Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN JANE THE VIRGIN OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS!
A/n: Okay season 5 of JTV stabbed me in the heart. My hope for Jane and Michael to be end game was destroyed so this is a re-write of the whole season 5. Honestly I would have been okay with 'Jafael' if they didn't bring Michael back and literally trash his character and his love for Jane...what a cop out. I only watched the episodes Michael were apart of and have no desire to finish the series ever.
Please if you are a Rafael stan don't hate this story. I won't regress his character in this story. However his character 'flaws' were written by the writers of JTV and will be mentioned/used in the first few chapters but he will have an arc too.
THANK YOU!
I'm holding onto memories of you while you are erasing me from your life.
Narrator: The last time we saw our Jane, she was locking lips with husband who has come back from the dead. Except the only problem is she is dating Rafael now and he is not too happy finding out she kissed Jason. Let's tune in, shall we?
"You kissed him?" Rafael's voice was full of anger and hurt.
Jane knew she had to tell him about what happened last night. She couldn't lie to her boyfriend.
"I'm sorry," Her voice was full of sorrow and regret.
Rafael narrowed his eyes on her, "Do you have feelings for him?" He was being forward with her, because he wouldn't be jerked around not this time.
Jane didn't know how to answer his question, because her heart was conflicted. She loved Michael so deeply and when he died she didn't know how she would be able to live without him. However she got through her grief with the help of Rafael. Jane knew she was in love with him and before this "Jason" mess she was excitedly ready to marry Rafael.
Except now things have changed. Had her love for Michael died when he had died? She didn't know the answer, because she was forced to move on from him. Forced to believe he was never coming back to her and she had to be strong for him. She had to live her life without sorrow because Michael would have wanted her to be happy.
Rafael took his girlfriend's silence as a sign. "I won't be your second choice again," He yelled at her. "So you better figure out how you feel and fast, because I won't be waiting for you this time around." His words were cold as ice.
Jane's eyes swelled up with tears as she quickly realized Rafael was serious. She didn't ever mean for him to cause him pain.
"I never meant for you to feel like you were my second choice," Jane snapped. "But I am not responsible for how you feel Raf…" She paused for a second. "So if you want to break up with me, because I can't figure my feelings for my husband who has come back from the dead then fine!" Jane held her head as she walked out of the apartment they shared together, but she wasn't going to look back.
He didn't chase after her. She never expected him to be the one chasing her. She had always been the one to chase him after their fights. She was the one who had always said, 'I'm sorry' first, because his pride was too strong. She was the one who took all the blame whenever he went down a 'dark' path, because he would tell her it was her fault for his actions. If she didn't say the right thing at the right moment there would be consequences.
It was exhausting always being the 'bad guy' and having to walk on egg shells. For a little bit he was taking responsibilities for his own actions, but like always it didn't last long. He would never forgive her for choosing Michael over him. She finally realized this now.
If her and Rafael were to ever work out, he would have to truly work on himself before they got back together. She isn't going to put up with his behavior anymore. Her plate was full enough she didn't need to add his problems to her own.
Jane found herself at the Marbella again. The lobby had a few people mingling around. The parrot mascot was taking pictures with someone's children. Jane smiled at the young kids as she walked past them to the elevators. She glanced at her wrist watch, she still had time to kill before she had to pick up Mateo from school.
The elevator door opened and to her surprise he was standing in front of her with bags in hand.
"My wife," His voice drawled slowly, but there was some sarcasm behind it. "Just the person I was looking for,"
"Oh really?" Her eyebrow arched up in suspicion. "Because it looks like you are trying to skip town without saying goodbye to your wife." She prayed her sarcastic tone covered up the hurt buried deep down.
The elevator door was about to close when he wedged his foot between the doors sliding shut. Jane wasn't ready for what he did next. His hands reached out and pulled her into the lift with him. She let out a small screech when he grabbed her. Before she could try and walk out, he had pushed all the buttons and the door closed for good this time.
"What the hell?" She seethed at him.
He grinned at her. "Just trying to give us some time wifey," His blue eyes grew dark.
Jane suddenly realized how close their bodies were to each other. He was wearing a simple white t-shirt and blue jeans but he looked good in them. Her eyes gazed up to meet his and she searched for any sign of Michael in them.
"Your hot," His voice was deep and full of hunger.
His face was leaning in and she knew she had to say something to stop it from getting out of hand.
"Rafael and I broke up," She found herself telling him, and she wasn't sure if she wanted him to know because she wanted him to kiss her or if she wanted to see if he was like her Michael.
He smiled at her before his lips descended onto her's. He pulled her closer to him as the kiss deepened. Jane found herself again getting lost in his touch. She wrapped her arms around his neck to help steady herself.
Every once and awhile the elevator doors would open before shutting again. Neither of them cared about getting caught they were too entangled with one of another to give a damn about a stranger catching them making out in a lift.
When she kissed him it was if had traveled back in time to the day before he was taken away from her. His lips tasted the same as she had remembered and his kisses still left her breathless.
When they reached the top floor he finally pulled away. Jane gazed his eyes with a big smile on her face. He had to feel something for her if he kissed her that way, right? Maybe she could help him regain his memories and then maybe just maybe he would be her's again.
"That doesn't change anything," His voice was cold. "I still want a divorce." But it was his words that hurt her the most.
Jason reached opened one of his brown bags and pulled out some papers. He had them over to her and then he walked out of the elevator and down the hallway.
Jane looked at the papers in her hands, they were divorce papers. He didn't want her. He was only playing on her weakened state of mind. Her back was against the wall of the elevator and she slowly slid to the floor sobbing.
She lost her husband and her boyfriend all in the span on thirty minutes. Life didn't seem fair right now. Jane thought she was a good person, but now maybe God was telling her, she wasn't. Maybe she had been selfish. Maybe she expected too much from Rafael. Maybe she should have let Michael go the moment he walked back into her life, because then maybe she wouldn't be feeling this unbearable pain right now. It didn't matter how things would turn out, because she would get burned in the end.
Jane pulled herself together as she dusted off her yellow sundress and hurried off to pick up her son. The only "man" she needed her life right now was her little boy. Maybe it was time to focus on being the best mom for Mateo by putting him first before anyone else.
When she arrived at his school, Mateo stood outside the brick building on the sidewalk waiting for her. His face light up when he saw her walking towards him and he meet her halfway. His small arms wrapped around her legs as he hugged her tightly. Jane wouldn't tell him, but she needed this. She needed his comfort.
"How was school?" She asked him as she bent down and picked him up.
"It was good," Mateo beamed. "My teacher said I was a good listener today so I got a sticker," He pointed down to this maroon t-shirt to where the star sticker was.
Jane smiled relieved her son had a good day. It seemed like he was doing better in school than he was before. She didn't know if it was because he was happy they were a "family" or if her "talks"were finally sinking in. She gulped as she thought of having to tell him about the breakup.
Mateo deserved to know what was going on, because his world was about to change. Jane knew kids thrive in routines and any changes can cause them to lash out, but she was praying he would understand.
"Where's Dad?" He asked innocently after they had rounded the corner outside of school.
Normally Rafael would help pick him up from school and drive them back to their apartment before going back to work, but now everything was about to change.
"I'm not sure where he is," Jane told him the truth, because she refused to lie to her son. She wouldn't let him lie to her, so why should she be able to be untruthful to him? It wouldn't be right. "But he loves you so much, Mr. Sweet Face." She reassured him no matter what his Dad loves him forever and always.
Mateo could feel something was wrong, but he didn't want to upset her anymore. He truly felt sorry for all the times he acted out and took his anger out on her, because it wasn't fair. She never deserved to be treated that way. He didn't know that back then, but now he knows no matter what happens she is not to blame. Even if his dad would try to say otherwise, he would no longer be swayed because he has seen the effect it has on her.
"I love you Mommy," Mateo said sweetly and gave her a peck on the cheek.
"I love you too, baby" Jane said with a big smile on her face. Right now all she needs is her son's love.
Narrator: Jane feels complete right now, but sooner rather than later she has to make a decision. A decision which will change the course of her life forever…
Jane's arms felt like they were ready to fall off when she finally arrived home with Mateo. She had carried him home all the way from his school which was five miles away. Luckily for her Alba was more than ready to take over with watching Mateo and Jane was grateful for her support. She needed rest after the long walk back home. She also needed time to think everything over.
As she laid down on the brown couch she contemplated over what she should do. Should she call Rafael? Would he even want to hear from her? He had only sent her a text to make sure Mateo was taken care of and once he knew their son was in good hands he didn't send anymore messages.
Jason? Well, he had made it clear to her this afternoon he didn't want her. She knew he was waiting for her to sign the divorce papers so he could go back to Montana and move on with his life. She sat up on the couch and grabbed her phone off the coffee table. She knew who she had to call. The only person who would give her honesty.
"Hello Jane," Petra said in annoyance. "Um listen I am busy and don't have time for your problems…"
Jane interrupted, "Petra please," She begged for the blond woman to stay on the line. "I really need your advice."
There was a long pause before Petra said, "I don't know why you always need to complicate things," Her voice sounded frustrated. "But how I see things is Rafael wants to marry you and Jason…" She paused for a second. "He wants you out of his life so I see this is your opportunity to be with Raf without feeling guilty about moving on from Michael,"
Jane sighed, "But don't you think I owe it to Michael to help him get his memories back?"
"No," Petra said firmly. "I don't believe you owe anything to either of them, but I do think you should figure out what you want and fast…" She paused again. "Because I need to know if I will have to deal with Rafael's moodiness for more than a day." She snapped.
Before Jane could say anything more Petra hung up on her. Jane was taken back a little bit, but she wasn't surprised Petra sided with Raf. Especially given their history, she knew Petra was protective over him. Sometimes Jane wondered if Petra still had feelings for him, but she was never bold enough to ask her.
Her plan had backfired, because Petra's advice didn't help her. She was back to square one. She needed to listen to her heart and stick with her guts. She knew what her gut was telling her to do and she knew it wouldn't be easy.
Alba was still gone with Mateo and Jane took this as her opportunity to clean out his things. She wasn't ready for this to be over, but sometimes you won't be ready for life's changes. Jane pulled out his things and began to pack them neatly into brown boxes.
Narrator: Ah yes sometimes the best goodbyes are the one's you aren't ready for.
She found herself on the other-side of the door again. Her right hand was shaking when she raised it up and knocked gently on the wooden door. The boxes were on both sides of her, his belongings were neatly packed inside of them.
The door opened and Jane took a sharp intake of breath before he was fully in her view.
"Are you here to finish what we started in the elevator?" Jason teased her as soon as he saw her standing outside of his door.
"No," She said concrete, because she wouldn't let him play with her emotions anymore. "Actually I am here to give you this," She told him as her right hand reached into her purse and pulled out the white papers.
His hand reached out and took the papers from her hands. "You um signed them," He sounded surprised, but Jane refused to fooled again.
"You wanted this," She reminded him. "So I'm setting you free, Jason."
His blue eyes shifted from the papers in his hands to lock onto her rich chocolate colored eyes with confusion. He didn't think she would ever give up hope on getting her Michael back, but she has. "What are the boxes?" He asked trying to cover up his hurt. He shouldn't feel heartbroken, but a faint voice inside his head was telling him, "Don't let her go," maybe he had made a mistake.
"All of Michael's belongings are packed in these boxes," Jane explained to him. "I know you don't want be him, but I felt it wasn't right for me to keep his things anymore," She looked down on the ground unable to look into those familiar ocean eyes anymore. "You can do whatever you want with them, but I just can't…"
Her voice quivered and it was like someone had punched him directly in the gut. She had a hold on him and he didn't know why, but he wouldn't ever tell her. He needed to get back to Montana and fast, because if he stays here any longer than he will never be able to leave.
"Thank you," He broke the silence. She looked up at him finally. "I'm sorry for stringing you along, but I got a girl back home and I love her-"
Jane interrupted him, "I get it Jason," She said hastily because she wanted this to be over with. "You have your own life and I'm sorry for not acknowledging your feelings in all of this," She paused for a moment and stared into his eye's for one last time. "Goodbye Jason," She said finally.
"Goodbye Jane," His voice sounded brokenhearted, but she disregarded it because she knew she had to set him free.
Jane turned around and held her head high as she walked away from the stranger that had replaced her, Michael. Deep down she knew he would never be the man she married. It has been four years and if his memory hasn't come back by now then it probably never will.
She had to accept Jason and his wants and needs above her own, because he deserved to be happy.
Narrator: Oh no! Jane let him go, but Jason seems to have changed his mind…
Jason stood there speechless after she had walked away from him. He should be over the moon, because he was finally free to be with Charlie but he didn't feel elated. No, he felt as if his heart was shattered into millions of pieces. He pulled his phone out from his back pocket and called her.
"Hello?" She sounded tired.
"Hey um sorry did I wake you?" He said kindly.
"Yeah but it's okay," She said warmly. "Are you finally coming home?"
His heart tugged when she asked the question he was regretting. "No," He lied to her. "Um this is taking longer than I thought it would."
"Oh okay," She said sadly.
"I have to go Charlie," The guilt was starting to eat at him and he knew he had to hang up now before his mouth would say something that would get him into trouble.
"I love you babe," Her voice was gentle.
"Love you too," He said quickly and hung up his phone.
He looked down at the papers in his hands before he walked back into the hotel room and threw them into the trash bin. After he threw the papers away, he walked back to the door and picked up the boxes she had left behind. He didn't know why he was suddenly curious about "Michael" but he had a feeling it had something to do with her.
Narrator: Oh my! Is Jason developing feelings for our Jane? What will happen next? Only time will tell.
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I have decided to put the narrator's voice in bold to easily separate it from the rest of the story.
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