End of June Becky's POV

It's about three in the morning and I got cold so I reached out to pull Sasha closer to me, only to end up grabbing a handful of sheets. It's very very uncommon for something like this to happen and that's why I woke up. I have no idea where she is, because the bathroom door is closed and she always goes to the bathroom with the door open. I can't imagine she left the house because she had her final rehearsal for her tour all day yesterday and my poor baby was so sore and tired from dancing all day. I think I picked her up around eight and got home around eight thirty. I decided to just cook something simple for dinner, grilled chicken sandwiches with bacon and cheese on wheat rolls. We ate and then decided to watch tv on the couch where she was going in and out on me. One minute she's snoring another she's up. In the end she fell asleep so when I got tired I carried her up to bed with me. Since then we've been cuddling until... well now because I just realized she's missing. Her side of the bed is cold so she must have been missing for a while now. I really don't care about how long ago she got up, I just wanna know where she is because I'm worried. Sasha usually always sleeps through the night besides if she has to use the bathroom.

Getting out of bed I wrapped myself up in the throw blanket that we have at the foot of the bed, put on my slippers and headed out the room. Opening the door the first thing I hear is a beautiful melody being played via the grand piano downstairs. What's she doing playing at this time of night? All of me wants to rush down there and get her back to bed because I'm tired, yet I don't want this beautiful melody to stop. I haven't ever heard this one before so she must be writing or just playing just to play. I took my time going down the steps and making my way to the living room where the piano is. Getting there like I said she's sitting at the piano.

"When is the release date for this song?" I asked softly getting her to turn and look at me before softly smiling at me.

"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you." Shaking my head no I slowly began making my way over to her.

"You playing didn't wake me, I went to cuddle you and I got nothing but air. You hardly ever leave bed this late at night and I was worried." I murmured sitting down next to her on the bench. "What you doing?" She just shrugged and pushed a key on the piano.

"Bad dream."

"You wanna talk about it?" I asked extending my right arm to wrap the blanket around her shoulder that way I can hold her.

"I was on stage and mid way through the set list I drew a complete and total blank. I couldn't remember the lyrics to the song I was singing or the choreography. Nor could I remember what song was next or the choreography for the rest of the show." She spoke softly resting her head on my shoulder.

"Well if something like that does happen just listen to the crowd. Remember when you played at pride and your fans sang along to every lyric you sang?" Earlier this month Sasha got invited to perform at LA Pride and she did an amazing job. I never knew just how many lives my girlfriend's music touched until I went to pride with her. Sash was off doing mic check so I decided to go off and explore the area, check out all the booths and such. While I was walking around I got recognized by so many people and they all told me about how inspired they were because of Sasha writing the songs that she wrote. Or how we came out together on national television gave them courage to come out. She has so many people who love her and that's probably only a small percentage being it was only one city. "They were so loud I couldn't even hear you singing anymore it was just them."

"Yeah but that's different."

"How's it different? The only differences I can think of is that the concert is going to be inside and if anything I think that will amplify their voices so even if you do forget the lyrics just watch them and they'll remind you. Honestly though I don't think that will happen anyway because I know you and I know you never forget your lyrics."

"Becks my first show is in less than forty eight hours and it's a sold out arena. I've never performed in front of a sold out crowd full of people who look up to me or I've inspired in some way. A sold out arena full of people who paid just to hear me sing live.. What happens if I don't live up to their expectations? What if my voice isn't up to parr with wha-" Before she could keep going I kissed her. I made sure to put as much comfort as I could into it.

"You stop that right now. You are going to do a fabulous job no doubt about it. You're Sasha fucking Banks for crying out loud. Tomorrow morning we'll be on a flight back to your hometown, your old stomping grounds to begin the start of your damn near sold out world tour. You my beautiful, are going to tear the roof off every single arena because you own all those buildings. You're the Legit Boss and you run shit. Whatever you say goes and if you fuck up it doesn't matter because you're The Legit Boss, Sasha fucking Banks!"

"So does that mean we can finally get a stripper pole in our bedroom?"

"No that rule only applies to everyone but your significant other. Sorry maybe next time love." I then gave her a quick peck. "Seriously babe you're going to do fine you've been rehearsing for this tour for months now I'm positive you'll do great with no mishaps." She then looked at me with dough eyes.

"You really think so?"

"I know so baby. We'll be fine I know it. Plus I'm excited because we get to go see momma and last I talked to her she said she'll show me a couple recipes. And I know that once the tour is done you're going to need a good old fashioned home cooked meal." That immediately got her to smile and kiss me.

"Fuck just the thought of you cooking me food just like my mom did is such a turn on. My white girl gone hood, I love it."

"Me too I can't stop thinking about her green beans. I've been trying for months now to try and recreate it but I just can't crack it." It's true I've watched hundreds of videos read hundred of recipes on different ways to cook green beans and none of the ones I've tried tasted like the way Sasha's mother cooked them.

"Is that why we have green beans and potatoes so often?"

"We don't have green beans and potatoes that often." I sassed.

"So you're telling me if I go looking in the kitchen right now I won't find potatoes? And we had green beans the other day for lunch."

"Hey I'm just trying to see how many recipes I can create with green beans. And I'm Irish so I need me potatoes or else I'll die without them." I spoke the last part in the thickest I could get my accent to sound.

"Okay yeah I forgot you leprechauns love potatoes. But you could have just asked me to help you with the beans you know?"

"Nah it wouldn't be the same. I need a mother's touch to perfect it. Nothing against you babe I just want to feed you the best food I can."

"What did I do to deserve you?" She spoke staring dreamily at me. It was only right I kissed her.

"I don't know. But come let's go to bed I'm tired, cold, and want cuddles."

"Mkay." She then closed the key cover and we both got up. I then headed out the room Sasha not too far behind me. "Wait you talk to my mom?"

"Mhmm." I responded simply beginning up the steps.

"Why? When? How come I never notice?"

"At least once every two weeks. Whenever you're too busy to answer your phone so she calls me wondering where you are. Or I'll need to know a certain way to cook something and I'll call and ask her."

"I don't know if I should be jealous that you have a good relationship with my mom or happy about it."

"Well how do you think I know how to trick you into taking your vitamins in the morning?"

"Wait... last I checked I don't take vitamins."

"Oh okay." I shrugged simply going into our room because I've said too much.

"Becks have you been drugging me?"

"Damn I can't wait to go back to sleep I am so tired." As I said that I climbed into the bed.

"Becks we can't just walk past that like you didn't say what you just said."

"I was kidding. Come cuddle!" I cooed holding up the blanket so she can climb in and cuddle with me. It's dark in here besides the air freshener night light that we have plugged in across the room. I can't see her facial expression but I can tell she's just standing there staring at me. "Please I need some love'n."

"I'm on to you Gingie." She warned slowly getting in the bed. "I'm hot on your tail. That's it you aren't allowed to cook me breakfast without my supervision in the morning." That got me to laugh.

"So you're going to get up earlier in the morning with me from now on? I usually start breakfast around eight." I asked incredulously because I know she absolutely hates getting up early.

"Yup." As she said that I pulled her closer into me so we were almost face to face.

"Really?"

"Mhmm for all I know you really could be slipping me magic love potions to keep me so damn in love with you." I seriously do love her logic sometimes.

"Yeah you're right I've been slipping you magic love potion number nine for a year and some change now. The cat is out the bag now."

"I knew it. Stop drugging me."

"No." I then kissed her on the nose. "You're mine forever and there's nothing you can do about it. You belong to me and there's no escaping." I declared triumphantly tightening my grip around her.

"It's a good thing you're hot elsewise I'd be outta here."

"No you wouldn't."

"Yes I would."

"Right so that means you would have left me alone to be with Finn for however long that would have lasted?"

"No. He can't have you nobody can have you but me. Nobody deserves you like I do, you're my queen and I love you. You make me so happy and I don't want you to make anyone else as happy as you make me." Hearing her say that still gives me butterflies. Sasha always does have a way with words.

"Well lucky you I don't want anyone but you... and Channing Tatum. Fuck he's so damn hot ugh." I gushed because I was watching Magic Mike earlier.

"Hmm so you'd be okay if me and Jennifer Aniston hit it off?" Taking a second to think about someone else touching my Sasha actually makes me kind of jealous. No. Dear god not with the way she makes love, she makes it hard to stop thinking about her days after you finish. And the thought of anyone else touching me who isn't Sasha is saddening to me. I don't want anyone to have my nail marks on their back besides Sasha, and I don't want anyone else's nail marks on my back other than Sasha's. I'm not a jealous person but when it comes to her I want her all to myself.

"No I don't want anyone else touching you but me. Fine truce."

"Truce." She then let out a cute yawn. "I'm gonna go to sleep now." She then leaned in and pressed her lips to mine. "Goodnight orange."

"Goodnight pink." I murmured kissing her forehead. She let out a content sigh before snuggling into me. One of my favorite things in the world is cuddling her when I go to sleep. I wish I could put into words how much I love this woman.

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The next day in Boston

Sasha's POV

"Babe can you grab that bag for me?" I asked nodding to Beck's suitcase as I'm unloading our car.

"You sure you don't want me to help?" She asked pushing the bag towards me.

"I'm positive I don't want my baby to break a nail. I got it don't you worry just go ring the bell." She gave me a slight worrisome look before smiling.

"Okay." Giving me a small peck she headed up to the door. We just landed in Boston maybe two hours ago. This time we had to fly commercial because the jet is getting detailed and it's routine mechanical work done. Once we landed we navigated our way through the airport being they had one of those golfcart things pick us up and take us to baggage claim. I didn't like it too much because a fan would see us drive past and I hate not being able to interact with them. From baggage claim we got a rental car and drove to my mom's house. It's not the house I grew up in being since I made it big I moved her out of that God awful apartment and into a nice town house. I offered to let her live in my house in LA but she refused to move from Boston. "Hi Momma!" I heard causing me to look up and see Becks hugging my mother. "She's right there." Becks then turned and pointed at me.

"Hi ma!" I smiled waving at her.

"I know I didn't raise you in a damn barn!" She yelled back making me mentally roll my eyes. Even though I'm a grown woman she won't hesitate to beat my ass for rolling my eyes at her. Grabbing all the bags I walked up to the porch and set them down.

"Hi mom." I smiled hugging and kissing her.

"Ahh it's so nice for you to come visit me. Where are all your friends?" She asked pulling away.

"I dunno work probably. They know we're here so they'll be by later I guess."

"Okay. Well you take those bags upstairs. And Rebecca you come with me, you have a bowl of green beans that need to be cut with your name on it." Spoke my mom going into the house so I let Becks go first and I followed.

"Yes, but is it okay if I get settled in first?"

"Of course. Make yourself at home just don't take too long."

"Oh I won't be too long."

"Ten minutes. You both have ten minutes and don't make me come up there." She spoke going into the kitchen.

"Perfect see you in ten." Becks then grabbed her suitcase from me.

"Hey I got it." She giggled and kissed me.

"I know but I want to carry my own bags this one time. Is that okay with you?"

"No I just don't want you to-" She interrupted me with a kiss.

"Too bad." She teased before going up the steps and to the guest bedroom. We've been here together before so she knows where everything is. "What are we going to do tonight?" She asked putting her suitcase on the bench in front of the bed. I followed behind her and sat all the bags I had on the bed.

"Umm I don't know. What do you want to do? We can do whatever you want later. It's only little after four so we got lots of time to decide." I shrugged because it doesn't matter to me. She smiled and wrapped her arms around me pulling me close.

"Hmmm well we're in your hometown so I think we should do something big. What'd you and your friends do for fun in B-Mass?"

"A lot of drinking, smoking, and partying."

"So basically the same shit we do now?"

"Thinking about it yeah I guess so. Nothing has really changed since."

"Mmm well I'm not sure if it's a good idea to go get hammered a day away from the first show of the tour.."

"Yeah that's true." I mumbled.

"Honestly babe I just want to spend time with you. I want to spend as much time with you as possible before the tour starts and I don't get to see you as often." I forgot that she isn't going to be with me throughout the whole tour. She still has to manage Mattson's while I'm away and she can't do that if she's overseas with me.

"You sure you can't just leave Linda in charge while we're gone?"

"I'm not letting that power hungry old hag anywhere close to my job. Ever since we became public, and you gave me her position she's been trying to out due me and I can't let her think she won."

"It's okay I'll just fire her when we get back and everything will be chill."

"If you fire her who's going to look over the office while we're out of town?"

"I'll just leave Eli in charge. I'm positive he'll hold it down." I giggled because she and I both know it's probably a horrible idea to leave him in charge of anything.

"Dear god don't give that man any reason to think you might want him. He still thinks that you're his future ex-wife. So putting him in a position of power will only triple that." I just laughed because it's really a miracle that he still works for me.

"Well then you better quit playing and knock me up and put a ring on it." I teased showing her my left ring finger.

"Trust me if I could get you pregnant I wouldn't ever pull out. We'd have like eleven kids by now."

"That's fine but when you gonna put a ring on it?" I asked doing the single ladies hand movement. That got her to laugh.

"Wouldn't you like to know?"

"I would actually." I spoke sassily.

"Yeah well I can ask you the same. Look at my poor finger." She then held up her left hand and was wiggling her ring finger. "Poor feller is shivering he's so cold."

"Well then I guess I'll have to get a nice rock for him the lay under." I grinned because I just got an idea and I think she's going to enjoy it very much.

"I think he'll like that." She grinned getting me to kiss her.

"You're a spoiled little brat you know that right?"

"Hey you made me like this and now you gotta deal with it." She shrugged letting me go and going back to her bag.

"I know, it's whatever though because you're hot. And that ass is amazing it has me hypnotized." I spoke staring at her ass being she's wearing leggings and her ass looks really good in them.

"Lucky you huh?" Shit now I'm thinking back to the time when Becks and I were still messing around and she thought it'd be cute to come to work in the tightest most shortest skirt she owned. I think it was six months after our first time together and I attempted to put an end to our affair. I was getting extremely jealous that she wouldn't leave Finn for me and I told her I wasn't going to sleep with her anymore. She's took that as a challenge and teased me with the one thing I've been begging her to let me have. Her ass. She still went home to Finn at night and I needed some sort of dominance over him. I mean yeah I was fucking his girl whilst he got nothing from her, but I needed more than that. I wanted the one thing he never got from her and that was the pleasure to be the first one to enter her backdoor. She knew I wanted it bad and she used it against me but I held my own until she practically begged me to take her. I think that was probably one of the hottest sessions we've ever had. When we finished I had to drop a few bands on her because she laid there and took it like a champ. I was surprised because I didn't really show any mercy that day and I didn't hear a single complaint from her. I wish she did though because when the tables flipped she wasn't gentle at all with me. I couldn't sit right the whole next day she was so aggressive. I think I got it worse if anything because she didn't warn me she simply tied me up and took what she wanted from me. It's okay though because oddly I enjoyed it to some degree. "Sasha? Hello anyone home?" Cooed Becks waving her hand in my face.

"What?"

"You totally just spaced out on me." I just shrugged and grabbed her by the hip turning her to the side so I could get a good look at her ass.

"It's been a good minute since I last claimed this." I mumbled pinching her ass. "I'll have to do that at some point before you leave me on tour." She just gave me a look.

"Okay, but only if I get to claim yours too."

"Deal." I smirked crossing my fingers behind my back. I can't do that it might make me mess up my choreography. I can't go on stage limping. She's probably going to get mad but I don't care she'll get her revenge on me another day.

"HEY WHAT'S TAKING SO LONG UP THERE?!" We heard call out from downstairs.

"In a minute!" I yelled back.

"HURRY UP!"

"We're coming now ma! Yeah babe clear out a day for me within the next few days. I'm reclaiming what's mine." Kissing her on the cheek I left the room and headed downstairs. Walking downstairs my mom was in the kitchen cutting what looks to be some sort of meat I'm not sure entirely. "So what's for dinner tonight?" I asked sitting in one of the island chairs. I'd offer to help but one time I fucked up and knocked over a whole pan of food, and since then I've been banned from helping cook with her. I'm okay with that because I'm not a fan of cooking anyway.

"Right now I'm working on my collards. Then I got a ham marinating in the fridge, some mac-n-cheese, ziti, green beans, and I'm thinking some potatoes."

"Oh hey can you make sure you show Becks how to cook the green beans because she's been obsessed with trying to figure out how you do it. I told her I could help her but she insists she learns it from you."

"I know bless her heart, she talks to me all the time about different recipes. I like her Sash, she's a good girl. I like her a lot better than that other white bitch you brought home. What was her name seasoning or some shit like that?" She asked slamming down her life cutting clean through what looks like a turkey leg.

"Oh Summer?"

"Yeah I didn't like her. She seemed more concerned in your music than you yourself. None to mention she was always too good to eat my food. Ha too much cholesterol my ass! I even offered her to come cook with me but you know what she said?"

"No, but I assume it was something along the lines of I'm watching my figure. Or it's okay I'm not really into cooking." I know I was still in love with Summer, but there are some other reasons I never really tried too hard to get her back. And one of the main ones being she never cooked for me and when she did it was nasty or something that came frozen.

"That's exactly what she said. I don't care who you are but if you're going to be a part of this family you gotta know how to cook. You can't cook you can't stay. Notice how I ain't ever invite her over ever again?"

"Oh I just thought you didn't like her."

"I didn't but mostly because I saw the way you'd come home and eat up all my food like a damn vulture. That let me know she wasn't feeding you and she had to go." She shrugged slamming her knife down again cutting through the bone. "But you claimed you loved her so I didn't say nothing. If you were happy I was happy."

"Well to let you know Becks takes care of me. She cooks for me, cleans for me, she'll probably do anything I asked of her."

"I know she calls me all the time asking about how to cook something or a certain way to clean something. I don't know where you found her but you better not let her go back because I guarantee you'll never find another one like her." She spoke pointing at me with the knife.

"I know I love that woman more than anything. Mom she's the one. I know I said that last time we were here but I really mean it this time. I can't picture my future without her in it Ma. She's so good to me and I love her to death because I know she's with me for me and not just my name."

"Good because that's all I could ever ask for from whoever my babies date." She smiled putting the chopped up turkey leg in a pot. She then moved and placed the pot on the stove.

"Hey mom?" I asked lowly because thinking about my next question has me so nervous.

"Yes Sasha?"

"So does that mean you'd be okay if she really did become part of the family?" That got her to stop moving and turn to look at me completely being her back was facing me.

"What?"

"I think-"

"Sorry it took me so long I had to use the restroom but I'm all good now and ready to cook." Sang Becks as she walked into the kitchen. My mom just looked at her before turning to look at me.

"Took you long enough." I smiled quickly changing the subject. Becks smiled and came over and kissed me on the cheek.

"Well I'm here now and that's all that matters." Giving me another kiss she pulled away and turned to look at my mom. "Where shall I start?"

"Well right now I'm working on my collards." And from there I just watched them cook together. My mom would show Becks how to do something and she'd try it, and write it down. Like I said I'm literally so lucky to have a woman who's so dedicated to me the way Becks is. She's learning how to cook from my mom so she can cook for me. I can never let her go because she's way too valuable now, especially now since she's white and can cook soul food. You can't find things like that in nature she's one of a kind and I can't let her slip. I'm so happy to call her mine. So you already know I snapped a picture of them cooking and posted it to the Gram. I really do enjoy showing her off to the world. Another moment where I'm so glad I decided to come out to everyone. Becky basically is all I ever post these days, from her being cute, to me spoiling her, and even candid photos she takes of us on my phone. You'd probably think it's her account I post about our relationship so often. People are probably sick of it but I don't care I'm in love. She's so beautiful to me and if I want to post a picture of her I'll post it.

Two days later. Night of the first show. Becky's POV

"Okay now run through the lights for Day Dreaming again." I spoke into my headset as I was standing out on the floor looking onto the stage. All day we've been in the arena doing mic checks and making sure everything runs smoothly during the show. Earlier today the lights were off beat to some of the songs and I'm just making sure everything is up to Sasha's standards. The lights then went out completely and started up again while the beat to the song played and all the lights started to flash and the backdrops played their designated videos. "There we go much better than before guys!" I smiled because everything is coming together nicely.

"Do you want us to run through Be Mine Already next?" Spoke back one of the guys through the headset.

"Yeah and then we'll wrap this up before front of house opens."

"Okay." The lights then went out again and the music stopped. This particular part of the concert is one of my favorites because Sasha instead I was a part of it. What I mean by that is its pitch black in here besides the backdrop and it's a video clip of me and Sasha playing around one afternoon when I was still with Finn.

"Hey what are you doing?" It opens up with me lying in bed and Sasha is straddling my hips holding the camera in my face. You can't see Sash because she's the one recording but you can see me and her legs.

"I'm getting this bullshit on camera and then maybe you'll see what I'm talking about. Now tell me again why it is you aren't mine yet."

"I am yours baby!"

"Bullshit!"

"No! I belong to you babe."

"If you're mine how come you always go home to you're stupid boyfriend at night?"

"Well I always come back to you the next day."

"No if you were mine you would be waking up every morning in my arms not his. When you gonna leave him and come be with me?" Watching this video I remember this day and how in love we were back then. This happened rather early in our affair, so neither of us had admitted our love for each other yet, but I never knew we were so obvious. You can see it in the way I'm looking up at Sasha that I'm so in love with her. I'm just cheesing like a complete nerd. Only difference is now I really am hers, and I love her a lot more now. "Answer the question Rebecca. When are you going to let me take care of you and love you the way you deserve to be like the queen you are."

"What's wrong with what we have now?"

"I hate sharing you, I want you to be mine already that's what's wrong. I don't want him to have you anymore." And then that's when the video ends and the beat fades in. There aren't many lights to this song because it has a medium tempo to it. But they all matched up to the beat and it looks good.

"Alright lads good job let's reset for the beginning of the show. Then everyone go take a break and let's be back in position by the time the doors open." I spoke in the headset. I then climbed back onto the stage. When I did that I stood dead in the middle of it and I got goosebumps. This arena is huge and it's completely sold out. My girlfriend is less than two hours away from taking this stage and blowing the roof off this place. I know I didn't really have much to do with where Sasha is now in her career but I'm so proud of her for making it here. Her first world tour and we sold out on fifty out of the one hundred and twenty shows we have scheduled. The tour hasn't even really started and I'm already overwhelmed. I'm not the one performing and I'm nervous, so I can only imagine how Sasha is doing.

Speaking of her I have to go find her and make sure she's doing what she needs to be doing. My job of being her assistant never stops. Walking backstage I made my rounds. Starting with the opening act, which just so happens to be Jhene Aiko. I know I was just as surprised when she agreed to open for her. Then again her and Sasha are pretty good friends they hang out all the time. I like her because she's a really good singer, and she's really pretty. I also like her boyfriend because he's really chill and Jhene got him to also help open for Sash. Big Sean that's his rap name and his music is good too. He's only performing one or two songs and not at every venue but Sasha didn't care she was just excited to have a tour. Checking in on them they are in wardrobe getting their final touches done.

Next I'm checking in on the band making sure they all have their instruments in tune. And that they remember their cues and such. I usually don't ask too many questions because I know nothing about playing any instruments. Sasha's been teaching me how to play piano but I'm no good compared to her. Anyway I left them to go see her backup dancers. They are basically the same dancers she had from the Bank on it music video with a couple extras. So naturally I lingered there for a bit. I've had a chance to get to know most of them during rehearsal and when Sasha would take them all out to dinner after practice. Also whenever we go out in Los Angeles we always ran into one of them and they hung out with us for the night. Or maybe it could be from when I'd cook them all lunch and dropped it off while they rehearsed. They all love my cooking so naturally it all made them like me. I dunno but I made sure they were all in costume and ready to go. After them leaves me to check on the star of the show. Approaching her door I can hear her doing her vocal warm ups. Knocking lightly I walked in.

"Hey front of house is open." I spoke walking in getting her to stop pacing and look at me.

"There you are I was starting to think you forgot about me." She grinned coming up to me and giving me a kiss.

"Well I was just saving the best for last."

"Good because I need cuddles babe. I'm nervous look." She then held up her hand and it was shaking slightly. "I'm so excited but I don't know if this is excitement or nervousness."

"Come here." Lifting her up bridal style I moved and sat us down on the couch.

"It's so hot the way you man handle me." She grinned kissing me.

"I try. Anyway everything is good to go babe. All that's left is for your fans to pack the arena and for you to sing their heads off."

"They fixed the lights and stuff?"

"Yup I oversaw it all and it looks good. This is going to be a good show I'm jealous of everyone who has front row seats."

"But remember you'll always have the best seat in the house." She purred grabbing my hand and running it up her leg to her thigh. "None of them get to see this."

"See what?." I teased getting her to smirk. She then got off me and took off her oversized Celtics jersey revealing her very revealing mini skirt and bra.

"Look it." Bending forward her skirt lifted up giving me a great view of her ass. But upon closer examination I noticed on her right cheek she has my name on it. "I figured you'd like to have some sort of control when I do Better than you." That said song is an older song of hers before we met and she sings about how she's way better of a woman compared to someone else's girlfriend. It's a cocky song so the choreography involves her giving a fan a chair dance. I only approved because she promised to use it on me whenever I wanted.

"When'd you get that?" I asked squeezing her ass.

"Last night when I went out with the dancers. When we were all getting the matching tattoos they were clowning me for being so whipped. So I was like fuck you guys and I got your name hennaed on my ass because you own it." I have no words other than a low growl. That's really fucking hot I want her so bad now knowing my name is on her ass. She then stood back up and turned around to face me. "Do you like it?" She purred in her sexy low voice. That got me to reach forward and grab her by the waistband pulling her onto my lap.

"Do I like it?" I asked looking up at her. She only grinned and began running her hands through my hair.

"Mhmm." Biting her lip she's looking down into my eyes as I'm looking up at her and I can't stop my heart from doing flips. "What do you think?"

"Well it's certainly making me want to fuck you right here just so I can watch my name jiggle on your ass." I spoke honestly grabbing her ass with both hands and giving it a squeeze. That got her to smile and let out a small moan.

"Really that's all you're thinking about? What if I got it to signify my love and loyalty to you?" I just let out a small chuckle before kissing her chest.

"Well that's cute and I appreciate you for doing that." I then leaned up for a kiss and she met me halfway. "But something tells me you didn't just get that only to signify your love and loyalty to me."

"Oh really?!"

"I think you tattooed my name on your ass because you know it's going to make me want you a lot more than I usually do. I mean just thinking about it is making me want to hit it from the back just so I can look at it. However at the same time I don't want to because I like looking at that pretty face of yours while we make love." I cooed wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her closer to me.

"I didn't think about the last part when I did that." She murmured softly. She knows I'm more of a gentle lover in bed rather than a rough lover like her. "But you know what, that's good because now you'll want to." She grinned leaning down to kiss me. "Doesn't matter, because I didn't get your name tattooed on my ass so you'll fuck me. I got it to signify my love and loyalty to you. Jesus Becks it's like sex is all you ever want from me. Maybe I just want to cuddle and watch movies with you."

"We do that and then twenty minutes into the movie you give me that stupid look and then the next thing I know I'm sprawled out on the couch with you in between my legs!" I ranted because she's trying to flip the roles.

"Well I've never heard you complain about it." She sassed. I'd say something back but she has a point. "Exactly. Anyway we'll have to finish this later because I have a show to do." She then went to try and get off me but I have a firm grip on her. "Don't you start." She warned. All it did was make me tighten my grip on her and began nibbling on her neck. "No. I have.. I have to.. to go sing."

"We still have an hour before that has to happen." I murmured in her neck continuing to nibble on her.

"No babe I'm sorry! You know it takes me forever to get my legs back." She groaned out trying to wiggle her way out but to no avail. Then again she also wasn't trying too hard to escape.

"Should have thought about that before you accused me of wanting nothing but sex from you, and flashing me you're ass."

"If I fuck up my choreography I'm gonna to kill you later."

"In that case good luck on stage."

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Ten minutes before showtime

"Alright guys this is it. The moment we've been training our asses off for. All the bruises, the sweat, frustration, and hours of listening to the same songs over and over again have all lead up to this. The first show on The Be Who You Are world tour out of one hundred and twenty shows around the world. Fifty of which we completely sold out, tonight being one of them. If there is one show we have to be on our worst behavior, tonight is one of those nights. It's my hometown and I plan to sing so hard that is makes the whole city shake. I want my band to play so hard that y'all crush you're instruments with your bare hands because you played so hard. I want my dancers to dance so hard it makes MJ smile."

"RIP!" Spoke someone.

"I want my back up singers to back me up so good that we sound like we're all one person. I want us all to go out there and rock out with our cocks out. These people paid for a show so we're going to give it to them and then some. But it doesn't stop at just us who actually go on stage. Shoutout to my whole tech crew for putting up with my demanding ways. I know I'm a pain in the ass but this show has to be perfection and nothing less. Thank you Scotty for the choreo that slays. And to Toni and Elaine for being the best two wardrobe warriors I know. You ladies did a fantastic job bringing my drawings to life. Thanks to Jhene and Big for agreeing to open the show for me. I appreciate it and I love you both. And finally a big thanks to my lovely girlfriend Rebecca." Sasha smiled looking at me. "Thank you for giving me the courage to finally embrace who I am allowing me to be where I am now. Had I not come out we probably wouldn't be standing here. And without her a good percent of the set list wouldn't exist. That and because she did most of the heavy work planning this tour." It was around this time that you could hear the roar of the crowd letting us know it's almost time. "You guys hear that? They're waiting for us."

"They're waiting on their fearless leader Sash. They didn't come to see us they came to see you." Spoke one of the dancers getting her to blush a little bit.

"Well you all are apart of me so they're going to get us all." She then took a deep breath and held up her shot glass. "Alright guys it's time to boss up and make this building our bitch for the night. Let's fuck it up on three guys."

"One! Two! Three! LETS FUCK IT UP!" We all yelled before we all took our shots. Apparently that's going to be our pre show tradition. A pep talk and then we all take a shot when we're done. From there we all dispersed going to where they need to be. Right now Jhene is on stage warming up the stage. Leaving me some time to get Sasha's head in the right place performance wise.

"This is it babe it's almost time." I spoke as Sasha came over to me. She then wrapped her arms around me and cuddled into me. She doesn't have to tell me for me to know she's really nervous right now.

"Is it too late to go home?"

"That's not even an option anymore toots. We're in too deep you have to go out there and do what you do best. You're going to do fine and then we can cuddle on the bus to the next city."

"It's so crazy I have my own tour bus."

"Yeah but where the hell are we going to keep that thing when the tour is over?"

"We can just keep it in the yard at the house in LA. It'll be our new lawn ornament."

"Omg. I don't know why I let you buy it we should have just rented one."

"But then I couldn't have my name on it." She pouted looking up at me.

"Why does everything you own have to have your name on it?"

"Because I like hearing and reading my name. And because then everyone knows who it belongs to."

"You truly are a piece of work you know that?" She giggled before going back to resting her head in my chest.

"I know but I'm your piece of work." To that I kissed her on the head and continued on holding her. Eventually she had to go get into position to make her entrance. Her and her dancers are going to use the toaster thingy to rise up onto the stage. It's going to be quite the entrance because before they go up, they have the clip of her coming out on the Grammys playing. If there was one thing she was really insistent about is having that speech play. It's the biggest reason behind the Be Who You Are tour. So once I heard it start to play my heart began to grow heavy with anticipation of her arrival. Backstage they have a monitor that's linked to a camera that shows what's happening onstage from the crowds point of view. Watching said monitor the video is playing and it's dead silent out there.

"I'm gay and I'm head over heels for my girlfriend. She's the reason I'm up here accepting this award right now. Fellas I hate breaking your hearts but I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not. Shout out to my fans thanks for all your love and support I wouldn't be here without you guys. I hope you all still love me after this because I would certainly like to keep writing catchy songs for you guys. Thank you."

And then everything goes pitch black in the arena.

"BOSTON!" I hear Sasha yell making the crowd come back to life and they're so loud. All the lights then shined white and you can see Sasha and her dancers rise up onto the stage with their backs turned to us. "B-Mass! I'm home." She spoke this time in a more mellow tone. Then the beat for Bank On It starts to play and they began their choreography. If there's one thing I'll never get tired of is hearing Sasha singing. This is about my twentieth time watching her perform this show but it will never get old to me.

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"It's been real y'all fuck you guys are litty af. Thank you for coming out to chill with me. I knew Boston was wild, but I didn't know y'all were that wild. I don't even know how to air out a fucking arena!" Sasha giggled standing on the stage with her dancers getting the fans to cheer. Right now she's closing out the show. Sash is all about her fans and so she insisted that she also had time at the end to show her gratitude towards them. Without them she'd be nothing and she wants them to know that. "I love you all I really do. I'm surprised the Feds ain't shut this shit down it smells like straight dank up in here!" The crowd cheered that too. I'm not exactly sure when but at some point someone out there decided to start smoking. Then one person turn into a lot and it turned into a giant hotbox. It's not extremely foggy but everyone here is at least a little high. "No but seriously thank you for coming out tonight I really do appreciate it. I don't know where I'd be without you guys. And thank you to my dancers you guys are so talented and distract everyone from my terrible dancing." She then hugged one of her dancers and high fived another. "And my band thank you for banging out with us." The band then played a random short beat. "My glam squad for fleeking us all out on some Legit Boss shit. My tech nerds getting these lights just right so I glow!" She smiled cockily flipping her hair. The lights then also flashed in different colors. "To everyone who helped organize this show. And y'all know who's next to thank I don't think I have to say her name." It was then that the crowd started to chant my name. I couldn't help the smile that graced my lips because I didn't really think any of them cared. I guess me and Sasha being together publicly really did make some sort of an impact, perhaps a lot bigger than we thought. "Damn it I bet she's smiling so cutely right now and I'm missing it. Thanks to my beautiful orange because she did most of the planning and heavy work. She's backstage around here somewhere probably watching. Hi babe!" She smiled looking in the camera. "As much fun as I'm having all good things have to come to an end. We're almost a half hour over when this was supposed to end and they gonna shut the lights out on us if we stay any longer. So I guess this is it Boston... I'll catch you guys on the flip, and y'all can bank on that!" The crowd then cheered and she blew them a kiss. From there her and her dancers did their bows made their way off the stage as the band played them out. They exit the stage the same way they got on and that was on the toaster. Which basically is where I am now because while they were bowing and such I made my way there.

I waited off to the side as they slowly descended from above. Because technically we're under the stage right now. Some other crew members are down here with me so when they got completely down we all clapped for them. Sasha almost immediately made eye contact with me and smiled. It could be because she's happy to see me, or it could be because I got her a huge bouquet of flowers.

"You did great out there babe." I smiled as she walked towards me.

"Babe!" She whined out looking at the flowers.

"Here you go. Flowers for the star of the show."

"I love you." She spoke before giving me a kiss. "But seriously how was the show? Was it good?" To that I interlaced my fingers with hers and began walking towards the dressing room.

"It was amazing I loved it all. Especially when you did that chair dance. I mean I know you've practiced it on me a bazillion times but it never gets old to me. And watching you do it to someone else made me realize just how hot it is."

"Good then that means I did my job right." She smiled looking at me. She's so adorable so it was only right I kissed her.

"Yes you did baby." And this was only the first show of the tour and it was amazing. I can't wait to be there for her for most of the tour. I wish I could stay and be there for every show but I unfortunately can't. Someone has to stay and keep an eye on the business and make sure everything is good. Sasha understands that and knows we both have to stay on our grind, but at the end of the day we always come back to each other. We work hard so we can play hard.

So first off how was ur Chrimus if you celebrate it? Mine was alright I wasn't really in the Christmas spirit this year so it was alright. I wanted to upload this on Chrimaz but I was busy and I didn't get a chance. Doesn't matter because here we are and you got your chapter. So that was nice we got to go home and visit Sasha's mom. What was Sash about to ask her mom where was that headed. (Foreshadow) No but frfr if your girl or man doesn't want to cook for you, you don't need them in your life. Like this one time this guy who i was talking to like right before Thanksgiving this year I had to cut him off because he didn't feed me. He invited me out and so I assumed he'd feed me and that butch ain't even have his wallet. I was mad af so he had to go. Best part is he hit me up last week talking about how he wants me back talking about how he needs that fire in his life(by fire he meant me because I'm sassy af), but it was already too late. Doesn't matter tho because he wasn't really that cute so it didn't affect me to much... not at all really. Plus I don't really like doing relationships because I have trust issues that run a lot deeper than I can explain to you guys. Anywhore can we talk about how lit that concert must have been? Hotboxing an entire arena?! Count my pothead ass in. Lol wtf is Wrong with me!? So where we going next chapter? To the past with the aftermath of Becky and Sasha's fallout, or shall we continue on with Bosha on tour? So do we want to be fairly happy or do we wanna be fairly depressed? Either way I'm still going to eat some ham. Umm I'll see y'all later just remember to measure you're life in LOVE! ~Joz #putikcuf