ATS-Another Day
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Ever since the day Mikaela and the Witwickeys visited Jazz and Ratchet have bben trying to get me to tell them what upset me. They don't do it so much in words as they do actions. They give me glances and certian looks, which is their own silent way of asking. I know its childish but I haven't said anything because the way I see it the Autobots have more important things to worry about that my feelings, which is something I will get over. Also, its been two days since the visit so maybe they'll forget about it.
"Averie." Ratchet says getting my attention.
"Yes sir?" I ask. It always amuses him when I call him sir, since he never hears it from anyone else.
"Time for another checkup." He replies while getting his equipment ready.
"Ok." I walk over to the berth and hop onto it. Ratchet attatches the needed tools to check my systems. It only takes a few minutes and I'm soon done.
"Thank you Ratchet." I say.
He rubs my helm and says, "Your welcome youngling. I know you may not want to hear it but I wish you would tell Jazz what it is that's bothering you. You have him worried."
"I know and I don't mean to worry anyone. I just figured with all the scrap that the Autobots have to go through that the last thing yall needed was me dumping my petty problems on ya. My problems fall short to what you guys have to go through." I explain.
"Is dat what ya think?" Jazz asks from the doorway.
"Hi Jazz." I say.
He walk over to me and asks, "Do ya really think dat ya problems don' matta?"
I start feeling a little sheepish under his serious stare. "Well I just figured you guys had more important things to worry about."
He takes ahold of my face and says, "Darlin' the Autobots can handle demsleves just fine, so don' think dat your worries would be a botha."
"I just didn't wanna bother yall." I mutter.
He smiles softly at me and says, "You can never be a botha. You have been through alot so please let us be a shoulder ta lean on."
"...I'm sorry." I apologize.
He pulls me into a hug and says, "Aww its alright darlin'. I just want ya ta feel like ya can come ta me for anything."
"I know I can and you deserve to know...the reason I was upset was because seeing them made me sad. Don't get me wrong I'm glad I got to see them, but it was like a slap in the face that I can never go home and that everything I ever worked for was for nothing." I explain pitifully.
Both mechs look at me with sympothy and guilt.
"I worked hard on getting those scholarships and I always wanted to go to college. Now I can't and hearing Sam talk about it hurt." I continue through some whimpering.
Jazz wipes away the tears that I didn't realize were falling down my face. He pulls me tightly to his chest and rubs soothing circles on my helm. "Aww darlin'. I'm so sorry. I wish ya didn' have ta go through did. Ya've had ta give up so much for us."
I whimper into Jazz's chest and say, "I just want it to get to where it doesn't hurt anymore."
"Oh, babe." Jazz mutters softly.
Ratchet walks over and starts rubbing my back. "Oh youngling. I'm so sorry...we'll get you through this."
"...I love you guys." I state.
"We love you too my spark." Jazz replies.
After getting comforted by Ratchet and Jazz I ended up in a much better mode. I really had nothing to worry about. I'm currently headed to the rec room when I end up passing by Optimus' office. A thought comes to mind before I walk off. I've been in the med bay for several months now and I would really like to start being useful to the Autobots, but that means I'll need to learn how to defend myself. With that in mind I knock on the door.
"Come in." I hear Optimus says through the door.
I open it and see him sitting at his desk. "Hi Optimus."
He gives me a warm smile and says, "Hello Averie. It's always good to see you up and about.
How are you?"
"I'm much better thank you. How are you?" I ask.
"I'm well thank you. Was there something I could do for you?" He asks.
"Actually I do have a question. I was wondering if I could start some self defense lessons?" I ask.
"As good an idea as I think that is; is there a particular reason why?" He asks.
"So I could start helping yall out." I reply.
Optimus ponders my reply and says, "Averie, I greatly appreciate everthing you'v e done for us thus far."
"Why do I feel like theres a but." I ask aloud.
"You've had to sacrifice so much for us. I assumed you would not be in a hurry to assist in our war any further." He replies.
"I'm one of you guys now and if the Primes entrusted me to be the Guardian of the Allspark I wanna make sure I don't let them down. This means I need the proper training so I can help." I explain.
Optimus smiles at me. "You are a very remarkable individual Averie, and I am very proud of who you've become since we've met and I would be very honored to officially welcome you into the Auobots. Unfortunately, it isn't up to me at his point."
"What do you mean? Your the big boss." I ask.
He lightly chuckles at the title I've given him. "Be that as it may I'm afraid Ratchet has the final say since you have been under his care. The choice of when to allow you to train falls upon him."
"So I should ask him?" I ask.
"He may be more inclined to allow it should you be the one to ask." He replies.
"Something tell me that won't be easy." I say.
"When it comes to you he will be very stubborn to convince. However, I am sure that you will encounter no futher problem with being Cybertronian so it may fall in your favor." He replies.
I nod. "Ok. I'll give it a shot. Thanks Optimus. You rock!"
He chuckles. "You are welcome, and I wish you good luck."
With new found confidence I rush out of Optimus's office and back towards the med bay to talk to Ratchet.
Once I get there I see Ratchet working at his workbench. "Ratch?" I ask while walking up to him.
"Hello Averie, back already?" He asks.
"Yeah. I had something I wanted to talk to you about?" I reply.
"Oh? What about?" He asks.
Deciding not to beat around the bush I just go ahead and be blunt. "When can I start learning self defence?"
He turns to look at me with an almost unreadable gaze, cause I'm not sure what to make of it. "Why would you want to?"
"Why? Well for when I help you guys fight the Cons it might come in handy." I reply jokingly.
"Averie, you've had to sacrifice a lot for us and have been through too much. Everyone would understand if you don't want to be anywhere near the battlefield." He replies.
"But Ratch I've already been on the battlefield. At least this way I'll be of more help than when I was human. Also, this is something I wanna do." I state.
"Does the idea of fighting not frighten you?" He asks gently.
"Honestly, it terrifies me, but at least I'll feel better if I have some training under my belt. I'm one of you guys now so its time I did more." I say.
"But you've already done so much. You don't have to do more." He urges.
"Actually I do. The Primes entrusted me to harness the Allsparks power, and I don't wanna let them down...I've already asked Optimus and he said that since I've been under your care its up to you when I can start, or at all. So, what do you say?" I ask.
He sighs and is silent for a moment. "...alright youngling. I may not like it, but if its what you want...and your right. It would be smart to learn how to defend yourself just incase. It would be better to be safe than sorry..."
"Sooooo...?" I ask hopefully.
He smiles at me and says, "I'll tell Optimus that you ready to start training."
"AHHH!" I squeel in excitment. I rush over and hug him around the neck. "Thankyouthankyouthankyou!"
He laughs as he hugs me back. "Your welcome youngling. Now listen; I want you to be very careful and if something doesn't feel right you come straight to me. Don't overdo it. Start off easy until you have the hang of it."
"I will. I will. AHH! I'm actually excited! I never got to learn self defence when I was human. This is gonna be epic!" I exclaim.
"Now what's goin on in here?" I hear someone as at the door.
I look and see Jazz standing at the door with an amused look on his face at my antics. "Jazz!" I rush over to him and hug him around the neck. "Guess what!"
"What?" He asks in amuzement as he hugs me back.
"No, you have to guess." I reply.
He laughs. "Okay...hum...your da most beautiful femme in da universe?"
"No!" I reply bashfully.
"Wat? Ya are." He says.
"Aww, but no. Ratchet's gonna let me start learning self defense." I exclaim.
"Dat's wonderful darlin'. Wouldn' hurt ta know how. When ya start?" He asks.
"I don't know. Whenever he gives Optimus the okay and I can find someone to teach me." I reply. I get a thought. "Can you teach me?"
"Me? Ya want me ta teach ya?" He asks.
"Yeah. Your good at it and you already helped me learn how to drive. I want you to teach me." I reply. I start rubbing circles on his chest. "So can you?"
He purrs at my rubbing his chest. "I'd be honored ta teach ya. We'll start tomorrow mornin. How's dat sound?"
"Sounds great! I love you!" I exclaim.
"I luv ya too darlin'. So much." He replies while leaning to kiss my lips.
"No PDA in my med bay!" Ratchet exclaims.
We chuckle as we pully away but not before Jazz sneaks a quick kiss. "Just think Jazzy; I'm that much closer to being a real Autobot!"
"Jazzy?" He asks in amusement at the nickname.
"Yeah. It's your new nickname." I say playfully.
"Oh is it now?" He asks in the same tone.
"Yep!" I giggle.
"Ya just too cute fur words darlin." He comments.
I giggle again and snuggle into his chest. I spend the rest of the day with Jazz. Also, Ratchet gives his okay to Optimus so I'll be starting my self defense training tomorrow. What's better is that it's Jazz who will be teaching me. I can't wait!
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I'm so sorry about the long wait, but life happens. I hope ya'll enjoyed!