The title kind of says it all, but I want to explain myself because I need to say my piece and I feel like you should know why I am doing this when I have been preaching that I would finish this story no matter what.

The truth is, I just don't have the drive or the passion to finish this, at least not at the very moment. I think I explained in some prior chapters, maybe even my first one or the Tribute Chapter, but I am no longer really into Steven Universe. It will always hold a special place in my heart and I can still watch it and feel nostalgia. But I no longer watch it, wondering what is happening next, theorizing about plot points and characters. I no longer have that passion for the show, which made me write this fanfiction, to begin with.

When I began writing and planning out this fanfiction, we had no idea that Rose Quartz was Pink Diamond. Frankly, I was a part of the group that thought that it was the worst theory possible and had to take a short break after seeing the episode in which Steven finds out the truth from Pearl. We had never seen White Diamond (maybe only her hand, I can't remember if I had already started this fanfiction when that episode came out), but we had all kind of figured she would mean or cold. But I began writing this fanfiction, because I loved the dark undertone the show had, with shattering being something considered to be worse than death, with the mystery of corruption and how Rose could have shattered Pink Diamond.

This fanfiction began because of a theory video, in which it was theorized that the Gem that poofed Lapis (which we now know was a Bismuth) was a weapon created by Rose and that Steven was one too, combined with my own need for dark stories of betrayal, angst, drama, death and war. And while I still have a need for such dark stories, Steven Universe can no longer be the outlet for such a story from me. At least not right now.

I had so much planned for this story. I had an entire sub-plot that I wanted in it, revolving around Pink Diamond that I think I only briefly teased about in the last chapter. But because of my need to just finish this story as fast as possible, to just get this over and done with, I realised I had to scrab it because incorporating that sub-plot into the story would make it longer, and that made me anxious and annoyed.

All of this has made me realise that what I am doing right now with this story, isn't really healthy. Writing is my passion, and I have always been taught that if you don't feel the passion or drive in what you are writing, then your readers won't feel it either. And I feel, that if I continue to write this with my only thought being to finish it, then what is the point? What is the point of writing something, of finishing something, if I hate what I have made?

Therefore, after talking to a friend about it (her name is Shelia Michaelis on Quotev and she has some really good stories, so go and check them out), I have decided to just leave the story unfinished. Who knows, one day I might decide to pick it back up and finish it the way it was intended to finish it, but that might never happen.

I do want to say, if there is someone who is interested in picking the story up from where I left it, you are welcome to. I will even supply the notes I have for how I had intended the story to continue, for inspiration, if someone wants them. The only thing I want is for me to be credited as an original source of inspiration (as in "this story was inspired by 'It Could Have Been True' by Little S" or something along those lines), and for it to be kept in mind, that there is a small chance of me coming back and finishing this story one day.

To end this, I want to say I am sorry to the people who were actually looking forward to where the story was going and for how I was going to finish it. I know I probably made some people very disappointed in doing this. I made you wait a long time just for this to be rewritten and then made you wait even longer by publishing chapters you had already read. This wasn't how I had planned for this to go and I am sorry that it is ending like this.

Have a nice day and a happy New Year

~Little S