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Kaito Akashi - Seijuro's first cousin *

Irina Rose - Big Sister of Amelia Rose *

Marion - Kaito's Fiance back in France. *

*A small remainder! Bolds and Italics are for Bokushi and Italicsare for Oreshi. *

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Chapter 9

I Lost You Too

/* Kaito's POV */

After my talk with Irina, I was still in shock from the fact that Amelia was alive. It was something that I always thought about it. What if Amelia was alive? What if she was still alive but she was amnesiac. How little I knew that I was so close to the truth. Crazy. It was beyond crazy. It was something that only you could see it happen in the movies. It was a miracle.

I sat with Marion the very next day and I told her everything. About my past with Seijuro, about the fight between our fathers, about the whole deal between Amelia and Seijuro, the first time I met Amelia, the trip to Hawaii with every possible detail I could remember. The more I was saying the more I was realizing that this girl was a big part of my life even if it only lasts for such a short time. She had managed to win us all. She was a girl with always a smile on her face.

A few days later, and after I talked about it with Marion and my father too, I left for Japan. My father warned me about my uncle and about my aunt's situation. He said that she was sick and he asked me to pay her a visit if I could. So I found my self on a plane for Japan. Irina said that she would speak to Amelia about the whole thing hoping that she will understand and even remember something. But we could only hope.

Hope...

Hope must be the only feeling that Seijuro must have abused for so many years. In his place, I would only hope too. Hope that she didn't die. Hope that everything was a dream. Hope that nothing really happened. Hope that she will open the door and she will be there smiling once again. Hope that everything was a bad dream and when I wake up I would have her again in my arms… Hope. The only feeling that never escaped Pandora's box. The only thing we have left as humans is hope to keep us alive and going.

"Mr. Seijuro is in his room. He is getting ready to go on a trip to Tokyo. Do you want me to call him or do you want to wait for him to come down?" the maid asked me. I stared at her and smiled.

"I will wait for him to come down," I said kindly and she guided me to another room. I waited there for ten minutes maybe, when the door opened and a taller, red to pink haired boy, with kind, red eyes, entered confused. I immediately got up and stood awkwardly looking at him. He blinked for a few minutes, I think he was trying to recognize me. No wonder, we haven't seen each other for such a long time. But then he smiled more and looked at me with a look of sureness.

"Kaito? What are you doing here?" he asked me surprised as he approached me to hug me. I smirked and hugged him back.

"I came to see my beloved cousin. We haven't seen each other for so long. My fault. Please forgive me."

"No… it's my fault. I wasn't really in the mood to see anyone for a long time." His voice made him sound guilty. But he was also sad. He maybe never got over her after all. "So, I have to go now or else I will lose the train for Tokyo. Do you want to come with me?"

"Sure! I came to see you, so I am going wherever you are going!"

And so I followed Seijuro to the train station and we both took the bullet train for Tokyo. According to my cousin, an American basketball team came to Japan and challenged a college basketball team. They won against the Japanese team but they insulted them greatly so Seijuro and his old teammates decided to form a new basketball team and win against them. The college team had dear friends of them, so it got personal real quick. I admired his courage and his will to go forward. That showed that he was managing to go on in life. I felt that it may be unfair to destroy that calmness. What if he had moved forwards and didn't want to be bothered?

And then something started to bother me even more... What if he had fallen for his new fiancée?

We never thought about that… We only speculated that he was forced into another arranged marriage, but wasn't that what drew Amelia and him close in the first place?

What if we were wrong...

What if….

This question was stuck in my head during our trip to Tokyo.

After our arrival in Tokyo, we went to one of the Akashi hotels to let our things and then directly to the court where the practice would start. According to Seijuro, we would meet his old teammates, who I had met once back in middle school during my sudden visit. I have to admit that I got a little excited meeting them again, as I was still remembering each one of them, but I was also feeling a little uncomfortable as I would probably remind them of Amelia. I can still remember Amelia's angry expression when Seijuro almost collapsed from exhaustion. It was a bliss. I may not look like it, but I have a photographic memory and I remember lots of things and events, with lots of details.

When we arrived at the gym, we met with some familiar and some none familiar faces. There it was Aomine Daiki, Kise Ryota, Murasakibara Atsushi, Midorima Shintaro and Momoi Satsuki. Now there was an older man, another girl with short brown hair, and some more dudes looking at me confused.

"Ah, everyone! Let me introduce you to my first cousin, Akashi Kaito." Seijuro introduced me calmly. I bowed quickly and waved at them.

"Kaito?" Kise asked me. I could tell from his face that he was trying to remember from where he knew me.

"We had all met in the past… um… during Satsuki-san's birthday party in the first year of middle school. Seijuro doubled your training and then he came to pick me up. Because he told me that he would go to a birthday party we stopped to get a necklace-"

"Ah! You mean this one, right?" Satsuki jumped next to me and showed me her necklace.

"Yes. I am glad that you still wear it." I smiled at her.

We all looked each other numb. I believe that they must have remembered about Amelia. The atmosphere was getting heavier but thankfully the mood changed when the court entered a short teal head and tall redhead. I recognized the teal head immediately. He was Tetsuya Kuroko. According to Amelia and Seijuro, their pink head friend was in love with that teal head, and that is and the reason I bought her a necklace like that. I noted to ask Seijuro later about them. I was curious. I really liked them and they would do such a fine pair. Huh… I am a romantic guy, what can I do?

Well, apart from my wishes everything seemed to go well. More unfamiliar faces came in and they started to warm up. I sat on the bench along with the two females to not be a bother to the rest. I admired them. They had a goal and they all came together to accomplice that goal. They were fighting for the pride of their fallen soldiers. That was admirable.

But what I found more admirable was the female with the brown short hair. According to Satsuki she was the coach of Kuroko's basketball team. Being a coach at such young age and bringing your team into winning the nationals? That was one of lifetime accomplishment!

I kept staring at everyone in the court until they had their first break. Everyone came closer to us to get some towels and water.

"So, Kaito? How are you doing?" Satsuki asked me once everyone had their waters.

"I am doing fine. How about you? How is your life?"

"Oh! We are doing so much better… You know, lots of things happened… But now we are ok." she smiled weakly at me and she looked at Kise who just walked upon us.

"Now I remembered you! You had come late with Akashichi to the party! And Ameliachi got really angry at you because Akashichi was exhausted!" he exclaimed so loud that everyone in the court stopped what they were doing to look at us. Most of them had a shocked expression and I could only guess it was caused by the mention of Amelia's name.

"Ki-chan!" Satsuki hissed panicked at her blond friend who blinked at her confused.

"Baaaka!" Aomine facepalmed disappointed.

"Eh? Did I say something I shouldn't?" Kise asked now feeling guilty for his sayings. Poor guy.

"You did nothing wrong Kise." my cousin was heard from the middle of the court and everyone changed their view to him. "I am grateful for your care guys but I am ok now..." Seijuro smiled at everyone but the tension was still in the atmosphere. Those people really cared for their friend. They proved it after all and back then when Amelia was announced dead. When I arrived in Japan, after hearing about her accident, aunty told me about the support Seijuro had from his friends. I was relieved because he really didn't want to see me when I asked for him back then. But I am not angry at all.

"Um… who is Amelia?" a black haired guy, with hawk eyes, I think they called him Takao, asked. Everyone's eyes fell on him. Midorima was actually glaring at him. If a stare could kill, then the poor guy would be beyond dead by now.

"I think I heard that name before from Kuroko." Added the taller redhead and everyone eyed Kuroko. It was a murder stare contest.

"Amelia Rose was her name. She used to be my girlfriend during middle school. In the beginning, we used to hate each other but at the end, we fall for each other." Seijuro paused and Satsuki next to me smiled gently. "Unfortunately she died in a car accident during the summer vacations of the first grade of middle school," he added and gave them a sad smile. The ones who didn't know the story either covered their mouths with their palms either they widened their eyes in shock.

"I am terribly sorry, Seijuro-san. I didn't want to-" Takao rushed to apologize but his face was white as snow.

"It's ok. Really."

Silence fell on the court and guilt was visible on Takao's face. I felt sorry for the poor guy.

"Ok break is over!" the coach shouted and the players entered the court once again.

This time they had grim expressions and their reactions were slower than before. Maybe cause of the shock. The coach noticed that too and called the training off for the day sooner than he planned.

It was night already when the players went to take a shower and get ready to go home. I stood in the middle of the court alone with Satsuki, as the other girl, Aida Riko, was talking to her father. We talked about many things. I also got answers to my previous questions. She and Kuroko Tetsuya indeed ended up together. I was overjoyed by these amazing news but her face became dark.

"You know... at the beginning we were afraid, me and Tetsu-kun... We weren't sure if we should announced it... you know... cause of Akashi-kun. He had lost Ami-chan and maybe we would open hidden wounds... but thankfully he took it better than we thought." she gave me a huge smile and then Shintaro came up to us. "Momoi, Kuroko is looking for you." He said in his cool and mysterious voice. The girl jumped happily and skipped all the way to the men's lockers. Then the green hair turned to me, fixed his glasses and glared at me. I got really nervous.

"Akashi Kaito..." he started. His tone was low and dangerous. "I have a question for you."

"I am hearing." I played it cool. I didn't want to show him how much stressed I was right now.

"Why did you come back to Japan?" His question came out of nowhere and it caught me by surprise. Why would he ask me something like that?

"Hm? I am sorry but I don't get your question..." I laughed nervously and tried to give a good excuse.

"Let me make my self more clear then. You haven't seen your cousin since Amelia's death and now after so many years, you came suddenly to see him. From what I know your families were in some kind of disagreement and it's not like you are welcome here. So for you to come here, now, it's too much of a coincidence."

" 'Now' you say? Why? Did something happen?" Now I was confused. What happened?

"You want to tell me that you don't know about Akashi's second personality take-over a few years ago?"

"He did what? How? Why? And now he is ok?" This was the first time I was listening something like that. How did Seijuro's second personality took over him? They were cool with each other and Seijuro had him under control. At least that is what Amelia had told me when we were in Hawaii. I still remember his other personality. He was nasty, bossy and wasn't kidding around. He almost killed me once!

"I see… Yes, he is fine now. But you being here, I don't know for how long he will be fine." He said again with his cool and calm tone but he was sending me murderous vibes. What is wrong with people and murder today?

"I just came to see my cousin!" I started to explain as calmly as I could. "I really don't know anything about his change and I am planning on asking him. But I will agree with you there… I am from the few people who can trigger unnecessary things. I wish I could do something to change that..."

"You can't. No one can." he cut me brutally and fixed his glasses again. "He was destroyed… You better not do anything stupid." He announced and left me alone trembling in the middle of the court.

But he was right. Now that his life was getting better who was I to ruin it for him.

"Urg… Irina… we didn't think enough..." I murmured as I was rubbing the back of my head. And yet again, that Shintaro. He is a sharp guy. He immediately thought that my arrival was fishy. I had to be careful with him.

"Is something wrong?" Seijuro asked me as he appeared all of a sudden behind me. Did he hear our conversation?

"Eh? No no! Ready to go?"

"Yes..."

On our way out Takao stopped us. He bowed deeply to Seijuro asking for forgiveness for his rudeness earlier. Seijuro, once again, reassured him that everything was ok, and we went back to our way to the hotel.

"Ne… Cousin? Why are we going to a hotel and not to your home in Tokyo?"

"Because my fiancée will be all over me and I am not in the mood of speaking to her..." he said dryly and obviously annoyed. I didn't say anything on that matter but I believe that he didn't want to go and visit the house and be distracted from his nostalgia for Amelia. He needed to concentrate on the game first and the rest later.

That is and why I will keep quiet about everything until the game.

A week passed and at the last practice came to an end. Tomorrow would be the big game everyone was getting ready for. They were equally excited and exhausted but they knew they could win. We were getting ready to leave when Kise, Aomine, and Kagami decided to play an one-on-one. It was until a few minutes after the coach left us that someone noticed that Kuroko was gone too. Immediately everyone started to look everywhere for him when we realized that he was gone with the coach. We all gathered our staff and me, Seijuro, Midorima, Kise, Aomine, Kagami, and Atsushi ran like madmen to find the small teal head.

"Does he always do that?" I asked Seijuro.

"Yes… he never stops to amaze me!" he answered with a puzzled expression on his face.

When we arrived at the bar where they said they saw Kuroko, it was a little too late. The poor guy was on the floor after a punch he had received. The tension raised and the blood was boiling. Aomine and Kagami were ready to fight. I stood behind them also in a fighting position. We were ready to fight until Seijuro stopped us all. Calmly he threatened the enemies telling them that we will mop the floor with their faces and they started to laugh amused. Challenge was accepted and so we retreated coolly. I have to admit that Seijuro was a true Akashi. Compared to me of course. That and why I was feeling very proud of him.

We gathered at a park to check if Kuroko had any serious injuries and once we made sure that he was ok, we departed.

During our walk back to the hotel I felt a chill down my spine and I immediately turned to Seijuro who was walking beside me. Instead of meeting with the kind part of him, I met with two different colored eyes and a smirk. A smirk I really didn't want to see ever again in my life.

"Bokushi?" I asked shocked. For him to make an appearance to me personally must mean that something bad was going to happen. I had only met him once in my life and he almost took my eyes off with a pair of scissors. Otherwise, he was like a secret between a few family members. The only ones who knew about it were him, his mother, me, Amelia and Irina. The rest could just stay out of it.

"Ts… you don't call me like that!" he hissed annoyed but he didn't lose the creepy smile on his face.

"I am sorry… but they used to call you like that… anyway… for you to come out to me means that you want something from me..."

"My other half is not listening… so I want you to tell me the real reason for your visit."

"I don't know what you are talking about."

"You came here all of a sudden to visit your cousin after almost five years. Then you started to get nervous as the days passed and yesterday you received a phone call which changed you attitude completely around us. So… you must have a secret you don't want to tell to him. So tell me instead." He was serious but I didn't know if I could trust him. We never had any real conversation in the past.

And that phone call he talked about, it was from Irina. And the news were bad. Amelia started to remember but only until before her departure for Japan. Her time in Japan is non existent for her. That was a mess. Now, what was I supposed to tell to Seijuro? Or should I tell him in the first place?

"How can I trust you?"

"You can't, you can only risk it! Plus I am absolute! I must know everything!"

"That… sounds so… anyway… Right now I am in a very difficult situation and in a dilemma, so I guess you are the only one who can really help me with this… so I will talk to you… but you have to promise me to not tell anything to the main personality of yours."

"I promise."

His words were strong and straight so I guessed that he was truthful. I asked him to take a walk around the block and to find a more quiet place to talk. He agreed and we found a small park, empty and dark. So even if someone was to see us, they wouldn't be able to tell us apart.

Once we sat and checked our surroundings I dropped the bomb.

"Amelia… Amelia is alive." He blinked but recovered quickly.

"You are lying. Give me proof."

"I am not lying…" I took my phone out. I had asked Irina to take a picture of Amelia in case of something like that happened. I looked for the picture and showed it to him. He took the phone in his hands and kept looking at her. He handed me the phone back and closed his eyes. His smile was gone and a frown took its place. He kept being quiet for some time. I guess for him to get it. It is a shock.

"If she is alive… why are you here alone?" he asked all of a sudden.

"That… Amelia is amnesiac." I said and he dropped his head dramatically. That felt, somehow, out of character… But what do I know? I have only met the guy once!

"Are you serious?"

"After the accident, no, after the attempted murder against her, she was still alive. Her parents, mine and yours knew that Hachico was the one behind it so they sent Amelia away for her own safety. She is in France now. Unfortunately, she couldn't remember anything after waking up and her parents didn't do anything to make her remember. So they kept her in total darkness about her time in Japan and anything that associated it with it."

His eyes widened and he got up. "So she doesn't remember him? At all? Nothing?"

"No… And even though Irina spoke to her about him, in the end, Amelia refused to contact with Seijuro or have him in her life again. She believes that the Amelia that he loved once is dead and meeting her would just disappoint him. She said that it would be better this way."

"Does she know about the new fiance?"

"No… but even if she knew her answer would be the same, don't you think?" I asked him. It seemed to me like he was trying to explain her behavior.

"Yes… Hearing that he has a new fiance, would make her back down even more..." he said in deep thought.

"And now here is the dilemma… should I tell Seijuro that she is alive or not? Keep in mind that telling him, will endanger both of them."

"Hachico?"

"Yes."

"And how did they managed to keep her away?"

"That… they didn't succeed at the end… Someone, who works with Hachico spotted her and to keep his mouth shut, they had an arranged marriage between his son and Amelia. The wedding will take place after they finish high school."

"I see… the same as Oreshi..." Bokushi murmured. He halted and got lost in thought. But I was patient… he was the only one who could really help me right now.

Time was passing by but I still had no answer. I started to get disappointed when he finally answered me.

"Talk to him after the game… and make him go after her no matter what," he said. I stared at him confused. "He is still in love with her, and if you explain to him what is going on, he will understand. But he may don't do anything, just to keep her safe… so make him go after her before it's too late, before they both get married and they can't escape." He was looking at me dead straight in the eyes. He was serious. He believed me and he got worried about his other self. That was a relief.

"Are you sure that this is the best choice?" I had to make sure.

He chuckled and started to walk away from me. I chased after him so I could hear his answer.

"Oreshi hasn't really forgotten about Amelia. That girl was the love of his life. It was the one who made him more open and able to talk about his feeling and goals in life. Her death and his sudden new fiancée destroyed him. He tried to keep in touch with the real world by playing basketball, but things got worse. He felt like he was losing everyone so we changed places. I did horrible things to his friends. I was a complete asshole and I got my lesson… they forgave me but I can't forgive my self. But at least with me here, he managed to get back himself and face straight again."

"I am afraid of doing him wrong..."

"You won't. He himself decided that he would only love another woman, only if she is much better than Amelia. And trust me, he hasn't found no one yet."

"What about his fiancée?"

"Her? He doesn't even want to see her in front of him! I was the one who was at their every interaction! Don't even think about her. Focus on your goal! Inform my other self!"

Now we were in front of the hotel we were staying. We proceed to the elevator and waited for us to arrive at our floor.

"What about you?" I asked him while looking at him through the mirror.

"This is a battle that he has to fight alone… now he has friends and people who care about him. I was created to keep him company and to help him endure what he didn't want to face. I have already done enough and I believe that it's my time to go..." His tone was kind and his face peaceful. But I could tell what he had in mind pretty much...

"I see. I can't tell that I know how it feels… but it would be like... he lost a brother..."

"He will manage. I believe in him… And I believe that now he will be able to overcome any kind of obstacle… so promise me that you will be here for him and push him on finding Amelia. She is exactly what he needs right now and he needs to be one and complete to be able to fight!" He stopped talking for a while. He wanted to calm down a bit. When he was ready he continued calmly. "At the end... even if she can't remember him, even if they won't ever end up together... he will feel much better knowing that she is alive and happy, other than dead... He will fight for her happiness even if he never gets her back... Her existence will give him the strength he will need..." He turned to me and he looked at me in the eyes. He was honest. His eyes were smiling, like he finally got the salvation he was seeking all those years. "I knew that she was still alive... and now that I am correct... I am happy to go... So promise me."

He never stopped looking at me. He turned out to be a person that i would like to have a real conversation sometimes. Too bad that this won't ever come true. What i could only do was to make sure that he would be peaceful wherever he would go.

"I promise." I told him and I gave him my hand. He stared at it and chuckled. Once we shook hands the elevators was at our floor.

"Thank you 'cousin'!" He teased me by sticking his tongue out. It still felt somehow out of character... "Say 'hi' to Amelia for me!" And with those words, being his last ones he closed his eyes with a calm smile on his face. I could tell that he was thankful and he had no regrets.

No regrets, huh?

"Have a safe trip… It was nice knowing you..." I manged to mumble before he was long gone and Seijuro's main personality was back again blinking at me and questioning me how he got himself at the hotel.

/* Akashi Bokushi's POV */

I was in shock when I heard about Amelia but the picture looked real. She had Amelia's characteristics and she looked older. She still had long brown hair and honey eyes, even though her eyes were dead. She indeed seemed like someone who had a huge gap in her life. She was also sad. It was like I was seeing my other self. He was sad, he was devastated. He was crying non-stop every night alone. He wanted to speak to her. He wanted to see her one last time. He was angry at me for leaving the hospital without seeing her one last time. But I believe that it was the right thing to do. If she was really dead, as they told me, then him seeing her cold, emotionless, bloody would be traumatic. That image would stick with him for the rest of his life. It would be much better if he would remember her as the smiling girl that she was.

But I knew that something was fishy! I was right when I thought that they were acting strange. But years passed and nothing was done. So he decided to face it. He knew that he had to face her death and continue with his life, but then his father announced his new arranged married. He was shocked, he tried to fight him and he was still under the impression that he will manage to survive and come out as a winner. He wanted to show to Amelia, who was supposedly watching over him, that he won't give up and he will continue to live and fight like she wanted.

Like she was always telling him to do.

She was always there pushing him and encouraging him. She was the one congratulating him when his father wouldn't recognize his tries and successes. She was the one who was supporting him, telling him that she was proud of him every day and for even the smallest thing. Mother was also supportive but father was always an obstacle. Amelia was his life jacket. After her death, he lost that life jacket. He started to drown in his sadness and hopelessness. He managed to stay on the surface but the last hit was his fear of losing his friends. And his worst fear became true. That sent him underwater and he gave up. He stopped fighting so I took over and made things even worse. The good thing that came out after this crazy journey was for my other self to come to terms with his life and took over…

But years passed and his suffering never ended and will never end now that Amelia refuses to see him. He will be destroyed but now it's the right moment for him to know the truth. He is back being himself, he has friends who will support him, help him and he will be able to face it. He is also more mature than he used to be. Now he will know what he has to do. He is more mature to face things like that.

Mature huh? Yes, because he is not anymore the little boy who was following what his father was telling to do, blindly. Now he is strong, confident and determined. He knows what to do and how to do it right. And I know that he will know how to deal with Amelia's case. I trust him. And I hope that she will remember him, or at least give him a chance. And if not, he will at least be able to move forward easier, knowing that she is happy. Because cause of her amnesia, it's not like she betrayed him. I hope that he will understand it.

But it's a wonder, how could someone in such a little time, manage to influence him that much. I never understood that but I don't blame him. It's a bliss that he got influenced by her. Now I know that he will be fine when I am gone. I guess love can produce miracles huh?

"You will be fine… I know that you will manage to continue your life and you will be able to face any obstacle. Now you have friends who love you and support you. Now you have a goal and you have sailed to accomplice it. And I am sure on your road to success you will find more supporters, more love and you will obtain your freedom once and for all. I believe in you… my other self… so don't be sad…"

"How could I not be sad… you are my brother and my only support in my life… How can go on without you? You are the only person that understands me… Please don't go… If it is about my friends they have forgiven you, you don't have to blame yourself anymore… But stay by my side…. There are still so many things that I want to tell you… So much advice and thoughts... There are so many things that we have to do..."

"No… It's ok… now I know that it's ok… Now I know that you are ready… I have done me deed… I was created to keep you company and help you…. Now you are ready… You are ok… You will be fine brother… So don't worry and go forward… I wish you strength… The future seems unpredictable…"

"Eh? What do you mean?"

"You will see… But don't give up… Fight until the very end for your happiness… Goodbye now… I was happy being with you… Thank you for everything… Thank for creating me..."

"You… I should be the one thanking you... for everything… Goodbye…"

Yes… this is for the best…

/* Akashi Oreshi's POV */

The game ended with our win. The game was so intense and I have to admit that I thought that we would lose at some point. Atsushi even got hurt. In the end, we managed to win without giving up.

But during the game, I lost him. I lost the only person that I had left and who was there for me. I lost my brother. I lost my savior. I lost a very important person to me, but I sucked it up. I decided to leave this sadness aside and focus on my current goal. To win. And I did just that. I didn't want to worry anyone. I didn't want to burn anyone with my problems. I had burned them enough in the past.

So I put my mask on and tried to be an enjoyable company.

I took them all back to the hotel I was currently staying with Kaito and I reserved the whole dining room. Food and drinks were everywhere, light music and lots of chat. Everything I could do to take my mind away from him. But it was impossible after all. How could you just delete someone like that… It was too brutal. Why I keep losing people that I love like that. First Amelia, then my friends, now him and I am afraid, later, my own mother. Her health is getting worse. I just can't do it like that. It is too much.

"Akashi-kun." A familiar voice took me out of my slumber. Ι looked up I saw her. I saw Amelia smiling down at me with her hair falling lightly on her shoulders. She was beautiful. But once I blinked, I lost her. It was an illusion. It was a freaking illusion. "Um… Are you ok? Akashi-kun?" The voice spoke again and now I could see the owner clearly. It was Satsuki. She was looking down at me worried.

"Yes. I am sorry. Did you speak to me?" I asked her because I was sure that I hadn't listened to anything. She smiled at me and handed me a microphone. I stared at it until she spoke again.

"Let's celebrate Akashi-kun!"

But I couldn't follow. I was too distracted by my loss that I couldn't really celebrate our win. So I just shook my head slowly and I apologized to her as kinder as I could to not give away my sadness. She accepted my answer and left to find someone else to sing with. I grabbed that chance and I left the room to take some air.

The night was beautiful, the moon was glowing above me and sakura petals were flowing along with the low wind. I opened my hand and let some petals land in my palm. "Sakura? At this time of the year?" I wondered but I didn't mind it. It was actually refreshing. I stood by the balcony and let my gaze wander around. I didn't know what to do. I was now alone and lost. I lost my friend, my brother and my companion. It hurts. It really hurts.

"Akashi..."

I turned around and I saw Shintaro standing behind me with a troubled expression on his face.

"Shintaro? Is there something wrong?"

"Yes… You. I noticed your change… did he-?"

"Yes. He left..."

"I see… And how are you now?"

I chuckled. "I am going to be fine, thank you. I am used to losing people I love..." That came out too pathetic even for me… what am I doing...

"Are you talking about Amelia?"

"Yes… Funny how everything just revolves around her… It's almost like the universe wants to tell me something…"

He didn't say anything so I started to talk instead. I could trust Midorima. He was one of the few people I was considering a good friend. He wouldn't talk much like Kise and would tell what he had in mind without fearing the reactions he would get. He was also the most logical person among the rest. He was a good human being to have near you.

"I guess I am exaggerating… Amelia died years ago and I just can't let it go… Now that I lost him too, forgotten feelings and memories awaken within me once again. I don't really know how to face this thing again… I should have been an expert until now..." I should have been an expert... right? Right…?

I could feel tears bottle up, but I just couldn't cry right now when everyone was celebrating. I had to wait…

"Losing someone shouldn't be an everyday thing for someone to be an expert on it," Shintaro announced confidently and fixed his glasses. "I will be going inside with the rest. You stay here to calm yourself. Don't mind the others. You deserve some time alone to mourn."

"Thank you…."

And with that, he was also gone. Now I was alone again feeling the light breeze hit my cheek and dry the tears I couldn't stop from falling. It was so unfair.

Why did he have to disappear?

Why did she have to die?

Why do I have to marry someone else?

Was it because of God?

Was it because of my destiny?

Was it because someone didn't like me and wanted to hurt me by hurting the others around me?

Why?

I got so tired of asking this question for years. I thought that it was finally over, my torture of asking pointless questions but here we are again.

I raised my head to see the moon. It was a full moon. I used to stare at it quite often from my room's window. He was always trying to make me calm down and stop crying from remembering Amelia. He was always there and he was trying his best to make feel better. Until I broke and he took over. He had to deal with lots of things that I was unable to. And they were a lot…

He had to deal with my father.

He had to deal with my old and new teammates.

He had to deal with being the best of the best.

He had to deal with being the president of the school.

He had to deal with my sick mother.

He had to deal with my clinging fiance.

He had to deal with me...

"He overcame everything… He was strong… How could he tell that I am ready to face what it's going to come now… I am nothing compared to him... "

And speaking of it. He did say something along the lines 'the future will be unpredictable...'. Why did he say that, a little before he disappears? Was it that important that he had to mention it?

And what did he know that I didn't know? We shared everything. We shared the same body and the same mind… it would be impossible for him to know something that i didn't know.

It would be impossible…

"Cousin? Is everything all right?" Kaito came to the balcony and stood behind me.

It couldn't be…

"Yes, I am perfectly fine. What about you?" I turned around and smiled at him. He got confused by my question and blinked a few times.

"I am good and I am having fun in there. But you must come inside. Kagami has to make an announcement."

"Yes, I am coming..."

He left first and I followed. The only time I didn't know what happened was last night. I was on the road walking with Kaito and then he took over and then nothing. I don't remember anything. The next thing I know I was already at the hotel. During that blank time, something must have happened between him and Kaito. Which means that Kaito told something to my other self and then he disappeared…

What in the world did you tell him that made him disappear from my life…

Kaito…!

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