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Chapter 8

Let Me Help You!

/*Irina's POV*/

When I returned home after Amelia's disappearance it was past midnight. My heart was beating fast and I was exhausted but I was feeling relieved after my conversation with Kaito and Marion. I felt like a huge weight just lifted off my heart. I don't know if I did the right thing by telling them and I don't know if this works but I had to gamble.

I carried Amelia on my back all the way to her room hoping that my parents wouldn't hear anything or didn't notice our absence. Unfortunately my luck had left me years ago and I shouldn't count on her… I should have known better.

"Irina! What time is it? Where are you going...with Amelia on your back?" my mother asked half asleep and half blinded. I took advantage of her situation and I lied that I got Amelia from the garden where she had fallen asleep. My mother didn't seem to believe my excuse but let me go for the night. I let Amelia on her bed and I left for my own. I needed some sleep… But that sleep never came.

I was unable to sleep. I was moving left and right unable to even close my eyes. I was anxious about the outcome. What would happen to Amelia? To Seijuro? How will they handle it? Will Amelia remember? Are they gonna have a happy ending?

I kept asking my self questions like that until morning came. I just got up and went to get a cup of coffee. I looked like shit but I had to keep going so I spent the rest of the morning in the kitchen waiting for Amelia to get down to get her breakfast like always. With me I had her old necklace. It was still red like blood but now it was half his original shape. Yet you could tell that his original shape was a heart. Seijuro had a good taste when it came to gifts. I remember him trying to find the best moments to give Amelia something new almost every day and week. He was spoiling her too much. My mother was asking him to stop but he would only give her more. He gave her that necklace during her birthday when we were in Hawaii. It was a special order. Rudy. The heart was made out of ruby. Amelia was so happy that she kept wearing it all day everyday, even during her sleep.

But it is sad how that necklace ended up cracked in half, hanged from the neck of a half dead girl, who was going happily to her date only to meet with a fateful accident and cover herself in her own blood…

Blood…

Glasses…

Wounds…

Scratches…

Sirens…

And that hideous phone call that we got that night…

I kept looking at the half heart which was hanging from its golden chain in front of me. Half heart as her life became half. She forgot a big part of her life… you could say that she was half… My eyes kept following the pendant's soft movement and was lost in my memories when Amelia entered the kitchen frowned.

"Good morning Amelia!"

"Where do you see the good…?" she snapped at me and sat at the opposite side. A maid let a plate with her breakfast in front of her and got lost from my sight. Amelia kept eating in silence with me staring at her.

"About yesterday… I am sorry… I don't know what got into me..." she apologized and continued to eat. I blinked a few times and smiled at her.

"It wasn't your fault… you acted out of despair right?"

She nodded.

"Say… want to come with me? I have a surprise for you!" I smiled at her and she nodded again. I thought that if I wanted to help her I had to start from the beginning. One of the things she used to do was to play piano.

So hopping that she would remember something I took her to the music room. The room was kept locked from the time we returned to France. Now that I am thinking about it, it would be a good idea to take her to our older house at some point…

I opened the door and entered first. The room was spacious, full of windows, a piano in the middle of it and a bookshelf at the side. I leaded her to the piano and we sat in front of it. I took off the cup above its keys and started to play a simple piece which Amelia used to practice a lot when she was younger. I was checking her reaction and she was in deep thought. Then I got an idea.

I decided to test her memory, so I played a note wrong and check her expression again. She frowned.

'Bingo'

I continued to play and made more mistakes and she reacted to all of them. When I finished the piece I waited for her reaction.

"You suck." she only said and she started to play on her own the very same piece I had just played with no mistakes at all. Even her standing was correct. It seems like her body memory was still there. I smiled and continued admiring her elegance while playing.

"You used to love playing the piano." I said sadly, "…you practiced this piece over and over when you were little so you could-"

"So I could impress mum… I know..." she said unconsciously. I smiled more and I saw some hope at the end of that tunnel. Maybe I could actually help her get her memories back.

"Yes. Do you remember this one?" I asked and I started to play an other one, a little more difficult. I kept playing all the pieces she had learned and she was remembering them and mum's lessons on them.

The morning went on with us playing the piano for hours. So, after she almost remember everything, I wanted to check if she remembered the pieces she learned during her stay in Japan.

"Ne… do you remember this one?" I asked and started to play the Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven. This one was hers and Seijuro's favorite. They wouldn't stop playing it day and night until it was perfect for the piano and the violin.

She looked at me confused. She didn't remember it. This disappointed me greatly. This was one of the most important memories as she had started to learn that piece when we were in Japan. I got that she wasn't ready to learn about Japan yet. But it was only the beginning...
"I am hungry… lets go eat something." She told me and she got up. I watched her leaving the room as I promised that I would follow her later. When she closed the door I threw my head on the keys. 2
What if she never remembered about Seijuro? That was one of my best plans. They were spending hours and hours playing music. I guess that she hit her head extremely bad…

I feel so bad for her but I have to help her. I am her only chance to get back her memories with all the consequences. And those consequences will may be deadly. There is always the chance she will go after Hachico to make him pay for what he did to her.

"I can only imagine mom's face when she hears about it..." I giggled and I headed to the dinning room to eat something. My next plan was to show her some of our old family photos. Maybe she wasn't ready for Japan but she could at least remember her time in France. And maybe later I will ask her to go to our older house in France. After all we stayed in totally different houses just to avoid triggering any kind of unwanted memories like her fight with father when he announced her that she was getting married to a Japanese guy. She loved Japan and we thought that she would be a little happy about it, but no. She wasn't. We also sent her to a school where no one knew her and we asked her to avoid speaking about us to not make her classmates jealous of our money. The truth was that we couldn't have her locked in here just like that. Even if that is what we did at the end. Everything for the sake of her not getting her memories back.…

"Cruel..."

On my way to the dinning room my father approached me. His face's expression was cold and it gave me terrifying vibes. Something was not right. He stood in front of me tall and scary, something rare for him to do to his family members.

"Hello, father. What's up?" I asked relaxed and acted all cool like nothing happened.

"You took your sister to the music room I heard." he groaned annoyed. I nodded. "I see… so you are trying something?" he asked again.

"No." He knows!

"And where were you last night? You and Amelia returned after midnight. I have told you that she must not leave the house because-"

"Because we don't want anyone else to know about her being alive, I know. But isn't it a little too late for that? I bet that if Hachico was to learn about her being alive and amnesiac and marrying someone else he wouldn't care as long as Akashi was to marry his daughter. Plus that decision of yours to have her locked in here is getting ridiculous and-"

"You are not in position to speak Irina." he cut me brutally and showed me his office.

We both entered the office and he closed the door behind us. He sat behind his desk and I sat at the front.

"I have here the answer for your application of your postgraduate to one of America's universities."

"What?" I jumped up. This was one of the worst timing ever.

"They accepted you. You are leaving shortly."

"What? But lessons won't start for like a half a year from now! I refuse to go. Not now!" I almost scream at him. This was the worst possible scenario. Without me here Amelia won't have anyone to support her and the plan will collapse miserably!
"I will take Amelia with me!" I said all of a sudden. He looked at me with his eyebrows raised. He didn't like what I said. At all.

"No." he answered and asked me to leave and get my things ready.
"I am not going! Amelia-"

"You met with Akashi Kaito last night, right?"

His question made my blood cold and my whole body froze. He shouldn't know about this meeting at all. How did he-?

"The driver… huh..." I murmured to my self and looked at him with confidence.
"I did. Why do you care?" I asked like I didn't understand his reason behind that question.

"He saw Amelia alive..." he screamed and small veins started to appear on his face. I haven't seen him so angry before. "Do you know what is going to happen now? He will go and tell Akashi Seijuro about Amelia! Do you understand what you have done?" He slapped his hands on his desk and got up as he raised his voice.

I took a step back completely frighten by his murderous aura. But I knew that he was wrong. Amelia was so bad that she had reached to the point of trying to run away from us. She had to know everything.

"Amelia tried to run away…" I said calmly. He immediately lost all his nerves and looked at me like a wet dog. "She said that she had nightmares and that her past won't leave her alone. It seems like she managed to remember something and that won't let her sleep. She said something about her past chasing after her. So? You still think that it's a bad idea to have them know? It's been years."

My father took a deep breath and was lost in deep thought so I decided to express my feelings about the whole situation. Now or never.

"At the beginning I also thought that it was for the best. And I still think that we did the right thing because that way Akashi Seijuro would, how should I say it, calm down. If he knew about her amnesia he would obviously want to be here etc. And that way Hachico would suspect that something was wrong. Now… it's been years and I think that keeping her like that isn't the solution. You can't ask from a highschooler to be into the house like that. We were unlucky and they recognized her somehow… but this is too much. She is old enough to take her own decisions. No one is telling us that she will go and meet Akashi Seijuro. And I believe that Akashi himself, if he is willing to get her back, he will respect the whole situation and won't get her into trouble. They are both smart kids. You have to show faith into them..."

He looked at me devastated. I believe that he didn't want to come to this stage this early but he wanted to speak I think when Akashi was married. That way Amelia wouldn't be in such danger.

"It's also and the contract..."

"What about the contract?"

"There was also one more term… Amelia should not get her memories back..."

That is new and outrageous. I got up and started to walk up and down.

"Then we have to tell her to play it amnesiac and away from Stefan."

My father stared at the door behind me and then back at me.

"Talk to her. I will talk to your mother… but at any cost stay away from Stefan… if anything I want her safe…" I nodded and turned around to go and find my sister but before I go I turned around.

"About my application..."

"You still have months before you leave.."

I smiled at him and left the office. When I closed the door I heard a sound of shattering glass behind me. I turned around and saw a maid gathering the pieces with her bare hands quickly.

"Do you need some help?" I asked her kindly.
"Oh no no… don't bother… I am juts clumsy… that's all..." she said with a small apologetic smile and I left her alone to go find my sister. But that maid was bugging me. Why was she there with a bunch of glasses anyway…

Well, that wasn't my job right now. I had to go to Amelia and ask her to tell me what she knew already along with her current state of mind and tell her everything...

/*Amelia's POV*/

Yesterday my sister sat me down and told me that she and our parents kept secrets from me. When she told me that, I thought that I could finally get some info about my accident and me knowing Japanese. But I never expected to hear what she had to tell me.

She told me that the doctor lied about not being able to get all my memories back. Actually I could get my memories back with a little push or more but they didn't want me to have hopes. She also told me that the house we were living wasn't our original one and that is why I couldn't remember anything from it when I was younger. We used to live at the other side of France and we just moved here so I was away from anything that had to do with my past. Of course everything they had told me was true but they hide lots of things just out of fear of me remembering anything. They wanted me to have a new start and be past free.

At the beginning I was shocked and then rage took over.

Lies…

But then she explained to me why all those lies were part of my life. She told me that I used to have a fiance, Akashi Seijuro, the redhead boy from my dreams I guess as the description was the same of him, who I was supposed to marry but I didn't want to because it was an arranged marriage. That fiance was in Japan and our fathers had made a deal and our marriages would sealed the deal, so we moved there to live all together. At the end we ended up falling for each other during middle school but because an other company, Hachico, didn't want that wedding to happen, they tried to kill me causing the accident I was in. At the end I managed to survive but I ended up amnesiac. They managed to take me back to France and have me start a new life. No one knew about my accident or my hypothetical death as my parents did everything they could to stop the news from getting out of Japan, so my face and name wouldn't be in any media or else I wouldn't be able to live a normal life if they knew that I was supposed to be dead. But Douchberg's son saw me and recognized me somehow. Douchberg was an other company owner who was friends with Hachico and he threatened us to send me to Hachico and have me killed unless I was to marry his son, Stefan. They kept me in darkness all this time so I wouldn't go back to my ex-fiance and put everyone, and mostly my self, in danger. My ex-fiance didn't know anything too. He still thinks that I am dead.

I started to laugh.

Don't joke with me, Irina. You found me in a very sensitive moment and you are playing with me like that.

But she wasn't laughing. Her face was stiff and serious. Her eyes were glued on me and she was nervous. The atmosphere got colder and her lips trembled.

I am not joking Amelia. This time I am serious. Please believe what I am saying. It is important...

I lost my smile. Believe her? According to her previous statements my whole life was a lie until now. They hided very important parts of my life and they lied about them. So actually believing her would be something hard.

Believe you? Are you kidding me? You just told me that you lied to me all those years and you want me to believe you now? How do I know that you aren't lying again?

She nodded and gave me some papers. She told me that they were the contracts between our family and the Akashi family, and the contracts between our family and the Douchberg family. I took them into my hands and examine them quickly. I noticed a few key words which were verifying her sayings.

And why are you telling me all this now? You know what the contract is saying. How do you trust me now?

I said with a smirk and I threw the contract with the Doucherg in front of her. The contract was clear. The moment I was to learn what is going on, Hachico is on his way to kill me. Her telling me all this was dangerous and until now she was following the rules blindly. I couldn't possibly believe that she would do something like that. But she was ready for this question. She took a deep breath to calm her nerves and looked at me straight into my eyes. Her dark brown/honey eyes were seeing through my soul. I still remember the sudden fear I felt for a brief moment.

Because I got scared. I thought that I lost you. I love you and I don't want to lose you because of some idiot who decided to make your life a living hell. We tried to keep you away from all this craziness but they won't stop coming after us… You were so happy before Douchberg so there was no point on telling you anything more. But after Douchberg, everything went down hill… I can't just watch you suffer… and… and try to kill yourself at some point…

That answer was something that I didn't expect. It got me blocked. I was ready for her to start blaming me for acting like an idiot and making them brake the contract or whatever but not something so emotional like that.

I don't know what kind of relationship me and my sister had before the accident but she really helped me and stood by me while I was amnesiac. My parents helped me a lot but their way of acting changed when Douchberg appeared like she said. We grew apart day by day and we ended up acting like a "proper" family completely ignoring the suffering of each other. We started to do what someone in our place would do, the proper thing to do. My mother had to be the good wife who agrees on everything with her husband. My sister was the bad sister who was older and thought that her younger sister was a pain in the ass and an idiot. My father was the usual coldhearted millionaire who expected everyone to do anything he was telling them to do just because he was bringing the money home and I had to be the good daughter who followed their orders and never complained.

At the end I forgot what it was like to speak to someone about your problems. I ended up being alone trying to fight against them. So her sudden expression of love shook me but I have to admit that it made me happy. But I won't forgive them yet. It still huts and their ways with me wounded me deeply. Lies were what I despised the most and I was being fed with lies my whole life, after the accident. Of course they did it for my own good, in their place maybe I would do the same but it was too much. I just can't wrap my head around this kind of acting. I bet that they didn't regret it and they won't say that they were sorry because they will say that this was the best thing they could do for me and my life after…

But truth to be told my life after the accident was a good one. I had friends, I had school, birthdays, I was going out for parties and concerts. My life was good… until Douchberg…

I wonder how my life was before the accident…

And now here I am, lying on my bed, looking at its sky and wondering all those questions along with what was the best thing to do from now on. I had a picture of what was going on, but what should I do now? My choices were a few and simple. Stay away from everything and continue to live the life they chose for me and be unhappy by marrying someone you didn't love just to be safe. Or I could dig more about my past and learn more about me, about my ex-fiance, about my old friends, about Hachico.

The answer here was obvious. I had to finish what I started. I would go deeper and learn more. But then what would I do? Say that I learned about everything, what am I supposed to do afterwords? Go find them? Find my ex? Go against Hachico and stop him from doing anything like that again?

Can I do something like that? According to Irina, Hachico was a very dangerous man. So going against him would be an impossible task for me alone.

I got up from the bed and left it. I walked slowly towards the mirror. It was already morning so I had to get ready. I sat in front of the mirror and I looked at me. I was tired. My eyes had dark circles and my hair was a mess. It took my brush and tried to fix them. I was so tired and an emotional mess yet I failed to notice it. Once I was ready I grabbed a dress from my closet, wore it and left the room. I was hungry and I wanted to breath some fresh air so I asked from the maid to bring my breakfast to the garden.

I sat at the table and took off my shoes immediately. I wanted to feel the grass beneath my feet. It was calming and relaxing. The whole garden was full of flowers and the sun was hidden behind some clouds. The temperature was perfect.

"Good morning Amelia" I heard Irina and I saw her sitting at the chair opposite of me. She let a folder on the table and smiled at me weakly. I examined the folder from afar confused. She noticed and she started to explain to me that he contained old photographs.

"Old photographs?" this was a big surprise. She nodded and took them out. There were photos of me and her when we were smaller.

"Amelia, do you want me to tell you more about those times?"

"Those times?"

"Yes. About our time here and in Japan."

Her voice was sweet and apologetic. She was really trying to not get my nerves and to make me accept her words. She was feeling extremely guilty. But did I really want to know?

"Ne, Irina. Right now I am in a dilemma." I announced to her to catch her whole attention. "I don't know if I should learn about my past… I mean with every possible detail. I don't know if I can handle the consequences." She closed her eyes and nodded. She understood what I meant.

"It's your call Amelia. But if I remember correctly you had started to look for your past and then your nightmares came… are you afraid of them coming back?"

What she asked me never occurred to me. My nightmares.

"Oh… well they started when I started to look for my past indeed. They stopped when I stopped looking, but they started again some weeks ago. They will continue to come, don't mind them." I was doomed to be followed by them. That was my misery.

"What if they stop when you learn everything? Can we believe in something like that?" she asked concerned. I eyed her confused.

"I don't know. I mean… I am afraid that by learning everything won't guarantee that I will also remember them." It was true. Until now I didn't see anything changing inside of me.

"Are you afraid of not remembering anything?" Irina asked me.

"Yes."

"I see… well you have nothing to lose if you learn about everything. Then you can decide based on the information I am gonna give you how you will move on. Of course I can't tell you lot of things about your friendships and your relationship with Akashi Seijuro, but I will do my best."

"You want me to gamble?" I asked triggered. She was always smooth.

She smiled satisfied and winked at me.

"You never change, aren't ya?" I chuckled feeling a little relieved that my personality maybe had something from my older self.

"Fine. Lets start!"

The next morning I found my self again in the garden thinking again what Irina had told me.

My life before we go to Japan was a normal one, I had some friends, I was playing the piano, I was drawing, learning English and Japanese. That scratches my question about me learning Japanese so easily. According to Irina, I could remember about the music I used to practice before Japan, so here goes and the one with the music sheets I had found, so if I was to visit our old house then I could remember about my past before Japan and see that they were telling the truth about most of the parts.

She continued saying that we went to Japan during middle school so I could meet my then fiance to be and we stayed there until my accident. And that is why my sister was owning a kimono. Triple check!

She said that I was to marry someone named Akashi Seijuro. That name didn't tell me anything, once again. I circled his name on the paper. For some reason I had the urge to cut it at Seiji or Sei. They sounded cuter for some reason. According to my sister I was in a relationship with him and I was madly in love with him. Yet I didn't remember him and I definitely didn't remember any kind of emotion like that. Only from my dreams which were not good memories.

"What a waste." I exhaled exhausted and disappointed. It was a waste indeed. I had a boyfriend and I forgot about him just like that. Was I really in love with him?

I placed my chin on the top of my palms on the table while having my pen between my lips. I started to wonder about him and what kind of relationship we could have. Was it romantic? Did we kiss? Did we go further? Did we go on dates?

"hm…."

The maid came again and took me out of my thoughts making me let the pen fall on the table.

"Miss Irina is looking for you. What should I tell her?"

"Tell her that I don't want to talk to her right now, I am busy. Once I am ready I will go and find her my self."

The maid nodded and left once again. I returned to the papers while grabbing my pen again.

I had wrote down the name 'Hachico'. The one responsible for everything. The one who tried to kill me. The one who is the real enemy here. Next to him I wrote 'Douchberg'. The enemy number two. Under him I wrote 'Stefan'. I wonder if he was involved in all this with his own free will. I had to check it so I wrote next to him 'speak'.

I yawned again. I was so tired. At least my head stopped hurting. Now my eyes were killing me. "Ha-chi-co." I spelled his name carefully so I could memorize it. I noted that I had to look for him and learn about his business. I had to know with what I was going against.

"Against?" I asked my self surprised.

clang

I looked up and saw the maid again. She had brought me the coffee I had asked quite some time ago. She smiled at me and left again. I took a sip from the coffee and I felt it run through my veins. I really needed that coffee. It relaxed my veins and my nerves. I sat back more comfortably. I looked in front of me at the garden and observed his beauty. It was summer and it was full of red small flowers. It was a bliss. They were giving me a warm feeling and helping me relax. I thought that red would cause me fear because of that redhead in my nightmares but now I couldn't take my eyes of them. The small flowers were moving left and right lightly in harmony. They were like a red sea with small waves caused by the wind. I could probably be lost in that sea any time.

"Miss Amelia… Miss Irina told me to give you this folder." the maid came again letting a folder on the table. I thanked her and I looked at the folder. It was a note on it.

"These are photos you used to have in your previous cellphone. I hope these will help you."

I took the folder carefully and I examined him. I thought that my phone was destroyed during the accident. My old cellphone contained information about my past self after all. I continued to stare at the folder unable to decide if I can look inside or not. I didn't know if I wanted to open him or not. I thought that this folder was like the box of Pandora. Once opened the only thing that will remain is hope. Hope is the last one to die. You always remain with hope. I didn't want to only hope at the end of this story. If there will be any ending. I looked at my papers again. Hachico's name was haunting me. I shook my head and I slapped my face with both my hands to wake up.

"Amelia you shall not show fear! All those years he was terrorizing you and your family! Now it's time to fight back!" I tried to give courage to my self and I took the folder again. He was heavy as its content was photos. And lots of them.

There I could see so many different faces with their names written next to them. I guess Irina did that to help me remember. She did kept her promise after all. She promised me to tell me and give me everything she knew and had to help me regain my memories and replace the time I lost. I guess that was her way to gain my forgiveness.

I smiled at them and I took some of them in my hands. The first photo was of me and a pink head girl. We were both wearing matching outfits, school uniforms I guess, and we were both smiling at the camera. Her name was Momoi Satuki. She was cute and her smile was amazing. The next photo was again of Satsuki, who was giving me a peace sign. The next one was again one of me but this time with a handsome blond boy. His name was Kise Ryota. He was hot as fuck! How and where did I find him? I kept staring at him and then I took the next photo. And the next photo, and the next photo and the next photo.

The more photos I was seeing the more empty I was feeling. It was like I was watching the life of someone else who just happened to have the same face as me. I was feeling happy for the memories of someone else. It was like I was watching the life of someone else. So many different people, so many different outfits and expressions. So many different places and occasions. And that girl in all those photos was supposed to be me. I couldn't remember anything. I was feeling nothing deep. It was completely different from when I was seeing photos of me and Irina the other day. Then I could remember some of the occasions and that gave me some hope. But right now I was dead inside.

And then I got that I was dead for all those people too. All those people, who used to be friends with me, or the girl in the photos, believed that I was dead and they must have go on by now. So what would I just do? I would go up to them and say 'Hi! I am alive. Yeah, I am sorry...'

And who told me that I didn't have a fight with them before I died?

But the most important thing. If I was to meet with them again without my memories, I wouldn't be the one who was friends with them. I wouldn't know anything about them, about their problems, about things that happened to them and I used to know. I would just be stranger. I would be like I am trying to be someone I wasn't and someone who would want to be in their lives. A stranger.

And then I saw a photo of me with that redhead from my nightmares. I froze. It was really him. Red hair and the build was the same. His eyes were red and his smile was charming. I felt weird. I was feeling fear but at the same time I was feeling like something drawing me towards him. My heart started to beat a little faster and braced my self to see who he was.

"Akashi Seijuro… Your boyfriend..." I read. "Akashi Seijuro… your boyfriend..." I reread. I continued to repeat those words again and again and at the same time questions were popping into my head. I was trembling like a fish out of water trying to breath. I was trying to breath my self. I bent over the table and I grabbed my shirt where my heart was. She was beating fast and I had no control of her rhythm. I looked at the picture again. He really was the one. He was the one who was haunting me all this time.

"Why you..."

I threw my body behind and took a deep breath to calm myself down. I stared at the blue sky above me and continued to try to calm down taking deep breaths thought my nose. I closed my eyes and tried to think of something relaxing.

"Something to relax… something to relax..."

And then I saw it. I saw a big tree with beautiful pink flowers. The tree was standing tall and strong in front of me. His flowers were falling and dancing with the wind which taking them away. It was night and lights were giving a sensation of a fairy tail. It was a sakura tree. I loved sakuras. I always found them calming. Then I noticed the sound of running water next to me. I was sitting at the edge of fountain. I turned around and looked inside of it. It was full of kois which were swimming happily around. I smiled down at them and I tried to touch the water when I heard someone calling my name.

"Amelia!"

The voice was deep and worried. Almost angry with something. I turned around and I saw him again. That redhead who was terrorizing my dreams.

"Amelia! What are you doing there? I was worried about you!" I heard him say as he approached me slowly. This time I could see his characteristics crystal clear. Big red eyes and long red bangs falling messy in front of his face.

"Amelia, I looked everywhere for you…" he said again when he finally arrived in front of me. He smiled at me. His smile was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I felt my heart skip a beat and my whole world lighten up.

"Thank you..." he suddenly said with a warm tone. A tone I had to hear for months.

"Why?"

"For not giving up… and I am sorry for before… please forgive me..." he continued. His voice was like music in my ears.

"I forgive you..."

"Please let me find you..." he said again as he started to walk away from me.

"Eh?"
"Until we meet again in the real world!" he said and he left.

"Wait! Don't go! I-"

I screamed and I found my self again in my house's garden looking at the blue sky again with my hand raised again. I was breathing heavily and was covered in sweat. I looked around me and got up slowly from my seat. I was feeling tired and exhausted but happy. I really needed to sleep and this time I had the feeling that I could sleep in peace. I tried to step away when I heard that I stepped on something. I looked down and I saw I had stepped on one of the photos. I picked it up and put it on the table. The photos had scattered all around the garden. Only one was left on the table. A photo of me and Akashi Seijuro under a sakura tree smiling and a fountain right behind us.

While Irina was talking to me about out time in Japan I was like I was learning the story of an other girl after all. Not mine. I tried so hard to get each and every possible information written into my mind. I didn't want to lose any kind info that could possibly trigger any memory. Even the smallest memory would help me. Anything… Anything… and that is what I was thinking at the beginning of our talk. But the more I was learning the more I was feeling like a total stranger. It was like I was reading a book which had the life of someone else.

And all those photos. All those people. Even my ex. I didn't know anyone. I couldn't recognize anyone. I realized it even before Irina tells me more details about the people in the photos. My worst fear became true. I was afraid that I wouldn't remember anything from what she was about to tell me. And here I am unable to remember a very important part of my life. Because from what she told me, that Amelia was happier than ever.

Now that I am thinking about it, when I was first told that I had amnesia and that the possibilities of remembering my past was near to zero I remember telling 'ok'. They had just told me that before that moment I had no history and that I would just be told about the things I did before that very moment. I didn't understand at that time.

"Now you will start a new life."

That is what the doctor told me. Then I didn't really give him any attention but now I understand very well what he meant. That very moment it was the start of my new life. Yes, a new life, not the continuation of my previous life.

Right now I feel like my old life and my old 'me', are all gone. Like I did a reset. A reset of my life. Because until now I didn't remember anything, I didn't remember my adventures, the lessons I took, the things I learned, and the Amelia that got created after my accident isn't the same Amelia with her before the accident. Even if I remembered some of my childhood memories, and even if I remember them later, I would still not be that Amelia. Now I understand. Reality finally hit me. Amelia… the Amelia before the accident is dead. She died that day at that accident along with her memories, way of thinking and image of the world and life. She never revived, she never left Japan. The Amelia that everyone on those photos knew is dead.

"That's right… she is dead…" I whispered and I felt something hot wetting my cheeks. Tears… All those people really loved that person. That boy, that redhead boy who continued to haunt me was just looking for her. And him being unable to find her caused him sadness. I don't blame him… but the next time he would come I would tell him the truth…

That Amelia Rose, whom he once loved and cared, is dead.

That was for the best. Now I had to find out what I was supposed to do from now on so I took my tears away and go into my room again. I went to my mirror and looked at my reflection.

Who was I? What should I do from now on? Should I just ignore Amelia and continue my life like it is? Or should I go and take revenge?

"Miss, would you like some tea?" the maid asked me.

"No, thank you… what I need is a very strong coffee so I can stay awake..." I answered with a broken tone. At the end I didn't manage to sleep at all. My head was killing me so I just stood up all night looking at the full moon but I reached to a decision at last!

I yawned like a lion and I looked at the papers in front of me.

"Miss Irina will be coming shortly." the maid continued and took her leave.

I asked Irina to meet me so I could tell her about my decision. It would be hard for her to accept it, and I still have to work on it, but it was for the best. That way I would be safe and everyone would stop worrying about me.

Irina arrived and sat next to me happily. I am sure that she will lose that smile soon.

"So Amelia? How are you feeling?" she asked me worried. "I heard you yesterday… and you wouldn't let me in to help you or at least speak to me… so… now are you ready?"

"Irina… I didn't remember anything, and that drove me to the conclusion that I will never remember anything. So I believe that the Amelia before the accident, died, and that after the accident a new Amelia was born. I am that one. So I decided to continue to live as the new Amelia and let the old one be dead along with her life, relationships and dangers that went after her." I stopped and waited for her reaction. She just blinked a few times and took a sip of the coffee that the maid just brought us.

"I have to admit that your brain still holds memories, like Seijuro, his bedroom, your accident, the park with the sakuras. That proves that you are the same old Amelia you are right now… So don't beat your self about past and present. But if you want to continue like that you have to know that you are who you are and you will always be my sister, is that understood?" she said with a strict tone while looking at me with her stare piercing me. I chuckled and I nodded. I still hadn't forgiven them for keeping all those things a secret from me but I couldn't stay angry for a long time. I had other things to do.

"What are you going to do with Seijuro. As I told you Kaito, his cousin and Marion's fiance, went there to tell him everything. How are you going to handle it?" she asked while taking a sip of her cup of coffee. I decided that those people should continue to live with the though that I was dead.

"Please stop him. I don't want them to get worried without a reason. Even if he learns the truth and comes and find me he won't find the Amelia he is searching for. I will just disappoint him and hurt him more..."

I started to get emotional and I remembered the dream I had the other day where he was thanking me for not giving up and I just did that… I let him down… but it was for the best. I felt tears once again and a sadness overtook me. I was too emotional for this kind of things. Now I understood how my family must have felt when they took the decision to keep me out of all this mess...

"Are you sure that you don't want to see him?" she asked me again.

"No. I don't want to meet him." I put emphasis to "meet", because I didn't know him and he didn't know me either.

"I see… but you need to know that Seijuro deserves the truth and I bet that he will love to see you again..." she continued. How could she be so sure?

"Correction... He will want to see the previous Amelia! Not the now Amelia!" I cried.

"Ok... I will speak with Kaito about it. You just continue to try to remember your past and-"

"Try to continue to remember my past? Well… I will only for the sake of just knowing… but I don't hope for anything..."

Irina just nodded and didn't ask anything more about that matter. Actually we never spoke about that for a long time after this roller-caster of emotions and memories. Later my parents came to speak to me and I announced to them my decision to not give any more attention to this matter and that I would marry Stefan for the sake of their effort and my safety but what I wanted in exchange was my freedom again. They didn't like it at first but they accepted eventually.

My mother even confined me that she was the one who let those Japanese textbooks and music sheets around the house for me to find but she asked me keep it a secret. She was the devil.

I also requested for Marion to keep on teaching me so I could finish highschool. My parents again didn't like it but they accepted it to. I have to admit that I didn't feel bad for them, not in the least.

I just had to get ready for the research I was going to do to uncover the truth. The whole truth behind my accident, what was Hachico's deal with Douchberg and how I was going to get Hachico for what he did to me. What my family told me didn't make any kind of impact to me. For some reason I felt that there was more behind all this and I wanted to know what. I lost too much time...

Amelia is getting into action!

Thank you for reading!

See ya next chap!