As I was writing my brain was like "Amos singing about Aya", because this is such a " father wanting his daughter to be/do better than he has" kinda song. So, yeah, Version 2 is simply a Contradiction based thing that my brain came up with. This is Amos fearing facing Ayanna after spending January – March at First Nome.
Enjoy!
Inútil
Amos Kane
This isn't happening
Inútil! Useless
Just like when my brother stood before me:
Inútil! Useless
And after that day
I stayed up late
And could only pray for pain
Pray for pain
And on a day
When nothing came
I finally admitted I was lost in my brain
But I couldn't imagine being able to face her and say:
That her father has gone father
Down a road he alone made harder
Right after her cousins lost their father.
So I just told Sadie and Carter
Before going away.
Hoping I have the strength to face her someday.
As I stare at my face,
This foreign reflection is staring at me, useless.
Today we are both home and I am… useless.
Since little she amazes me with
The things she does each day.
She wouldn't be one to escape.
And I can't seem to find a way
To explain all I want to, instead I say:
"I'm proud to be your father
'Cuz you work so much harder
And you are so much smarter
Than I was at your age.
I swear to be next to you every step of the way
Trust me, you'll change the world someday."
I will not be the reason
That my family can't succeed
I will do what it takes
They'll have everything they need
Or all my work, all my life
Everything we've sacrificed will have been
Useless