~Things between Tildes are Gabriel talking over Angel Radio~
-Things between dashes are Castiel using Angel Radio-

5 parts to this chapter instead fo the usual 4.

To Gabriel

My Dad can't walk anymore. Can you make him better?

Desmond

Sorry, I don't do healing right now. But I can give you the name of another angel who might be able to help, though it may take him a while to get to where you are. Pray for Castiel. I will tell him I sent you

~ Hey Castiel, my best young bro. Gonna send you on a healing errand. ~

- What? Gabriel? Why did you tell a child I would heal his father from paralysis? –

~ Because I can't do it myself right now. Trying to save up on my very low rations of Grace ~

- He's in Vermont –

~ Yes, I know where he is. Go and do my job for me, kiddo. ~

- Don't call me kiddo. –

~ But you're my kid brother. I get to call you kiddo. ~

- Fine, I will go to Vermont. If you speak to the Winchesters. –

~ Bad deal, I speak all the time to Sam and reply to some of Dean's whining. ~

- In person, Gabriel. –

~ They come to me, I don't go to them. ~

- They need your help. –

~ No, they want my help because I am easier to deal with for them than Lucifer. But guess what? Lucifer here? He's the better bet. I'm too low of juice to be of much help at all. ~

- They would much prefer you. –

~ Yeah, got that. Too bad for them. Lucifer or bust. ~

- ...I am going to start driving now to Vermont. I will tell them what you said. –

~ Good. Maybe they'll listen when the message comes from you. Good luck bro! ~

You sent Cass to Vermont on an errand to heal some kid's dad from paralysis?

Yep! Can't do it myself and I generally don't ignore kid's that pray to me.

You could have said no to the kid.

Well, then I would give him your number and have you explain why I won't do it.

What do you do when the parent dies and they pray to you?

Explain Heaven to them. And that includes if the kid's parent goes to Hell. Kids want to be supported and given hope, not hear about their parent burning in Hell for all eternity.

...Why is that sweet?

Because I am sweet, Samster.

Haha, well thanks to you I have to suffer through the one being in all reality that I can't forgive or forget. So thanks.

I don't have the Grace, Sam. I can't do it.

Then rest and power back up.

I'm trying.

Then try harder!

...Screw you, Sammy.

Uuuuugh, why do I feel like everything I do right now is wrong?

What happened?

I think I just had a written session of my trauma is greater than yours to one of Luci's victims.

Is it?

...I have no idea what Lucifer did to him. But I do know it was bad. It was still unfair of me.

I think you just got out of your own trauma situation and are still extremely sensitive about it.

Yeah, well, that's true.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Have you tried apologising to the one you were talking to?

...Not yet. I don't think I'd be able to not go into it again right now.

If you need time to calm down first, then take that time.

But I was on good terms with him and now that's ruined and I might not get it back if I wait...

Then you may end up getting into it again.

I know! Like I said, I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Nothing makes sense.

This stupid torture is getting in the way of everything! I don't even know what's worse, it having happened or the way it affects me now it's over.

You'll figure that one out on your own given a little time.

Stop being reasonable! I'm not in the mood for it.

Why am I suddenly so angry?!

You spent years stuck in a situation where you weren't able to get angry and keep yourself safe.

Are you counselling me?

In a way. I can't begin to understand what it is you have gone through, but I can try to help using human means and try to fit them to your situation.

...Please don't confuse Grace for other things. It gets real awkward, real fast.

I have been thinking of it as an angelic form of a soul. It is your being, is it not?

...Sort of? It's hard to explain to people who don't have it. Which would be everything but angels.

Well, and Nephilem.

I thought there were no Nephilem left.

One, his name is Jack. Guess whose kid he is?

Given that message, there is only one angel I can think of and I am now worried for the world.

Nah, don't be. Jack from what I have heard takes after his human mother and is a total sweetheart. Also, he's being raised by humans who have been hurt badly by Lucifer.

He'll see soon enough what his bio dad's really like. They're probably going to meet soon.

You know the strangest people.

Of course. I'm one of them.

Also, that would mean you are strange too.

Maybe I am strange.

Hah! Never be boring that way.

Anyway, I've got to go. I'm feeling calm again now.

Go apologise.

Yeah, I will.

Good luck, Gabriel.

Yeah, thanks! See ya later, Paul.

Hey, sorry about earlier.

Gabe? Sorry for what?

For making you have to use Lucifer. For not being strong enough to help, myself. For kind of maybe yelling at you earlier.

You were yelling? I thought you were upset, not angry.

Yeah, I was. A bit of both actually. But still, I didn't mean to be mean.

Well, I think me and Dean decided to go with Lucifer anyway. Rowena has found his signature and is going to meet him. With a roofie strong enough to work on an archangel.

Ouch.

Well, good luck. And sorry.

Stop apologising. If anyone should be it's me. We keep ignoring what you went through and that's wrong.

...Yeah. Well, I gotta go and lie down. Today is giving me a headache.