ATS-Changes and Sorrows
Hello everyone! I want to apologize for the long wait, but so much has been going on. Thank yall for your patience. However, I am on spring break this week so when I' not working on homework or going to work I'll be updating. :) Oh, and I just want to add something about Jazz's height: I know in the movies he is short but I am going to make him the same height as Bumblebee, which really isn't that much taller. Just wanted to point that out!
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The ride from the house to the military base was extruciating. The only thing I could do was curl into the smallest ball I could and cry. Sometimes the spasms of pain are so bad I can't help but let out a scream. This causes both my mom and Jazz to flinch at the noise. Since the com links are open Sunstreaker and Sideswipe hear it as well.
Once we reach the base and get on a plane it's still bad, but thankfully the lack of potholes and speedbumps makes it a bit better. Mom rubs my head the entire time and tries to give words of comfort. Unfortunately, the sight of me in pain and in tears causes her to cry as well. I hear everyone try to comfort me, but it does little to assure me.
After a long trip we finally touch down in Diego Garcia. Jazz drives out of the plane as gently as he can but it doesn't help. If I were to describe it I'd say it feels like all my bones are breaking while my insides were so hot it felt like they were melting.
I can't pay attention to anything going on around me so I miss the conversation between Ratchet and Jazz. "Get her to the medical bay now!" Ratchet orders immediately going into doctor mode.
Jazz drives to the med bay with Ratchet and Jolt right behind him. This leaves the other Autbots wondering and worrying about whats going on. "Sunstreaker, Sideswipe what happened?" Optimus asks the now transformed twins.
"She was fine before she fell into recharge. Then before we know it her carrier comes running into the garage telling us Averie was in pain." Sideswipe replies sadly.
Having been informed of her condition already, everyone has a good guess as to what's going on.
"I thought Ratchet said she still had a year before she'd change?" Ironhide asks out of concern for the little feme.
"If you recall that was just an estimate. It appears her time is up." Optimus replies.
"Please don't make it sound like she's going to offline." Chromia pleads.
"I do not wish to alarm anyone, but Ratchet did say that the pain she would experience would put a tremendous amount of strain on her body. If it's too much for her to handle theres a possibility that she may not pull through." Optimus says sadly.
The news hits all the Autobots hard. The fact that this human girl, whose managed to worm her way into their sparks, may not live makes all of them feel very anxious and worried.
The twins particulary are having a hard time swallowing this information. It makes a great deal of effort to get the twins to generally like you, especially Sunstreaker. However, once that friendship is made they are forever protective of you. They will gladley do what they can for you. Before leaving with Averie and Jazz, Optimus had informed all Autobots and a select few humans of her condition. Everyone was shocked at learning she would soon become one of them.
Honestly, most didn't believe it since it's never happened before. After a while everyone started to accept the idea and even came to think of it as good news. They adore the little femme and with her being one of them, she would be guarenteed a longer life. They didn't, however, want her to go through any pain in the process. Now learning that she may not live through it just cuts deep into everyones sparks. Even if they don't believe, all Autobots say a little prayer for Averie; hoping for a miracle.
Once Jazz arrives at the med bay he opens his door, and Ratchet quickly but gently takes her out and places her on one of the berths. Jazz transforms and stands by the berth, watching Averie writh in pain.
"Jazz your going to have to leave." Ratchet orders firmly.
" I ain't leavin'! I'm stayin' here!" Jazz argues.
"That wasn't a request!" Ratchet yells. "Get out or I'm calling Optimus to drag you out!"
"Guess he'll have ta drag me out then." Jazz states.
Ratchet growls at him. " I dont have time for this!" He then contacts Optimus on his com link. "Prime, get down here and get Jazz out. I can't work on Averie with him hovering."
"Understood." Optimus replies. He makes it to the med bay and walks inside with Ironhide behind him and towards Jazz.
Jazz puffs out his armor threatingly and growls, "I ain't leavin Prime! Ya might as well go!"
"Jazz, Ratchet and Jolt cannot work on Averie if you are hovering. You will be of more use to Averie if you wait outside." Optimus says sternly.
Jazz ignores him and goes back to looking at Averie.
Optimus and Ironhide walk up to Jazz, and before he has a chance to react, they pick him up and drag him towards the door.
Jazz kicks and throws punches the whole way, while yelling loudly, "Put me down! I ain't leavin her alone! She needs me! Let go!"
They finally make it out the door, and Ratchet quickly locks it so that not even the Prime can get in. They set down the angry sabatour once the doors are locked. He turns to the pair and yells, "How dare ya! She's in pain an' I need ta help her get t'rou dis! She needs me!"
"Jazz, I understand your worry, but you would do her no good if you are in the way of Ratchet and Jolt trying to save her life. They cannot work if you are underfoot...you are of more use to her if you wait out here." Optimus replies calmly.
"What if she needs me and I ain't dere?" Jazz asks pitifully with worry clearly evident in his voice.
"The only thing she needs at the present time is for Ratchet and Jolt to help her as much as they can. You do want her to get the best possible care don't you?" Optimus asks him.
Jazz lowers his helm to look at the ground and nods. "Yea. I'm just scared."
Optimus places his hand on his shoulder and says, "I understand. All of us are worried for her."
"What are you gonna do if she doesn't make it?" Ironhide asks.
Jazz immediately looks into Ironhides optics and viciously says, "Don't say dat! Nutin is gonna happen ta her!"
"I don't want anything to happen to that little femme anymore that you do, but you know it is a possibility. With the way she's screaming her body may give up on her." Ironhide replies.
"No it won't! She'll pull t'rou dis! I ain't lossin her!" Jazz replies firmly. "...I can't loose her."
Back with Averie~~
Even throughout all the screaming I was aware enough to see Ironhide and Optimus drag Jazz out the door. I also see my mom run out the door after them. I tried to call out for him, but the only thing that leaves my mouth is more screams of pain. I then feel like the bones in my body are breaking and splitting apart so I manage to call out, "Ratchet!"
He's at my side in an instant. "I'm going to fix you. Just hang on for me. Please don't give up on me." He gathers different instruments and bags, none of which make any sense to me. He immediatly starts issuing orders to Jolt, who follows without hesitation.
I try to ask for some kind of pain relief so that I'm not hurting so much, but that doesn't do me much good. Suddenly I feel like my spine cracks and shifts. "AHHHH!" I yell at the top of my lungs at the feeling. It's unlike anything I've ever felt before, and I want nothing more than for it to stop. "AHHHHH! RATCHET MAKE IT STOP! IT HURTS!"
"I know youngling. I'm trying to administer pain reliever, but they don't seem to be absorbing. Your body is rejecting them." He replies worridly while trying to administer more fluids and scan for the damages already done.
"AHHHHHH! JAZZ! JAZZ PLEASE HELP! MAKE IT STOP!" I yell for him. I know it will do no good, but I'm praying for anything to work at this point. Then I feel more and more of my body crack, snap, and break, making me wish I would just die already so that I wouldn't hurt like this.
~~Outside Med Bay~~
Most of the Autobots and some humans stand outside the med bay, listening to Averie scream in pain and feeling helpless to do anything for their friend. The sounds of her screaming becomes too much for them and most disperse, leaving only Jazz, Optimus, the twins, and Ironhide and Chromia.
"How long is this supposed to go on?" Lennox acts worridly for the girl hes come to see as another daughter.
"It is impossible to say. Nothing like this has ever happend before. We are as clueless to this as you." Optimus states.
"Poor kid...do you think she'll pull through?" Epps asks.
"Please don't talk about my baby like that." Sharon asks weakly. She has been crying none stop since they left the house and has sat herself onto the floor by the door as she listens to her daughters screams and wanting nothing more than to run inside and take her babys pain away.
"I'm sorry ma'am." Epps apologizes to her.
'AHHHHH!" A particularly loud yell from Averie causes everyone to flinch.
"FRAG IT!" Sunstreaker yells in anger while punching the wall as hard as he can.
The makes everyone jump, since they were'nt expecting the outburst.
"Why the frag does this have to happen?! Why does she have to go through this? Why isn't Ratchet fixing her?!" Sunstreaker yells.
"Bro, he's doin the best he can. It's not like he has any experiece with this sort of thing. Neither does Jolt for that matter." Sideswipe says trying to allievate some of his brothers anger.
Sunstreaker turns to his twin and exclaims, "That's not good enough! She's been screaming for the last two hours and hasn't stopped! They must not be doing a fraggin thing!"
Sunstreaker!" Optimus yells to get his attention. "Ratchet and Jolt have never had to encounter a situation like this. They are doing the best they can with no knowledge on how this will turn out. The best we can do is hope they can help her, but insulting him will do no good."
"What good is hope if she doesn't pull through! Think realisticly for a change! If she dies thats that. What are we supposed to say to everyone then huh?!" Sunstreaker yells.
Optimus sighs knowing he has a point, but with Averies mother right there he will not give up on her survival. "Averie has proven more than once that she is strong enough to pull through any situation. That is what we must count on; for her to use that strength to live."
Sunstreaker scoffs at that, but remains silent. His behavior is strange for everyone to witness, considering how he is. He must truely care about Averie to be this worried about her.
"Poor darling. I hope she pulls through." Chromia says softly. She and her sisters had grown attached to the little femme during their time on Earth. Ever since Egypt and loosing both her sister Chromia had been feeling depressed. However, she had been keeping in touch with her and had uncounsciously been projecting the feelings for her sisters and placed them upon Averie. Thus, making her become attached to her.
Ironhide places his arm around his sparkmates shoulders and pulls her close while projecting feelings of comfort and love across their bond.
She buries her face into his neck in order to hide the tears that start to flow from her eyes.
During all this Jazz remains silent and has sat himself down on the floor by the door. He knows that if he were to try and say anything it would come out as whimpers. He can practically feel his spark clench in on itself when he hears Averie cry out in pain and knowing theres nothing he can do to help. It's even worse when he can hear her call out for him through the door.
He's thankful for the visor...because it helps hide the tears that are rolling down his face.
~WITH AVERIE~~
Forever...that's how long it feels like I've been screaming for. I've screamed so much that my voice finally gave out, and now the only thing I can do is let out pained whimpers and moans. Ratchet does everything he can to allievate the pain, but it does little good. I can't even bring myself to think of something else because the only thing on my mind is the pain...and I hate it. I feel so weak as well as a prisoner in my own body.
I feel like someone has taken over and the only thing I can do is watch as I slowly feel myself float away. I try to keep myself from drifting off to uncounsciousness, becuase I know that once I do I might not wake back up. As selfish as it would be for me, I can't help but welcome it. Welcome the bliss of feeling nothing and finally escaping this hell.
My mind drifts to my mom and the Autobots and how they would feel if I didn't pull thorough. They would be heart/sparkbroken I'm sure, but my mind betrays me. I hear the sound of shifting and something growing...and it almost sounds metallic. I've gone numb so I can't be sure if its me or not. After hours of feeling my body stretch and grown and my insides break I welcome the darkness that threatens to consume me. My last thought before I fall into uncounsciousness is, "I'm sorry everyone...I tried." Then the only sound left is the sound of the heart moniter giving an ominous long beep.
~~Ratchet POV~~
I hear the sound of the heart monitor giving that identifable sound...the sound of someone offlining. Averie had been continuously growing and changing for the past few hours. It had been a disturbing sight to see. Even without my scanners I could see the bones and muscles under her skin tear, break, and shift. And I could do nothing to help.
I kept her under pain killers but the fever her body underwent burned right through any medicine that I injected her with. Instead of the small human that layed on the berth when she first got here, there is now a tall Cybertronian femme in the standard protoform all start with. Judging by what I see now, she is the same height as Jazz. By my scanners she is almost fully tranformed.
When I hear her spark give out I become frantic in trying to get it to restart. "Jolt, electrify!" I order.
He quickly attaches his electrical whips to her chasis above her spark and on Ratchets count, sends a shock hoping to jump start her spark.
A few tries go by but no change is shown, but by Primus Ratchet isn't going to let her die. "Wake up Averie! Don't you dare give up on us! Come on-come on-COME ON!" He yells as he orders Jolt to up the shocks.
There is still no change and unfortunately Jolt must stop, lest he want to permanately fry her spark. He reluctantly subspaces his whips back and asks, "Should I call it?"
Ratchet sighs as he looks at the femme laying on the berth. He failed to save her. He promised he would and he failed. "Yes. Time of death; 4:36 AM."
Jolt nods and writes it down on a datapad. The pair then disconnect all the wires conectted to her form and clean all the energon and blood that seeped out and soiled the berth and the femmes form.
"What do we tell everyone?" Jolt asks. He may not have been close to Averie like everyone else, but he was still sad that they couldn't save her. Especially since she made it through her transformation.
Ratchet sighs wearily and says, "What we're supposed to; she didn't make it." He then moves to the door, not looking forward to what he has to tell everyone. He opens the door and sees a small group standing there, waiting to hear any news.
Everyone immediately looks to him, feeling very anxious.
Jazz is immediately standing in front of Ratchet and asks, "Ratch? How is she? Is she awake so I can see 'er?"
Ratchet sighs and can feel his resolve crumbling. This was always the hardest part about being a medic, and it never gets easier. "Jazz...I'm afriad she-she didn't make it."
Everyone is silent at his words, almost as if their waiting for him to say shes just resting.
"What? What do ya mean?" Jazz asks hoping he isn't saying what he thinks it is.
"She's offlined. The strain was too much for her to handle...I'm sorry. We did the best we could." Ratchet says sadly.
Jazz is silent for a moment before his lips start to tremble and the tears start to flow from his optics behind his visor. "No-no she ain't-she ain't gone. Ratch please don-she's only restin right? She's just asleep-she can't be-"
"I'm sorry Jazz. I-there wasn't anything else we could do. She just couldn't take the strain." Ratchet replies to the distraught Jazz. "You can see her if you'd like."
No sooner than the words leave his lips Jazz rushes past Ratchet and up to the berth where the new Averie lies. Jazz is at a loss for words at the sight of the femme laying on the berth. Ever since finding out Averies condition he would imagine what she could look like as one of them, and the images he came up with do no justice to the femme laying before him. Even though she's in her basic protoform he can't deny that she is the most beautiful femme he has ever layed his optics on.
He always thought Averie was beautiful as a human, but as a Cybertronian she is breath taking. Jazz leans down over Averies prone form and touches his head to hers. "Averie? Darlin? I know your just restin from all that stress so ya can get up now."
She doesn't move.
The tears flow harder down his face as he says, "Averie? Please please please wake up. I told ya I can't live without ya so please don't make me! Wake up darlin-wake up. I love ya so please wake up."
Nothing.
Jazz breaks. He screams out all the agony his spark is feeling at the loss of the girl he loves. He sits on the berth and lifts the form into his arms and cries with holding her.
Averies mother cries and sobs at the loss of her child, feeling her heart break but not moving from her spot believing her legs would not support her.
Everyone else watches from the door, not wanting to distrub the sparkbroken Autobot. They notice that the transformation is complete and that Averie is now one of them. They all hang their heads in sorrow at the loss, while some try to hold back the tears that threaten to fall down their faces.
I know you guys are gonna hate me for leaving you hanging, but it must be done! Poor Averie! Finally made it through her transformation, but at a cost. Just so yall know, Averie is a full size transformer and NOT a pretender. She is the same size as Jazz whom I've made as tall as Bumblebee. Just wanted to clear that up. What will happen? What will Jazz and the others do? Tune in to find out. Please let me know what you thought.