„Touch"
I don't owe Harry Potter fiction that belongs to J. and ,,14 years" that belongs to Guns n' Roses.
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Chapter 1
I try and feel the sunshine
You bring the rain
You try and hold me down
With your complaints
You cry and moan and complain
You whine an tear
Up to my neck in sorrow
The touch you bring
You just don't step inside to 14 years
So hard to keep my own head, that's what I say
You know, I've been the beggar
I've played the thief
I was the dog, they all tried to beat
Delightful stars above Hogwarts were beautifully embellishing black, silent night sky on Christmas Eve ball, more specifically on Yule Ball – traditional ball in Hogwarts. Most of the people – students, teachers and headmaster – were dancing in the moment in Great Hall, celebrating this unique night with visiting guests. Some of them went outside school, very successfully escaping from loud rock music. But of course it wasn't a reason to went outside for everyone. Some of them went out for other reason, or without a reason. It doesn't matter now. Or maybe it do? Because if it wasn't for this reason, aftermath of this night would never happen. It's important. But who was the one who came out, because it starts to getting messy around walking out? Late,because at eight thirty p.m. a teacher went outside to talk with guest and then make an argument out of it. Argument was about Voldemort, about being loyal to him, about escape and fear of being found, about death and about fear at all. It really doesn't matter what was the reason to talk, and then to make such a big problem out of it, but it is also very important. If you could be there, you could hear crackling and screaming too. But the only one who could hear it consciously was Harry Potter. And he saw these two men. He saw a Durmstrang mentor and… a teacher in black robes, with black greasy hair, with black eyes and ominous look in his eyes. It was Severus Snape. Professor Snape, Potions Master.. It was normal he argued, because he was doing it all the time with Harry Potter, but unusual was his mood. Kind of depressed, kind of exhausted.. And kind of angry, but this was usual, so this didn't bother Harry so much. Then again, why he would care? He just escaped from this place. Karkarow did too, so professor Snape was the only one teacher which remained. He decided to leave this place and go to his room. But something suddenly inhibited him. A word. A voice. A man..
-Severus..
He heard from behind someone calling his name. And he knew who was it. What to do now? Check his theory? Probably the best option for now. But not so easy..
-Severuss...
He heard it again, a hiss. Word was said with melody, a little incentive and a little impatience, with a smell of artifice, colored with emotion, but he didn't know what was it. Anyway, he recognized his voice so easily. It was propery hiss. He heard it, but always to other people, to make them feel worse. Maybe even you know now who could it be, don't you?
-Lucius.
He turned back and saw him standing near big pillar. He was wearing perfect black coat with fur as a collar. It was a little undone, so he could see his scarlet shirt. Malfoy was standing with his walking stick. And his hair… God, they looked like made from platinum… Because they were, they were platinum*. That family can have anything it wants. He was smiling to him, in a way he always do while acting on other people, to make a trick on them, but such an evil trick. And it usually worked. But this wasn't this kind of smile. It was based on other theme and for sure not evil. Well not so evil. Lucius liked putting in nice atmospehre, nice situations some evil theme. Anyway, it looked like he came here for a friendly reason. Was that safe? Maybe… His cold eyes didn't judge him, but also didn't look too much friendly. But very likely it was the way it meant to be – kind of evil and kind of friendly. Because he was cold. Cold like his eyes. So he rarely showed other people truly sympathy. But they were friends. Severus summed it that way: He came for a friendly reason, but it is likely he can add here some evil things. Now the question is what for he came?
-It's great to see you, Severus. – Lucius said from the niche, coming out from shadow.
-One another, Malfoy.- He said with calm and typical for him mood.
-You don't know why I am here, do you?
-No. – Snape said disorientated how quick Lucius was- But I assume, I think it can be something with your son.
-Well no, but I assume he is safe, isn't he?
-He is safe. For now, but you know the situation.
-How couldn't I? – It sounded like he was judged by Snape.- This what happens now is… Kind of terrifying.
He calmed down Severus.
-Then, what is the reason for which you came? And I'm not in a hurry, I am just interested in it.
-Good for you..- Lucius said, well he sighed. – Can you leave?
- You ask me? I should ask first headmaster, and anyway, why?
-Can you?
-First tell me the reason why you came..- He said quickly.-… Maybe then I will change my mind..
-Well, then.. It's Christmas. Some people call it „family time", maybe they're right. Anyway, no one should be alone. Especially this time..
-And what? I am not alone. Then again, I don't celebrate Christmas. I observe Yule Ball ,because of headmaster's will.
-You easily hide it, don't you?
-Hide what?
-Loneliness. –He smiled with triumph.- I came here because I think you really need some better activity, better thing to do.
-What do you mean by saying this? You have any idea?
-Oh yeah. I have. So much better.
-What is it, then? Maybe you will change my mind fully successive, because you're starting to.
-Therefore, I am inviting you to my mansion to spend evening with me.
-When?
-Tonight.
Finally something great will happen in Severus' life. Finally some great time, great people, nice meeting. Because an answer is of course positive. Then again he always enjoyed his presence. Every time.
-I accept invite very willingly, Lucius.
-Great. So… What now? You should ask Dumbledore first, like you said before. I assume it's important. – Lucius came closer.- I assume, that you are going to do it quickly.
-Why?
-Because he is coming forward us.
Snape looked behind. Malfoy was right, he must ask him, if he don't want to lose this chance for being happier, or just being in better emotional state. But there is still one problem: How headmaster will react if he will see him? If he will know that he is doing it because of someone he is able to kick him out. Or maybe not? Surely not, if Severus made a promise. So he couldn't. But it would be better if he will prevent it.
-Stand behind this pillar, I am not sure what headmaster will say, if he will know that you are here.
Lucius stand behind pillar, like he was told to. Meanwhile Severus went to Dumbledore.
-Headmaster..
-Oh, good evening, Severus. It's a pity you are not inside, but nevermind.. What happened?
Severus didn't think before what he can say. What lie must be told. He decided to use the most hurting pressure point he ever had.
-You know why..
Silent.
-Sorry.. Yes, it's fine. I'm sorry. As a friend, I should recommend you going to cementery.. To Lily..
-Stop it.
-You can go for how much you want, you did great. Don't ask next time.. I will always understand you.
-Thank you…
Dumbledore walk away, Snape came back to Lucius.
-You used her to walk with me? –Lucius whispered shocked- I thought you'd never use it as a reason for your gone..
-This shocked you? Why? And how you know..
-How I couldn'? We are friends, so I know that. But calm down, don't look like that. No one will know.
-You know.
-I don't count, okay? –Severus slowly nodded.- We should teleportate.
Snape put his hand on Malfoy arm to teleportate. And touching him with that reason wasn't even weird
They quickly stood on path that was leading to Malfoy's Manor. They could only see hedge in the both sides of path, which was made from gravel. They couldn't see anything else, because it was foggy. A typical atmosphere in Malfoy's Manor, Snape thought. They walking this way in silent, when Lucius started conversation, what made Severus feel relieved from not doing this.
-It isn't obvious for you what we are going to do, as I assume, so I'm gonna tell you.
-I'm not alarmed.
-I didn't say it. I never said you felt alarmed or afraid of anything.
Again silence.
-So tell me your night plans, if I can call it like that.
-Of course you can. By the way, it's very accurate term for tonight. Night plans.
-Are you going to do something this evening? Something that made you feel so excited while used a term ,,night plans"?
-I have wine. Much more than you ever thought about.
-We are going to get drunk?
-Maybe.. I think it can end like this.
-I feel okay with it. I mean, finally there is a way to escape from all this shit that happens in our lives, because I know your isn't better than mine, am I right?
-We will drink for all lives then. –Lucius agreed- But we can talk if you want.
-You are a kind of person that is very interesting, so yes.
-Is that my advantage?
-Probably. I don't have ones so I don't know what can be taken as a compliment.
-Oh ,really?
Severus just looked at him with serious face.
-So,uh.. I think- I mean, you'd better stay in manor.
-Why?
-I don't know Dumbledore as well as you but probably you should rest. After this fucking tournament. Mhm?
Lucius smiled with that special, evil shine in eye.
-And Narcissa won't be angry or embarrassed when she'll see me?
-But she will come to my bedroom, so she won't see you.
And then they were walking in silent until they've reached a sight of manor's gate. Snape understood what he said, and what Lucius probably was thinking about when he heard it. He said it as he understood he will sleep IN Malfoy's bedroom. And Malfoy probably was thinking that way. So embarrasing.
-So.. How do you like it?- Lucius said when they stood in front of black, iron gate- Do you like it?
-Lucius, I was here so many Times before.- Snape looked disorientated despite interesting shine in his eyes.
-But you never say what do you think about it.
-It's impressing. –Snape said after a while –Not only gate, but Manor too. It's dark, yes, but.. –Snape looked at his friend – it fits your image.
-You think so?
-Yes, I do.
-I hope that the wine will fit your mood, Severus.