**Content Warning: contains sexual, physical and mental abuse, mature language****
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[Chapter 10]
As Shawn and Paige arrived in the hotel lobby, Paige suddenly got stiff.
"Honey? Everything ok?" Shawn asked concerned
"He is here, they didn't keep him." Fear showed up in Paige's face.
"Honey, they didn't let him go." Shawn's heart broke nearly as he saw the expression on Paige's face. Every emotion showed fear, panic, being lost. Shawn pulled her tight on to his chest.
"Nothing will happen babe."
"I know him and he will come for me. He will not leave this alone."
"C'mon you go upstairs to our room and will fix us some nice food."
"Honey? I… ok." Paige looked on the ground and made her way to their room.
As she arrived at their door she thought Shawn was right, she was just overreacting, took the key and opened the door. As she took the first step into the room she just felt a hard push and struggled to keep herself on her feet.
"Ok, bitch, payback time, wether I get my money or you get the beating of your life and if I am done with you their will not be much left for him to fuck." JAck voice sounded more vicious as usual and she felt his foot hitting her stomach.
**Same time at the restaurant***
Oh Jesus, why today. Why has it been that many people, why today. I don't want Paige to be alone that long. But this shit will take forever.
It took Shawn 20 min alone to give up the order. 30 min until the food was ready and about 10 min to pay.
For heaven's sake, hopefully Paige was alright.
***In the Hotel room***
Paige screamed as Jack's foot hit her.
"Shout up, bitch." Jack yelled
Jack grabbed her hair, dragged her up from the ground only to shamsh her against the next wall. Paige again lying on the ground just yelped. Jack's fist connected with Paige's face over and over again.
Each time Paige laid on the ground jack used it to spark at her in every possible way on every possible spot of her body. Paige just cried and had stop to defend herself - Maybe it's over sooner, Shawn where are you -
As she had stopped to move, he just ripped her clothes off,and flipped her over on her back. Paige heard Jack remove his belt and unzip his jeans. Paige whispered desperately, "Please, Jack no…"
"Shut the fuck up, the money you owe me, bitch, is worth a certain amount of fucks. And I will take out each and everyone." Jack opened her thighs with his knees positioned himself right between them and forced his way into her as Paige crying and screaming begged him to stop.
Paige could hear Jack moan and gasp as he forced himself into her center over and over again. "Honey, you are just mine to fuck, is that clear by now?" Paige didn't even answer, she just hoped Shawn would show up.
" Owww. Honey you're so hot and he will come to save you again, bitch" Jack whispered in her ear. As Jack had released himself inside her, he pulled out, left her on the floor, dressed up again and left. Paige just laid there, daring to move.
Jack was long gone before Shawn reached the door, but just couldn't get rid of the odd feeling that something was wrong.
As Shawn opened the door he just dropped all the food and jumped towards Paige. She laid there in front of him, torn clothes and covered in blood.
*** 3 days later ***
Everything is just wrong, how could I dare to send her up alone, all my fault. Fuck, how shall I make this right again. I hope she will let me in today.
As Shawn arrived at the hospital unit Paige was taken care of, he prayed that he could check on her and didn't have to leave again as the past two days. Since the incident Paige refused to see him. The healthcare staff tried to calm him down, that this would be normal, but he was afraid to lose her.
As he reached the receptionist he asked after her and yeah, there we are again.
"Sorry Mr. Michaels but she still doesn't want to see you."
"No, that's enough I will not do this anymore. I will go in to her and I will see my woman, that's just it."
As he entered the room Paige was in he shakes as he sees her. She was chalk pale, and over and over with bruises, wounds and stitches.
"Honey…"
"Go, Shawn, they didn't tell you. I don't want this anymore. Just go, Shawn."
"Oh no Baby doll, you will not lock me out and I will not leave."
"Shawn please…. go" tears staining her cheeks and Paige silently cried.
"Baby doll, I take you home. I love you." Shawn whispered as he carefully placed a kiss on her forehead.
*** 3 days later***
Paige was sitting on the edge of the bed, just staring at the wall.
How can I even look him in the eyes again? Why should he wanna touch me ever again? After this? He doesn't even know that we lost a baby and I will not tell him, it's worse enough! It would be an imposition for him to deal with this body ever again, in which way ever. It's over…. I will spare him the sight of me as soon as possible.
Shawn knew she wasn't in the best emotional shape but he just couldn't leave her any longer at the hospital, she was already so far away from as never before. He had to do something to reach her again otherwise he would lose her.
"Honey?"
"Yes?"
"How about some lunch?"
"I am not hungry Shawn." Paige left towards the bathroom. Shawn knew what she was going to do. She would go and take a shower, again.
"Honey, please…." Shawn tried to stop her by grabbing after her hand. Paige winced at Shawn touch.
"Baby doll I won't hurt you, honey, it's me."
" I know but it doesn't change what happened, Shawn." Paige withdrew her hand and entered the bathroom. The door locked and only a few minutes later he heard the water.
Ok, she will not be back in the next 30 min. She now would wash herself over and over again in the hope to wash the memories away, but Shawn knew that this wouldn't work. How could he get her to let him in again. Only patience, only patience will heal this. As Paige was back after about 45 min she directly grabbed the sheets and disappeared in the bed.
"Honey, I have to leave again, please promise me that you call me if you need something."
"Yeah… Yeah… go" Paige cried herself into sleep after Shawn had closed the door.
*** At the arena***
"Hi Shawn, how is she?"
"What do you expect Mark, I am not allowed to touch her, she is showering at least 6 times a day each and every time not less than 30 min. She wakes up each night screaming and crying and I can't do a fucking shit about this."
"Jesus…."
"You should take time off, Shawn. Go with her somewhere but not here."
"She would never follow."
"Honey? I am back."
"Honey?"
He only heard the water running. Oh, Baby doll no … . not the shower again. It took about 10 more minutes until Paige came back from the bathroom. Shawn already had made himself comfortable in the bed. Paige starred on the bed, but grabbed her sheets anyway. - Doesn't matter he will not touch me anyway. -
As Paige fell asleep again, she was starting to toss herself around.
"Shut the fuck up, the money you owe me, bitch, is worth a certain amount of fucks. And I will take out each and everyone." Jack opened her thighs with his knees positioned himself right between them and forced his way into her as Paige crying and screaming begged him to stop.
Paige mumbled in her sleep. "No, please…. stop it." "Jack don't, don't do this…."
"Honey… wake up, Paige wake up. Paige! It's just a nightmare, wake up!"
Paige screamed as she felt arms pulling her.
"Stop! fucking touch me."
"Honey it's me, baby doll?"
"Sorry Shawn, my fault. I need fresh air." Paige got dressed and left without a word the room.
I can't stay, he will come back and Shawn is killing him and then Shawn is the one who gets imprisoned not Jack. Shawn needs to be free to find someone he really can love.
Next morning as Paige woke up she Shawn had already left. Breakfast and fresh coffee on the table. Paige made her way again in the bathroom and hopped in the shower.
30 minutes later she was on her phone.
"I need a flight."
"Boston - Edinburgh, please."
"Economy or business?"
"Economy, thank you."
"What time, Miss?"
"Second please." Shawn was coming back for lunch at 12pm and left at about 1,5 hours later again, then she had until 6pm.
"5.30pm if possible."
"5pm I can offer."
"That's fine, thank you."
Shawn in the mean could focus on anything, not workout, not in ring preparing, nothing. His thoughts were focused on Paige.
"Shawn, c'mon hey, here I am!"
"What?"
"Oh Jesus… Shawn, do all of us a favor and go home. It's nearly lunchtime anyway."
"OK….bye."
Shawn, still in his ring attire, runs back to the hotel. He wanted to have lunch with Paige, maybe today she would be eating with the way he was received from Paige was as distanced as the past days.
"Hi Shawn."
"Can I get a kiss from my baby doll?" Shawn asked with a soft smile.
"No."
"Babe, please I …"
"Shawn, no…"
"Sorry honey, didn't want to…." but Paige cut him off
"Shawn… I can't do this anymore."
"What do you mean?" Shawn panicked. Fear was building up inside him.
"You suffer too much from all of this."
"Honey? What does it mean I suffer? You were the one who…"
"I know."
"Paige what do you mean?"
"Sorry Shawn, forget it… my fault."
"Paige I miss you….."
"I know Shawn … "
Honey, c'mon, have at least lunch with me."
"I am not…" But Shawn cut her off.
"I know, you are not hungry. Ok then I can leave, I am not welcome here anyway." Shawn left with tears in eyes. As the door closed Paige started to pack her belongings, tears running down her face.
Not long Shawn and you are free again, free to enjoy life again, to be happy again, you're better off without me.
As she had packed her stuff she called for a cab. In the lobby she tried to fix the paying but this wasn't possible.
"Can you send me a bill?"
"Yeah, Miss shouldn't be a problem."
Paige left the address in Edinburgh she was going to be and left. Shawn tried to call Paige the entire afternoon, but didn't get any answer.
"What the fuck is going on."
"Shawn what's wrong?"
"Oh, nothing big except that she now stopp to answer my calls."
"Shawn go, it's nearly 5pm anyway.. I fix this."
"Thank you Mark. This woman drives me crazy but she does allow me to help either."
Shawn ran off to the hotel, to reach the room and as he opened, he didn't hear the shower, maybe that's a good sign, she is showering less already. But the whole room was quiet, the food not even touched as always.
An envelope on the: "Shawn" he started to shake, what the hell….. he was afraid to open this envelope, but he did it anyway.
"Hi Shawn,
I know that you right now may be angry with me, can't blame you. But it's time that at least one of us can get happy again and this will be you. I am setting you free again. Free to find a girl you really can get happy with. A girl that loves you as much as you deserve it. I am not this girl anymore, maybe never was, otherwise nothing of this would have happened. But I am not able to turture you in eternity and make you lay beside someone as dirty as me, I can't blame you that you don't want to touch me anymore, who could?
Go out there, because you will not find the love of your life if you just jump between hotel and arena. You need to go out and live your life again. As I would always remind you that someone else has touched me, although it was my fault, I will be far away by the time you read this letter.
Promise me to go out and live again instead of searching after me.
Love always
Paige"
Shawn was sitting on the edge of the bed, weeping like a baby.
"Paige you are the love of my life. You are the only one who makes me really happy."
"Mark, I need your help."
"Shawn what's wrong, what happened, is she ok?"
"She is gone."
"Oh shit…. I will activate the guys."
Shawn got down to the lobby, still silently crying. I will find you and I will bring you back home, honey.
"Did she leave an address?"
"Yes but I can't…"
"You will give me the address she left." Shawn's voice got suddenly vicious.
"Hunter? Are you at the airport?"
"Yes, I am. What do I need to look for?"
"Flight to Edinburgh, around 5 pm."
"Shawn….. there is a flight…."
"Hunter c'mon talk, for Christ's sake I don't have time for this."
"Yes you have….. the flight 10 min ago."
"No…."