar poses. Ana takes a few snaps and hands me back my phone. I am so happy with the pictures.

" Come on little and big dinosaur it's time for a story then sleep for you little one"

" I nots sweepy Mama." Max tells Ana while he is yawning his head off. We head to Max's room and it is well decorated. He has a dinosaur theme going on which I am not surprised about. Ana helps him into bed and he snuggles into his duvet.

" Wistian get the book." He points to the dresser. The book is called baby and daddy Rex. I start to read the book and I have to sadly admit that it gets me so emotional, as all I want is to be Daddy. I see Max's eyes close and I know he has fell straight to sleep. I start to inwardly panic as I don't want to have this conversation with Ana. I know she is going to order me out of their lives I can feel it. I see Ana kiss Max's head and she switches on his night light. We both leave the room and head back downstairs.

" Do you want a drink Christian? I never drink when Max is in the house but I think I am going to need a glass of wine for this."

" Wine will be good thank you." She pours the wine and I can hear her breathing heavily which does not make me feel any more at ease.

" Here you go Christian, now why don't you explain to me what the hell is going on; and I want the whole story."

" Well Ana about five years ago I was really struggling financially. I was trying to start my business up and I was hardly making ends meet. My parents well my father refused to allow me to access my trust fund or to help me in anyway, as I dropped out of college and he was still mad at me for it. My mother was amazing; she would always make sure I had food. She would also help me pay my rent at times. One day I was out for a walk when I heard two

college guys talking about how they just got money from jerking off into a cup. I went online when I got back to my apartment and I started doing some research. I found five clinics that pay top dollar for high class sperm as they call it. I sent them my information and a picture that they asked for and they snapped me up. I went and deposited five samples on five different occasions. It wasn't until I had money and influence that I decided that maybe it was a good idea to get the samples destroyed. If a woman were to find out she was carrying, or had given birth to my child she would try and get a huge payday." I see Ana wince at that last comment.

" Ana I am not trying to insinuate that you will do that or anything."

" I know Christian please continue."

" Ok so I asked two very trusted members of my staff to locate samples and have them destroyed. They destroyed four out of the five. I was so angry that one had gone missing so I requested they dig deeper to get me more information."

" That's when I saw Max in the restaurant. I did not realize how alike we look until my mother pointed it out. She was and I think still convinced that I am Max's daddy. I thought there was no chance as me and you have never had a relationship. It all started to click in my head when you told the story of how you got pregnant. I knew then that there could be a chance. When I said goodbye to you that night I went back into the house only to overhear a conversation between my parents. I realized that Max is mine."

I let out a large breath as I have never gone into such detail with anyone before. Ana gulps down the entire glass of wine and I know she is having a lot of inner thoughts going on.

" Christian I have to know is this all a game to you? Did you decided to get cozy with me and Max for some sort of entertainment? Are you having fun at our expense?"

" No of course not Ana I wanted to get to know you both before I knew Max was mine. This is not a game to me. I just needed to get my head around it all, and I wanted to tell you in a better way."

" Can you please for the time being stop referring to Max as yours. There could be a very high possibility that he is not, and nobody should be getting there hopes up. I think that maybe we should call it a night and sleep on things. We can talk tomorrow about what the next step is. I am so confused now Christian. I need some time to think, we will talk tomorrow."

I left the house, and I feel broken. Have I fucked everything up? Am I not going to be part of my son's life? I can only imagine what is going on in Ana's head now. All this could not have been easy for her to hear. I think she handled it well, or she is Ana putting on a good front. I do hope that we can come to an agreement, and Ana allows me to be a part of both of their lives. I get into the car, and I get a text from Ana saying that it might be best if we give our parents the heads up on all of this. A part of me feels so elated as if she wants people to know. Maybe

she is willing for us to try and be a family. I call my mother as I know her shift at the hospital is about to end. I know my father always picks her up as his office is not too far away.

" Hello my beautiful son what a nice surprise getting a call from you."

" Hello Mother can you my father please come to Escala before heading home it is really important."

" Christian are you ok? Are hurt please tell me you're ok."

" I am fine mother; I just need to talk to you both that's all. I will see you there soon."

Once I am in the elevator on my way up to my apartment. I feel like the walls are closing in on me, I have no idea how my parents are going to react about any of this. I hear the ding and I know I have to walk out but I have to stop and take a minute. I take a lot of deep breaths and I put on my CEO hat and walk towards my parents.

" Christian are you ok." My mother says

" Yes I am fine please take a seat. Father you as well."

" I am just going to rip off the Band-Aid and just give it you straight. Max is biologically my son."

" Son are you on drugs." My father's reaction I can see my mother's head about to burst.

" I fucking knew it Christian didn't I tell you. Oh wow wow wow wait a minute. You said you had never met Ana before, so how the hell can you two have a child together."

" Ok Mother Father here is the story." Finally, I am alone, that was a long couple of hours with my parents. My mother is ecstatic and already wants to shop for Max I rolled my eyes at her. My father on the other hand looked pissed off and at one point I thought he was going to punch me. He called me irresponsible and a fuck up. Well nothing beats a good bit of honesty. I get a text from my father or should I say my newly appointed Lawyer. Not that I have hired him or anything. He is saying that I will need to get a DNA test done. He says I need to protect my assets. I can't understand him at all, he loves Ana and Max. I don't know why he is acting like Ana is some sort of gold digger. I am going to need to have a very stern talk with my father as he is taking this news not very well. Does he not realize that he is Max's grandfather and should want the best for him and Ana as she is his mother. I am hoping that this is Carrick's way of processing it all and he will come around and quickly. I am a smart man and I know a DNA test is the best way to go. What if I don't get the answer I want? What if Max really isn't mine?