Notes : TW : Ok this is the chapter containing the graphic description of sexual assault.
I implore you to be warry of it and to pass it if it's too triggering.

"Oh Sir! you scared me! What are you doing here? Have I forgotten something ?"
She was getting red in the face thinking about how she was dressed, but he didn't say anything, also he was wearing something completely different, like a regular patrol uniform for some reason.

He didn't answer and moved to enter the flat and closed the door behind him.
Vanessa tried to nonchalantly cross her hands on her chest, and said again,
" What is it, Sir? Did something happen? Did Sammy die?" And she started panicking, she was now certain he's just had the call and came straight here to arrest her.
"No no, nothing of the sort," he said very calmly, "I was going through your file again, and I could see you had quite a … wild youth officer."
Vanessa was just blinking like an idiot she thought to herself, and waiting for the other shoe to drop, he continued " I was just thinking I wanted to help you bypass that one little incident on your file, there's no need for a promising young cop like you to have a non-fatal shooting like this on her not so perfect file, don't you agree?"

She couldn't understand, she felt like she was losing her footing in a bottomless pool, what was he saying?
" What are you saying? Are you gonna make it go away? How?"
" You want me to make it go away?"
" No, I didn't say that, I thought you were implying it didn't have to stick, I'm sorry, I just don't understand."
Without realizing it, she was now recoiling from him, while he was very slowly walking towards her.
"What I mean, and I think you have understood it too, is that I can make this go away very easily if you cooperate."
"Cooperate, what do you mean, I already gave my statement, I told you everything I can remember, you can call my Sergeant or Detective Upton, they were there..."
"Actually I was thinking about an arrangement just between us both, look I know you have thought about it, this is how you people are."
"What are you talking about ?!" now she was getting very distraught, " What do you mean you people? If you think I'm gonna let myself bullied by someone because of my background you got another thing coming. You need to leave, My roommate is gonna be home any minute now, you should leave".
She was really panicking now, what was happening? What was he proposing her? Threatening to terminate her here and now? Did she miss something? She was glancing at the door certain she was going to see Hailey coming through the threshold any minute now.

Tapper now started to seriously move onto her, she sensed it more than she saw it, and with the rest of the adrenaline still in her body she focused on her natural stealthy self to try to reach her gun safe... just in case.
"I know that you know, stop playing coy with me, just looking at your file, how a girl like you, a little hoodrat, has succeeded in never being convicted? Then to make it into our academy? Come on! In my time girls like you were good for being baby mamas to gangbangers, and they would happily go on their knees to avoid a fine or a prison stint... but how times have changed, now everybody has the a shot at coming up in the world... good for nothing scum like you can be Intelligence officer in the same year they start the academy, well I'm giving you a chance at actually sticking your landing."

Vanessa was horrified, she could picture the look on her own face, look that they were both sharing, not for the same reason, but pure disgust nonetheless.

She tried to steady her voice, it wasn't like this was the kind of thing she never heard so she replied very calmly: "I'm sorry you are unhappy with me, but I think you should leave now, please. " She tried to pass him by to open the door, to make him leave? To give herself a chance to flee? To manifest Hailey? She didn't know but she had to try.

But she never got to get there, in a second he had grabbed her right arm and was yanking her back inside.
"I don't think you understand me very well, you and I are going to help you stay in the force. This is what we're gonna do."
Now the panic was settling alright.
"Let go of me, you're hurting me!" she cried, but he didn't let go, he yanked her again, but this time she decided she had enough cause to fight back, she had to defend herself, come what may, but there was zero chance this guy was laying another hand on her.
If anything she wasn't one to submit easily to authority, so far it had caused her more trouble than not, but today this is what she was counting on to save her ass.
She tried to kick him on the thigh to break his stance and free herself from his direct vicinity, only obsessing about reaching her gun now.
But he easily avoided that kick.
"You rookies always think real life fights are like them little fighting classes at the academy?" He said imitating a baby voice, "You're pathetic. In real life when you're that tiny you don't fight off people twice your size, this is why you should always have your gun bitch".
And with this, he lunged at her, but she saw him coming and moved out of the way, even if he was still holding onto her, he lost balance, and had to use both his hands to cushion his fall.
She didn't wait for him to get back up and jumped behind him, reached the safe and entered the 5 digits to collect her gun, and just as she was going to grab it, she felt his hand locking around her ankle, pulling her hard and making her scream as she fell.
They struggled on the floor as he pulled her to him, she starts to kick him in the face and tries to make him lose his grip on her, but he was holds onto her with all his strengh.
She didn't want to scream because she needed to focus, if she starts screaming then it means she is losing control, and she hasn't, not yet and this wasn't her first rodeo.
Boys have tried to pull this shit on her since she was a hardly a teenager, and he said he had read her file, he should know that you don't break kids... girls who grew up in the system so easily, they've been everyone's go-to targets since they were just little kids, they can fend off wannabe molesters for breakfast.

So that's what she does, she tries to think and to really load each of her hits with maximum force and intention.
She starts wiggling very hard so he loses his grip on her, and eventually he does, she bolts so quickly he doesn't have time to react.

" You bitch, you're making me work for it huh ?" He spat between his teeth, "But don't worry I have all night."
To throw him off she tries this time to go for the kitchen, there are knives there, she doesn't care now if he dies, he dies, she is not gonna take it.

As she gleefully grabs the first knife she can access, he hits her on her back, knocking the wind out of her, she falls on the counter which finishes to cut all respiratory function out of her for a second, she concentrates everything she has on not losing the knife; she doesn't let her lack of oxygen take over her, and as she prepares to turn and strike, he grabs her hair with one hand and her left arm with the other and pulls with so much force that she finally lets out a cry.
Still, she doesn't let go. She can feel him getting more and more violent, each movement is more loaded, she tries to bite his arm but he pulls her from it, let go of her hair and grab her on a chokehold while he slams her left arm against the kitchen counter, she cries out a guttural scream of pure pain and let go of the knife.
Now firmly holding her from behind he binds her whole torso with both his arms and whisper to her ear " You fought bravely little soldier, but this is not the streets, and I'm not your local dealer" With that he humps into her back and she can now feel what she was too terrified to think about, his erection on the small of her back.
She lets out a whimper and says " Please, you don't have to do this, please please, let me go, my roommate, detective Upton she is coming home soon, she will be here any minute now"
He cuts her off and laughs, "You've been waiting for her for more than an hour now, this is Chicago, you can't expect a cop to make it on time anywhere" he says with a dirty laugh, as if the idea of an emergency happening was a personal blessing to him.

She was about to plead again, but she decides she is a fighter, so she tries to elbow him, she screams, she tries to bite him, to kick him, but she can't, he is far larger and stronger than her, and she is getting tired while he is hardly putting in any effort anymore... she feels like she is bound by a straight jacket.
He starts carressing her breast over her top and she fights tears in her voice and try to find better agruments to make him let her go.

He finally turns her to face him and without missing a beat he backhands her in the face and says "You are going to shut your damn mouth girl" with that he holds her jaw between his hands and tries to kiss her, but now that they're facing, she has a better fighting chance, so she lets him get closer and tries to knee him in the balls, but before she can land her kick, he let himself fall onto her and there's nothing she can do about that. She falls hard on the tiles and can only see darkness for a few seconds.
Now that they are on the floor her panic hits unprecedented heights, you can never let someone on top of you on the floor, she thought to herself, chances to save yourself from fatal assault become very small.

She fights full-blown terror, she tries to scream but this time he covers her mouth with one hand and he shreds her top with the other one.
Her body jolts as she tries to move from under him, but he is so heavy, she hits him however she can, both her hands are free for a second, she tries to push him away from her, but he doesn't let her, he keeps one hand on her mouth and tries to unzip his pants with his left arm, he looks at her with crude hunger in her eyes, just that look makes her jump out of her own skin, out of her own mind, she doesn't want to see it.
She doesn't want to be here, she is so tired, she starts to pray, for something, anything, she doesn't even realize she is now crying like a baby, she still tries to think about things to tell him so he'd let her go.
But he doesn't stop for one second, his hands trying to get her legs open as she still refuses to brace herself for what's to come even if she doesn't know how to save herself now.
She can now feel it against her thigh, as he is maneuvering to try to penetrate her, he let go of her mouth for a few seconds and uses one hand to restrain her arms, and the other to drive his penis into her; she screams like there's no tomorrow, she has no idea what she is saying, she is just screaming for someone to hear her.
He pushes against her more forcefully and tries to hit her head against the floor so she is less combattant, but she keeps on fighting back and screaming no.
And then her voice breaks mid-scream, after a couple of missed attempts, it's in her.
The sheer brutality of the penetration knocks the wind out of her, she can't produce a single sound.
Then he thrusts in her again, and again and again, each time breaking into her more forcefully than the time before.
She doesn't know how to stop it, any of it, the pain is like nothing she has ever felt in her life.
It doesn't stop, he just keeps on pushing onto her with all his weight, and she hopes he would just stop heaving like a pig, his sounds makes her want to shoot herself.
Her whole body is under assault, it feels like she is gonna explode like in a horror movie, she doesn't even realize he is no longer holding onto her arms anymore, he just pushes against her torso, touching her breast and continuing his in-and-out motion making her sick.
She needs to check out, it's something she knows to do, she doesn't have to be there for the whole of it, just close your eyes so you can't remember, just think about anything else and don't remember...

After what feels like a lifetime and a day she feels him retracting himself, she can't think, she can't move... at least her mind thinks that she can't, but as soon as he is no longer spread on her, her whole body takes over and starts crawling away on the floor to put as much distance as she can between their two bodies.

She can hear him making some noises, wiping and zipping, but she can't look over to him, she just can't, she just wants him gone instantly.
But as in a nightmare, he doesn't just disappear, he comes back to her, looks at her for a second, most of her body is badly bruised and she is half-naked, her hair completely undone and messy are tangled with her destroyed tank top and her shorts brought down her ankles.

He kneels down, she jerks away from him " Please I... Please just go, I'm... I'm Ok..." she mumbles her hands raised in front of her between them so he doesn't get any closer. But he dismisses them like she was nothing, and take her face between his fingers, her whole body is violently shaking, and she tries with all her might not to look at him, but he makes her: "See there was no reason to put on a show, we both got what we wanted, now be a good girl go take a shower and sleep your day off, you look like shit" he let go off the face and add "Looks like you really went through it, good thing this is all over now", he takes his time to gather himself and slowly walks towards the front door and tells her " I'm sure I don't actually have to tell you that there is no need for you to go tell this to anybody right? As you must know by now, girls like you... don't stand a chance against men like me", he opens the door and continues," You should really keep that gun of yours in a place easier to access ".
With that, he is out of the door, and a few seconds later she hears a car leaving, this is when she breaks into a hysterical sobbing spell.