He had never found himself in a situation like this before. The girl he thought was impeding on his life was now someone he wanted in his circle. But this welcoming feeling was flooded with guilt. Does he feel bad about what he's done? Why should he? After all she's done to him. Cody found himself brooding over these feelings on his trip back home from Hawaii.
The 25 contestants traveled together back to the original location of where the plane first took off. This would be their last moment together as a group of contestants. Over the course of the long flight back, Sierra was oddly silent and would make a few quick glances at her object of affection every so often. Cody looked back at her; she was bruised, hairless and broken from her unfortunate mishap with Chris' jumbo jet. In that moment Cody had an epiphany, from all the time he spent with her on the plane, he knew nearly nothing about her. Sure, everyone knew she was Total Drama's biggest fan, but anything besides that was still a mystery.
As they landed in Ontario, the teens were met with warm greetings from family members waiting to take them back home. Or at least, most of them were. Cody looked through the crowd and noticed Sierra was alone, sitting in her wheelchair.
He approached her casually and decided to finally speak with her for the first time in hours, "Do you need any help?"
"I knew she wasn't going to show up!" Sierra pouted, looking away from him.
The 'her' she was referring to was noticeably her mother, someone Sierra spent a great deal talking about on the plane. Cody assumed Sierra was close with her mother, as they shared a love for the show, and Chris.
Cody asked, "How are you going to get home then?"
"I can just wheel home in my chair." She joked a bit but still seemed downhearted. Cody couldn't leave her stranded, but dreaded the idea of asking his parents to take her home. They watched the crowd of their friends steadily shrink, making it clearer that no one was there to claim his new-found friend. He wondered for a moment if she planned this so she could get more time with him. It didn't explain her out of character attitude towards the situation. Then he remembered that she wasn't a stalker to him anymore; they were friends and he should try harder to see her as one.
He caved and offered, "I can see if we can give you a ride if you're close by."
"Really?" She piped up. At this point Cody knew he had to commit to his words, there wasn't taking it back anymore. Sierra was asked to wait and that he'd be back shortly.
Sierra's thoughts faded her vision. She couldn't remember if she loved Cody, the person she spent all that time with on the plane, or the idea of him that she created. It took a long time for Cody to realize that she was more than just a fan but she still struggled seeing him as anything but an idol. As she looked over at her friend with his family, it hit her. What did she really know about him? Sure, she had accumulated information about his life but it was all statistical. She didn't know him as a person, just as a figure.
When Cody returned, she cleared her head and waited for the bad news.
"Let's go." He stated as he started wheeling her towards his family's car.
She turned around, shocked and muttered, "What?"
"It's not a big deal. I don't want to leave you stranded here."
Sierra felt the obsessed fan within her attempt to burst out. Cody was doing something nice for her but it meant a lot more for someone who idolized him as much as she did. But she needed to compress it, she doesn't want to hurt her friend as much as she already has.
The two of them packed into the back of the car and Sierra gave out her address as they took off, free from the several weeks spent on the plane. For a few minutes, they sat in silence. Cody felt like he needed to talk with her, about what happened and about the future of their friendship. But this conversation that he was reciting in his head needed to be had without the accompaniment of his parents. Sierra dreaded saying anything simply due to the fact that she was on TV, and her behavior couldn't have gone unnoticed especially to his family.
She broke the silence and pondered, "I wonder what my mom's going to think."
Cody tried to reassure her saying, "It's really not that bad."
Sierra looked at him confused and then chuckled, "You think I'm talking about my hair?"
The two spent the entirety of the ride having casual but meaningless conversation. Sierra found it oddly pleasant as she wasn't used to not talking about Total Drama or her affections, especially with him. The ride felt short for her; she had only just started to build a real friendship with someone she really admired only for it to last one quick car ride. Cody, however, felt that the ride couldn't end sooner. It pained him that he was restricted and he couldn't say what he was thinking at that moment. He felt an overwhelming amount of relief once they pulled into the quiet driveway.
The house was two-story with a clean yard and tall trees covering the back. It was quaint but relatively modest. The most noticeable sight was a young woman and a small child playing in front of the house; a sight that made Sierra quietly sigh. Cody got out of the car and grabbed her suitcase; he walked with her to the door and hesitated at the threshold.
"You can come in." She insisted as she entered deeper into the house. He cautiously stepped in and looked around for only a second until Sierra turned around.
"I need to talk to my mom for a minute," She explained, "If you go upstairs the last door on the left is my room. You can wait in there; it shouldn't take longer than a few minutes."
Cody agreed and slowly made his way up the carpeted stairs. The thought of going into her room was something that never crossed his mind but it was a thought that flooded back old feelings. What kind of crazy things does she keep in her room? Put on the walls? He dreaded the idea of seeing his face plastered all over the room. Just as he felt like he could start over with his former teammate he couldn't erase the behavior she displayed before. The door felt 10 miles high as he walked up to it. He quietly turned the knob and grimaced as he creaked the door open.
The room seemed strangely normal… to him. Other than a poster featuring him with his bandmates and a few magazine cutouts of the show, there wasn't much else in the room that would make you think she was a 'super-fan'. There was a small unmade bed by a square window covered by large drapes. A large fish tank was placed on a shabby dresser and there was a closet with thin metal doors. Cody found the room rather peaceful. As he sat on the edge of the bed, he realized that he'd never really been in a girl's room before, not like this. It was something he'd definitely dreamed of doing but not in this situation, but… hasn't he dreamed of everything he's done with Sierra? She was the first girl he's met that's shown interest in him, she was his first kiss, she did wifely things for him like trim his hair and take care of him when he was sick, she celebrated his birthday and made him a cake. He spurned so much of her affection, affection that he acted like he so desperately wanted prior to their interactions. The more and more Cody thought about it, the more he realized that he couldn't resolve the situation until they were able to have a discussion about it. As he sat on the edge of the bed for a short while, Sierra entered the room looking more distraught than earlier. She sat next to him and fell backwards onto the mattress.
"What's happening?" Cody asked as he pulled her back up.
She shook her head and sighed, "It's just… awful. When I was gone, my mom let my sister move in and now I have to stay with my dad!"
Cody was taken back by the fact that she'd never mentioned her father or having siblings. Family situations can be notoriously sticky and he didn't want to impede on it. Her crying made him uncomfortable but trapped him into staying to comfort her.
"What does that mean for you?"
"I don't know," She whimpered as she wiped her eyes, "I've never lived there before but I'm sure it'll be fine after a while."
In a sudden moment, Cody lost control of his thoughts and reasoning. He pulled her hands away from her face and she widened her eyes to look at him.
He sputtered, "Just come stay at my place for a bit. We have a guest room, I'm sure we can tidy it up a bit for you."
Sierra laughed in disbelief, "Are you insane?"
Cody realized what he just committed to but knew it was far too late to back away, "No, I'm serious. Just grab whatever you need and I'll load it back in the car."
Sierra's face lit up and she profusely thanked him. He left the room and went down the staircase as she started to pack her things. She could feel her face reddening. He was no longer the boy she fell in love with on TV, he was a real friend to her and she found herself liking this feeling better than anything she could find on TV. A conversation happening outside was audible from her bedroom window. It was clear that Cody's parents were disapproving of the gesture he gave. She felt three inches tall as she could hear them talking about her in the driveway. She peaked out the window and saw Cody come back inside. She expected the worst and sluggishly set her bags down. Cody came back into the room and took a bag in each hand.
"Are you ready to go?"
She let out a high-pitched gasp and exclaimed, "Yes… Let me say goodbye really quick!"
Cody put her bags in the trunk and waited for Sierra by the car. As she exited the house, he could tell that she was relieved and grateful. He didn't feel like he was dealing with the same Sierra anymore. It'd been hours since she'd last hugged, kissed, or made any flirtatious gesture towards him, but it was a behavior that he still expected from her. As they got into the car and backed out of the driveway, whatever unknown fate that was slowly approaching was forever sealed.
"We're in for a long trip ahead, aren't we?"
