Two hours later Sasha's POV
"Mmm Sasha!" She moaned out arching her back even further causing her ass to poke out even further giving me an even more beautiful view of just how well of a job I'm doing. Right now she's letting me take her from behind and it's honestly the sexiest thing ever. I'm just enjoying slowly pulling out of her and watching the way she stretches. And it's even hotter when I push back into her and she moans out this low growl sending chills all throughout my body. I don't know how long we've been playing in my sheets but I'm starting to get tired and I'm not sure how many more positions I can get through before I pass out. I can sit here and fuck her in this position all day she's so goddamn wet it's dripping all over me and the bed. I personally went out my way to make sure all my toys and strap-ons were matte black or red. I did that so I can gauge just how wet she is while I'm in charge. So it starts off dull but as time progresses and my desire to be the dominant one increases, it'll slowly become glossy and it brings a smile to my face. Especially right now with Becks because it looks like someone polished it it's reflecting so much. In and out. In and out. And with each stroke I take I get this beautiful sound that emits from her vag and it's music to my ears. The sound is actually pretty similar to if you were stirring up mac-n-cheese and that creamy sound you hear is basically what I'm hearing right now. Hence why I'm not fucking her fast this time nice and slow so I can take her in completely. "Mmm fuck babe I need you to fuck me harder!" She groaned throwing her hips back trying to quicken my pace. Last I checked I'm in charge so I pulled out of her completely.
"Come here." I growled pulling her up by the hair so her back was flush with my front. Wrapping my left arm around her waist I used my right hand to roughly massage her breast. "What'd you say?" I growled in her ear before biting down on her neck. When I did that I made sure to gently poke around at her entrance teasing her.
"I- I ahh!" She moaned out. It's cute that she's too nervous to tell me what she wants.
"You what?" I asked again this time moving my left hand down to slowly tickle her clit.
"Fuuu- mmm! P-please d-don't make me beg." She got out through heavy panting.
"Well I don't know what you want. You gotta tell me what you want love." I cooed pushing her hair from off the side of her face so I can see it better. "Say it."
"I want you to fuck me I need you so bad Sasha please!" She pleaded looking me in the eyes. Normally I'd just ignore that request and do whatever it is I wanted but I can't ignore her. Not when she's giving me her fuck me eyes and the fact that I can't say no to her. Catching her lips in a kiss I made sure to put a fair amount of compassion in it. At this point I've been throwing her around like a ragdoll having my way with her. I never really slowed up to give her a chance to get use to me inside her and I've been a little relentless. So I just wanted to let her know that I still care and that she's safe with me. We discussed our safe word already and she's knows I'll stop if I'm hurting her.
"You're so beautiful babe. I wish you could see what I see because then you'd understand why I can never say no to you." I cooed pecking her on the lips. After I did that I forcefully pushed her forward making her fall face first onto the bed. Then without another word I pushed into her and began to give her what she asked for.
"GAAHH! YES FUCKING-" She almost yelled out but anything after that I didn't hear. I'm mainly focused on fucking her as hard and fast as possible right now. I'm in love with the sound of my hips colliding with her perfect ass that it's all I want to hear right now. At this point her ass is a bright red from when I was spanking her and with how hard our bodies are colliding.
"Babe?"
"Oohh gaah!""
"Becky?" I chimed louder.
"Wha-ahhh shit you feel so good!"
"Becks!" I snapped bringing my hand down as hard as I could upon her ass.
"Yes?" She got out shakily being I'm still pounding into her.
"Who do you belong to now? Who does this ass belong to?" I asked getting a firm grip on her hips so I can hit it harder.
"Ahh shit!" She moaned burying her face in the bed being she's basically face down ass up right now.
"Who's ass is this huh?"
"Sa- Ugh god! You."
"Who?"
"You! I belong to you! God don't stop I'm so close." Hearing her say that brought a smile to my face. The way she doesn't hesitate to submit to me is so sexy. "Sas oh my god!"
"That's right you're mine Rebecca. You mine now." It was here that I decided I think I got my point across clearly now. I fucked her like a whore and now I want to slow down because I'm close to peaking again too. "Alright baby come here." I spoke stopping my movements completely and pulling out of her. When I did that she moved so she was on her back. When she did that I had to stop and quickly take in her beauty because she looks absolutely beautiful right now. This is a lot better than my dreams and I'm living right now.
"Hey come here." I heard snapping me out of my thoughts. Looking at her she's reaching out for me so I leaned down into her grasp. When I did that she embraced me and pressed her lips to mine. This kiss I could feel she put a lot of feeling behind it and I did the same. When she started to run her fingers along my spine that's when I felt like I wasn't on earth anymore. I feel like I'm floating in space I'm so relaxed right now. It was around here that I decided I'm done being rough and I just want to genuinely feel her body against mine.
"One sec." Pulling out of our kiss I climbed off her and fell to the side of her. I then unsnapped myself and tossed it off to the side. I'll clean up later. When I finished that I climbed back on top of her. "I hope you don't mind if we end this on a more gentle note." I asked looking her in the eyes. She grinned slightly and shook her head no.
"Gentle sounds really good." That got me to smile and kiss her.
"Mkay."
"My poor bum needs a break. I honestly think it's going to bruise."
"I know I'm sorry you just bring out my inner animal and I had to claim you. I had to leave my mark on you so you don't forget who you belong to. Don't you worry we're done that for now. I'm in a cuddly mood now and I want to show you my soft side." I whispered softly giving her a soft kiss on the side of her mouth. "No more pain we'll save it for another night. I don't like hurting you even if I'm not really hurting you, if that makes sense." I then leaned in and gave her a soft kiss. "I dunno it's just you're so beautiful and you have no idea how excited I am to have you." I cooed gently running my fingers through her gorgeous brown hair. Her hair is so silky and I love it. She's literally everything I could ever wish for when it comes to having a girlfriend. I want her for life and nobody else. The way she's staring at me as I'm staring at her right now is so romantic to me. Neither of us are saying anything but yet we're still communicating through each other's eyes.
"What are you thinking about?" I heard softly as she wrapped her arms around me drawing me in closer to her. "Whenever you go quiet I know you're in a very deep thought."
"Well I'll be honest since we're already here. I'm thinking about how badly I wanna make love to you right now. I know it's random but it's all I can think about right now. I just need your permission to make my dream come true. It doesn't have to mean anything to you, I just need to let out all my pent up emotions is all."
"Since when did The Legit Boss ever ask people for permission first?" She asked in a cocky manner.
"I gotta admit that was kinda clever, but you're right I don't ever ask permission from anyone. It's just I really like you and I don't wanna mess this up. It's been a long time since I've done this so you'll have to excuse me if I'm not up to par with the way I fucked you earlier." I spoke trying to remain calm on the outside because inside I'm doing backflips. It is true it's really been a while since I last made love to someone, but it's not the only reason. I'm also really nervous. I feel like maybe this might be a bad idea yet something in me says I have to. I can't have this beautiful woman in my bed and not make sweet love to her, I'm sure it'd be a crime if I didn't. "It's not everyday a goddess walks into my life like you did. So now that I have you I have to show you what it's like to be with me." When I finished saying that I gave her a very soft meaningful kiss. I want to make sure she feels comfortable with me before I go any further. That's a lie I know she's more than comfortable with me I just want to let her know what's about to happen between the two of us. I'm making her mine. I already left my mark on her and now it's time to set everything in stone. Becky belongs to me now and I have to make her aware of it too. Pulling out of that kiss I moved to place kisses along the left side of her neck and collarbone. Once I was sure I kissed every inch on that side I switched to the right side and did the same. Her skin tastes like a mix of sweet lavender and a bit tangy from all the sweating we've been doing. It's a weird combination but I love it because I know I'll never forget this taste. When I finished on that side I slowly kissed a trail down to her chest.
"Mhmm. You really do have quite a mouth on you huh?" She chuckled purring at me. I only kissed the center of her chest before looking up at her.
"Yeah babe you're fucking with a winner right here. I told you this I was blessed with a very talented mouth. It's not only good for singing and talking."
"What dat mouth do girly?" She grinned looking me in the eyes. She's making fun of me from the time she was going through my DMs on Twitter and some random guy sent me a meme that basically asked me what that mouth do. And since she's been asking me that question. It was only right I kissed her for that.
"You already know what it can do." I whispered moving to kiss below her left ear because I know it's her soft spot. "However it can do so much more than what you know."
"We'll show me I wanna know what that mouth do." I swear she's the girl for me and she just keeps proving that she deserves to be mine. She's perfect girlfriend material for me.
"Yes ma'am." Pecking her on the lips I went back to leaving butterfly kisses along her chest eventually kissing her breast. Her breast are perfect for me they fit so nicely in the palm of my hands. As much as I would love to sit and pay them attention I learned earlier that she doesn't like it too much when I suck on them. That was a first but it's okay I don't care it's not going to stop me from having her. I also learnt that she loves it when I use my tongue to draw mindless patterns on her abdomen and every now and then kissing her porcelain skin. As I do that I occasionally like to dip my tongue in her bellybutton and kiss it too. I enjoyed this part because she still has smudges of my lipstick on her from when I did this prior. Before you could see exactly where I kissed her because my lipstick marked her, since it rubbed off onto me and probably my sheets. I don't mind it because my girl has my smudged lipstick kisses on her abdomen. Anyway once I finished kissing her there I moved lower so I could reintroduce my lips with her v-lines. I loved this part because it's red around her hips in that area from when I had her leg over my shoulder and I was deep in her showing her what she's been missing out on.
"Teasing must be something you excel at isn't it?"
"Yeah but I'm just admiring my handy work I did on you. Plus I love how soft you feel against my lips. Just shut up and enjoy what I'm doing for you." She's talking a lot and it's distracting me. I then continued my trail of kisses down until I was at eye level once again with her center. When I got there I had to take a second to admire just how wet she is and the mess I made of her. Well I made the mess now it's time to clean it up. Starting with her inner thigh I graciously licked it making sure to clean it of her velvety juices. When I did that she let out an annoyed sigh but it came out as a moan. "Patience darling." I murmured before going back to her thighs only switching to the other side. It's crazy just how big of a mess I made of her. The way I was fucking her you'd think we hadn't seen each other in years and after tonight we'll never see each other again. However I plan to do this with her on a more regular basis. She tastes so good and I'm tired of licking it up I wanna drink her. That being said I connected my mouth to her wet center.
"Ahh.. mmm!" I heard her breathe out. I took that as an okay to keep going so I flicked my tongue against her clit making her moan and slightly start to wiggle around. She's actually moving around too much for my liking so I wrapped my arms under her legs pulling her back into me so she can't escape me. This also caused me to suck on her even harder every now and then giving her clit a little tug because I know it drives her wild. I'm having a good time diving my tongue into her fleshy folds she tastes like heaven. It was here that I decided I wanted to dip my tongue inside her almost quivering hole now. "Oh fuuuck Sasha." She groans grabbed fistfuls of sheets. I found this part extremely sexy because I looked up at her at the perfect time because she was arching off the bed causing her muscles to flex and she looks so hot right now. All that did was make me want to eat her out even harder and with more vigor. "Sasha oh my! Ugh shit!" The view I have down here looking up at her is so sexy I'd be lying if I said I wasn't extremely turned on watching her writhe at my touch. Then add to that every now and then she'll look down and watch me, she's so hot. "I'm so close!" She panted out staring down at me. I would love it for her to cum in my mouth again, however I have something else in mind. Reluctantly I pulled away from her center so I could catch my breath. From there I moved back up and pressed my lips to hers. I put everything I had into this kiss.
"You know you taste so good right?" I murmured not pulling away too far from her. She simply pulled me back in for another kiss. I loved this part because her tongue found its way into my mouth and she took complete control of this kiss.
"Damn I made you taste so good!" She breathed out quickly before reconnecting our lips. Not gunna lie I'm thoroughly enjoying making out with her right now. I'm positive we both taste the same and it's because of that neither of us wanted to pull away. I'm happy with her tongue playing tag with mine.
"Baby you ready to wrap this up for tonight, or you-" I couldn't even finish because she pulled me back into a kiss. "You wanna call-" She interrupted me by pressing her lips to mine again.
"Stop stopping kissing me. I can't get enough of you right now." She spoke momentarily stopping our kiss before kissing me once more. Hearing her say that made my heart flutter and a huge smile to grace my lips. I'm smiling so much that I can't even kiss her right it made me so happy. "What are you so happy about hmm?"
"Nothing I just really like you is all." I then gave her a quick peck. "Anyway I'm so tired so we'll have to wrap all this up for now. Then we can take a nap so I can regain my strength and I'll fuck you some more okay?" I cooed looking into her eyes.
"Okay." She spoke softly staring back at me. I can totally get use to this. Catching her lips in a kiss I slowly positioned myself so I was straddling her thigh and my thigh was pressed up against her center.
"You still trust me?"
"Yes."
"Kay good. Just follow what I do." I then slowly began to grind my hips against hers. She quickly caught on and grinded her hips against my thigh. This is how I know we're destined to be together because she's grinding on me like it was second nature. I kept our pace rather slow for a minute or two just to let her catch a rhythm. Once she did I sped up my movements and she did the same. "Fuck you're so hot!" Looking down at her she's making the most adorable sex faces I've ever seen. When I said that she looked up into my eyes and I felt my soul leave my body and get trapped in her eyes. The look she's giving me is the same face she makes when we order food when we're both high. She loves eating when we're high and she's eyeing me like I'm food to her. Oh my god she's the one! In the seven seconds of eye contact we just had I fell into a trance. I'm literally giving myself to her and she's giving herself right back. Never have I ever experienced something so crazy like this in my entire sex life. I feel warm inside like I am where I'm supposed to be right now. My body grinding on Becky's body is exactly where we're supposed to be on a regular everyday basis. This feels right and I don't think I can ever do this with anyone other than her.
"Babe I'm gonna cum!" I heard in my ear bringing me back to reality.
"Me too!" I moaned out not slowing my thrust. "Cum for me love." I purred in her ear before nibbling on it.
"Fuuck! Harder." She spoke out grinding her hips against mine even harder so I did the same. "Sash right there. Ahhh mmm!" She moaned arching her back off the bed a little.
"Let go baby there's enough time in the world for me to make you cum again. I love seeing that sexy face you make when you do it." Right after I said that she tensed up for probably the fifth time tonight and it's a sight I've grown to love in the past hour or so. Her back arched all the way off the bed and her muscles flexed in the process. What I love most is that her eyes go a little wiggly and it's so sexy. Just watching her cum like that sent me right over the edge too. Once I finished I collapsed on her and buried my head in her neck. Nothing now but the soft hum of the fan and bass of the speakers. I honestly am so damn happy right now. This was exactly everything I dreamed of and more. I got to fuck and then make love to Rebecca Lynch, the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my entire life. My heart is beating so fast I don't even feel it, my nostalgia is at an all time high, I can't keep this giant smile from showing on my face, nothing else in the world matters to me but Becky. All I can think about is the way she'd look into my eyes while I made love to her and it's making me melt inside. I've never felt that before with anyone else. The way she looked at me was the look of... love... you know or at least it felt that way for me. I think I just found everything I could ever want and I'm lying on it. I love how warm she feels when we're all cuddled up together like this. In fact that's all I wanna do right now is cuddle her. I put everything I had into that session and I'm honestly so exhausted. Wrapped up in her arms is such a good feeling for me. I feel good period. So it came as no surprise when I found myself slowly drifting away on her while she did the same.
Later that night
"Hey." I whispered softly looking up at her being I'm still lying on her.
"Hi." She murmured rubbing her eyes.
"You okay? I didn't hurt you did I? Sometimes I can get a little rough and I-" She interrupted me with a kiss.
"Honestly my legs are still a bit tingly and I'm sure I'll be sore in the morning but I'm good. I'm fine, I'm fantastic." She grinned making me smile.
"Good me too. What you wanna do now?" I asked she just wrapped her arms around me and kissed my head.
"A shower would be nice. Maybe some food if you have any." To that I moved up so I could slowly and softly kiss her.
"Alright well I'll go down stairs and find us something to eat. And by find something I mean going through all the take-out menus in the kitchen and seeing what looks good. And while I do that you can shower or whatever you wanna do. Your dress should be done in the dryer so I'll bring it up to you when I figure out our dinner situation."
"Mkay sounds like a plan." She half smiled. She's so adorable when she's half asleep. Even as I'm lying on her I still can't believe she's in my bed.
"Is there anything in specific that you are craving?"
"You know what I kinda want some spaghetti and meatballs oddly. I had a dream I was in China and dropped a plate of spaghetti off the Eiffel Tower."
"What?" I asked because that's weird and doesn't make sense.
"Yeah I don't know either to be honest I just know it made me want spaghetti." She spoke very nonchalantly.
"You have weird dreams."
"Oh I'm almost a hundred percent sure you have weird dreams like that every now and then too."
"Yeah you're right but not recently though."
"What'd you dream about then?" When she asked that I couldn't stop the blush and slight smile from appearing on my face. Looking away from her eyes and focusing them on her chest I answered.
"You." I mumbled drawing mindless patterns on her chest with my finger before looking up at her again. "I didn't want to but I did and I wish it didn't have to end. But honestly right now I'm enjoying real life more than my dreams." I grinned because it's true. All my wishes have finally come true and I think I finally have her. There is no denying that there is totally something between Becks and myself. I felt it when I would be mid stroke and she'd latch on to me for dear life purring and moaning in my ear, then she'd kiss me. And those kisses weren't just average kisses, they were passionate and so.. so.. loving. I've been in love before and I know a loving kiss when I get one and I got quite a few from Becks. As crazy as that sounds I think she's into me, and I'm not just saying that because we just had amazing sex together. But if she wasn't into me would she have slept with me?
"How'd I know you'd say something cheesy like that."
"Probably because I tell you the same things over and over in hopes you'll start to see what I see."
"Mhm and what exactly do you see?"
"Well I see lots of things but mainly I just see us. Just Becky and The Boss taking over the world together."
"Becky and The Boss?"
"Mhmm."
"Jeez kiss a girl one time and suddenly you're magically together." She joked shaking her head.
"It's not magic if we've been together for quite some time in my head. Besides I know you're dying to be my girlfriend, you just don't want to admit it." Before she could respond to that I kissed her and climbed out of bed. I then grabbed my silk robe off the stool in front of my bed and put it on. "I'm headed downstairs now because I'm hungry. I know I just had a big meal but now I need actual real food. You said you wanted spaghetti right?"
"If they have it. Pizza is fine also." She spoke sitting up using the blanket to cover herself.
"Any special toppings on the pizza or sides you might want?"
"Extra cheese is always a must. And get cheese fries or cheesy bread."
"Cheese cheese cheese! That's all I heard was cheese. You want to get a block of cheese with extra cheese on top?!" I joked coming over to her side of the bed and leaning over towards her for a kiss which she happily gave me.
"I can't help it I haven't had a proper meal since breakfast. So I'm starving and anything cheesy sounds good right now."
"God you're so cute. But I guess I did give you a good workout and you deserve to be rewarded. Alright I'll go handle that and you do whatever you gotta do and we'll meet in the middle when you're done okay?"
"Okay." Giving her one last kiss I pulled away and headed for the door. Before I exited completely I had to just take another glance at her because I'm still in shock that she's really in my bed. "What?" She smirked a bit flipping her hair to one side.
"Nothing I just think you're really beautiful and I like looking at you." I shrugged before taking in everything that just happened in here and leaving. Is it bad that I already miss her? I think I might have to wife her because I want her for myself. Everything about her I can officially say I love. She pretty much has every quality I've ever dreamt that my future wife would be. The only two things I don't like about her is that she has a boyfriend, but I'm pretty sure that's going to change fairly quickly in due time. And I hate her last name, I think Rebecca Banks flows off the tongue better and I'd be more than happy to fix that for her. Alright fine I admit it I may or may not have fallen for her I don't know. It's just Becks isn't like most girls to me. She doesn't care about what my career is or how many commas I have in my bank account, she genuinely cares about me as a person and I can't say that about most people I know or have known. When we're together I feel normal, like I'm not internationally known, like I don't have two MTV Moon Men and several other awards, like I don't have millions of people who love listening to me sing. She makes me feel like an ordinary girl and it's not often I get to feel that way with my career. In fact since my music career took off I've never crossed paths with anyone who makes me feel the way she does.
"Fuck I think I'm falling in love!" I growled to myself as I entered the kitchen. I'm not a very emotional kind of person but all it took was one time to admire her treasures and she has me questioning my emotions. I'm only twenty three and I'm hearing wedding bells. Damn. As much as I hate to admit it to myself I can't reverse what's already done. All I feel like doing is writing. All my wheels are in sync right now and I think I have another song building inside me. Not sure what it's going to be about but I know it's going to be good. I can hear a melody playing in my head and it's crying to be written so I know what I'm going to be doing on the plane ride home. Looking at the time on the stove it's almost eight. Hmm we both must have been knocked because last I checked it was a quarter to six. That's okay because I'm enjoying my time alone with Becks knowing neither of us have to be anywhere specific tonight. I plan to eat, cuddle, and watch movies with her all night. And depending on what she wants we'll either hop on the jet and go home or spend the night here and leave tomorrow at some point. I wonder if she's into wake up sex?.. No Sasha focus. Food is my mission right now and that starts with the drawer where I keep all my menus. Going into said drawer I picked out all the pizza shop menus and laid them out on the counter. Baby said she wants spaghetti, cheese pizza, cheese fries, and cheesy bread so I gotta find a place that has them all.
Looking them all over, only one place has three out of the four on the list. But I'm sure I can talk them into making cheesy bread. If not then.. I don't know what else she might want. With that in mind I took the menu and headed upstairs.
"Hey babe I found a place that sells what you want minus the cheesy bread, so is there anything-" As I said that I walked into the room. To find her pacing back and forth across the floor with her bra and panties on and her phone held up to her ear. Judging by how fast she's walking and that she's running her hand through her hair I can tell something isn't right.
"What do you mean what happened?!" She asked in a very worrisome tone. "Oh my god! Okay just hang tight I'm on my way there now. He's okay right?" This time it sounds like she's on the verge of tears. "Oh god! Oh god! Oh god! Alright I'm going to be on the next flight home. Just make sure they don't give him penicillin because he's allergic to that too... Tyler I don't fucking care just make sure he's still alive when I get there!" She yelled fairly loudly. I have no idea what's going on, I just know I should probably start putting on clothes. "Tyler where's Kevin? Who's brilliant idea was it to go to a goddam Chinese food restaurant? You guys know he's allergic to fish so why the hell was it even an option?!"
"Becks wha-"
"I swear to god if he dies I'm killing both of you!" She growled before hanging up the phone.
"What ha-"
"We gotta go! Like right now we have to go home like yesterday!" She spoke quickly before disappearing into the bathroom.
"Wait but what happened?" I asked aloud going through my drawers looking for an outfit we both can just throw on and get moving.
"Finn. He ate fish by accident somehow and he had an allergic reaction.. and I just need to be there with him." She mumbled out. Hearing that only made me sorta slow my pace. How? How is it he still managed to blow my shit from the opposite side of the country? How? How'd he manage to do it? Part of me wants to be the hero and get her to him but the other half could careless if he dies. That's less work I have to do to have Becky for my own. I don't mean to sound like an asshole but I don't think he deserves her like I do so why would I rush to get her back to that undeserving mutant? "How fast do you think we can get to the airport?" She asked coming out the bathroom with the button up shirt I had on earlier on. To procrastinate or to be the hero? Turning to look at her she looks like at any moment she'll bust out in tears and I don't like seeing her cry... Even if it's over him. I want to bullshit but if something bad really were to happen to him and she doesn't make it there in time to see him she'll blame me and I can't have someone's coffin resting on my conscious.
"If there isn't any traffic and if I speed probably twenty."
"If that's the case we gotta get going in the next two minutes or less."
"Okay." From there I threw on some clothes and lent her some pants and shoes to wear. Once we were both fully clothed we hopped in my Audi and sped off towards the airport. All of me is crying telling me to turn around and go home and I really wanted to do it. But then I'd look over at her and how concerned she looks and I can't bring myself to do it. Somehow I managed to get us there in exactly twenty minutes. While we were driving I called ahead and made sure that my jet would be ready for takeoff upon arrival. Quickly boarding the jet we were in the air at least ten minutes later. The flight from California to Florida is roughly four hours and some change, but I tell you it was the longest most awkward plane ride I've ever been on. We're rushing to go see the boyfriend of a woman who I just had sex with less than four hours ago. And this said woman is the woman I want to call my girlfriend. What kind of fuckery is this even right now I don't even know. What made it all worse is she paid me absolutely no mind the whole ride home. She just sat with her knees to her chest and staring blankly at the tv that was playing some weird movie. It's just I don't know what's going through her head right now. Less than four hours ago she was begging me to fuck her, and now here we are flying over to go see her boyfriend.
Right now I'm thinking that she'll go in make sure he's fine and then we'll leave back to my house and hang out some more. Perhaps we'll go for round six and seven who knows it depends if she wants to. I mean we fucked and then made love so it pretty much means we're together now. Nobody gives themselves away completely to someone the way she did if there isn't feelings between them. I like Becky, Becky likes me so we're basically almost an item. The only things left to do is for her to break up with that lame and for her to come move in with me. Once all that happens, which I hope happens soon, then Becky and the Boss will be together forever. After the events of today she's mine.
Eventually we landed back in Florida around three am Florida time. When we landed we got in the Aston and headed off to find the hospital he's in right now. For some reason as I was driving I couldn't bring myself to speed and if I did it wasn't for very long. I did my best to catch every red light possible. I don't want her to go see him.. like at all. I put so much effort into getting her to finally give into me and I'm deathly afraid she'll change her mind. I've already thrown myself at her today so I might as well keep the trend going. That being said I turned down the music and spoke up.
"Becks I'm going to be a hundred percent honest with you and tell you exactly what I'm thinking about right now."
"Take the next right." She mumbled looking at the gps on her phone.
"This might come as a shock to you, but I really really fucking like you. I have the biggest crush on you right now and after the events of today I'm a hundred and ten percent sure of my feelings towards you. I usually don't ever tell anyone how I'm feeling and what's on my mind but I don't mind telling you. I hate expressing my emotions but I need you to know something before we get to where we are going."
"After the next left at the light we'll be there in four minutes so you better talk fast." She spoke so flatly. The way she said it somewhat discouraged me because I think she might have already closed her mind. I don't care because I want her to know how I feel about her.
"Today was one of the best days of my life. It's up there with the day I heard one of my songs being played on the radio for the first time. All day I got to walk around with you on my arm and it felt so right to me. I got to walk the streets in LA with an extremely beautiful woman on my side and I loved it. Like you're literally everything I've ever dreamed about when I dreamt about falling in love. I don't know what kind of fuckery magic spell you put on me but I literally can't stop thinking about you. Even as you're sitting right next to me I can't stop thinking about you. And then after this evening.." It was here that the hospital came into view and before I knew it I was pulling into the parking lot.
"Listen we're going to have to pause this convo-" As she was saying that she began to gather up her stuff. It's do or die.
"I don't want you to go in there and see him!" I blurted out parking the car.
"What?"
"I don't want you to go see him. You don't need him when you have me. I can take care of you a shit ton better than he ever could." To that she gave me a look like I was crazy.
"Sasha do you have any idea how crazy you so-"
"I'm not crazy Becks I'm just in love okay?! I don't know how or why but I just know I want you to be mine not his. Earlier today when we were having sex something in me became whole and I got attached to you. I know it's cliché that I fell for you during sex but it's true. Nobody just gives themselves to someone they don't have feelings for the way you gave yourself to me. You probably won't admit it right now but I know you feel the same because I could see it in your eyes from the way you were looking at me while I had my way with you. And that's another thing you let me have-"
"I really don't fucking have time for this right now." She grumbled getting out the car. I'm not done so I got out and rushed over to her and grabbed her hand to stop her from walking.
"Rebecca you're mine now! He's a distant memory now there's absolutely no need for you to go in there."
"Sasha Finn is my boyfriend and he could be in there dead for all I know and all you care about is two hours of weakness?! I don't know what fantasy world you're living in right now but I don't want any part of it." She then yanked her hand out my grasp and continued on towards the building. Running behind her I grabbed her hand and stopped her again.
"Two hours of weakness my ass Rebecca! You basically fucking begged me to take you. And don't you dare try and tell me it was some stupid charity case or some dumb shit like that. All I did was offer myself to you and you took it. You could have said no but you didn't."
"Sasha now isn't the fucking time!" She growled trying to pull her wrist from my grasp but I have a strong grip on her this time.
"Becks we made love and you loved it. I loved it and there's no way we can move past that like it meant nothing to either of us. I don't know about you but I know it made me catch feelings for you on a whole new level. I caught it so bad that there's no way I can just let you walk back into his arms without putting up a fight first. Now you can either get back in the car and we'll go home or you can go ahead and try to find someone who will fuck you the way I did because Finn sure as hell isn't capable. And I'll tell you right now you're going to be looking for a pretty damn long time for someone who can even compare to me in bed." Once I finished saying that I let her go. She didn't move nor is she looking at me. "I know you're all hopped up on adrenaline but you are being really unreasonable right now and I'm done playing this stupid game of hard to get with you. I already got you so I won, accept that and get back in the car."
"No."
"Excuse me!" I asked in a disbelieving tone because I think I misheard her.
"Sasha I can't get back into that car with you. None of what happened today should have happened. I have a perfectly good loving boyfriend in there and he needs me."
"If he loved you he would have wifed you a long time ago. Hell with all the damn hickies I've given you prior he should have been noticed and came looking for me. But I've yet to meet the boy. I mean I'm pretty damn sure I'd notice if you went out and came home with a bunch of hickies, and I promise you whoever did it would be dead that same night."
"We'll all of that was a mistake I shouldn't have let things get so far between us like it did. None of this was supposed to happen and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you caught feelings for me but I'm not single Sasha. I love Finn! He's my boyfriend and I love him and I shouldn't have let our relationship go further than anything professional." Hearing her say this is burning hole in my heart. This can't be happening right now to me.
"Stop lying. Why are you lying?" I murmured softly trying to hold back tears but it's not doing me any good.
"Sasha me and you can never happen. We can't be together it won't work. I don't know why I did what I did today but it doesn't mean anything to me. You're my boss and I'm the employee that's it."
"No.. no.. no you don't mean that Becks. Take that back you're lying." I whimpered because she's breaking my heart right now. Her voice is so dull and emotionless driving knives into my chest. "Please don't do this to me. Just get in the car."
"Again I'm sorry. All of this was a mistake and I shouldn't have let any of it happen." When she said that she looked me in the eyes. I don't even recognize her eyes anymore right now because they're so empty and cold. "Now if it's okay with you I'd like to go make sure my boyfriend is still alive." I feel sick. All of me aches right now and I can't comprehend anything that's going on right now. Why is she all of a suddenly being so cold towards me? Hours ago she was being cute and cuddly towards me but now I'm getting nothing. I don't get it she knows how much of a better life she could have with me over the life she's living now. And it's not even about the money but the fact that I treat her the way every girl should be treated, and that is like a queen. I have to have her no matter the cost.
"Becks you're making a huge mistake. I'm not talking to you as you're boss but as Sasha. The Sasha who desperately wants nothing more but to spoil you. All I want is for you to be my partner in crime. Everywhere I go I want you right by my side not as my assistant but as my girlfriend. I want you on my arm and to steal my spotlight on every red carpet event we go to. You deserve to be dressed in the most expensive exotic clothes, shoes, and accessories. Hell I'm still down for our first date in Paris, we can leave tonight and arrive around lunchtime over there." I vented because that's what I want from her. "Set aside all the materialistic things and let's focus on us. You and me. Becky and Sasha, the Queen and her servant. I've never ever offered myself off to anyone the way I am to you right now but I don't care. I'm nobody's servant but I'll fetch you a glass of water if you want it. You tell me to jump I'll ask how high. You want the moon I'll steal it for you. Anything in your wildest dreams I'll make them come true. The thing I want most is your happiness and I know I make you happy. He doesn't make you happy elsewise you wouldn't have spent as much time with me like you did. You could have left but you always stayed and take right now for an example. I let your hand go a long time ago and if you were really serious about him you'd be inside already.. but you're standing here listening to me." I then walked up to her and caressed her cheek. I then moved my hand to her chin and tilted it so we were looking eye to eye. "Fate brought you to me for a reason and I don't want to have to let you go. You gave yourself to me and I gave myself to you so there's no damn way we can ever go back to being just friends. I don't want to be just friends with you. I want you to be mine Becks, Sasha's girl is who I want you to be." I then pressed my lips to hers and kissed her. I put everything I had into that kiss. I need her to realize that I am everything she needs. At first she wouldn't kiss me back but when I wrapped my arm around her and cupped her cheek with my free hand she gave in. And it's back that tingly feeling in the pit of my stomach and it feels so good. "Forget him just come home with me and we'll smoke and cuddle and watch movies until we fall asleep. You're my best friend and I want you to come home with me. I don't want you to go home with anyone but me." I cooed softly looking at her but she isn't saying anything. "I know it might be hard leaving everything you've ever known for the past four years but I promise we'll go slow. Our relationship will be like a flower in bloom. I don't expect you to fully adjust in one day, but once you do I know we'll be beautiful together." She still didn't say anything nor did she push me away. I think I did it. I think I have her this time. Giving her another kiss on the lips I pulled away and walked up to my car. Opening the passenger side door I stood there. "Come on let's go home." I spoke softly pointing inside the car.
If I thought earlier was heart wrenching I think this is more intense because it's decision time. This can go a billion different ways and I'm aiming for a special one in a billion outcome. For her to just listen to me and get in the car. It's literally a ten second action that can either make me very extremely happy or it'll break me. I know in her mind I might be asking a lot of her but they're all things we can solve in the morning. Finn is basically the only person in her life right now that is in relation to her home in Ireland and I understand why it's hard for her to not want to leave him. Her life here in America was basically built around him and their relationship for the past two years. All she really knows here is him and work so to just abruptly stop that is going to be a major adjustment for her. I know it's going to be hard but I plan to be with her every step of the way. After maybe a minute of us just standing there she moved. She's walking towards me, and I couldn't help but to let out a sigh of relief. My heart literally felt like it was going to jump out of my chest it was beating so hard and fast. It's about damn time she realized who's good for her. She kept walking until we were standing only inches apart.
"Sasha?" She mumbled. When she said that I immediately got worried. That tone of voice I've heard it before and it breaks my heart a little. The last time I heard her like this I had just fired her from Mattson's. She isn't looking at me but I can tell she's crying.
"Yes?" I asked softly because I feel guilty for making her cry because it wasn't my intention. I got tired of holding in my emotions and she had to know. She then looked up at me and like predicted she's crying. She then cupped my cheek and used her thumb to gently stroke it. Instinctively I leaned into it and brought my hand up to grab hers. Pulling it off my cheek I kissed her palm. "What's the matter BBG?" I asked not letting go of her hand.
"You.. I really.." She stuttered looking away from me. She's crying and I can hear her sniffling, and I assume that's why she won't look at me. So I used my free hand to tilt her head so we were eye to eye.
"Stop looking away from me I don't like it when you hide from me. I still think you look beautiful regardless the situation. You're beautiful and nothing could ever change that about you." I cooed softly looking her in the eyes still and she's staring back. "Now tell me what's wrong."
"You're a wonderful woman Sasha.. Probably one of the nicest most caring people I've ever met."
"I'm not a very nice person I'm only this way because you bring it out of me."
"I know but you're still the only person who's ever been so caring and compassionate towards me. I'm not going to sugar coat it but I really did enjoy spending time with you. You're truly a fun person to be around and because of you I got to experience things I never thought I would ever have the chance to experience.. And I thank you for that."
"Don't thank me yet we still have so much more stuff to experience together." To that she then let out a very shaky deep breath. Slowly she pulled her hand from out my grasp and began to mess with the bracelet I got her. "If you want we can go get you a new charm later." I suggest trying to lighten the mood because my mind is racing right now.
"I didn't want to tell you this but this is the first piece of real jewelry I've owned that I didn't buy for myself. So when you bought it I didn't take it off for a good two weeks afterwards."
"Well then I'll make sure to take you jewelry sh-"
"No." She murmured looking at the bracelet. Watching her hand she rotated the bracelet until she found the clasp and undid it. The bracelet unwrapped itself from her wrist and she placed it in the palm of her hand. When she did that I registered what's going on and just like the bracelet I can feel my heart disconnecting itself from my chest cavity. "Thank you for allowing me to feel special buying me all those expensive gifts, but I can't keep this." She then gave the bracelet one last glance before closing her hand and holding it out to give to me.
"No.. Becks it's your bracelet I got it for you don't do this to me babe." I tried to reason pushing her hand away from me.
"You gave it to me so I'm giving it back. I shouldn't have accepted it in the first place. I don't deserve this and I don't deserve you being so nice to me." She then stepped forward and tucked the bracelet into my pocket.
"Becks you do deserve me I want you. I want you to be my girlfriend I don't want anyone else." I pleaded she only stepped back and shook her head no.
"Sasha I have a boyfriend and all of this is my fault. I shouldn't have let you kiss me when I knew I wasn't single. I lead you on and I'm sorry for that."
"Becks please." I whimpered out through tears because I don't want to lose her.
"Finn is cooped up in there quite possibly clinging to his life and I've wronged him. He's been nothing but good to me and here I am sleeping with you. He didn't deserve that and it'd be insane if I didn't go in there and see him. How fucked up would I be to just run off with you while he's in a hospital bed?"
"It's not running off because he knows you're with me. He just doesn't know we made love or tha-"
"Can you stop saying that it's-"
"Saying what? That we had sex and it was amazing?! Because I'll say it a billion more times if it'll make you get it through your head. Face the facts Becks, Finn was the furthest thing in your mind while you were digging your nails into my back as I fucked you senseless. And I'll bet my entire life that you didn't give two shits about him while I was eating you out. Stop trying to act like you don't have any emotional attachment to me because I know you do. I've had my fair share and nobody has ever looked into my eyes the way you did while I was in you. You can argue with me on that until the cows come home but I know what I saw and it's permanently etched in my head." I spoke through my tears trying to prove my point.
"Okay but none of that changes the fact that I have a boyfriend. A boyfriend who I've been with for four years now and I can't throw that away over something that shouldn't have happened."
"Fuck that relationship. Four years is nothing compared to the eons we could spend together. And every single day of those eons I'll spend going above and beyond to keep you happy. I'll sing until my diaphragm disintegrates into dust all so you can have a cute purse. Jesus Becky what more do I have to do to get you to understand that we belong together? I feel like everything I say to you is going in one ear and out the other. I don't understand what else you want from me."
"I don't want anything from you I just want to go see Finn."
"No you don't because you'd be in there already if you really wanted to. It's damn near five in the morning and we're arguing in front of a hospital..." At this point I'm over trying to sway her decision I just want answers. "Why don't you want me? What does he have that I don't? Is it because I'm a celebrity or something?"
"Sasha can we please not do this right now."
"No we're doing this right now because I'm sick or your goddamn stupid fucking game. I'm trying so hard to be an adult about this but you're playing with my emotions. I hate it when people play games with my emotions so we're finishing this right here and now. Why don't you want me? What's stopping you from leaving him and coming to me? Is it because I'm black? Is it because you've never dated someone of color?" I asked trying not to blow my shit. I'm not sad anymore just really annoyed that she keeps trying to pretend that she doesn't have feelings for me.
"No that has noth-"
"Is it because I'm younger than you? Because I'll tell everyone I'm older than you and it'll be our little secret."
"No I to-"
"I know it's because I'm famous and you think that I just wanted nothing but sex from you?"
"Sa-"
"Or is it because I'm a female too?" When I said that she let out an annoyed sigh letting me know she's starting to get annoyed with me. I don't care though. Good now we can both be mad together. "That's it isn't it? You don't want me because I'm a girl too."
"I HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND!" She growled balling up her fist only getting me to let out a dry chuckle.
"We both know I treat you ten times better than him. I know you don't want me because you're scared."
"The hell would I be scared about?"
"That you're falling for me and you don't know how or what to do about it."
"No." She responded quickly.
"Oh yes you are because you could have stormed off into that hospital a long time ago but you're still here talking to me. And add to that this isn't the first time I've brought it up and you're still standing here. Becky you have feelings for me just admit it so we can attempt to get somewhere. I'm very tired and jet lagged and I'd like to be home before the sun comes up completely. So can we please just go."
"You can go there's nothing stopping you."
"OH MY FUCKING GOD REBECCA!" I screamed up in the air throwing my arms up in surrender. "The only damn thing keeping me here is you. You! You! You! You! You! This whole argument is about you. I'm literally standing here pouring my damn heart out to you and you couldn't give two shits. You're acting like you didn't know this would happen. What the hell did you think was going to happen when we'd spend hours just cuddling and making out on my couch? What'd you think that we'd both be able to walk away like nothing happened? Did you think that you could come in and take what you want from me and once you got bored with me you could just toss me to the side and I'd be fine with that?"
"I don't know wha-"
"Fucking hell Becks. Maybe I fucked you a little too hard because right now it's like there's no brain in your head. This whole conversation all your answers have been you don't know. What the hell do you know because you obviously don't know anything about us?" I groaned trying my best not to get mad at her. I'm really trying but she's keeps playing games and I'm getting tired of it. That got her to let out a deep sigh. "Becks I'm sorry I didn't mean to raise my voice at you but you're really starting to piss me off. I just don't understand how you feel about me. This morning we were fine playing around and flirting, afternoon comes we're engulfed in sweat, sex, and passion. Next we're smiling and laughing lying in bed like we're a couple. And now you're treating me like I'm some random off the street." God I feel so damn vulnerable right now. I absolutely hate letting my emotions show but I can't help it in this situation. I'm fucking head over heels for Becky and she won't let me have her. I know she has feelings for me but she's pushing them away and I don't understand why. I've never vibed with someone more than I have with Becky and I don't want to let her go. We're so compatible and it's very rare to find relationships like that these days. Especially for me being I'm famous and people only ever want something from me when they're being nice to me. Becky never did that, in fact she hasn't really ever asked anything of me and that's why I have to have her. "When we kissed what'd you feel?" She only shrugged. "Right and when I told you I wanted you earlier today what'd you feel then?" All she did was look down at her feet and kick a small pebble. "Okay and what about when we finished making love, what'd you feel then? Did it feel like everything in your world was at peace? Did everything around you not matter anymore but you and I? Were all your thoughts just thoughts of us? Were you wondering what else is there that you're missing out on? At any point did you wonder what else I'm capable of and if there'd be another time to find out?" She still isn't looking at me nor is she saying anything only further proving my point. "What about right now, what are you thinking about as I'm talking to you. You have someone who has a net worth of over five hundred million almost six million dollars and growing begging you to be their girlfriend. I just want to know what's going through your mind hearing that."
"Sasha I'm going to go inside now." She mumbled still avoiding looking at me.
"Why are you preten-" I had to stop myself from finishing that question because I know she's going to ignore it. I know she has more than friendly feelings for me by the way she's dodging answering my questions. I just don't understand why she keeps denying them when it's so clear she wants me. I'm not delusional or too lovestruck that I'm making this shit up. I can't lie about how she looked at me or how she kissed me but I just know it was real. "If that's what you want then fine go. Go back to the person who doesn't make you happy whatever I don't care." I shrugged closing the passenger side door back. This is so fucking stupid and it's not fair. That got her to look up at me and just stare at me with a blank expression. "Go! Get out my face. It's too late you're opportunity is gone. You're being childish and playing with my emotions and I don't want to be a pawn in your game anymore Rebecca." I spoke folding my arms. On the outside I'm stone faced but that's all a facade. Inside I'm hurting and I know the second I'm out of her sight I'm going to break down. My pride won't let me break down out in the open like this.
"I really do-"
"It's too late I gave you your chance and you didn't take it. I told
You how I felt and all you feel is you don't know and that's how this is ending. We don't know." Giving her one last glance over I took in everything about her. She made it clear she doesn't want me so there's no point in me trying anymore. Letting out a sigh I walked back over to the driver's side of the car and opened the door.
"We aren't done here." I heard softly stopping me from getting in the car.
"No it's done boo. I said I wanted you, you said you didn't want me end of story." I stated simply looking at her before getting in the car.
"Well you never let me explain." I heard before I had a chance to close the door completely. That made me get up and look at her again because it's like the past ten minutes never happened to her.
"I gave you several chances to explain and you didn't say a single damn thing. Silence means it's an answer that you don't want and that's all you gave me. I understand when I'm not wanted and I'll leave you alone from here on out. What happened this afternoon between us I promise to keep to myself and I assume you'll do the same. Not like anyone would believe you slept with me but I trust you won't tell regardless. Goodnight Ms. Lynch." I spoke getting in my car and turning it on. I then began to follow the rest of the jug handle being I never parked in a proper parking spot. I parked where the ambulances would go to drop off a patient. To leave I have to go the same way I came in and that means I have to drive past her. This conversation is over but I still have one more question so I pulled into the jug handle again and stopped in front of her. Rolling down the passenger window I leaned over the center console so I could see her eyes. "I have one last request for you." She didn't say anything but I expected that so I kept talking. "I know you don't want me but can you actually look me in the eyes and tell me that everything that happened between us wasn't real to you?" I asked simply. I need closure I need to know if what just happened really just happened. Staring into her eyes I can't help but feel sad. Rebecca Lynch is going to be my one that got away and I'm really bummed about it. I'm not sure how long we stayed there looking into each other's eyes but eventually my arm started to go numb being I'm leaning on it and it's awkwardly positioned. She hasn't opened her mouth since I got in my car and I guess it's gonna stay that way. "Alright then goodnight and good morning. Send Finn my well wishes." Rolling up my window I drove off headed for the exit of the parking lot.
All I want to do is get as far away from this god forsaken hospital as possible. I don't know where I'm going and I don't care, I just need to get away from here. Like I literally just got my heart broken in front of the one place that's supposed to make you feel better. And what makes it worse is I'm so goddamn into Becks that I know I'm probably never going to get over her. Feelings like that don't just come on the regular, they're one in a million and I just lost the jackpot. I'm not sure how far I got from the hospital but I can't stop thinking about her or how badly I want her to be mine. I've never worked so hard to have someone notice me and all my time, energy, and money is now basically a big waste. I take that back it wasn't a waste of my time because the time I did have with her was magical. Everything about her was magical so it was no surprise when I found myself crying in my car pulled over on the side of the road. The more I keep thinking about her the more it hurts and the harder I cry. I don't want to cry but I can't stop it. I'm so damn happy it's so early in the morning and nobody is really on the roads right now because I know I probably look a complete fucking mess blubbering like a baby over a damn girl who doesn't want me. I offered her everything and she didn't want it. I don't know how I feel right now, I just know I so badly want to be cuddled up to Becky right now.
Becky's POV
"I have one last request for you. I know you don't want me but can you actually look me in the eyes and tell me that everything that happened between us wasn't real to you?" She spoke looking me dead in the eyes. I want to say something but I can't find the words. I can't form proper sentences right now and I'm so fucking confused. So many things are going through my head and my emotions are doing a complete nose dive into the Bermuda Triangle. I don't know what to say to that or how to answer that question. My feelings for Sasha basically hit me like a truck and I haven't the slightest clue what to do about them or how I feel about it. In fact I'm not even sure what it is I feel for her. All I can do is just stare at her because I genuinely don't know. "Alright then goodnight and good morning. Send Finn my well wishes." She then rolled up her window and speed out of the parking lot. I don't know where she's going, I just hope she doesn't do something stupid. I just stood there until I couldn't hear the engine of her car anymore. Not sure how long that was but add five more minutes to that because I'm in shock. I'm still trying to process everything that just happened. It wasn't until I got another text from Kevin, Finn's best friend, that I decided to go inside finally.
I took my time going in there because I'm trying to find the courage to go in there and pretend like I didn't just have mind blowing sex with someone who wasn't Finn hours before I got here. I have to swallow my guilt and act like everything is perfectly fine. I have to mask that I can still feel her body pressed up against mine, or the way she man handled me and making feel things I've never felt with Finn. Not sure how the hell I'm going to pull this off but I have to try because I did it to myself. I fucked myself over and I have to accept that Finn and I's relationship will never be the same again... I just cheated on the my boyfriend of four years only days before our official four year anniversary. That's the icing on the cake I screwed up and I feel like an asshole.
"Becky there you are! What took you so long?" Asked Tyler as I walked into the waiting room of the Emergency room. "Good lord are you okay you look like you got hit by a bus?"
"Dude!" Groaned Kevin hitting him in the chest. "Her boyfriend is lying in a hospital bed she has a solid excuse right now. Jesus man this is why you're single. Just go sit down or something."
"Sorry." Murmured Tyler before turning and going to sit down. Kevin then gave me a hug so I hugged him back.
"How is he?" I asked weakly, pulling away because I am worried but yet I feel like I don't deserve to go see him.
"Nurses say he's okay but he's sleeping right now. They won't let either of us in to see him, only close family. You're his girlfriend so I assume they'll let you see him." He spoke.
"Okay thanks." Walking past him I went up to the reception desk or whatever the hell its called. When I walked up to the counter the lady behind the desk give me a sympathetic look. I just wish I looked this way because of Finn being in the hospital..
"How can I help you."
"My boyfriend.. he was committed in earlier. He had an allergic reaction to fish and I just want to know if I can go see him."
"I'm sorry miss but visiting hours aren't until seven." Looking at the clock it's almost six am. I can't wait that long to go see him, knowing that the tears started to well up.
"Please! I just flew all the way from Los Angeles from work and I just need to see him. I promise I won't be long just two minutes is all I need. That man is the love of my life and I just hurt him and he doesn't even know and I feel horrible about it. This whole day I've had has been so goddamn confusing and I just have to see him even if it's for four seconds. If I had the time to explain why this is so important you'd understand why I need to see him right now. Please I'm begging you just let me see him for a minute and I'll be back out here." I pleaded through tears trying my best to keep it together but there's no point. I already look a mess so there's no point in trying to pretend I'm not right now.
"What's his name?"
"Finn Devitt." The lady then let out a deep breath and started to type something on her computer.
"Yeah he's in room two eighteen." To that I let out a sigh of relief. "But I can't let you go see him. Visiting hours don't start until seven, and you have forty-five minutes until then."
"Plea-"
"I'm going to run to the bathroom and I fully expect you to be sitting in one of those chairs when I get back." She interrupted. She then winked at me and got up and wandered off somewhere. I got the hint and as soon as she was out of my view I took off in the opposite direction. Following the signs on the wall I took the elevator up to the second floor and followed the halls all the way to room two eighteen. Once I got there I stood outside the door and tried my best to hold my composure.. fuck holding my composure I have none to hold. Opening the door I walked in and there he is. He's sleeping right now which is good to know he's still alive. It's the sight of seeing him hooked up to different machines that breaks my heart. He shouldn't be here and I don't like seeing him like this. He's my best friend and he has different tubes coming out of him. Complain about it all I want I'm just happy he's okay.
"Sorry I'm late Sharky. Sasha and I got into it on the way here but I'm here now." I cooed softly going over to him and stroking his hair. "God I hate seeing you like this but I'm just happy you're okay. I love you and only you Sharky and you're really the only person who means the most to me. I wish I could tell you how worried I was the whole ride here to see you. It's like you were trying to put me in a bed next to you I was so worried about you." It was then that I let out a yawn. Well I have no way of getting home right now and I'm in no mood to see Char or Bayley right now because they'll know something's up and what happened between me and Sasha today is going with me to the grave. Careful not to tug on any tubes I crawled in the bed and snuggled up with him. It was kinda funny because when I grabbed his arm and wrapped it around myself his heart skipped a little bit. It wasn't dramatic or anything, but enough to know he's subconsciously happy to see me. "I love you to Finn." Kissing him on the cheek I nestled my head in his chest and slowly began to drift to sleep. I just hope when I wake up everything will be better than how it is now.
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The next morning
I was sleeping peacefully until I felt a soft kiss on my forehead and something tightening around my waist. Thinking on yesterday's events I remembered where I was and I opened my eyes.
"Awe sorry babe I didn't mean to wake you." He whispered softly. Just looking at him I started to tear up. He's so good to me and I betrayed him. "Becks no don't cry I'm okay." He cooed pulling me in closer to him and kissing me.
"I'm just happy to see you is all. I had a rough night and I just needed to see you." I murmured using my hand to cup his cheek. "What were you doing going to a Chinese food place where they serve fish huh?"
"The boys and I decided to switch it up and go eat somewhere new. It was this weird Asian food buffet. They had veggie sushi and I guess I grabbed one that had fish in it and I didn't realize it before it was too late."
"God Sharky you gotta be more careful. You have no idea how scared I was being on the complete opposite side of the country and not being able to do anything." He smiled a small grin before pecking me on the lips.
"I'm sorry baby I didn't mean to worry you. You know I don't like it when you're stressed especially over something I did. But I'm okay you're okay, so everything is okay now. There's nothing to worry about anymore."
"I love you."
"I love you too babe. I was so bored all day without you yesterday. How was your trip to Cali?"
"It was.." No words can even begin to completely describe that trip other than confusing. Everything I thought I knew is all completely in question and I have no answers for them. "It was fine."
"Fine? That's it?" I nodded. "I don't believe that you took a long time to answer. Something cool happened didn't it? Did you meet Drake or something?" He asked getting a little excited getting me to smile. He's such a child sometimes but I love it.
"No."
"Eminem?" I shook my head no again. "Beyoncé? Ash Costello? Chris Martin? Britney Spears? Ed Sheeren?"
"No I didn't meet any celebrities besides Sasha."
"So then what'd you two get up to then?"
"We had a meeting about the stores. Then Sasha had a studio session, we had froyo after and then we just hung out at her house out there." I shrugged simply.
"Wait she has another house?!"
"Yeah its massive, it's not even a house it's a mansion basically."
"Oh yeah?"
"The entire property is gated in. And then the neighborhood that it's in is gated too so it's pretty legit."
"Oh damn. Did you take pictures? Please tell me you took pictures this time."
"No I didn't this time I'm sorry babe."
"Damn it. Okay well tell me what it looked like in there. Did she have like a giant fish tank with sharks in it?" That's a good question and I can't even answer it honestly because I literally don't know. I've only been in three different rooms in that house. The main foyer, the master bedroom, and master bathroom. Hell for all I know she could have two master bedrooms but I'll never know. I hate lying to him but I don't have any other options right now.
"No I don't think so." I can't see how she'd be able to maintain it when she spends most of her time down here in Florida now. "But she did have a giant princessy staircase. I'm talking Cinderella elegant."
"Did you slide down it on a mattress?" That got me to smile at him.
"No I don't think she would have liked it to scratch up her marble floors."
"Oh damn! That's still really crazy. My girlfriend is Sasha Banks' personal assistant. You think she needs a graphic designer? You know to like design her video game platform?"
"Finn she's a singer not an athlete."
"There's a first for everything." I swear he's truly something special and I love it. He's my best friend and I can't imagine him not being in my life anymore. I'm just going to wipe my slate clean and forget everything that happened in the past few months. Like everything that happened between me and Sasha never happened.
So I bet you're wondering why it is I decided to bless you with that unexpected and semi-necessary smut scene in the beginning right? You probably weren't but now I bet you are because I'm bringing it up... I just can't get over how adorable Sasha is when it comes to Becky. Awe poor Sasha she just want to spoil Becky, but she play'n games. It honestly for some reason took me forever to finish this chapter. Why is that Joz? Well I "finished" this chapter maybe three weeks ago. Its just half that smut scene wasn't in the first draft. Plus I have another OTP brewing in my kitchen and I've been dying to write them for quite some time now, don't even bother because I'm not going to tell you who, but it's between a KO and a Diva. Oh the possibilities! Dunno when that one-shot is gonna drop but it won't be any time soon so don't stress. Lets get back to the plate in front of us, so once again fucking Finn ruining every damn thing! Just when we finally get to the good part he ruins it. Then that hospital parking lot break up. Owe my heart with Sash pulling her dick out and giving it all she had but to no avail. Sometimes you have to go balls to the wall to get what you want. Wonder whats going to happen next how do they end up as one? Who knows I write this as I go so I guess we're all excited to see where this goes. Ummmm so next chapter we go to Boston and rock out with our cocks out cuz I already started the chapter and its cute. Until next time remember always go balls deep no other exceptions. Hire me to be your life coach I give great advice. ~Joz #Fuckitup