August 15th apology
I've been a bit ill these past few months. The Doctors have ruled out everything serious and are closing in on the true cause now, but it's still bloody uncomfortable and a real annoyance. Awful digestive issues, nausea and fatigue have really buggered up my summer holiday. Even worse, my symptoms initially (had chest pain and thudding heart to begin with) matched up with cardiac issues, which drove my already heightened via Aspergers anxiety through the roof. It sounds so stupid, but I honestly thought I was dying; fortunately, I had my parents around and they proved to be nothing short of a fucking rock during the duration of this ordeal. But as I've said, all the serious stuff has been ruled out via blood tests and scans. The NHS (Britain's National Health Service) have been bloody brilliant to me. Now all that remains is for them to take a thorough look at my stomach and gut because everything currently points to a digestive issue (you'd be surprised. Things going wrong down there can cause havoc throughout your body) and all the other organs have been ruled out. Not only that, they are apparently quite healthy. Alas, digestive issues are right little cunts to diagnose as that part of the body is very complicated.
It isn't so bad now, thankfully. Worrying about it less has taken the edge off my symptoms (well, that and hot water bottles), and it is possible my anxiety made it much worse than it was. In the coming weeks, as the bastard has nowhere else to hide, the Doctors will find it and I can start getting better. I swear to god if this whole shitshow was started by a little gut infection…
As you can guess, the knock-on effect of this was that my writing ground to a halt and it'll be a while before I get back on track. For that, I cannot emphasize just how sorry I am. Health had to come first of course, but I'm still sorry. Now I'm thinking of trying to get out something extra-special for Christmas. I hate breaking promises, but they've somehow seemed to happen throughout this year.
My schedule of "monthly updates" is already dead and buried as you no doubt have guessed, but I may be able to put some more lore and story stuff in the coming months. Yes, even with my final Uni year starting soon, I'll doubtlessly be able to get a great deal done as soon as I shift this.
Until then, I can only offer my wholehearted apology for letting you all down. I'm not going to make anymore promises as I've proven utterly incapable of keeping them. I won't blame any of you if you "unfollow," or something of that variety.