Here ya go! This chapter was kind of hard to write simply because I didn't know how to present Hana's abuse or create Kenpachi's reaction, true to their nature. Overall I'm happy with it but from now on this story will definitely slow down a bit and focus on Hana's inner turmoil. LET ME KNOW WHAT YALL THINK!

Hana woke up the next morning feeling refreshed and fulfilled. He couldn't remember the last time he woke up and wasn't crying or screaming from a nightmare. He smiled and then slowly peeled his eyes open. His eyes shifted and he soon realized that he wasn't sure of where he was. With a frown, he sat up and took in the entirety of the small room. There wasn't much in the room except for a massive king size bed. Hana laid his head back down on the pillow as his mind ran from him, a slow panic building inside of him. The last time he had awoken to an unfamiliar setting, his whole life had changed. The small man took in a shaky breath as he tried to calm his nerves and think. What was that smell? It smelled like fire, blood, and warmth. "K-Kenpachi?" Hana whispered as he realized just where he was. Upon this realization, his whole body relaxed and he buried his head further into the pillow he was lying on. His mind started to wander back to the night before, as he snuggled the pillow. He remembered every touch, every sound, he remembered Ken-chan's hesitant but dominant eyes, he remembered his own burning need for the man, he remembered it all. And he craved more. Hana felt sleep tugging on his mind and he welcomed it. But before he drifted he had one more coherent thought. "I wonder where he is… I miss him."

Kenpachi was annoyed, to say the least. He had gone to the fourth division that morning to talk to Unohana about his Hana. Instead of answering his questions straight forward she had gone around each question and was only wasting both of their times. He had tried to keep patient with the kind woman but he couldn't anymore, this shit wasn't in his nature and he was about to lose his mind if he had to fake it anymore. Kenpachi had had enough.

"You know what, this is fucking stupid, all I want to do is help him. And you're being useless! If you won't tell me what the fuck happened to him, I'll figure it out for myself!" Kenpachi had stood abruptly from his chair causing it to fall over as he began to exit the room. His only thought being that this was a waste of time that he could have spent making love to his Hana.

"Wait...Just wait", Unohana's usually firm voice said on a wavered whisper.

Kenpachi didn't have time for her bullshit but something in her voice made him turn to look at her. He didn't like what he saw there.

"Do you... If I tell you, will you help him? Can you actually help him heal? I know you Kenpachi, you care for no one but Yachiru. You don't even care much for yourself. How can I trust you will care for him ?"

Kenpachi could see the confliction in her eyes. Where she always had a gleam of light, she currently had worry. She had also stopped smiling, her whole demeanor reflecting one more stoic, like Captain Kuchiki.

Kenpachi sighed. "Look, I'm sorry okay? I shouldn't have reacted like that. But you said for yourself, I love him. I feel it every fucking time I look at him, every time he breathes. He lives in my thoughts." Kenpachi whispered the words. He was frightened of his own feelings for Hana. What Unohana had said was true. He had only ever cared for Yachiru. Before Hana, he would never consider his feelings for the girl "love", although he did view her as a daughter and close friend. Love was never a word he could understand. But now? He understood. He felt it everywhere. And that was scarier than any hollow he had ever faced. "I saw it, Unohana, that fear that lives within him. He lives with it every day, every minute. Tell me, tell me how to help him." His eyes were now focused on hers. They had a silent duel. Both searching the other's eyes for intent.

Unohana tilted her head slightly before closing her eyes and gesturing for Kenpachi to sit.

He quickly grabbed the chair that had fallen in his earlier fury and sat down. He waited.

Unohana had opened her eyes and stared into his. She was in no means a cold woman. In fact, she was one of the brightest souls in the Soul Society. And yet there was no life in her eyes, they were dark and sad.

"When he first came to this division he was very different from now. He hardly spoke. He would never look anyone in the eyes. And he had a major fear of being in close proximity to anyone other than patients, even then, I could see he struggled." Unohana started. "He is such an amazing healer, so patient and kind. His healing energy is one that can only be exceeded by my own, in fact. Such a sweet boy…" Unohana's eyes had glazed over and she seemed to be talking to herself more than Kenpachi.

"I noticed the signs immediately of course. You don't become the captain of healers without knowing basic psychology… I knew the minute I met him that he had faced some excessive trauma." As if remembering where she was, the long-haired Captain had fixed her eyes on Kenpachi, nonverbally warning him of the words to follow. "Sexual abuse can be very difficult for anyone. Not to mention a male of his age…Kenpachi, I am going to be upfront with you, because you asked me to be. And I trust you to help him. Hanataro was sexually and physically abused. I believe the abuse happened sometime during his attendance at the academy."

Her words had rocked him to his core. He knew Hana had demons. He knew that he struggled. But this, he didn't expect. His Hana.. his poor Hana.

Unohana cleared her throat, realizing the other Captains shock. She continued. "He used to have fainting spells. They would occur daily, actually. He blamed them on a medical condition, yet when I checked his files there was nothing of the sort there. One day, he fainted and had hit his head on an equipment cart on his way down. I had to give him a few stitches, although he wasn't seriously injured. But something told me.." Her face now looked a bit haunted as her eyes went distant, again. "Something told me to do a full analysis of him. It was wrong. It was against protocol and everything I believe in, but I had to know." She went quiet, and Kenpachi could tell that she was deep in thought. He waited, knowing that this was difficult for her.

She closed her eyes and then folded her hands over her eyes. Her next words were almost a whisper. "Kenpachi, what I found... It was awful. He had been tortured, bruised, beaten. He had multiple broken bones that had healed poorly. He has scars all over… they're everywhere…"

Kenpachi listened intently. He didn't want to interrupt her but he was confused. He needed some clarification. "Doc, you said he was sexually abused, right? But we were… look, I was his first, I know that for a fact so whatya mean when you say that ?"

She shook her head lightly and then intertwined her hands together on her desk. Something about his question had centered her and brought her into full doctor mode. "Kenpachi, I should have framed that better. He was sexually tortured. Although I did not find any evidence of anal penetration, I found that he has deep scar tissue along his urethra. He also seems to have been pierced by something, multiple times, on his genitals and scrotum, if you look closely you will see scarring on the insides of his thighs, as well."

The room had gone silent. Unohana watched Kenpachi as he slowly digested the words. She waited, knowing what was coming next.

"The fucker!" Kenpachi was on his feet again, his reiatsu fanned out across the whole division as his fury raged. He didn't know what to do with his anger. He was ready to blow the whole building to bits and then kill any motherfucker who tried him.

"Kenpachi!", Unohana called. Kenpachi glanced at her, ready to rip her heart out until he saw the look on her face. She had the same stoic look that she managed to paste on, but the look in her eyes told him he needed to calm down. And he knew, just knew that there was more. Shit, he wasn't sure that he could handle more.

The man walked over the side of the room punching a huge hole in the wall before returning to his seat. "Sorry, I'll get it fixed, I just needed to hit something". Almost pretending as if he hadn't done it, Unohana continued where she left off prior.

"We have discussed his physical state, now let's move onto his mental. He has improved tremendously from when I first met him. Probably, because the abuse ceased and he was able to put space between him and the abuser. He still has a fear of large crowds. He is also very jumpy and does not like to be approached from the back. He honestly doesn't like to be approached at all, he is still very reserved, as you have probably witnessed. However, I must say that all of these symptoms intensify around males. Leading me to believe that he was abused by a male. He could use psychiatric guidance to help him overcome these fears. He will have to work through them… Kenpachi, I doubt you sensed me but that night when you first met him, I was there. That was the first night I had ever seen him comfortable with touch. I don't know why, but he chose you as the one to save him, so please do so". Unohana had suddenly felt exhausted. This whole ordeal was taxing and honestly, she was tired of looking at the man in front of her. She stood to signify the end of their conversation nearing.

"I know that was a lot to take in. Do you still care for him ?" Unohana had been afraid to ask.

Kenpachi stared at her with a strained face. After all the information he had received he felt numb. He didn't know what to think. The only thing he wanted to do was go home to Hana. He silently thanked himself for taking the young man to his home after their post-coital affairs at the fourth. He didn't want to let him go last night and he didn't want to let him go now.

He stood, making his exit, pausing to answer her question.

"More than you know"

Kenpachi walked into his home to see Yachiru at the dining table coloring.

"Hi, Kenny! Hana-chan's still asleep. I went to ask him to play but he was…" Yachiru had glanced up at the man and saw the look on his face, making her pause mid-sentence.

Kenpachi nodded at her but kept walking. She could tell he was on a mission, she didn't know what was going on but she knew she should probably leave. She grabbed her crayons and paper and decided it would be fun to go bother Ikkaku and Yumichika.

Kenpachi walked into his room finding Hana sleeping, just as Yachiru had said. He walked over to the bed and leaned over to kiss his small mate. It was an intense kiss, instantly dragging Hana out of some of the best sleep he had had in years. His body reacted before he was able to grasp the full situation.

Kenpachi leaned further into the kiss, forcing his tongue inside Hana's. Hana reeled at the dominance of the kiss. He didn't know what made him trust the Captain so much but he did. He knew he wouldn't hurt him, so he gave him what he wanted. It helped that he loved every feeling the Captain gave.

Hana broke the kiss, panting for air, and then he stared up at Kenpachi and was startled by the intense look on his face. "Ken-chan ?"

"I need to be inside you Hana, I don't think I can go slow." Hana wasn't sure what had set his Ken-chan on edge, but he knew that whatever the man wanted he would give. He rolled himself onto his back and widened his legs for the bigger man.

Kenpachi's quickly loosened Hanas sleeping Yukata. His eyes roamed the entirety of his petite young mate. He was trying to contain himself, to contain his anger, his rage, his desire, but he was failing and he knew it. Hana watched Kenpachi struggle behind his eyes. He raised his hand, slowly drawing his fingers over the man's eyepatch and then down his cheek. "Its okay Ken-chan, I want you too. I know you can't hold yourself back much longer." Hana widened his legs. And then one by one moved Kenpachi's hand to sit on his small waist.

Kenpachi leaned over to give Hana a quick kiss before trailing hot kisses down the petit man's body. Hana shuddered with each kiss, drowning in the affection. Without the others knowledge, Kenpachi traveled the span of Hana's body finding each scar that his abuser had left behind.

Kenpachi found himself become more irate with each scar he encountered, dropping a light kiss on each he found. He had reached Hana's weeping member, first examining then dropping a kiss on the small puncture sights, barely visible... "Ken, please", Hana moaned loudly at the erotic yet thoughtful action.

Wanting to give his little lover some relief, and release his own tension, Kenpachi quickly prepared Hana and then positioned himself at his entrance... "If I'm hurting you, you tell me". With that, Kenpachi buried himself into the tight puckering hole. Hana released a pained gasp, trying to relax his body around the massive intrusion.

Kenpachi knew that he was hurting Hana and hated himself for it, but he knew that he couldn't wait. Kenpachi started to piston into Hana at a vigorous pace, instantly finding Hana's prostate to relieve the pain he had inflicted...

Hana was thrown into bliss. He had felt so good last night that apart of him thought that he may never feel like that again. Obviously, he was wrong. He looked down at where Kenpachi was thrusting deep into him, every thrust meant to bring his pleasure. He pressed his small hand over his abdomen feeling the powerful blows deep inside of him. Then, he looked a little higher to where he was being held firm but tenderly. 'Is this love..? Do I love Captain Kenpachi Zaraki?'

"Look at me baby, I want you to look at me" Kenpachi's voice broke through his thoughts and he did what he was told. When he looked up he saw it and he knew. He needed Kenpachi to be as deep in him as possible. He needed him to surround his whole being. He needed Kenpachi to love him as he loved the Captain.

"Harder. More, I need more of you!" Hana had gasped trying to maintain some form of composure as he stared into the eyes of his first love.

Upon the request, Kenpachi pulled Hana onto his lap forcing him deeper into the boy. "shitttttt… you feel so good flower, so good", Kenpachi growled as he thrust up into his boy. "Please, please, please", Hana chanted into Kenpachi's ear as he held onto his neck tightly.

Both men knew that they were nearing the end. Kenpachi grabbed his Hana's ass cheeks, pulling them apart slightly, allowing him to slide deeper. "Work with me baby, help me do this". Hanas mind was reeling, but he heard the request. He shifted slightly allowing himself to lift and drop his body, matching Kenpachi's thrusts and forced their bodies to meet closer than ever before.

They continued this way for a few minutes before Hana felt himself cumming. "Ken..not gonna last.." he panted.

"Me either baby, cum for me and I'll cum for you". Upon hearing Kenpachi's words Hana came furiously all over the two men's stomachs, tightening his whole body around his love. Not being able to take anymore his body went limp as he felt Kenpachi's release flush into his body. Kenpachi continued his powerful thrusts until he was milked dry, pumping himself into Hana a few more times after his release and then collapsing onto his back, Hana falling on top of him.

Kenpachi pulled Hana into a long and passionate kiss, running his hands over the field of the other sweaty body. Kenpachi was the one to break the kiss this time, staring into Hana's eyes for a moment before dropping his head backward to the bed and closing his eyes.

Hana continued to stare at the big man, wondering how he could feel this way about a man so intimidating and beastly, yet so loving and warm.

"Ken..?"

"Hmm..?"

"I think… I love you"

The room was silent for a while. Kenpachi not knowing what to say. Hana felt instant regret because of this reaction.

"Ken..?"

"Give me a sec, flower, I need to think. Just let me think" Kenpachi was happy. Actually, he was beyond happy. He had just had some of the best sex of his life and his first love was requited. He hadn't been this happy since the Head Captain let him loose on a field of hollows in Karakura Town. But he was still furious at the information that Unohana had revealed to him. He wanted to go back in time and save Hana before the abuse had ensued. The conflicted emotions he was having were giving him a headache.

It had been nearly 15 minutes since Hana told Kenpachi that he loved him. Kenpachi had only told him that he needed to think. The regret Hana felt had only grown and he now felt embarrassment. The other man obviously didn't love him back, so what was the point in staying?

He began to move off of Kenpachi when the bulbous arm came around to encircle his waist and anchor him.

"Ken...?" Hana felt like a broken record.

"Yeah, flower…?" Hana couldn't tell if that was an answer to his earlier statement or an acknowledgment of him calling his name.

Silence. When Hana didn't reply, Kenpachi, now curious, looked up into the younger man's eyes and flinched at what he saw.

"Hey, don't cry... What's wrong ?" The captain could be such an airhead sometimes. He had been so caught up in the news, coming down from sex, and sorting his own emotions that he didn't realize he never even responded to Hana's confession.

Hana shook his head lightly, as silent tears streamed down his face. "I shouldn't have said it, we just met, I'm sorry, I'm so stupid and needy… why would you ever want someone like me..." The boy's words sliced through the captain as if it was a zanpakuto. He grabbed his little lovers face, forcing their eyes to meet. "You listen to me because I'm only going to say this once. You are not stupid. You are a brilliant healer, you are compassionate and caring. I don't give two fucks if you're needy because I need you just as much as you need me. You have no reason to apologize." Kenpachi's voice echoed into Hana's ears as he tried to process what he was saying. Letter by letter. Word by word. Sentence by sentence.

"I'm a fucking brute, but nothing will ever make me leave you. Not after I found the one person that makes me forget about fighting. Not after falling in love with you. So don't cry, okay? because when you do that I want to kill someone".

Hana froze. "Y-you... Love me ?"