Jade's POV
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I can't believe I'd hit Vega in the face with the damn slinky! I mean, yah, I had meant to let it go to go back and hit her. NOT IN THE FACE THOUGH, and CERTAINLY not hard enough to make her bleed!
I closed my eyes, pinching the bridge of my nose as I waited for the nurse to fix Vega up. I waited until I noticed the nurse leave Vega's bed, pushing myself off of the wall I'd been leaning against and sauntering over to her. As I approach I freeze and tense up, seeing the large patch of gauze and bandages wrapped around her head to keep the gauze against the younger girl's wound. A would I'd inflicted upon her. Any other time I'd be more than thrilled that I'd caused anyone or anything harm, but for some reason, seeing the timid girl in front of me in pain because of my actions sent a wave of guilt and anger through me that I didn't understand. Before I could even try to sort through the foreign emotions, I registered that Vega was speaking to me.
"Hey Jade...? Why are you angry...?" Vega asked, her curious brown eyes studying me with an overwhelming amount of interest. The warmth beneath the eyes surprised me and caused me to tense up because NOBODY looked at me with anything other than fear besides Beck, so I did the thing I do best, I lashed out.
"I'm angry at your own stupidity of getting hit in the face with a slinky of all things Vega." I sneer as I tentatively eye the now covered wound on her face. I prayed that Vega couldn't see through my acting, but with my skills I highly doubted she did.
"Sorry... but you shouldn't have just let go of it so suddenly!" She complained a bit, her cheeks puffing out a bit as she practically pouted at me.
"Well if you'd been paying any attention you would've realized I was going to let go Vega!" I hissed out her last name, giving her a blood chilling glare that caused her to clam up- the smaller girl just staring at the me as I stare her down.
It seems I'd gotten my point across as the younger girl finally drew her gaze away from me, instead looking down at her lap instead, messing with her fingers which caused me to feel a bit guilty again. I growled at the unwelcome emotion because I didn't feel guilty about anything I did! It's not any different with Vega!
I let out a growl which causes Vega to flinch away which honestly angers me even more. I draw my fingers through my hair and decide I need to leave before I hurt the clearly fragile girl in front of me even more.
"Look Vega. Just stay here for the rest of the day. I'm gonna go back to class." I say bluntly, watching as the girl's face switches between confusion to then panic which wasn't what I was expecting.
"But! It's my first day! I need to finish and introduce myself to my teachers Jade! I can't not go back to class lemme just-" she tries to stand up, only to nearly fall flat on her face as her legs wobbly give out from underneath her, leaving me to save her from a face first impact on the floor. I manage to grab and hoist her back onto the bed as she flushes bright red like she did when I'd caught her staring at me earlier.
"You were saying jello legs?" I instinctively tease the smaller girl, smirking with pride as her face turns impossibly more red.
"How was I supposed to know that my legs would give out!" Vega whines at me, refusing to look me eye in the eye anymore. I'm smirking down at the smaller girl, not really understanding how she made me feel all these different emotions I'd buried long ago. She'd managed to dig out emotions I only felt with Beck and even then it was sparingly with many of them.
It was looking down at the shaky legged girl on the bed that was currently having an internal debate that I realized this girl was going to be a part of my life somehow whether I wanted her to be or not. I just needed to decide if I want to make her life a living hell, or allow her to join the ring of my odd group of kinda friends.
She'd managed to befriend my entire friend group in less than a school day, and not only that, but she'd managed to stand talking to me even after she had a anxiety attack which I was still beyond curious about and couldn't help thinking back to...
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I nearly growled as I noticed Vega approaching the table, the unwelcome guest clearly not noticing the daggers I was shooting at her as she sat down next to Cat. I suddenly felt someone lightly elbow me in the side which tore me from the death glare I was giving the weird Vega girl, and was met with a confused looking Beck.
"Why the death glare at Tori, Jade?"
"Because why is she sitting here?"
"Because she's new and she's pretty cool, I mean she let me borrow a pencil in math class."
"I don't really give a damn. I don't want her sitting here."
"Babe- come on- you're being irrational about this!"
"I don't give a FUCK Beck! I don't want this bitch sitting here!"I snarled at him, causing him to let out his usual sigh which only angered me further. I didn't want new, let alone new in the form of the weird girl who was staring at my locker this morning! Why didn't Beck understand that! We kept arguing for a minute or two until I noticed Vega out of the corner of my eye. She looked like a deer in headlights, and then Andre tried to touch her and she whipped around with such force to hit him, but he'd luckily pulled back.
By now I'd stopped yelling at Beck and Beck had stopped yelling at me, both of us watching Vega sheepishly, but I was noticing signs. Signs of a anxiety attack. She was curling in on herself, lashing out, struggling to breath. I was about to say something when she suddenly stood up and stuttered out something barely coherent before stumbling through the lunch area.
I immediately knew she had no idea where the clinic was, and I also knew I was the cause of her oncoming panic attack which I knew from person experience aren't fun and can be dangerous if she can't get a handle on it. So before anyone could even say anything I stood up and took off after Vega, weaving through the crowd of people as the weird sense of responsibility rushed through me.
I eventually found her against a wall of the school where nobody else was which immediately made me want to yell at the smaller girl because she should know better than to go somewhere there aren't any people at all when having an anxiety attack because she could pass out and hurt herself and nobody would know.
I could tell she was panicking because her breathing was getting worse and worse, so I finally stepped in when she started struggling to keep her eyes open. I knelt down in front of her, using the softest voice I could to help ground her.
"Listen to the sound of my voice- can you hear me Vega?" I said as softly as possible, looking for any sign of comprehension to know the younger girl had heard me. She nodded a bit a moment later, still gasping for air, and I knew I needed to get her breathing under control or else she'd pass out.
"Okay, good- keep listening to my voice, okay? Breathe in... 1... 2... 3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10... and out." Vega hesitated for a few moments before following my words, slowly evening out her breathing which made me softly smile considering I wasn't even sure I'd be able to help the girl at all. Once Vega got her breathing under control she opened her eyes and I noticed how she almost violently flinched away, curling into a ball which sent a pang of guilt through my heart that I hadn't been expecting. I had a strange urge to reach out and touch her, to let her know I wasn't here to hurt her, but I felt it would be highly unwelcome and inappropriate to do so at the moment, not to mention a strange urge that suddenly occurred.
"Vega? I'm not- I'm not here to hurt you... I swear..." I state guiltily to the terrified girl who didn't respond at all, just kept staring at me, remaining curled in a ball.
I let my eyes sweep over the terrified, shell of a girl in front of me, letting out a defeated sigh as I sit down in front of her, threading my hand through my hair.
"Look... I can be a bitch- I don't like new. Which means I don't like you. Plus I have an image to uphold as the badass bitch of the school, so no- I'm not going to be nice to you Vega. But like- don't take anything I say to or about you personally..." I slowly explained to Vega, which only confused me further. Why was I telling Vega this? What do I mean I don't mean it? My brain and mouth were working separately at this point.
"Why did you follow me then?" Vega asked, which made me scowl, huffing a bit.
"Because I was the only person who realized you were having an anxiety attack, and I knew you didn't know where the clinic was, so I guess I didn't really want to be the reason you were found passed out on sidewalk somewhere..." I mumbled my explanation, refusing to look at her. My reactions and words towards Vega were confusing me and starting to overwhelm me, so I briskly stood up and glared down at the brunette.
"Look Vega. We're not buddy buddy now and this never happened. You tell a soul and I'll make your life here an actual living hell, got it?" I growled out at her, letting out an annoyed groan as I hear the bell ring in the distance.
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"Jade? Am I bleeding again? You've been looking at me for awhile now..." I heard Vega say, making my ghostly pale face flush a light pink with embarrassment, not realizing how sucked up in my head I'd become.
"What? No, you're not bleeding anymore, unfortunately. You definitely can't come back to class though, you can't even walk Vega." I grunt at her, finally letting go of her shoulder, crossing my arms as I stare sternly at the small girl who clearly thought twice about arguing with me once I gave her the glare.
"Can't you just like- help me walk back? I already feel a lot better, and I need my stuff and I'm sure you're not gonna go get it for me." Vega huffs at me, making me smirk since she was right, I definitely wouldn't go get her shit for her.
"You're damn right I'm not gonna go fetch your shit like a dog Vega." I scoff at her, crossing my arms as I back up to let her try and show me she could walk. I watch with amusement as she stands up on her own, her face scrunched up in concentration with her tongue sticking out a little which is honestly kind of adorable.
Adorable?
What?
I shove the unwelcome thought from my head as she smiles triumphantly at me as she walks around. I roll my eyes and open the clinic door, giving a little nod of my head.
"Seems you can walk again, so let's go Vega."
She nodded and walked through the door, lifting a hand up to lightly touch where her bandage is, causing her to wince and making me snort at her reaction. She turned and glared at me as I led us back towards the classroom.
"Why'd you snort?" She huffs at me, doing her best to glare at me, but it mostly came off as her squinting. Which makes me snicker, flipping my hair over my shoulder as I raise an eyebrow.
"I was just enjoying your reaction to the pain, I mean what did you think touching the bandage would do?" I reply, narrowing my eyes into a much more convincing glare than hers was.
"And I don't snort Vega, you must have misheard." I deny the involuntary sound that'd come out of me moments earlier because Jade West doesn't snort. I cackle, snicker, and maybe once in awhile I laugh if Beck is around but I most certainly don't snort.
Vega raised an eyebrow at me that I immediately wanted to shave off with a razor, the thought of which made me smirk. I almost walked past the classroom door as I was too absorbed in my thoughts of a one eyebrowed Vega, but luckily I caught a glimpse of the room number out of the corner of my eye.
Most the students were already back inside the classroom having completed the lab and were now working on post-lab questions, so when we reentered the classroom nearly everyone looked up to see who it was. As soon as they did I noticed how Vega tensed behind me, and I felt inclined to repay the girl somehow since I'd unintentionally injured her, so I shot death glares towards the kids in the class which sent them immediately back to their work. I felt Vega let out a shaky breath of relief from behind me, and felt my chest swell with happiness at being able to help the younger girl relax.
Wait...
Happiness?
But you only feel happy with Beck...?
The whirlwind of emotions that Vega tended to cause me came back in full force after the random thought entered my head. I barely registered that we'd gone back to our seats with about 5 minutes left in class, my head preoccupied with trying to sort out the mess of emotions the girl sitting next to me was causing.
Being emotionless was much easier than it was to feel things and I was amazing at feeling nothing. Beck has been the only person to make me feel anything other than anger for... well forever! Until Vega came along, and now she's changing everything and I don't like change!
I huff to myself, being suddenly shocked from my thoughts as a pair of fingers snaps in front of my face. My eyes trail along the arms of the person to be met with a confused looking Vega.
"Uhhh... the bell rang like 5 minutes ago and you still hadn't moved, so I thought I'd see if you were awake..." the nervous mess of a girl in front of me explained herself, shifting nervously from foot to foot which I watched in amusement. I quite enjoyed making the girl in front of me a nervous mess.
"Didn't hear it, but uh... thanks I guess?" I begrudgingly thank her since if she hadn't made sure I heard I don't know how long I would've been in my head for.
"No problem... guess I'll see you tomorrow...?" She says skittishly, almost like she isn't sure she wants to see me tomorrow which I don't blame her after everything I've caused today, but for some reason, I don't want her to hate me and I always want everyone to hate me.
Nobody is allowed inside my walls except for Beck. I've been with him for 2 years and he still hadn't been allowed past all of them... but as my eyes scan the girl in front of me I realize I want this girl to be apart of my life which shocks and confuses me because I don't need anyone.
Let alone the new girl who has anxiety issues, but I feel inexplicably drawn to the Vega girl, but I'd never let her know that. For now I'll tolerate her in my friend group, maybe she can be the friend Beck keeps telling me I need.
"Yah- you'll be seeing a lot of me Vega. You better prepare yourself." I practically purr out at Vega, the smaller girl's cheeks flushing pink at the innuendo behind my words, making me chuckle as I give her a wink before strutting out towards Beck's car.
Vega better prepare herself because I don't think she knows exactly what she's gotten herself into.