I don't own Chuck

A/N: Hello! Thank you for checking out this little ficlet. It has been years since I last watched 'Chuck' but inspiration hit me to write a little about Sarah Walker. The setting takes place where Sarah is sitting alone at the beach before Chuck's arrival and battling with her inner thoughts about him.

I fear that there may be some OOC in the characters since I'm going off a little from what I can remember. If that's the case, please let me know.

Enjoy!

There were many factors that could cause memory loss, and in doing so could make anyone feel frustrated. Trying to remember and piece together past events that had happened in life was like a complicated puzzle without the knobs and the holes that helped make that connection. As for Sarah Walker, she could remember some parts of her life but anything further than that, it was all a blur. She refused to believe that she was suffering from that. How else was she able to remember all those self-defense and combat moves if she was suffering from memory loss? Perhaps it was something instinctual that she had been trained in a long time ago, but couldn't remember when and where she had done them. The brain was an intriguing organ to study about, but Sarah felt that it had become one of her greatest enemies.

However, there was one person that came into her mind. That man that claimed to be, if she recalled correctly him saying, her Chuck.

Chuck.

Why did that name sound so familiar to her? She didn't believe that she had ever met him before, but deep down, she felt that she had known him someway or another. Maybe in another life that she couldn't recall, where she didn't feel that she was constantly battling herself in order to remember events that had happened...and faces that were so familiar to her but yet, she couldn't pinpoint where she had seen them before. The man, who claimed to be her Chuck, had not been alone with her but there were two other men with him. Both where she believed she had seen them before, but just like Chuck, it was all a blur.

She thought of the interaction that they shared with one another in that room where she held the gun up to them and held those glasses hostage. He had pleaded to her to stand down with her gun, but her mind had been corrupted some way or another to see this Chuck as a threat. The moment that he touched her arm and gently held onto her waist, there was something that she felt. Just by that gentle touch, she felt some sort of familiarity and it internally frustrated her that she couldn't remember whom this man was.

She had stared into those brown tender eyes of his, though she couldn't tell whether her eyes indicated anything to him, if she remembered him or not. His voice was so gentle just like his eyes and she personally felt that she wouldn't have pistol-whipped him if she hadn't heard Quinn's orders to escape from Chuck and those other two agents.

If she did not remember whom this Chuck was, why was he so unforgettable to her? Why did she feel like she had this deep connection with him where it might have led to something more?

It's not true! her brain was screaming at her. He is your greatest enemy! He is the one that ruined your whole operation!

But he is the one who didn't point his gun at you when you did her heart calmly reminded her. He is the one who approached you calmly and tried to help you remember whom you may have been. He had said 'the Sarah that I know, wouldn't do something like this.' He had spoken to you fondly, touched you tenderly, and there may have been an unexplainable connection between you two...and he is the only one that can help you with that.

Sarah shut her eyes and allowed the calm waves of the ocean and the gentle warmth of the sun to calm her down. She felt that both her brain and her heart were competing against one another and refusing for her to draw her own conclusions about Chuck. Her brain said greatest enemy, whilst her heart said long-lost significant other and her savior in helping her remember whom she really was.

She didn't know if she would ever face him again after what she had done to him, though what she didn't realize was that her future was slowly approaching right behind her. All she needed to do was to just listen.

The End