[Chapter 7] As the year's go by

This chapter is written over a timeframe of about 10 year. This chapter will be the summary of those years explaining what happened to Charly after she let the love of her life go back, to make his dream of a wrestling career come true. The information given here will be important in later chapters and is categorized as background information.

[Charly pov]

***The child***

8 weeks after my weekend in Munich I was forced to visit a doctor. I was about 8 weeks long. How could that happen, we had taken care, we had used protection, we didn't even miss once. But yeah, there I was, waiting for a result and an answer. Oh my god this can't be true. I'm going nuts. Please, please don't, my nervousness became unbearable. I'm only 18, how shall I manage all this, alone. I look at the doctor when he comes in. I only hear his voice through my foggy mind. What did he say? Congratulations? Oh ... 8th week? And what now? Abortion? No, I can't, I wouldn't survive that, that's the only thing that's left of him. I'm having this child, I'll raise it alone. I'm not the first and definitely not the last. It will be a boy and she already has the name.

I never told anyone something about the father, I kept it my secret, and wanted to avoid anyone from accidently talking about it. I made sure no one had to lie for me and this little boy. Yes, I was expecting a little boy. I wasn't able to get in contact with Shawn, so he never got to know that he would become a dad. But I started to make plans. How to make sure that he will know someday, that this little boy will grow up knowing somewhere out there is his dad, just waiting to get to know him. I saved everything, each ultrasound picture, the passport. I made a diary during the pregnancy, just to have everything in case Shawn would want to know someday.

Shawn Joshua was born on January 22nd 1993. Yeah I know, but I had to keep him connected to his dad, in some way and his name was my only option. Growing up this boy not just became my sunshine, no he was a little guy with some strange interests. He loved sports as he was going to school. In 2nd grade he came home with some papers he wanted me to sign. I asked him what this was." Oh , mummy, just some papers for my teachers." Yeah I should have known better.

First I refused to sign, because I didn't want him to take the same path as his dad. But what shall I say, as he looked at me with those big bright blue eyes, looking like a puppy, I melted down.

Oh my gosh, he is just like his dad, I , then go and wrestle let's see where this is going. The school tournament he participated in at 4th grade, he showed off as a professional, he just won the tournament as easy as it could be. I just couldn't keep it and happened to say that he would have a god given talent, but I wouldn't know where that's coming from.

At home he had started to watch wrestling at the age of 3, I always recorded Monday night raw for him so Shawn could watch it the day after. In the beginning we watched together and I always told him, this is your dad, everytime when Shawn had an appearance. And surprisingly - The heartbreak Kid became his Nr. 1, although he was the bad guy.

***The boyfriend***

[charly pov]

6 month after the most beautiful weekend in my life and about 6 month pregnant, I met this guy. Wasn't the best choice in the end. This relationship started out really nice and caring. I was happy that he was willing to at least give it a try although I was pregnant from someone else. But as my sunshine was born, he started to change with each year, this little boy was growing older.

As Shawn started to show an interest in wrestling it became complicated. When I was watching Monday Night Raw, he mocked that everything was fake and they don't really fight., but I didn't give anything on it and didn't even take his jealousy seriously.

4,5 years into this relationship, I started to dream about Shawn again. And then there it should happen, for the first time in my life I got to feel what this guy was about. I happened to think about Shawn, even saw his face when I had sex with my boyfriend and so the unbeleavable happen, when I was cumming once I call Shawn's name instead of his. OMG! what the heck happened.

My boyfriend made up in his mind that I had to pay for this, so he smacked me around for the first time. All over my body bruises and a black eye, kept me home from work for about two weeks. What I didn't know back then that my boyfriend had fixed a punching bag for his workout room. That he would put a picture of me in this punching bag and practise to hit me at the right place with a sweet chin music.

When the incident repeated 1 year later, yeah I know, calling Shawn's name instead of his. He was out of control. I had opened the window in the living because I wanted my little sunshine showing the trees in our garden, my boyfriend came in. I didn't realise that my boyfriend took measurement and was standing still until I turned around to talk to him. The only thing I remember of this happening was hearing him say "With best wishes from Shawn" - and his foot connected with my jaw and I was flying out of the window on the 3rd floor, down in the garden and landed on a stack with building stuff. And my little Shawn had watched all of this.

***The accident***

[Charly pov]

I remember, my little boy screaming and the medic stuff around me, telling me everything would be fine again. I woke up in the hospital two weeks after the attack. My boyfriend in prison, my boy at my mum's place.

And myself looked in a bed I wasn't able to leave on my own. The doctors had told me that I could be happy, to be in this condition already again. A broken neck, a broken lower back, a smashed left shoulder, a smashed left hip and several ribs fractured. They had to replace the shoulder and the hip joint, including that they had to fuse my neck and my lower back. And not to forget my broken jaw thanks to a precise hit with the Sweet Chin Music.

Oh great, beaten to a pulp, by my own boyfriend. The thoughts washed over me, what would have happened to my boy when I wouldn't have survived this? Shawn would have never got to meet his dad, because my mum doesn't know anything. Who is looking after him when something happens to me in the future?

After 6 month in the hospital I started to make plans to get the future of my little boy saved and secured.

***The decision***

[Charly .. POV]

I have to tell him. I have to go to the US and find him. I knew he had retired due to a back injury and that he wasn't able to wrestle anymore. I worked on my plan for the following 4 years. Still watching Monday Night Raw, I got to know that Shawn had married Rebecca, a Monday Nitro girl, in 1999.

Oh great now that's happening. Charly you are the luckiest of all in this great fucking world. What should I do now? Putting a small boy into a life there he is maybe not welcome, reminding too much of the past. No I can't stop this. I have to tell him, he is the only one my boy has left when something happens to me.

I told my boy that I am planning to go to the US, to find his dad and tell him everything about my little boy. I made the suggestion that Shawn should write a letter, although there would not be a garanty how his dad would take it. I got the letter in July 2002, Shawn had put some pictures in it too, for his dad to keep. I never got to know what my son had written to his dad.

Then Aug 5th 2002 I was sitting on my couch, watching Monday Night Raw. Shawn had an appearance I was shocked about, beaten to pulp, he confronted his former best friend Hunter with the fact that it was him who was behind this attack. Hunter told him that he was right about this and that he did it to show him how weak he was.

OMG, what the heck happened. Shawn as usual couldn't let the chance out to get revenge. He let Hunter know that the doctors said he would be a 100% again…"Let's say at Summerslam". Oh boy are you crazy, you can't do that, please, your back, no don't. I had to get to Summerslam somehow.