A/N: For this chapter, I decided to call it Spirit Breaker after the song of the same name by the band August Burns Red (who are a personal favorite of mine). The part of the song I took inspiration from was the spoken word section towards the end.
That section goes as follows: "My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday. How's that possible, I do even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way. Seventeen down, Seventeen to go. That's not so bad, right? I think of home often and of you even more. Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two. For a few moments I found myself smiling, as if those rays of light were enough to get me by. Maybe that was enough. Thank god, I needed that."
Now, what I got from that was it's about someone deep in their own misery they need something or rather someone, to be a light that illuminates their darkness. Someone that, honestly we could all use in our lives. And once we find that someone it'll give us a small comfort even in our darkest of moments. At least that's what I got.
Also, Legendary-Titan sent me some feedback saying that the story (specifically the last chapter) was a little clustered and suggested I break up the dialog. I was finishing this chapter when they sent me this feedback and so the reason for this chapter is coming out a little later than I thought it so I could implement those changes. I will try to be mindful of that in the foreseeable future. Maybe after I finish the story I'll go back and edit the early chapters.
Chapter 6
I'm Nathan, my life seems to be a comedy of errors. Except I ain't laughing. My parents died when I was 7, I bounced from foster home to foster. Things started looking up when I got to high school. I had friends, hell a girlfriend, but they were all fake and my girlfriend cheated on me with the guy who I called my best friend. Now I live alone in a dirty ass apartment that not even Devil Bugs would infest and working in a job I hate. Why, because I don't fucking care anymore.
I even stopped caring about myself. My hair is long and unkempt and so is my bread. I don't fucking care. As sat alone in the darkness of my apartment; with nothing but the sound of the ceiling fan spinning above me, I thought about ending it all. What's the point? I doubt anyone would care.
There was a knock at the door. I bet it was Mr. Smith coming for rent, no that can't be it. I already paid for this month's rent and I didn't order anything online. I looked through the peephole of my door, nothing. Was someone fucking with me? Another set of knocks came. I opened the door, there was a girl there. She had short blonde hair, blue eyes, wings, a halo, and wore a white business suit. "Who are you?" I asked.
"Hello sir! I'm Mina! I represent the Happy Times Agency! You've been randomly selected for our Guardian Angel program!" she chirped. God, I don't know what hurt most. Her voice or her sunny disposition.
"Look kid; I don't know what you're selling, but I ain't buying. I think you have the wrong place." I said.
"You're Nathan Steinbach, correct?" she asked.
"Yeah?" I questioned. I don't anything about no Happy Times Agency nor do I remember sighing up for no program.
"We received your email and I was sent by HTA." she said.
"Um, can I see this email?" I asked. She opened the folder she was carrying and gave me a print out of the email.
Dear Happy Times,
I am a major loser who's life is shit. Please send a guardian angel. I don't know how my life became so fucked. But maybe you can help.
Signed,
Nathan Steinbach
Now I remembered, I sent that email as a joke after seeing an advert for them on TV. "You used some choice language in your email, but not to worry. You shouldn't censor yourself because I'm here." she said.
"Look, lady. I wasn't being serious. I honestly didn't think someone would show up." I said.
"Sir, we at HTA take the Guardian Angel program very serious." she said and she walked in.
"So, what is this Guardian Angel program?" I asked.
"Well it's...boy, it's dark in here," she said and opened my curtains. "It's program designed to help those much like yourself to improve your life, and someone like me to help you in that."
"How do you do that?" I asked. "How about we start by cleaning up your apartment." she suggested.
"Look, uh Mina. I appreciate what you are trying to do. But you shouldn't waste your breath." I said.
"Mr. Steinbach, I know it must be difficult to having the confines of your personal space invaded, but I volunteered to help you." she said.
"Why? Why do care so much?" I asked.
"You won't believe me, but when I read your email I could feel the pain in you and I wanted to help." she said.
I don't know why, but hearing her talk about wanting to help me; it sounded nice. It felt like someone actually gave a shit about me. But I also can't shake the feeling she's doing this because she was told too, but maybe that's the cynical part of my brain. "Okay Mina, you can stay and help." I said.
"Thank you Mr. Steinbach! I promise you won't regret it." she said.
"You can just call me Nathan." I said. We spent a good few hours of cleaning up my apartment. We had to go out and buy some cleaning supplies and trash bags. We started from the living room, to the kitchen, the bedroom, and finally the bathroom.
"Phew, I think that should do it." Mina said wiping the sweat from her brow.
"Now what?" I asked.
"Well; no offense, but you need a shower." she said. It was true, I haven't showered in a few days.
"Okay, I'll go shower. Are you going to be okay waiting?" I asked.
"Actually, I think I'll join you." she said.
"What?" I questioned.
"I smell a little and I don't want to wait to get home to wash up." she said. Was she messing with me? She walked past me and into the bathroom. I peeked in and she was taking her clothes off. I guess she wasn't messing with me.
"You coming or not?" she asked already down to her bra and panties.
"Y-yeah, sure." I said sheepishly.
I could believe that I was showering with a woman. Granted, I was facing away from her and covered my junk. But I was still showering with a woman. I looked behind me, the water cascading down her body. Even though she was small in size, she had some decent sized breasts. I myself getting an erection, if turned around now she'll think I'm a pervert. Then again, she suggested to join me in the shower.
"You have pretty good water pressure Nathan." she said.
"Sure, I suppose I do." I said.
"Is everything alright? I'm not making uncomfortable am I?" she asked. You're making me something alright.
"No, I'm fine." I said.
"Really? Because you're not looking at me." she said.
"It's fine...you finish up and I'll be out in a few minutes." I said.
"Nathan, let me see it." she said.
"See what? There's nothing to see!" I protested.
"Your penis got hard didn't it?" she asked. I sighed and turned around to show her my raging hard on.
"Don't worry Nathan, I will take responsibility for this." Mina said. Take responsibility? What did mean by...I felt her tiny fingers wrap themselves around my cock.
"Mina, stop. You don't..." I groaned, but I was silenced with her slowly jerking me off.
"I promise to help you. I'm going to help you." she said and delicately licked the tip of my penis.
I tilted my head back and let out a moan. She took my cock into her mouth and suck. I moaned more and grabbed the back of her head. I moved my hips and she sucked harder. She took her mouth off my dick, but she continued to jerk me off. "Are you going to cum? Go ahead, cum for me." she said sweetly. I couldn't hold back and sprayed her face with my cum.
She giggled and kissed the tip. I took a wash cloth and wiped off her face. I turned off the shower and we dried each other off. "So, do you give blow jobs to all your clients?" I asked getting dressed.
"No, in fact they would fire me if they found out." she said.
"Now that I'm clearer, what's next?" I asked.
"We should make you more presentable. Do you have scissors and a electric razor?" she asked.
She cut my hair and shaved my bread. "Now, I know I'm not a hairdresser. But I think I did a good job." she said holding a handmirror up. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked good. Okay, I wasn't going to appear on the cover of a magazine, but I looked a hell of a lot better.
"Wow, I don't look half bad," I commented and looked at Mina. "Mina; I know you haven't known each other that long, but...do you want to go out?"
"I'd like to, but I only came to do a job and I've done that job." she said. I frowned, but I guess I shouldn't have been surprised. I figured that she could stay and maybe...I don't know. "Nathan, I came to help you physically. But, you have to help yourself emotionally." she said.
"No, no you're right. It's just...you're the first good thing to happen to me." I said.
"It just wouldn't be a good time right now." she said.
"You're right, I need to be a better me." I said.
"Good, I hope you make great progress after this." she said and left. After that I started to improve myself. I became less cynical and bitter about everything, and I had a better outlook on life. But some days were hard, days I wished Mina was there. She was there for me, and I thought about trying to contact her, but I decided against that. I wasn't ready yet.
A few months went by, I was at home when there was a knock on the door. I opened it up and Mina was there. "Mina? What are you doing here?" I asked surprised, but also happy.
"I came to see you. Strictly in a personal manner." she said.
"Please, come in." I said and she entered.
"How you've been doing?" she asked.
"I been good. I've had some off days, but all in all, it's been good." I explained.
"That's good...Nathan, I wanted to talk about what you asked me," she said. "About asking me out. At the time I was unsure if I should, I was afraid of losing my job. But, I want to really help you and I don't want to do it because of a job. I just want to do it."
"Are you saying..." I said.
"I don't want to just go on a date with you. I want to be your girlfriend." she said.
I grabbed her and cried. "Mina, I won't forget this! I promise!" I said.
"Shhh, it's okay. You don't have to cry." she said rubbing my head.
"It's just...I've never had anything go right for me." I cried. Mina kissed me and I kissed her back.
Her lips were soft and tender. I felt her hands rubbing my back. I returned this by stroked her. I couldn't wait any longer, I picked her up and carried her off to my bedroom. I laid her down and she peppered my face with kisses. "I love you Mina, no one has made me happy until you came in my life." I said.
"I want to make you happy, and I want you to make me happy." she said.
"I want nothing more than to make you happy." I said.
We wasted no time taken off each other's clothes. I stared at her naked figure, she looked away from me with her cheeks turning red. "Don't stare at me like that. It's embarrassing." she said.
"Sorry, you're just so beautiful." I said. I moved down and began to lick her pussy. As soon as I did she squealed and grabbed onto the sheets. I licked in long broad strokes as if I was painting with my tongue. Mina moaned more and bucked her hips against my face.
"That's it Nathan, I'm nearing my climax!" she shouted. I licked faster and faster, and she sprayed my face with her juices.
"I'm sorry Nathan, I couldn't hold it in. It felt so good." she said panting.
"I don't care, I want to make you cum as much as you want." I said licking the fluid off. I got up on top of her and positioned my cock at the entrance of her vagina. "Can I put it in?" I asked.
"Yes, I want you inside me." she said. I kissed her and plunged myself inside of her. I started with slow rhythmic thrusts and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I gradually increased my thrusts making them faster and faster.
"Ah, it's so good! Keep going Nathan. I want you to make me cum!" she cried.
"Oh baby, you're going make me cum too!" I shouted.
"I want you to release your seed all over me. I want to feel your hot load on me!" she shouted. I was more than happy to obliged. I pulled out and rubbed my pulsating dick on her wet pussy. I reached my climax and sprayed her body with my semen. She screamed and I felt her juices leaked onto my balls. She pulled me close to her and kissed me.
"I love you Nathan." she said.
"I love you too." I said.
My life got better after that. I moved in with Mina and I quit my job and got a better job. But most importantly, we were happy. We were in her loft, watching TV when there was a knock at the door.
"I'll go see who it is." Mina said leaving the couch. She opened the door and there was a girl there. She looked similar to her; only she had white hair, blue skin, black wings, purple eyes, and a purple halo.
"What up bitch? You missed me?" the girl asked. Mina shut the door on her.
"Who was that?" I asked.
"That was Nina. My sister." Mina said.