Chapter 1: Beginning

The rain poured hard that morning, as Olivia Benson buckled her daughter, Nevaeh, into her car seat, and then quickly jumped into the car, and headed to work. The bleak rainy day reminded her of the day she left New Jersey.

Olivia let herself float back to the day she left, 3 years ago. Tristan Tutuola had forced her to leave, evening going so far as to threaten her life. Olivia had decided that the only thing for her to do was to get as far away as she could. The very idea tore her heart into pieces.

Flashback

The night before she had left, just as she finished putting her packed bags back into the closet, just in case someone spotted them, there was a knock and Olivia opened the door to see who it was.

Odafin stood there, dressed in a black suit with his hair pulled back that made him look so devilishly handsome. Lord how she loved him! Grinning at her, he asked to come in for a minute. Against her better judgment, Olivia had let him in.

As he entered the room, it suddenly seemed smaller to her. His size and presence seemed to fill not just the room, but her senses as well. Olivia's eyes met his and they stared at each other for a long time. Her heart started to pound as he stepped close to her.

He touched her face lightly and pushed back a strand of brown hair. Olivia caught her breath at his touch. He smiled at the effect he was having on her. Not to mention how madly in love he was for her. He placed a finger under her chin and raised her face to his.

The gentle smile on his face, the love in his eyes, the warmth of his breath, the intoxicating scent of his cologne, caused Olivia's head to spin. "W… why are you here?" She stammered weakly.

"Shhhhh," he whispered. "I'm here because I love you. Because I want to be with you"

Tears filled her eyes. The thought of leaving him was almost unbearable. "I love you too." She choked out.

Mistaking her tears for happiness, Odafin pulled her into his arms and gently lowered his lips to hers.

Olivia clung to him and welcomed his kiss in a desperate attempt to ease the pain in her heart. The pain that would forever stay.

Their kiss quickly became more. He pressed her body closer to his as he backed closer to the bed all while reaching out to dim the lights, giving the room a soft romantic glow.

Olivia pulled off his jacket before landing in his lap. She started to unbutton his shirt running her hands down his chest, but Odafin needed no more encouragement. He completley undressed her, leaving her in her red silk bra and undies, before she could take off his shirt.

Odafin loved her beautiful body. The silkiness of her skin and the way is curves under his hands. He couldn't do anything but constantly want her.

Olivia clung to him as he kissed he neck, feeling his tongue on her skin made her crave more. "I Need You," she moaned as his hand brushed her breast, grinding into his hips. He smirked as he nipped her neck and moved so she could feel his hardness through his pants, causing a bigger pool of wetness between her legs. "Please," she whispered as she reached between them and stroked him. She needed to feel more of him.

Fin picked her up and layed her on the bed wthout breaking the kiss. He removed her soaked panties and in a quick motion had his mouth on her center.

Feeling his tongue slip between her folds, his tonuge swirling around her clit over and over was sending her into overdrive. "Fin! Oh Fuck! Yes!" He then began to gently suck on her clit, alternating between his lips and tounge. Olivia's walls began to clentch signaling she was close.

"Cum for me Liv" his words vibrating against her clit. Within a second, her body started convulsing releasing a huge orgasm. She tried to get away but he grabbed her hips to hold her in place. "Fin! OH MY GOD!" He kept his mouth latched and laughed at the fact she couldnt take anymore. Onced her body finally calm down, he gave vher one vlast kiss before he stood.

Olivia just looked at him with fire in her eyes, she needed him inside her. Lifting herself up so she could reach for him, she pushed slacks and boxers down at the same time. Taking the hint he moved her back down and rubbed himself again her core, then slide into her filling her completely.

She moaned as he moved inside her slow to give herself a chance to adjust. The he pushed deeper and harder almost hitting her cervix.

"Shit Liv, you feel good." He couldnt control himself and she could tell. Before he could react she flipped them putting herself on top. Liv rode him with passion an force causing her nails to scrath his chest. Fin sat up to hold her close as she rode him, her pussy gripping tightly. He brushed her clit with his thumb as he vrolled his hips up into her.

"Fu-Liv I'm gonna cum"

"Come in your pussy baby" With that he slammed up into her a few more times making her scream his name as she as her muscles began to conrtact around him causing her release. Fin thrusted through her orgasm but she kept ba death grip aroun d him causing him to spilled his seed inside her while looking into her eyes.

"I Love You Olivia" he kissed as they collapsed back into the bed. They spent the night together, wrapped in each others arms.

The following morning, while Odafin still slept, Olivia sat and watched him. His face etched into her brain. With tears in her eyes, she scribbled him a note and explained to him that even though she loved him, she could not stay with him, and how their relationship would not work out, that he would be better off without her. All in all, she did not give Odafin a satisfactory explanation for her leaving.

Placing the note on the table, she took one last look at him and quickly left from the room, fearing partly that he would awaken, and partly that she would change her mind and stay.

Olivia moved quickly and quietly down the hall to the front desk. She told the desk attendant that she would not return and paid her bill. As she got into her car, the tears were streaming down her face as she sobbed uncontrollably. "Fin, maybe someday you will understand and forgive why I had to do this," Olivia thought, trying to reassure herself that she was doing the right thing.

End Flashback

A rut in the road caused Olivia to snap back to reality. The car swerved slightly and then straightened out. Her heart pounding, she gripped the steering wheel tightly turning around to check on her daughter only to find her sound asleep. Olivia drove a little slower to avoid any further incidents.

The rain continued to pour and as hard as she tried to not to Olivia's thoughts once again drifted back in time. To prevent from being found, Olivia left her phone number unlisted and requested that her name at her employment be kept as discrete as possible.

And as good as Odafin's resources were, it appeared that he was not bothering to pursue her. It grieved her heart to think that he wasn't even going to try to find her, but then she thought that maybe her note convinced him enough to leave her alone.

Olivia looked into the rearview mirror again at Nevaeh. The curly haired beauty that blessed her life months after she left New York. Odafin's daughter! They had not used protection that night. One month later, Olivia realized, as was confirmed by her doctor, that she was pregnant.

Going through the birth on her own was very difficult for her, she had wanted to call Odafin so much, but she was determined to keep her end of the bargain. She was thrilled though to have a daughter, his daughter. At least she had part of him with her, even though her heart still longed for him.

After dropping Vaeh off at daycare, Olivia drove five blocks to the police station. Olivia considered herself very fortunate to have gotten into the police academy. Olivia realized being a police officer was her calling in life but wouldn't disclose how she was paying for it. She worked hard and it was starting to pay off for her. Don Cragen, the captain of the 1-6, took a keen interest in her when he visited the academy, and encouraged her work for him. They had hit it off right away. Though he was 55, he still looked youthful and very handsome.

When Olivia reached her desk, Don's head popped out of his office, "Olivia, can you come in here for a minute."

Olivia smiled and said, "Sure, I'll be right there."

Don grinned, "thanks."

Don sat behind his large oak desk and waved her in. Olivia entered the spacious office and glanced around. Floor to ceiling windows covered the wall behind his desk. A leather couch and chair with coffee tables complimented another wall. Olivia smiled and approached the desk. "You called Dad," she saluted him jokingly.

He laughed and stood to greet her. Walking around the desk he drew her into a hug. He saw her as a daughter he never had. Olivia responded and hugged him back. "Why did you call me in here?" She asked.

"Well I need you and your partner tonight." He said.

"What's up."

"The Chief of Police is hosting a party at the Grand Ballroom tonight. Some very important people will be there, including the richest men in the state. And I well I thought that maybe you would consider meeting him." He smiled at her hopefully.

"Well, I would have to find a baby-sitter...Wait are you trying to set me up?" she started.

"Done, you can leave Nevaeh in daycare downstairs, some of the participants do have children, so care for them has been provided. Its hard to find decent care these day, so they feel that is the least they can do. And yes I am." He smiled.

"Well since you put it that way, I guess it might be fun. But I am not dating him. Ill meet him that's all. You got me?" Olivia grinned.

"Alright. Great, shall I pick you and my princess up at eight then?" He asked.

"That would be fine."

"OK then, since that's settled, let's get back to work." He quickly shooed her out the office and then opened the door and let her get back to her work.

A/N: Please Comment. Love to hear your thoughts. Stay tuned for chapter 2. Thyanks for reading.