The 'Red' Digivice Diaries Chapter 6: Cast Aside, a digimon fanfic

Red Digivice Diaries

Entry 6 - Cast Aside

By Lord Archive

This series is rated M for Mature for language and sexual situations without detailed desciptions. Even without graphic depiction of sex this series is still meant for adult readers.

Warning! This part contains sexual situations that may upset some readers. Do not read this if you have a narrow-minded view on how sexual relations should occur. I hold nothing but characterization sacred. As long as I can portray characters close to what they are in series, I don't care what they do or what happens to them.

This starts during entry 1.

Kind of funny how your life can shatter in an instant. One moment you're joking with one of your friends and the next you find out he's been sleeping with the girl you're in love with. Everything I had held dear was taken away in a single moment. It started with the guy I admired hitting me for something I hadn't done, and then listened as one of my best friends confess to doing it, and then heard my love confirm it. It all lasted for a few minutes, but it felt so much longer and shorter at the same time. I can still remember it all with crystal clarity, but I don't want to believe it.

How did this happen? Why did it happen? Why couldn't it have been me that she slept with?

I love her. I love her in ways I can't describe. I know she's not the Ms. Perfect everyone thinks she is. If she was perfect, why would she withdraw from us when she's in trouble? Why would she play with my heart? They've been lovers for months, MONTHS, and she never once tried to tell me she wasn't interested or even that she decided to date Takeru.

Funny thing is, I think that was the way she was trying to 'break up' with me. She was going to keep making me jealous until I got fed up with her and left her. I guess she figured I wouldn't be hurt as much if I was the one to break it off. Wish I could tell her how fucking stupid that is. What's worse, having your heart shattered once or stabbed over and over again?

"Hiya, Ken." Daisuke walked into Ken's bedroom.

Ken turned away from what he was writing on his desk for a second. "Hello. What brings you here?"

"I just needed to be someplace where I still have a friend."

Ken looked concerned, and then blinked as he noticed some bruises on Daisuke's face. "What happened?"

"Taichi thought that I had almost made him an uncle." Daisuke started laughing bitterly. "What a joke? Right. Like I would ever dare to do anything like that with Hikari."

Ken frowned deeply. "From your demeanor, I take it someone has though."

"Yep. She's been screwing Takeru for months. And I probably still wouldn't know if Taichi hadn't jumped to the conclusion that I was her lover." Daisuke rubbed his face. "Kind of wish he had gotten it right."

"What? That you actually were her lover or that he beat up Takeru?" Minomon questioned from Ken's lofted bed.

Daisuke looked up. "Actually, I'd prefer it if both had happen."

Ken reluctantly nodded.

Daisuke looked at his friend with vacant eyes. "Ken, what was it like?"

Ken blinked. "What was what like?"

Daisuke shrugged. "You know, when you decided to kill yourself. What was that like?"

Ken stomped over to Daisuke and shook him by the shoulders. "I don't ever want to hear that from you! You're too damned important to die."

Daisuke looked away. "It's just a question."

"Yeah, a question you're actually considering." Ken glared. "You want to know? There's a certain calm of finality. That all your troubles would end. That you feel it's best for everyone." He grabbed Daisuke by the collar. "I have news for you. It is NOT better for everyone. YOU taught me that. We were put on this world for a purpose, and we had best not end it before our time."

"But no one needs me," Daisuke replied emotionlessly.

"Bullshit," Ken cursed. "Ignoring your position as a Chosen, you are important to many people. What would your family do without you? What would your friends do? How do you think Hikari would feel?"

Daisuke shrugged weakly. "If it's not on the television, it wouldn't matter to my parents. Jun's pining over a fag and wouldn't notice. And why would Hikari care? She has Takeru."

"Your parents do care!" Ken shouted. "They may not show it enough, but they do. Do you want them to realize too late how important you are by dying on them? And Hikari does care about you. You are her friend. If you die, she would blame herself. Then what about Takeru, he'd feel responsible. Miyako, Iori and I are your friends too. It would hurt all of us!"

Daisuke turned away. "Takeru and Hikari aren't my friends. They betrayed me. They lied to me."

"They were trying to keep you from being hurt," Ken reasoned.

Daisuke laughed harshly. "Yeah, right. If they did, they failed miserably."

"Can't argue with you there. They could've dealt with it a lot better." Ken folded his arms. "But if you dare kill yourself. I'll find some way to find your soul just so I could beat you up for doing something so stupid. Believe me, if there is a way, I'll find it."

"But I'm so pointless," Daisuke whined.

"And I was once so heartless, I nearly enslaved an entire world." Ken placed his hand on Daisuke's shoulder. "It was you who asked me to live and redeem myself of my crimes, and now I ask you to do the same. Live and find your purpose in life. So what if it's not next Hikari's side? I know you have a grand destiny ahead of you and it would truly be a crime if you stopped it from happening."

"I don't know if I can," Daisuke weakly returned.

"I know it won't be easy, but you have the digimental of courage. Use that to find the courage to continue. Please!" Tears formed in Ken's eyes.

"I'll... try." Daisuke stood up. "I've got to be going."

"Promise me you won't do anything stupid," Ken pleaded.

Daisuke seemed to be another person as he chuckled dryly. "What? Me do something stupid? You should know better than that."

"Will he be all right?" Wormmon asked.

"I hope so." Ken sighed. "I hope so."

Daisuke flopped onto his bed as soon as he entered his room.

"Hey, Daisuke!" V-mon bounced on the bed. "You can't be going to bed NOW. It hasn't even been dinner yet."

Daisuke lazily tried to slap the blue and white lizard away. "Leave me alone."

"What's wrong, Daisuke?" V-mon asked cutely.

"I've lost. Hikari will never be my girlfriend now," Daisuke moaned.

"You can't give up!" V-mon tried to cheer.

Daisuke glared. "She's been fucking 'Tackless.'"

V-mon scratched his head. "I thought you were tackless." He had to dodge Daisuke's angry punch. "And what does 'fucking' mean?"

"You know... she been having sex with him," Daisuke grumpily replied.

V-mon's brow knitted in thought. "Not sure what you mean there."

"She's MATING with Takeru," Daisuke barked.

"Oh, mating." V-mon nodded. "Mating?! As in trying to have..."

Daisuke nodded. "Yep."

V-mon dropped off the side of the bed bed.

Daisuke sighed in relief as it appeared V-mon had fainted, leaving him in peace for the moment. He looked up when someone knocked on his bedroom door frame.

"Hey, you awake?" Miyako asked.

"What does it look like?" Daisuke moaned.

"Like you want to sleep eternally." Miyako folded her arms. "Ken told me what happened. And if you dare kill yourself, I'll help him trash your soul. You may not be the nicest guy in the world, but you are my friend."

"Gee, thanks. I feel so much better now," Daisuke groused

Miyako sighed. "Sorry. I'm not good with this stuff." She sat down on his bed. "I guess I should've told you."

"You knew?" Daisuke asked.

Miyako nodded. "Where do you think they got their condoms from?"

Daisuke placed his pillow on top of his head. "I didn't need to hear that."

Miyako snatched the pillow away. "Don't even try."

"Try what?" Daisuke blinked.

Miyako looked at the pillow and tossed it aside. "Never mind."

"What do you want?" Daisuke grumbled.

"I don't know how to say this." Miyako fidgeted. "But, listen- you're a very special person, you may not always be the best guy to be around, but a lot of people care about you, me included."

Daisuke laughed. "What? Are you saying you like me?"

"Well, yeah, I guess." Miyako nodded.

"I mean really LIKE me, like the way I liked Hikari?" Daisuke pressed.

"Ugh! Gods no. Sorry, Daisuke you're a great friend. But that's all. Well, at least for now. Your obsession with Hikari was a real turn-off, but now that that's over- who knows." Miyako shrugged.

"Don't you ever stop talking?" Daisuke asked.

"I don't talk too much. Just ramble when I'm extremely nervous," Miyako retorted.

Daisuke glared. "And why are you nervous now?"

"Have I been rambling?" Miyako asked herself. "Well, okay. I'm afraid that you'll do something really stupid."

"Geez! Will you just lay off!" Daisuke shouted. "Yes, I just lost the girl I love. Yes, I found out she's been lying to me for months. And yes, I am really hurt that she couldn't even try to tell me I didn't have a fucking chance. But I'm NOT going to kill myself because of her. If I was that much of a wimp I wouldn't have survived in the Digital World in the first place. I'm hurt, but I'll live."

Miyako swallowed hard. "S-sorry. I just thought... Well, I am still concerned about you and I can't help being afraid that you will do something stupid."

"I promise you that I won't. Okay?" Daisuke rolled over in his bed. "Now if you don't mind, I'd like to be alone."

"O-okay." Miyako nodded. "If you decide you need to talk to someone, just call."

"Whatever. Go." Daisuke motioned with his hand for her to leave without looking.

The following days bled together. I never did thank Ken or Miyako for encouraging me to live. I'd like to think that their help wasn't needed, but there are moments I'm not so sure. Moments when I see Hikari and Takeru together, when they're holding hands or leaning against each other.

I have to agree with the gossiping girls. Takeru and Hikari do make a cute couple, but I still think Hikari and I would've been cuter. Not like that's ever going to happen. Unless Hikari is testing me somehow to prove I'm good enough for her, that I truly do love her. I know that the chances are slim, but I can still dream.

Daisuke groaned as Miyako switched from flirting with him to Ken. The girl was too damn fickle for her own good. Daisuke sighed. "Hi, Ken."

Ken let Miyako guide him to a seat at the restaurant. "Hi, Miyako, Daisuke. How are you doing?"

"Good." Miyako nodded a few more times than she needed to.

Daisuke shrugged. "All right. I don't want to deck 'Dickless' whenever I see him. Just when he's with Hikari."

Ken rubbed his forehead. "Well, I guess that's an improvement."

"Not much of one considering they're always together," Miyako commented.

"Can we talk about something else?" Daisuke requested.

"How about which movie we should go see?" Miyako pulled out a paper listing movies. "Sakura Diaries movie?"

Daisuke just looked at Miyako like she said the stupidest thing possible.

"Oh, right." Miyako laughed nervously. "A perverted relationship movie wouldn't be good, would it? Well..."

"Why don't you two go to the movie?" Daisuke suggested. "I don't feel like sitting around at the moment. I think I'll try the arcade."

Ken nodded. "Actually, a few video games does sound more enjoyable than watching a movie." It would let Daisuke vent his frustrations in a way that was non-damaging.

Miyako sagged. "I guess I can see the movie with my sister later."

After eating what passes for pizza in Japan, the trio walked over to the arcade.

Ken paused at the main entrance. "Hmm... Laser Assault. Sounds interesting."

Daisuke chuckled. "We'd get to shoot real targets."

Miyako sighed. "This is hardly going to be fair."

And it wasn't. The objective of this laser arena was to shoot the opposing team's flag five times and not get hit three times in the process. Being hit three times meant you had to return to your flag and recharge, which took half a minute. With Ken and Miyako laying cover fire, Daisuke charged in and shot the opposing team's flag in a record twenty-two seconds.

Not wanting to deal with upset customers, the operators had Daisuke switch sides and began a new game.

"Hitashi, are you getting what those two boys are doing?" one of the operators asked.

"Huh? I was watching that girl dodging the lasers, Yohko. How can she even see them?" Hitashi replied.

"The same way those two boys are dodging each other's attacks. They look like they're used to fighting," Yohko commented.

Hitashi sweated nervously. "Well that's a different way of using the disco ball. Too bad that brown haired kid still dodged it."

Yohko licked her lips as she watched Daisuke jump off a fake boulder. "Looks like brains verses skill. Damn, if there's a war going on, I'd want them on my side."

Daisuke and Ken had each other dead in sites, two hits each, and both pulled the trigger. But nothing happened.

"What!?" Daisuke growled. "I had you dead in my sites."

"Sorry, Daisuke!" Miyako waved sheepishly. "But I took your team's flag while you were busy playing with Ken."

"She's not bad either," Hitashi commented.

"Hi, Ken, Miyako... Daisuke," Hikari reluctantly greeted.

"Um, hi." Takeru waved.

"Small world, isn't it?" Daisuke asked bitterly.

Takeru shrugged. "We're just here to play a few games."

"How about Laser Assault?" Daisuke offered. "Us verses you two."

Hikari and Takeru glanced at each other, shrugged, and answered in unison, "Sure."

Daisuke twitched.

It took a little convincing to get the operators to allow Ken and Daisuke on the same team, but they allowed it since Takeru insisted on it as well.

Hitashi looked at them gloomily. "I feel so inadequate."

Yohko nodded. "I normally don't like kids like this, but damn can they do things."

Hitashi blinked. "Is it my imagination, or did that laser bend around the girl with pink gloves rather than hit her."

Yohko shook her head. "I wouldn't know. Gilligan just got those two boys to shoot each other."

After the match ended, Takeru shook Daisuke's hand. "Great game, though three against two was hardly fair."

Miyako laughed as she draped her arm over Takeru's shoulder. "So I let Hikari shot me so I could kill you, so what? Sacrifices have to be made for victory."

Daisuke glared. "Just as long as you don't do that when it's for real."

"I'm not that stupid. I learn that lesson from the Kaiser." Miyako raised her hand triumphantly.

"Gee, thanks." Ken sagged.

Miyako patted him on the back. "All has been forgiven. Get over it."

Ken sighed.

"Well, we've got to be going. See you guys around." Hikari waved as she left with Takeru.

"I would've liked it better if I had killed him," Daisuke said.

Ken shrugged. "We all got a shot in before the other members of our team won the match. I'd say that's a victory."

Stress relief is a good way of dealing with things. The arcade became a good friend when the Digital World failed to produce something I could pound on. But the days turned to weeks, and weeks into months.

I was getting better little by little as the time passed. But that was before I saw something I NEVER wanted to see.

Daisuke walked into Koushiro's room with a dazed looking V-mon trailing behind. Koushiro, Taichi, Sora, Miyako, Hawkmon, Ken and Wormmon were already there.

"Where are the others?" Taichi asked.

Daisuke crossed his arms. "Iori and I walked in on Takeru screwing your sister. They're still at his apartment explaining to Iori about the birds and the bees."

"And digimon," V-mon added with a sob.

Sora rubbed her forehead. "Just wonderful."

"At least now I don't have to imagine what Hikari looks like." Daisuke laughed bitterly.

Taichi glared at Daisuke with a look that promised of death.

Miyako sighed. "Let's get to the Overdell Mansion and deal with that mess." She then mumbled under her breath, "I HOPE Daisuke will have something to fight."

Everyone, except Koushiro, entered the Digital World through Izumi's computer.

The group trekked to where they would be meeting Greymon and Birdramon, who had been keeping an eye on the Overdell Mansion.

Ken hung back to talk to Daisuke. "Are you all right?"

"Fine. Let's just go. I hope that Vamdemon has done something so I can beat the shit out of him," Daisuke grumbled.

Ken placed his hand on Daisuke's shoulder. "Don't be reckless about this. We don't want to make any mistakes."

Daisuke brushed off Ken's hand. "Don't worry. I know what my job is."

"What's wrong, niisan?" Wormmon asked.

V-mon tried to swallow a sob. "Tailmon and Patamon are lovers."

Wormmon's mouth hung open. "Tailmon... lovers... Are you sure?"

V-mon nodded.

Ken looked at Daisuke with a questionable look.

Daisuke nodded. "Yep. The cat's been screwing the winged-hamster."

Miyako sagged as she had eavesdropped. "It's sad when the cat is getting more action than you are. Am I the only virgin girl of the Chosen?"

"Mimi is still a virgin. For now anyway," Sora answered Miyako's rhetorical question.

"There you are," Greymon called out. "Taichi, I need your help to become Metal Greymon."

"Why?" Taichi asked.

Greymon pointed off into the distance. "Vamdemon apparently kept a Skull Greymon in his basement. I want to take care of it."

The sound of a distant explosion echoed through the trees.

"Oh, good. Something I can hurt."

Everyone looked at Wormmon in surprise.

V-mon patted him on the back and nodded. "I like that plan. I like it a lot."

"Now just a moment," Greymon growled. "Skull Grey-"

"Wormmon evolve!" The caterpillar like digimon turned into a humanoid looking insect. "Stingmon!"

"V-Mon evolve!" The short blue dragon grew to a three meter tall winged, humanoid dragon. "XV-mon!"

"XV-mon!"
"Stingmon!"
"Jogress evolve!" the two digimon called out in unison and merged into a half-insect, half-dragon humanoid form. "Paildramon!"

"Paildramon ultimate evolve!" Paildramon shot into the air and landed as a gargantuan quadruped blue dragon with black arm guards and a red metal mask. "Imperial Dramon!"

"I'm going to enjoy this," the dual voices of Imperial Dramon said in unison.

Greymon sweeted. "Um, okay. He's yours."

"Why don't you play with Skull Greymon?" Ken suggested. "See if you can get him to devolve."

Imperial Dramon nodded once and flew off in search of his prey.

Hikari, Tailmon, Takeru and Patamon, having finished their talk with Iori, went to the Digital World since Taichi and the others had yet to return. They arrived in time to see Imperial Dramon bounce a Skull Greymon off the side of a cliff.

"You know, we're going to have to deal with their baby forms for a long time after this," Daisuke commented from off to the side.

"Of course," Ken replied. "That was part of the point. I'd rather deal with a baby digimon who 'lost' a friend and not a lovesick one who's upset because he never took the chance."

"I didn't even know Wormmon was interested in Tailmon. I understand that V-mon was, but not Wormmon," Hawkmon commented.

"Wormmon?" Tailmon mouthed and then shuddered. "Ew."

"Who knows with the matters of the heart?" Ken answered.

"Um, hi guys." Hikari waved. "What's going on?"

Miyako looked over at the embarrassed looking couples. "Sora and your brother are dealing with Vamdemon, who insists he found his little 'pet.' We're trying to get him to devolve to hopefully a more intelligent form and find out if Vamdemon forced the evolution."

"Um, okay." Hikari nodded.

Daisuke tried to focus on Imperial Dramon, and not look at Hikari. The image of her fucking Takeru was burned into his memory and he wanted it gone. As much as he wanted to see her naked before, he had NEVER wanted to see it that way.

Imperial Dramon was inventing new ways of fighting in this form. He had already broken Skull Greymon's arm off. He hadn't quite meant to do that, but he didn't care too much about it either. The dragon then snarled angrily seeing Patamon and Tailmon sitting together on the sidelines. He grabbed Skull Greymon's head and started to pound it into the side of the cliff repeatedly.

"Ease up!" Ken shouted. "We don't want to kill him."

Imperial Dramon pulled his opponent's head out of the cliff and chuckled nervously. "Oops."

Suddenly the unconscious Skull Greymon shimmered and then shrank into a blue colored Greymon.

Imperial Dramon set the digimon down and then devolved into Chikomon and Leafmon.

The Chosen, their digimon, and Vamdemon surrounded the blue Greymon.

"Oh, my. If only I had my instruments running to analyze this," Vamdemon said regretfully.

The blue Greymon stirred and hissed in a feminine voice. "How dare you bastards do this to me? First, that freak kidnapping me, and then you forcing me to become this pathetic, weak form."

"It's not pathetic or weak," Greymon said defensively.

The blue Greymon shifted and looked at him. "Hmm... maybe there are some advantages."

Greymon took a step back while Birdramon moved in front of him.

"So, Vamdemon had nothing to do with your evolution to Skull Greymon?" Birdramon asked.

"That idiot?" The blue Greymon laughed. "Not a chance. He was only lucky in catching me."

Tailmon raised an eyebrow. "You mean he's innocent of everything except capturing a Skull Greymon?"

"Yes." The blue Greymon nodded. "He should be punished for that."

"More like rewarded," Takeru said in disbelief. "Well, this solves that problem. But, what do we do with her?"

"Leave me alone with tall, orange and handsome?" the blue Greymon asked hopefully.

Birdramon scowled. "Over my dead body."

Miyako threw her arms into the air. "Okay, even the bird is getting lucky."

Greymon blushed while scratching his chin nervously. "It's... ah..."

"Just be quiet." Birdramon glared.

"Yes, dear." Greymon edged away from the group.

Ken rubbed his chin while looking at the large adult digmon. "What would the children look like?"

"An interesting question indeed." Vamdemon nodded.

"TMI, guys. TMI." Daisuke waved his arms. "I do NOT need to hear this now."

"Sorry," was said by a few of those present.

"Well, what are we going to do with her? She is a viral Greymon, after all," Sora said, trying to change the subject.

"Let's just port her to another part of the Digital World and be done with it," Daisuke suggested.

Ken pulled out his notebook computer. "Any suggestions as to where to send her?"

Daisuke entered his room, followed by Miyako, and he placed the sleeping Chikomon on a pillow that was on the floor. Motomiya then slumped against his bed. "I'll never have a girl with me. I'm just a jerk chasing after a hopeless dream. I had wished that Hikari and Takeru were lying to me for some reason. That Hikari was testing me or something. I could deny what they said."

Miyako sighed. "But you can't forget what you saw."

Daisuke shook his head. "How can I forget seeing THAT? Seeing how happy she was with him."

"You've come a long way already. You can't give up now," Miyako pleaded.

"Why not? Why would any girl let someone like me have sex with them?" Daisuke retorted angrily.

Miyako blinked and then yelled, "Get a grip will you? You're twelve years old! You can't give up because one girl chose to be with someone else when you've got so many years ahead of you to find someone else!"

Daisuke glared. "Yeah, right. I don't know of a single girl who likes me enough to even kiss me let alone have sex."

"Oh, really." Miyako placed her hands to the sides of Daisuke's face and drew him into a kiss.

Daisuke's eyes were wide with surprise. He couldn't quiet believe what Miyako was doing. Her tongue had forced itself into his mouth and prodded his own into action. His tongue swirled around and tasted hers. He had wished Hikari would've kissed him like this, but knew that was never going to happen.

Daisuke started to take off her shirt, and was surprised when she broke off the kiss and helped remove it. He kept pushing farther, doing more to her, as if waiting for her to confirm his words by stopping him, rejecting him.

Miyako knew this was stupid, letting the boy have his way with her. Yet she wasn't sure what stopping this would do to him. And honestly... she was curious. Why did the other girls take the risk? Was sex really as good as advertised?

Daisuke smirked down at panting girl under him. "Okay, so there's one girl who'd have sex with me."

Miyako nodded, almost reluctantly. "Yeah. Though this is a one time thing."

Daisuke blinked. "One time?"

"You're a good friend, someone I never want to lose... but..." Miyako trailed off uncertainly.

Daisuke sagged. "But... I'm not someone you can see spending the rest of your life with, huh?"

Miyako sighed. "Well... basically, yes. Can you imagine us trying to be a married couple?"

Daisuke shuddered. "Um, well, no."

Miyako played with Daisuke's hair. "What I gave you is a gift I can never give again. So, don't cheapen it by killing yourself or saying no girl would ever sleep with you. There are lots of girls that like you and would be willing to be your lover or your wife given time."

Daisuke laughed. "Now I'm being dumped by a girl minutes after she took my virginity."

"Daisuke... I..." Miyako stammered.

Daisuke shook his head. "We never really had a relationship in the first place, so how could you dump me? This was just to prove your point."

"Um, right," Miyako replied uncertainly.

"Do you still respect me?" Daisuke asked with some sarcasm.

"Well, it's not like I respect you any less." Miyako forced a smirk. "Actually, I respect you more. You got me to orgasm twice on your first try. A lot better than Takeru."

Daisuke raised his eyebrow. "How would you know?"

Miyako glanced away sheepishly. "Hikari told me."

"So, I'm a better lover than Takeru." Daisuke chuckled. "Cool."

Miyako smirked. "He's a few centimeters bigger than you though."

"He is?" Daisuke looked down. "I thought this was good."

"Maybe compared to normal guys your age." Miyako stood up. "You going to be all right?"

Daisuke nodded. "Yeah. I'm fine." He got an odd gleam in his eye. "Though if this is a one time thing, think we can go one more time before we finish?"

Miyako blinked. "One more time?"

Daisuke nodded and stood up. He kissed her and began touching.

Miyako did not offer any protest as he continued to pleasure her in ways she couldn't begin to describe.

Daisuke still wished this was Hikari he was with, yet he was still set to enjoy every second.

Miyako spasmed uncontrolably. Her breathing slowly caught up to her and she looked at Daisuke, who was now hugging her lightly. "Okay, maybe I'll reconsider this being a one time thing."

Life truly is funny. When you think there's no hope at all, someone comes along and gives you that hope. Sure, Miyako is still just a friend. But I certainly will never forget what it was like having sex with her.

I understand what my friends had been trying to tell me. That I should let go of Hikari and move on. There are so many other girls out there. It may be some time before I'll find someone I'd want to spend the rest of my life with, but I might as well test the ocean before I settle down. Having sex felt great and I can't wait to find another girl who'd make love to me.