-: Weiss Schnee
24 Dec.
9 days, 2 hours, 15 minutes.
Mom has confined herself to the comfort of spirits and her garden earlier, and I feel bad sometimes. When I moved out to Vale, I offered her to move with me, but she didn't have the heart for it. I know she doesn't want to leave him. It's hard. She's lived in this house for a long time, and all her shattered dreams are here. In this house. She deserves the same freedom she wished for Winter, Whitley, and I.
Mom caught me video chatting with Ruby tonight. And she got to talk with her before going to the garden. To my surprise, they enjoyed each other's company. The horror I felt when Ruby told her I was a godmother to a stuffed dog. Mom laughed it off and played along, saying she "...must be the God-grandmother" before regretting it.
I'm happy she was able to smile and laugh like before. I missed that the most.
I really miss my mom, and I wish her the best this Starlight's.
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Mom woke me up at around 3am Starlight Morning and she left a card and a small gift for me. She usually wanders around the house at night and ends up in one of our guest rooms when she's done. I wanted to open the card first since I usually save the box for later. She does this every Starlight's.
The card, long story short, asked me if Ruby and I are close and that if we are, mom would want me to keep her around. I get the feeling Ruby made a great impression on her. She would even want to meet her in person one day.
In her card, Mom also mentions I was happier when I was talking to Ruby. Winter, Klien, Mom, they all agree that Ruby's a good match for me: a good friend.
… Funny, I felt my heart skip just now. If it's what I think it is, I can't afford for what comes next.
I can't risk it.
Because if what happened with Neptune happens with Ruby, I know it'd be the last I can take. She's my best friend. It's best if things stay that way. But god. God do I miss that bumbling, rambling, silver-eyed barista and her Rose Petal Iced Lattes. I have to order one when I get home.