Hi friends how are you? Good I hope or at least okay is acceptable for me. Umm so before you read I would like you to know that I'm sorry but this is just how this has to go down. Joz why are you apologizing? Well do you remember in a few past notes I told you I was only being nice because I needed the brownie points? Well I'm cashing in on some of them now. It's a future chapter so we finally find out why Sasha was crying on the phone. Instead of taking the obvious road I decided to stray and go another route. This has been decided from the moment Shiloh was brought into this story. I've said too much see you at the bottom. Pls don't hate me after this.
Sasha's POV
"Alright buddy here are the options we can watch a movie, go for a walk.. well actually it's a bit dark to be going for a walk and god only knows what's lurking out here. Not only that we'd have a pretty big ransom over our heads and we don't want to put mommy through that. Then again it is pretty nice out right now so a walk wouldn't be too bad." Shiloh only licked his lips and kept staring at me. "We'll leave a walk for a maybe. What else what else? Umm if you want we can go for a drive because I know you like those." When I said drive he wagged his tail. "Okay that's an option, are you hungry?"
"Woof!"
"Of course you are you're always hungry you fatty." I giggled petting him being we're sitting on the couch together. Yeah apparently at some point he granted himself permission to be on the couch and now he's allowed on the couch. I tried to fight it but Becks wasn't having it. "This is hard how did mommy survive while I was on tour huh? She's been gone for half an hour and I'm already starting to go mad." He let out a small whimper before coming closer to me and laying his head on my lap. "Okay well tv it is then. I gotta catch up on my soaps anyway." He let out a sigh and I grabbed my wine glass. We have hours to kill so why not get trashed.
...
"Woof! Woof!"
"Huh?" Sitting up I began to survey my surroundings.
"Woof!"
"What Sih?" I groaned rubbing my eyes. I must have dozed off during my show and not even realized it. "Shit what time is it?" Looking at my phone it reads little past eleven. "Shit you're probably hungry huh?" He jumped on my knees being I'm sitting up on the couch. He let out this weird growl while stretching. "Look mommy even knew I'd forget." I mumbled looking at my phone and I have a couple texts from her reminding me to feed him and myself. "Alright let's get you some food." Standing up I headed to the kitchen with him right beside me. Looking in the fridge I grabbed the container labeled Shiloh's food and pulled it out. "You know Sih you are so spoiled. Like seriously what dog do you know has fresh homemade food every week for dinner?" He only sat on the middle of the floor in the kitchen. "From shelter to the glamorous life you really are lucky bub." Setting his food on the counter I opened it and he immediately came over to me looking up at me. I don't blame him it does smell pretty good. It looks and smells like beef stew only it's safe for doggies. "So spoiled man." I murmured to myself as I went into the cabinet and grabbed out a bowl so I can warm up his food.
"Woof!"
"Would you calm down you'll get your food." Grabbing a spoon and scooping some food into his bowl, I put it in the microwave. "Now let's see what's to eat for me." Closing his food container I opened the fridge and put it back. Scanning everything else in it there are quite a few leftovers. Nothing is labeled so I have no idea what is what. I only just got back home from tour earlier this week so she has all this food in here. Looking at all of it they all look delicious specifically this weird stir fry I think I'm not sure but it has rice, vegetables, and some sort of meat. There's not a lot left but I'm gonna eat it anyway and see.
*beep beep beep*
"Woof! Woof!"
"Okay okay I'm getting it." Going to the microwave I took out his food and put my finger in it to make sure it's not too hot. It's at a reasonable temperature so I put my food in the microwave and went to wash my hands. "You hungry bud?"
"Woooof!" He then ran over to his food bowl and sat waiting for me to give him his food. Not going to make him wait any longer so I put his food in his bowl and he went to work.
"Sheesh slow down you're gonna choke. Nobody is gonna take your food from you." He didn't respond and kept eating. Now that that's settled I turned my attention to my food. It's almost done it has a couple seconds on it so I took this time to text Becks back. I have no idea what she's doing right now besides she's probably drunk. Good think I can track her location and it appears she's at a club. "So mommy is in a club. She better not be dancing on anyone.. Oh Shi if she is she better hope I don't find out because it'll be a wrap for that ass. And imma fuck up whoever she was dancing on." When I finished saying that my food finished so I took it out and sat it on the counter. I'm thinking about it now and I should definitely go show up to that club. I don't like the idea of her being dressed the way she is in such an environment. I mean I know I have her heart under lock and key but I don't like the idea of other people admiring her body. Fuck I miss her plus now I'm horny thinking about her. Ugh hopefully she'll be home soon. I just need something to keep my mind off her. And by something I'm thinking about hitting a blunt and going to bed. That being said I got out Mrs. Monroe and pulled out the blunt that I rolled earlier today. I made sure to open the back door and open the screen door. Becks doesn't like when I smoke in the house because the smell sticks to the walls and furniture and she doesn't like that. So we compromised that I'd open a window or something so it airs out. Now that that's settled I sparked it and went back to the kitchen to get my food. "I'll meet you on the couch bud." I spoke walking back into the family room and sitting on the couch and began to eat. Not sure what I'm watching but it's pretty interesting but I'm too busy smoking and eating to really actually pay attention. It wasn't too long before I finished my food and boy was it good. I swear I hit the jackpot with Becks she's truly amazing. I didn't even get to finish my blunt before I finished my food. All I know is I'm starving and I want more stir fry. Good thing the Chinese food place doesn't close until one so I can order for delivery.
We've ordered from this place so many times that I already know what I want and since I'm ordering I might as well get Becks her usual too for when she gets home. If I know my girlfriend as well as I think I do she's going to want food when she comes home later drunk off her ass probably. Chinese is always the go-to for us. Anyway calling them up I placed an order for delivery. Another thing I love about this Chinese food place is they stop delivering at eleven but I'm Sasha Banks and they love me there so they deliver to me anyway. Now it's time to figure out what to do in the meantime. I guess I can start by cleaning up some of my dishes. I know me doing house chores sounds unbelievable but I'm not that dependent I can take care of myself it's just I chose not to because that's where Becky comes in. Grabbing my bowl I took it into the kitchen and put it in the sink. I also can't forget Shiloh's bowl either because he's probably done eating too.
"Shiloh?!" I called out being his food bowl is empty and he disappeared. After a second I heard his dog collar jingle letting me know he's coming. Moments later he emerged from the bedroom. "Oh there you are I didn't know where you went." He simply walked up to me and layed down. "You don't have to stay I just wanted to know where you were. But since you're here let's watch a movie." Bending down to grab him I picked him up and carried him to the couch with me. "What do you wanna watch?" I asked looking at him. He didn't do anything but stare at me. "You wanna know how I know that I'm really high and lonely right now? Like I'm dead having a whole conversation with you asking what you want to watch as if you really care what we watch. Eh but then now that I said that out loud I understand how she survived without me. You're listening though you just don't know what I'm saying." And he's still just staring at me. "Well at least you are very cute to look at." His cocky self wagged his tail at that. "Wow bit cocky there huh?" Yeah he knows he's cute and he doesn't at all deny it. "Eh I can't blame you though bud I use my looks to get what I want too. You're mother is a prime example of using my looks. Did she ever tell you the whole story of how we met?" I asked looking at him. He only laid down on my lap. "Well if she did I'm gonna tell it from my side. So we gotta go back like two maybe three years I'm not sure anyway I was looking for some place to shoot my Bank on it music video and stumbled across this cute grocery.. wait no it was my old assistant at that time who gave me a rice crispy treat from Mattson's. And before you ask yes it it the same Mattson's you-" As I was talking he got up off my lap and walked away. "Wow dude I didn't think it was that boring. I'm sorry to have bored you." What a jerk. Whatever turning my attention back to the tv I flipped through the channels and came across a Ghost Adventures marathon so of course I'm gonna watch it. Zak is a total hottie if I were straight he would be mine and we'd have a fuckton of kids. Lying on the couch I cuddled up in my blanket again and watched tv.
It was maybe about ten minutes later that Shi came back from wherever he went and sat in front of the backdoor.
"Woof!"
"What? What do you want?"
"Wooof" Then he scratch at the door.
"I assume that means you have to go potty huh?"
"Woof!" Alright getting up I opened the back door and let him go outside. When I opened the door a nice breeze hit me so I had to go indulge in it for a bit. Besides I gotta watch him to make sure he doesn't wander off somewhere and Becks doesn't rip my head off. "Woof!"
"Oh right sorry bud." The patio has a gate blocking the steps that lead to the sand. So once I opened it he wasted no time running down them to the sand. I wonder if he actually likes the sand because sand and grass are two different textures so I wonder if he has a preference. Honestly it's probably grass he's a dog dogs love grass. So technically would that mean he likes the mansion better since there's grass there? No he definitely probably does he has his own fucking room there and a pool. Plus there's more space there for him to run around but he also has the ocean here which is bigger than any pool anywhere. Hmm I guess he just has the best of both.. Well shit that makes me pretty happy to know that I accomplished all of this. All my hard work and dedication brought me to this moment right now. Then I look down at my hand and see my ring.. The ring that was given to me by the love of my life and my heart gets happy every time I-
"Woooof!"
"The hell are you barking at?!" I yelled at him being he's standing in the sand barking at air.
"Wooof! Woof!" This guy.
"Can you not." He looked at me then went back to sniffing around. He's weird as shit just like his other mother. It's okay though because I love them both anyway and I wouldn't want it any other way then this one.
*Ding Dong*
Ah that must be my food. Going inside I rushed to the door and opened it.
"Holy shit!." Spoke a random guy I've never seen before.
"Who are you? I order from China House all the time and I've never seen you before so you must be new."
"Sasha Fucking Banks!" He grinned taking in my presence.
"Yup in the flesh but if you don't mind." I spoke motioning to my food.
"Oh shoot I'm sorry!"
"Yep it's not your fault." He then handed me the receipt so I could sign it so I did.
"Wow this just made my night.." He Smiled handing me my food.
"Well you made mine delivering my food. Shawty got the munchies and this is about to be amazing. So thank you."
"No problem. Anyway you enjoy that and have a good night okay?"
"Oh honey you don't have to tell me twice I'm bouta grub. But you have one as well and I'll see you around I guess I dunno." I shrugged before turning and closing the door. I'm hype as fuck right now it smells so good I can't wait to eat it. Hell fuck a plate I'm eating it straight out the box. Taking Becks food I put it in the fridge and went to grab a fork. I got pork fried rice and sesame chicken. Carefully I managed to carry it to the coffee table and set it down. Then from there I started to dig in. I was probably watching my show for five minutes before I accidentally dropped some rice on the floor.. and as soon as I looked down at it I expected it to be gone because that's what Shiloh is for. The rice is still on the floor and I immediately bolted out the back door. "SHILOH!" I yelled scanning the beach but I don't see him. Racing down the steps the first place I checked was under the deck because sometimes he gets stuck under there but nothing. Great now my heart is racing I can't find my baby and I'll die if I lose him. "SHILOH! SHILOH!" I called out as I ran around the house to the front yard. "SHILOH!" Agh FUCK! And she told me to tie him up and I didn't listen. If I don't find him it's a wrap Becks will murder me. Checking all the bushes nothing meaning he must be in a neighbor's yard somewhere. With that hope I started down the street. "SHILOH! COME HERE BUDDY!" Oh my fucking god if I can't find this dog I'm going to-
"Woof!" I heard come from across the street. Quickly looking in said direction he's barking at the windchime that's shaped like a bird.
"Shiloh come here right now you little shit!" I boomed getting him to stop barking and look at me. "Come. Here." I growled angrily so he knows I'm not playing. He still didn't budge. "Shiloh Banks I swear to god if I have to come over there you are in big trouble mister." He only started to sniff around in their yard. "Ok that's it." With that I stepped off the sidewalk onto the street to cross it so I can get him. As soon as I stepped foot on the street he started to run towards me. Yeah that's what I thought...
Or so I thought because seconds after he started to run across the street I saw headlights and then I heard him whimper followed by tires screeching to a halt. It all happened so fast and my first instinct is to go grab him. Running to in front of the car he's lying there on the ground crying and my heart sank to the bottom of my chest.
"Oh Shiloh!" I whimpered holding back tears looking at him.
"I'm so sorry he came out of nowhere I couldn't stop in time." I heard faintly because all I can hear is how much pain he must be in.
"My baby! Oh god my poor baby!" I cried this time I couldn't stop my tears. My only son just got hit by a car and it kills me. For the first time ever his eyes are full of sadness and pain and it's filling me with pain. "Awe bubbas!" I cooed taking off my shirt and wrapping it around him. As I did that he let out yelps of pain and all it did was make me cry even harder. This is all my fault.
"I know where a twenty four hour animal hospital is. I can take you there."
"Please please just make him better." I cried picking him up and cradling him in my arms. He's shaking so hard and I can feel him breathing irregularly.
"Okay Get in." The guy helped me to my feet and held open the door for me.
"Shit I gotta run home I left my backdoor open. Hold him and don't let him die." I Spoke turning to him and passing him Shiloh. Once I was sure he had a good grip on him I bolted to the house and went in through the back. Thinking quickly I grabbed my phone, wallet, shoes, a blanket, and his favorite alien shaped teddy that he loves dearly before quickly leaving out the front. Running back to the man I held out the blanket so I could wrap him up in it so he can stay warm. Then from there we got in the car and he drove off in whatever direction it is to the hospital. Thankfully the universe was on our side and we got mostly green lights. Plus it's late so there aren't too many cars on the road right now and he sped most of the way there. I don't know how long that car ride really was but it felt like an eternity to me. My only son is shivering in my arms fighting for his life because I was too high to remember to tie him up. All I had to do was tie him up and now he's hurt because of my negligence. Then to add salt to my wound I'm not going to hear the end of it from Becky. And tonight was supposed to be her night and I ruined it.. I'm so fucked in every way possible right now. Anyway once we got to the hospital they took him from me, put him on an operating table, and wheeled him away behind big double doors. I'm still heartbroken but I feel relieved because he's getting the best help available at this time of night. I feel better knowing he's in the hands of trained professionals.
"Hey again I am really sorry there wasn't anything I could do. I didn't see him-"
"What's your name?" I asked turning to look at the man. I haven't had a chance to get a good look at him until now.
"Chris. Chris Fairbanks."
"Well Chris Fairbanks I'm not the one you should be apologizing to. You better pray they can save him so you can apologize to him. I can bet you he has a few broken bones meaning you had to have been going pretty fast driving down the street in a suburban neighborhood. Last I checked speed limit is fifteen on my street and you probably sped past my house which has a camera pointed towards the street. I have all the right grounds to get the law involved granted I want to deal with all that. You're lucky I'm on tour and I don't have the time for it. Besides I don't want your money because god forbid he does die you're forever going to be the guy who irresponsibly hit my dog and basically killed him." It was after I finished saying that when a nurse came from the same doors they took Shi and came up to us.
"Which one is the owner?" She asked looking between us.
"Me." I responded.
"Okay well there's some paperwork that I need you to fill out." She then handed me a clipboard that had a lot of paperwork to be filled out. Letting out a sigh I took the clipboard and sat in a chair. Going through it half of these questions I don't know the answers to but there is someone who knows and I'm dreading the call. I have to tell her. I hate ruining her night but I know she'd want me to tell her. I just don't know how to tell her that her child is in the hospital. Oh god I can hear her voice now and I can hear her yelling at me. I know what she's going to say I just don't want to hear it but I'm going to regardless. This is my fault and it's time to own up to it with that I opened my phone and pulled up her contact. Here goes nothing. Hitting call it started to ring.
"Hi baby how's Shi?" The tone in her voice sounds like she's having a good time and now I'm about to ruin it. So the tears that followed were uncontrollable.
Becky's POV
"I'm soo so sorry Becks! I'm so sorry!" She sobbed again.
"Baby what's wrong you're scaring me?"
"I.. You just.. I need you.. Shi needs you I'm at the hospital."
"Hospital?!" Okay that's the white flag on my night. As soon as this call ends I'm going to go find Sasha. "Who-"
"Shiloh He was crossing the street.." Then she started crying again. "The car came out of nowhere and I couldn't save him." Oh my god.
"Send me your location I'll be there in twenty." I spoke shakily because I'm trying my best not to cry too. My baby just got hit by a car and I need to be with him. He's probably so scared right now.
"I already did. He's in the OR right now and that's all I know."
"Okay well I'm in the bathroom so I gotta tell the girls and I will be there."
"Mkay see you soon. I love you."
"I love you too bye." And with that I hung up.
"Is everything okay?" Asked Alicia coming close to me.
"No unfortunately not. It's my son he's in the hospital right now and I just gotta go be with him." I mumbled because I'm not going to lie I was having a good time.
"Is he okay?" I only shook my head because I haven't the slightest idea and it's killing me. Is he alive is he okay? Questions I don't have answers to and makes me want to cry.
"I dunno." And that was all it took for my tears to start to fall. I can't lose him I don't know what I'll do if I lose him.
"I'm so sorry Becky." Alicia then came and gave me a hug. It helped a little but I'd feel better if I was there with Sasha.
"I just have to go be with him is all, I hope you understand." I Spoke stepping out of our hug.
"Yeah okay.. umm here take my keys and go to them. I'll let your friends know." She then reaches in her bra and pulled out her car key. "It's a silver Volkswagen Passat. I parked over on Woodrow street two streets over."
"No I do-"
"I won't hear it your son is in trouble. I'm sure your friends are going to want to join you at the hospital and I'll get them back there. Just go be with them I trust you." She said forcing her keys in my hand and pushing me towards the door. She's right I have to go be with them. Venturing back out into the crowd I went to our table and grabbed all my stuff before heading out the door. She said somewhere on Woodrow street so I put it in my phone and it's a five minute walk so I took off my heels and started to jog in said direction. I know I was surprised too but I don't play when it comes to my family. So when I finally managed to find her car I got in and looked up the directions to the hospital. Thankfully it's less than fifteen away so I bet I can get there in half the time. Once I got settled in I took off towards the hospital.
Like I figured I got there in about ten minutes which isn't too bad considering I'm still a bit buzzed. I parked it as best I could and went inside. The first thing I noticed was a guy sitting on one side of the waiting room and Sasha on the other. Naturally I went over to my girlfriend.
"Hey I'm here." I spoke softly putting my arm around her. When she realized it was me she latched onto me like I just got home from war. "What happened? No did you get any word about him yet?"
"Just that he fractured his spine and there's a chance he might lose two of his legs." She sniffled looking at me. Sheesh she looks like she's been crying all night long. My poor woman. "After they told me that I started crying again and I didn't hear anything else I'm sorry." To that I simply kissed her on the forehead.
"It's okay because he's going to be fine I know it." I don't know at all I just don't want to bring any bad energy only good energy is what Shi needs right now.
"I'm sorry I ruined your night." She murmured laying her head on my shoulder.
"It's okay I care more about Shiloh than turning thirty. And you were crying when you hardly cry so of course I had to be here for you."
"Where are the girls?" Looking down at my phone I have a text from Charlotte asking for my location.
"They're on their way here now."
"Wait then how'd you get here?" She asked sitting up to look at me.
"I made a friend at the club and she was with me when you called and let me borrow her car."
"Uh-huh, and does SHE have a name?" Leave it to Sasha to get jealous of someone being nice to me.
"Well She's name is Alicia and there is no need to worry she has a girlfriend too so we mostly just talked."
"Mkay. Is she coming too? You know to get her keys back?"
"Dunno I'd assume so."
"Well I hope she does." She stated looking in my eyes giving me a weird chill. She can't know.. there's no possible way she knows I kissed her. No not even she kissed me I was the victim here. "Wanna thank her for showing my love some humility."
"How long has he been here?"
"An hour tops now."
"Ah okay. And what about the person who hit him?"
"That imbecile is over there." She nodded to the guy across the room. "His name is Chris and he was speeding down our street."
"Yeah so what happened? How was it so that Shiloh was even in the street to begin with?" When I asked that she let out a sigh and leaned forward putting her elbows on her knees.
"I forgot to tie him up."
"WHAT!? It was literally the only thing I reminded you to do!"
"It's all my fault. This is all my fault I let him outside to use the bathroom and I didn't think to tie him up because I was standing there watching him."
"So then where'd it go wrong?" She didn't respond instantly she only continued looking at the ground. I can hear her sniffing but it's not helping her any. I gave her very few instructions and she fucked it up. She literally had one job to look after Shiloh and she failed at that. "You walked away from him didn't you?"
"I ordered Chinese food and it came and I forgot he was outside for a bit.. When I realized that I went looking for him. He umm he ended up over in the Howell's yard barking at that windchime. I called him but he only ever listens to you so he didn't come. So I went to cross the street.. he ran.. and then the car appeared out of nowhere.. and then I heard him cry and I knew I was too late." She sobbed the last part as she finally sat up and looked at me. On the outside I probably appear very stoic but on the inside I'm extremely extremely pissed off at her. How could she be so damn irresponsible like that? Now isn't the place to start snapping because I don't want to do that to my child. But you better believe when we get home she's getting it and she's sleeping on the floor.
"Excuse me." I murmured getting up.
"Becks I'm sorry!" Ignoring her I went up to the receptionist desk.
"Hi how are you." I smiled softly towards the man sitting there.
"I'm alright what can I do for you?"
"I would just like to inquire about my dog. His name is Shiloh Banks." He then started to type some stuff on the computer and made a couple clicks.
"Yeah okay so far all they know is he fractured his spine and it doesn't look too good. X-rays found two broken ribs and that's all so far. I think now they are evaluating him for a concussion and any other head injuries. And that's all I know. In the meantime I need one of you to finish filling out the paperwork." He then motioned to the clipboard to the right of Sasha.
"Okay thank you." Going back over towards Sasha I grabbed the clipboard next to her.
"What did he say?" I just ignored her and sat down in the chairs across from her. Sheesh I guess she did attempt to fill this out but it's covered in tears. I filled it out anyway because it beats having to look at her right now.
"I didn't know most of the answers that's why I couldn't fill it out." I have nothing to say to that so I just kept writing. "Baby please don't shut me out." She then slid off her chair onto her knees and came to kneel in front of me. "Baby I know you're mad at me but please don't do this to me. Not today at least. Please don't do this to Sih. He ne-"
"Well if it weren't for you he wouldn't be here at all." I spoke not looking away from the clipboard.
"I know baby and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"Get off the floor you're making a scene." I spoke still not looking at her.
"No not until you look at me." I simply continued filling out the paperwork. She got the memo and just wrapped her arm around my leg and cuddled into it. Whatever I'm mad at her so she can sit there I don't care.
"Where's my grandchild?" Yelled Charlotte charging into the waiting room.
"Is he okay?" Asked Bayley coming in behind her.
"Holy shit dude my heart damn near leaped out of my chest when Alicia told me what happened." Charlotte spoke coming over to us. Naturally I got up to hug them both I thought it'd make Sasha let go of my leg but she held on tighter.
"I know I'm sorry I couldn't-"
"Why do you forever apologize for everything that happens we understand you don't have to apologize." Interrupted Bayley pulling me into a hug also. "He's our grandson we love him too."
"Thanks guys. He's in the operating room now. They're running test to see what the problem is. So far they know he has a fractured spine and two broken ribs."
"Oh my god that's terrible." Cooed Bayley pulling me in for another hug. As she was hugging me I noticed Alicia come in the waiting room. She scanned the room before noticing me and smiling. She then started towards me. Now that I'm looking at her in good lighting she's actually really cute.
"Hey how is he?" She asked as Bayley and Charlotte moved off to the side to sit down.
"All we know is he fractured his spine and has two broken ribs."
"I'm so sorry." She then hugged me. As soon as she started to hug me Sasha stood up right in between us causing us to separate.
"Who are you?" She asked clearly sizing Alicia up.
"Oh I'm so sorry. I'm Alicia I met your amazing girlfriend in the club a little earlier tonight. I was with her when you called and I let her use my car to get here." Alicia smiled holding out her hand for Sasha to take. I swear if she starts something I'm murdering her tonight and I'll have Charlotte help me hide the body. After a few seconds Sasha shook her hand.
"Thank you for being so kind to my girl. I appreciate it a definite I owe you."
"Oh no it was my pleasure-"
"Holy fuck it's actually you!" We heard call out from over by the doors. Turning to look it's Brie? Or maybe it's her sister I'm not sure I can't tell them apart. But her sister and Christy did appear behind her a second later.
"I thought I told you guys to stay in the car!?" Whined Alicia turning to look at them.
"Becca we are so sorry to hear about the little guy." Cooed one of the twins coming up to us. "Awe Sasha I'm so sorry." I remember what Alicia told me earlier about them so I have no desire to let them anywhere near my Sasha. If there's one thing I won't tolerate is people using me to get to Sasha just because of who she is in the world. And the fact that they had the nerve to use my son as an excuse to try and give Sasha their shitty music really grinds my gears.
"I hope she's okay as soon as Licia told us where you went I knew we had to be here." Said the other twin.
"Why because you knew Sasha would be here?" I asked blatantly.
"What no we're here for the cat." Spoke a twin. I just let out a scoff. I'm mad and since I can't snap on Sasha right now I'm going to on them.
"Wow." I laughed pushing Sasha behind me as I moved closer to them. They can keep a safe distance from Sasha. "I'm going to need you." I spoke pointing to one twin. "You" I spoke pointing to Christy. "And you to do me a huge favor and get the fuck away from me. And especially stay away from my girlfriend." I sneared making them all look at me in surprise.
"Woah what'd we do?" Asked Christy.
"Yeah all were doing is being there for our friends." Spoke one of the twins. Maybe that one was Nikki because I think she was the one in the blue dress.. I think.
"You guys are here to support me? Really?" I shrugged sassily because I'm in no mood to play games I'm ready to fight. And it was around now that Bayley and Charlotte appeared on either side of me. They just automatically know that when I start getting defensive over Sasha to get ready to stop or join me in kicking whoever's ass is messing with Sasha. Yes I'm pissed but at the end of the day I still love her.
"Becks what's up?" Asked Charlotte taping my arm.
"Just another couple of wanna be moochers. You know how I always have eyes and ears everywhere?"
"Mhmm what did they tell you?"
"They didn't tell me anything because these dumbasses told on themselves. If they were smart they would know that Shiloh isn't a cat. And they'd know that Shiloh isn't a girl either. If you're gonna lie to me at least have your facts right. I don't know what you three want but we're not accepting shity music at this time or ever really. I'm so goddamn sick and tired of everyone trying to get to Sasha in hopes that they can get their fifteen minutes of fame. If you want to be famous I suggest making a sex tape because that's the only way you three will ever be in the spotlight."
"I'm sorry I'm pretty sure that's up to Sasha to decide not you." Spoke a twin.
"Actually it is my decision because I'm her girlfriend. You see this necklace right here?" I asked holding up my Sasha necklace. "It means nobody is allowed to talk to her unless I give the okay. So unfortunately for you I said no so fuck off before I go off."
"Guys come on please don't start this here." Reasoned Alicia stepping in front of me. Well Alicia did say she was tired of having to preted that her and Christy weren't a thing around the twins so I'll help her out.
"Yeah Christy for once stop being a stuck up bitch and listen to your girlfriend. She's way to pretty for you so I suggest you start giving her the respect she deserves as you're girlfriend and listen to her. If she tells you to go you go end of story. And being that these two are you're friends you should make sure they have the same respect towards your girl and take them the fuck with you."
"Girlfriend?" Asked on of the twins looking back at Christy.
"I'm sorry for outing you both but fuck the three of you for trying to use such a terrible time to try and boost your shity music."
"So you're telling me Alicia is you're girlfriend?" Asked one of the twins.
"Supposedly." Spoke Alicia looking at Christy. And Christy looks like a deer caught in headlights.
"That's ridiculous these two don't really even get along so-"
"Okay that's it I've had it!" I heard come from behind me. "I don't know who's dating who and I sure as hell don't care. Ladies you guys chose a shitty time to try and push you're music. My son is in there fighting for his life and you guys only showed up because you knew I'd be here. It's fucked up and shows you have no respect for me or my family. I'm not asking I'm telling you to go get lost because you've proved to me now that you don't deserve stardom. Especially not after disrespecting me the way you did." Sasha spoke in a clear and firm tone as she appeared in front of me. "Not another word from anyone because I'm tired of talking and I'm tired of listening. I'm already having a shitty day and you guys are making it worse. So just go." Nobody said anything and nobody moved. "Well go on or else I'll make sure nobody in the music industry ever gives you a deal."
"Whatever we don't need you anyway. Let's go guys." Spoke a twin before they all started to leave except Alicia.
"I'm sorry about them I-"
"Don't worry about it shit like that happens a lot more often than you think. Can we all just sit and wait for them to come back with more information on Shi. He's why we're here and so let's set aside everything and hope he's okay." Murmured Sasha before grabbing my hand and taking us over to the chairs. She's right Shiloh should be the main concern here tonight. I just hope he'll be okay.
At home
"Thanks again for letting me use your car I don't know if I could ever thank you enough." I softly spoke looking over at Alicia as we pulled up to our house.
"It was nothing I'm a sucker for a sad story." She shrugged looking back at me.
"I'm going inside. Thanks again Alicia it was nice meeting you." Sasha spoke getting out the car herself.
"It was no problem and nice to meet you too." With that Sasha closed the door and headed inside. "You think you're gonna be okay in there?"
"I honestly don't know. I just don't know anymore." I sighed.
"I know." She then reached over me and opened the glovebox. She then pulled out a napkin and a pen. She then started to write something on it. "Here you can call me in the morning or something.. anything. If you just want to talk we can talk, you wanna get coffee we can get coffee. If you ever need anything or just need to get away I'm the number you call." She then handed me the napkin. Taking it I looked at it and in pink ink it says Alicia followed by her number.
"Thank you." I then leaned over the console and hugged her. "Thank you for being so nice to a complete stranger."
"Thank you for not crashing my car"
"I did see a ramp on the way there but it wasn't pointed in the direction I was headed." I smirked.
"You should've took it anyway. Never pass up a stunt jump." She smirked right back. Yeah I can tell this is going to be an interesting relationship.
"I'll remember that next time I drive."
"Good. But you should probably get in there I heard about what happens to those who mess with you and I'd rather not lose my head."
"Oh don't you worry about Sasha she is in deep shit so she won't be taking any heads anytime soon." I stated because she just reminded me that I'm mad at Sasha. Opening the door I got out. "So I'll see you soon then?"
"It's a definite maybe." I'll take it.
"Okay. Drive safe and if Christy gives you hell when you get home you tell her to call me okay."
"Yes ma'am. Goodnight."
"Night lass." With that I closed the door and headed inside. When I got inside I immediately got sad because Shiloh is always there to greet me but I was only greeted by the sad regret of leaving him under Sasha's care. Going further in to the kitchen Sasha is in the family room cleaning. "It's good to know you didn't let the house get run over too."
"That's not fair."
"So what is fair Sasha? The fact that I can't trust you alone with our children without fearing that you're gonna let them wonder off? Is it fair that you don't care about anything but you."
"That's not true and you know it!" She snapped.
"Oh hell no! Who the hell are you raising your voice at because you are in no position to be yelling. You're the reason our son is in the hospital right now. All you had to do was tie him up it only takes two seconds and you couldn't even do that. Had you done it we wouldn't be having this conversation right now. I don't get it how much more irresponsible could you have been? You choose food over your own dog and honestly that scares me. What if I was hanging off a cliff and your Chinese food was hanging next to me can I even count on you to save me or am I fucked?"
"How dare you question my love for you. You know damn well I'll choose you every single time."
"Oh really it's too bad you don't love Shiloh the same elsewise he'd be here right now."
"Oh fuck you! You're acting like I did this all on purpose. Like I'd willingly let him get hit by a car. I know how much you love him, hell there have been times where I'm positive you love him more than me. So do you really think I'd let something so tragic like that happen to him knowing full and well this would be the outcome? I hate fighting with you so why would I do something to make us fight. I need you to understand that you and Shiloh are my family. You guys are all I have that I know will never change so for you to stand here and think I'd willingly let that slip away is absolutely fucking crazy."
"You say that but you fucking let him get hit by a car Sasha. Because of your negligence and irresponsibility Shiloh got hit by a car. This is all because of you and nobody else. Actually I take that back. I'll take part of the blame. I'm sorry I thought you could handle watching our son. Had I known you'd be so negligent I would've let you come out with us. Maybe then he'd still have feeling in his back legs and he'd be lying in his bed over there. Maybe then you wouldn't have to sleep on the couch. So I'm sorry Sasha for thinking you could be trusted to babysit." I shrugged before going into the bedroom. I have nothing else to say to her today. She fucked up and I'm not going to let her forget.
The next morning
I'm not going to lie it feels weird waking up in a completely empty bed. No Shiloh and no Sasha.. just me. And it's just a painful reminder to me. I just hope more than anything that we'll be able to take him home later today. Looking at my phone I have a couple texts from Charlotte and Bayley asking how I am doing so I replied honestly because I'm not doing too good this morning. I just don't know how to start my morning anymore. It always starts with saying good morning to Shiloh and then kissing Sasha on the forehead before I get up if she isn't up yet and I take Shi outside to use the bathroom. But there's no Shiloh and no Sasha so I guess I gotta just get up and start my day. Getting out the bed I smell something good but also something burning meaning one thing. And if she's scratching up my nonstick pans I'm going to lose it. Quickly putting on my robe I walked out into the kitchen.
"Good morning beautiful I made you breakfast." Smiled Sasha pointing to the counter where there is a stack of.. pancakes I think I'm not certain they look a bit wonky...
"What's burning?"
"Oh well I tried to flip a pancake and it didn't go too well." Coming closer to her there is batter all over the burners.
"You know you're cleaning all this up right?"
"I know I will." She then gave me a kiss. "Morning." She smiled softly. I'm mad at her but that kiss made me feel a bit better.
"Morning." As I said that I moved over to the coffee maker being it's probably one of the few kitchen gadgets she knows how to use.
"I was wondering what you're plans were for today. I got a message from the hospital earlier, they said that we can visit later. And if he passes his screenings he'll be able to come home later around like sixish. It's almost noon now so we have time to kill. Just wanted to know if maybe you wanted to go out for food at some point before?"
"Honestly it sounds like a great idea, but I'm scared you might let me get hit by a car and-"
"Ok a simple no would have sufficed. I know I fucked up I don't need you to torture me about it."
"I'm sorry it's just not fair." I shrugged not looking at her as I continued making my coffee.
"Oooh my... how many times is it gonna take for you to forgive me? I didn't let this shit happen-"
"Oh so Shiloh is shit now?"
"No that's not what I meant!" The way she said it I could tell she's starting to get upset. "I know I don't show it but I love Shiloh too why would I want something like that happen to him? He's our son I love him to death. I would never intentionally put him in harm's way." Finishing up stirring my coffee I turned to face her. The face she's making at me looks like she's mad but at the same time about to cry. I want to feel sorry, but if she loves him as much as she says she does she wouldn't have left Shiloh outside unattended and unleashed. I'm sorry I just don't understand why I have to feel bad for her negligence.
"Okay I understand, but why didn't you tie him up if you didn't want him to get hit by a car?" I spoke blankly. She closed her eyes and took in a shaky deep breath and held it. About four seconds later tears started to fall out of her eyes. Then two seconds later she started actually crying.
"I DIDN'T DO IT ON PURPOSE!" She yelled sobbing.
"Then why didn't you tie him up?" I questioned because I'm so lost.
"BECCA!" She yelled.
"Don't yell at me." I spoke calmly. She gave me this glare like she's about ready to tear my head off. See behind that badass exterior she is such a hot head from Boston. When she gets this way her accent comes out and it's.. well I'll be honest it's cute but somehow vaguely scary. So her balled fist doesn't scare me. "I'm not some nobody I am your girlfriend and the person who could single handedly end your career and life remember that." That's the beauty to being an international pop star's girlfriend.. I know all her secrets, I have photos, and videos if she ever gets out of hand I dangle that in her face and she loses it. Everything she worked so hard to do gone in one article. I've talked to her about it she loves her career to death. It's the thought of losing it is what's getting to her. I'm just trying to make her feel how I feel. So as expected she's walking away from me. "Yeah it sucks having something you love to death taken from you in one mistake huh?"
"God you're a fucking bitch." She laughed with her back to me laughing up at the ceiling.
"Well I'm just showing you what my heart feels like knowing that the love of my life, the woman I was going to start a family with, stupidly left our first kid outside unattended for god only knows how long." That got her to turn back around and look at me. I can't help but get emotional between the both of us I was with Shiloh more than she was. I've grown accustomed to doing everything with him and now it won't ever be the same granted he lives. And to add to that I don't know if I could trust her alone with an actual child because I'm scared she'll lose it or worse let it get hit by a car.
"Baby I'm sorry." She whined coming up to me and wrapping her arms around me hugging me. She just has no idea how attached I grew to that dog and she quite possibly ripped him away from me."I'm so fucking sorry baby. I'm sorry." As comforting as her hug is she's the reason I feel like this and I refuse to interact with her this intimately. Careful not to spill my coffee I broke from her grasp and headed to the fridge. I'm not too hungry so I just want some yogurt. Going in the fridge I grabbed out a vanilla yogurt.
"I love you." I heard softly behind me. Closing the fridge back I looked up at the picture of us on the fridge. It's a photo from that time Sasha took me skiing. I remember when it was taken too. Neither of us had gone skiing before and Sasha was so scared and she would not let go of me to the point where I had to throw her on the ski lift. We had just gotten done having lessons and I was excited to go down the biggest hill. We both got it pretty fast so I thought we were both excited to go down Action Alley Hill.. or so I thought. Then as we got closer to the top she started hyperventilating because she's scared of heights. And when we got to the top there was a paparazzi waiting for us at the top and right as we went to get off he got us and it's funny. I'm just laughing and Sasha looks a complete mess. As funny as it was it was adorable because I kissed her calm and then we slowly together went down the hill. Then after that we had amazing sex in the giant martini glass pool in our room and then we ordered pizza. Only reminding me that I might be mad at her but I still love her. I'll get over it eventually just not today.
"I love you too." And with that I grabbed a spoon and headed back into the bedroom. I wonder what Alicia is doing? Setting down my coffee and yogurt I went over to my purse and looked for the napkin. Like I predicted it was in there. Looking at it, it reads,
Alicia
353-654-4753
Hmm well here goes nothing. Going to my phone I put it in my phone as a contact. I then pushed the bottom to start a text. Now what to say?
Sasha's POV
"I love you." I spoke just loud enough for her to hear it. I then watched her close the fridge and then stop moving staring at the fridge. And then this is the moment when my heart started to race again. Is she going to say it back or am I done? No she loves me and I know she knows deep down that I never would intentionally do something to purposely hurt her. I love Shiloh but I love Rebecca more and it pains me to know I'm the reason behind her hurting heart. I knew she loved him more than anything but I didn't know she loved him so much that it'd make her ignore me. I hardly slept last night because I was too worried to do so. I slept in the guest room and I've never felt so lonely. Just knowing Becks was in our bed crying over something I did and not be able to do anything about it broke me. I hate going to bed with her upset with me. I love her more than I've ever loved a person in my life, so I said what I just said with the whole of my heart because she is my heart. I just need to know if she still loves me. I need to know if there is still something between us. I just need to know if she still loves me.
"I love you too." And then she moved to grab a spoon and went back into the bedroom. When she spoke those words my heart fluttered. She just let me know I'm in the dog house right now but eventually she'll get over it. She's my future and my everything, I'll do anything for her.. even if that means giving her her space. She needs it right now and I understand that. I'll be waiting for her with my arms wide open when she's ready to come back to me. We've invested way too much time in this relationship to just quit because of a stupid mistake. I won't let it happen I refuse to let her go. She knows way too much about me and I know way too many of her secrets. We're perfect opposites that fit together like the heart and the brain. Without the brain the heart wouldn't know to pump blood, and without the heart there would be no blood supply to the brain causing it to die. This relationship is perfect and I don't want to have to find a new one with someone new.
Anyways judging by her deciding to have yogurt and coffee for breakfast I assume I'm eating alone.. I'd prefer to eat with her knowing she's only a couple feet away from me. I can make this work and still give her the space she needs. I really did try my best to make these pancakes. Yeah they aren't as good as Becks makes them but I think they're okay. A little burnt but I can drown them in syrup and that should fix it. Making myself a plate I gathered everything I'd need to eat and sat it in front of our bedroom door. No I can't see her because the door is closed, it's just the thought of knowing she's on the other side eating too that makes me feel less crazy eating on the floor in front of our bedroom. Honestly this sorta brings back memories to when she first started to come around to the idea of submitting to me and I use to make her wait out here while I prepared to give her what she wanted. Five minutes, twenty minutes, or half an hour she always stayed put where I left her. God the loyalty that woman has for me is incredible. Don't know why or how I got so lucky with her. Eating my pancakes I can't help but be so grateful for her because these pancakes suck. I don't know what I did wrong but they suck and I miss her cooking. Maybe a movie to help distract me or something. Searching my phone I decided on watching Sailor Moon. With touring and everything i haven't had the time to catch up on my anime. It's one of my guilty pleasures that I get to myself. Becks doesn't really ever watch it with me so I don't watch it as often as I use too. So turning up the volume I began to eat and watch.
"Sash what are you-" The door then opened and she's standing there looking down at me. "Why are you eating on the floor?"
"I'm eating breakfast with you. You made it clear you don't want to talk or be around me so I figured I can just eat here while you're in the room that way it's sorta like we're eating breakfast together. You have your yogurt and I my pancakes." She didn't say anything but look at me.
"You better not make a mess on my floors and if you do you better clean it up." It was here that I noticed she's all dressed like she's about to go somewhere.
"Am I allowed to go with you?"
"What?" I then motioned to her outfit.
"Who's cooler than me?" I asked referring to the fact that we always hang out together. It's oddly rare that we go hangout with other people.
"Honestly right now, everyone." She spoke emotionlessly in a monotone.
"I'm sorry."
"When I get back I want all of this cleaned up." She spoke walking past me into the kitchen. Naturally I got up and followed her.
"Are you gonna be back so we can go see Shi?" I asked watching her go in the fridge and grab her water bottle. It's her usual water bottle that she takes when she goes to work out. So I assume she must be going to workout or something.
"Dunno."
"If you want I can drop you off and just scoop you on the way there?" She stopped moving and looked at me.
"I'm perfectly able to drive myself. In fact I would prefer to drive myself actually."
"Can you at least tell me where you're going? I at least deserve to know so I know that you're safe."
"Don't worry I won't let myself get hit by a car. I'll be fine at the gym thank you." She stated blankly before moving past me and back into the bedroom. Another low blow and it doesn't appear that she's going to stop anytime soon. I hate that she's hanging this over my head but I deserve it. I should have known from the get that she'd get so attached to him. He's her drop buddy and that's why I let her get him. He is who helps her through her drops while I'm away. He's her coping mechanism and I should have known they'd be inseparable. Especially Becks because when she loves something she always goes to it with an open heart and once you get trapped she doesn't let you go. When she loves she loves hard and she loved the hell out of that dog. That's why I'm praying to every god in existence that he makes a full recovery. I'm being treated like an outsider and that's only because I'm the reason he's in the hospital. I'm terrified of how she'll treat me if he passes. Good lord she'd probably completely shut me out and that's a worse possible scenario. That's something I don't even want to get into because it might not end to pretty. She's still at least trying to talk to me. She told me where she's going like I asked and I think it's a start. I have a while before she forgives me so I want to see how far I can push my luck. Following her into the bedroom she's sitting on the bench at the foot of the bed putting on her sneakers. So I went over to her and kneeled in front of her.
"I know you probably don't want to talk to me or even look at me really and that's ok. I deserve everything you dish out to me. Now I want you to know that regardless of how long it takes for you to forgive me, I will be here waiting for you. You have my heart and my loyalty. I belong to you and you belong to me and nothing is going to change that." I spoke looking her in the eyes. She continued putting on her sneakers before she acknowledged me.
"I love you but I just need time." She then brushed a strand of hair behind my ear before she cupped my cheek. She then kissed me one more time before standing up. "I'll probably meet you at the hospital if I'm not back in time. Please make sure you lock up before you leave out." She spoke moving around the room gathering her final items. Honestly I know she's mad at me and we probably won't interact much but I don't want her to go. That's the last thing we need in a time like this. Getting to my feet I snuck up behind her and wrapped my arms around her.
"Please don't go. Not yet not right now just stay with me a little longer baby please." I spoke softly into her shoulder blade. Hugging her tighter I snuggled my head in her neck. "I know you're mad at me but just stay with me. I've been gone for so long on tour and I miss you. And I have to go right back on the road to finish the last leg of my tour in a week. And then after I leave I won't be home for almost a month. I won't last baby. I don't know if I can do it." I then started to kiss the side of her neck. "Becky I'm being honest with you I'm backed up. Being away from you for so long and not being able to see you and fuck you to tears is fucking me up." When I said that she let out a big exhale. It's not a no so I'm gonna keep going. I know she's dropping and especially this thing going on with Shiloh I know she needs this right now. So using my hands I crept them up under her jacket straight to her warm skin on her waistline. "All this work is stressing me out and you're my stress reliever. I have all this built up steam that I gotta blow off.. and I know you miss me too." The more I keep talking the more I can feel her shiver. She's trying to fight it but I know she needs this.
"Sasha-"
"Shhh." I spoke creeping my hand further down into her pants. She's wearing her yoga pants so it was smooth sailing, but I only lingered my fingers on her v-lines. It's like I'm there but not quite and it always drives her nuts. Kissing her neck once more I kept talking. "Let me talk. I know I've told you this already but you really have no idea how hard it is traveling the world without you. There are so many different countries and cities and I met new people everywhere I went. So many beautiful people and an unspeakable amount of temptation and bodies thrown my way." When I said that I felt her tense so I quickly bit her ear and continued purring in her ear. "Let me talk beautiful don't start jumping the gun. So many offers and every time I looked down at my hand and I see you staring right back at me. And I for some weird reason I always pictured your fuck me eyes. And then I start thinking about the endless fucking I'm going to give you when I get home. And once you're finish catching your breath I think about all the sweet passionate love we'll make just like we always do." As I said that I crept my hand down to simply cup her pussy. I'm not teasing her or anything just holding what belongs to me.
"Mmm." She let out softly as I felt her breath hitch in her chest.
"And then I get so turned on my main priority was always to hurry up and finish whatever I'm doing so I can be alone." I then kissed her neck and let out a chuckle. "And then.. ha and then I fingered myself to the thought of how I'm going to fuck you." I then let out another chuckle before I started to kiss behind her ear. She absolutely falls apart when I go behind her ears. "Here's the twist I wouldn't be able to let that fantasy come true for however many days longer than I can bear. Do you have any idea how much that fucks me up being a dom and not have anyone to release all that on? It fucking sucks. It fucking sucks so bad and it's irony because I'm not fucking." When I said that I dipped a finger in her and she's so wet. There is something I've learned about Rebecca since we first started to mess around. That thing is that she gets so turned on when I admit how loyal I am to her. Nothing is more sexy to a female than having someone they know is only loyal to them and their needs. "I need you Becks. I need you and I need you bad." She got goosebumps hearing me say that. "I know you you're in a pit too and I can get you out." When I said that she let out a breath and reached in her pocket. After a moment she pulled out her phone and looked at it. She then started to mumble to herself about time and how long it take her to drive wherever she's going.
"Ugh!" She groaned looking up at the ceiling. "Fuck it." Putting her phone down on the dresser she turned around cupped my cheeks and pressed her lips to mine. I mean I'm not going to say no to her. I simply kissed her back with the same passion. She then started walking me backwards until eventually we fell onto the bed together.
"Tell me you want me." I got out disconnecting our lips causing her to connect hers to my neck.
"I want you." She breathed out.
"How do you want me?" When I said that she sat up and took off her jacket revealing her sports bra. Damn it she looks so good in her gym outfit. All her assets are on display and I'm loving it.
"I want you inside of me baby please." She whined going back to attacking my neck. It feels so good having such a beautifully sexy woman begging me to fuck her. It really feeds my ego and I need that right now. "Baby please." She whined again grinding on me. Well I'm not going to make her wait anymore. Channeling my inner dominant I roughly pushed her off me. Getting to my feet I grabbed her by the ankles and pulled her to the edge of the bed. As soon as she got there my lips were back on hers. It got so heated that at some point she managed my shirt off me and she's feeling all over me. "Mmmmm hmm." Eventually we stopped kissing because we were both breathless. Standing back up straight she's sitting staring up at me with those infamous fuck me eyes. Cupping her face in both my hands I kissed her.
"I'm trying to figure out my attack. Do I want to eat you out first? Do I make you eat me out? Or should I cut the bullshit and get right to digging you out?" As I was saying that she started to place random kisses on my stomach.
"Do whatever you want just as long as you're touching me." She spoke tugging on my pajama pants slowly pulling them off me leaving kisses in the spots that were covered. I just decided what I want.
"Get on the bed." I demanded and she did it no questions asked. "Fuck you're so hot!" I smirked to myself getting a little giddy because she really is so hot and it gets me excited.
"Come here." She then motioned for me to get in her lap. When a pretty lady tells you to do something you do it. Climbing on the bed I straddled her hips. "You don't listen for shit." She then grabbed me by the waist and tugged me down so she could kiss me. I made sure to be rough about this kiss. All this talk about leaving her for tour again is what's fueling today's aggression. I need to get it all out of my system now so I can relieve some of my stress and give me a chance to spend time with my boo-bear.
"Rebecca?" I asked trying to pull away from her but she's not having it. Her lips were back on mine a second later. "Babe-" I was stopped by her lips connecting back to mine. When she does that it upsets me because I'm in charge not her and I gotta remind her of that. So I depend our kiss and I waited until she got acquainted with this kiss before I stopped and bit her lip.
"Owe!" She groaned giving me questioning eyes.
"Oh you better not be bitching out on me I hardly bit you." That got her to smirk and glare at me.
"Never." Then suddenly I'm being thrown off her and she's mounting me. "You know I like it rough." She purred in a sexily thick accent. God I love that accent it's so cute and sexy when she needs it to be. "I need it and you're gonna give it to me." She then went to work kissing my neck. Normally at a time like this I'd push her off me but I want this. I want her to give me as many hickies as she feels fit. That way when I'm gone she's still with me and everyone will see it too. I'm very open about the fact that Becca and I have a very healthy sex life together. Nobody knows the reason behind it is because she enjoys submitting to me and I enjoy dominating her when she submits to me. But honestly she's hot so it's pretty self explanatory as to why we're always knocking boots. Well shit now I want to get to our zone because I'm thinking about it and I would love nothing more but to fuck her right now. Grabbing her by the chin I roughly moved it so we were eye to eye.
"I'm in charge not you." Again I tossed her off me landing her in a new spot on the bed.
*squeak*
"What the he-" She started but I was on her before she could finish. "Sasha hold on."
"What?" I asked not pulling away from her lips.
"You didn't hear that?"
"The only thing I want to hear is you moaning my name." Reconnecting our lips back together I continued kissing her. This wouldn't have been a problem if she was kissing me back.
"Hold on a sec." Ugh good thing I love her so I stopped and sat up. When I did that she started to feel around on the bed underneath her.
*squeak*
And then she pulled out one of Shiloh's squeaker toys. Hmm that's random but okay.. Taking it from her I tossed it to the side and went back to placing kisses on her neck. I figured I'd return the favor and give her a couple love bites. I just love that I'm allowed to leave my mark on her anywhere I want and not have her bitch me about her having to hide them because she's my girlfriend and I don't have to share her. I know two years later and I still marvel at the idea of that. She's mine all mine and it makes me feel good inside. That might have went on for a minute before I heard sniffling. I'm not crying so it has to be Becks.
"Baby what's wrong?" I cooed pulling away and she is tearing up.
"What if he doesn't get better? I can't lose him not this soon." She got out shakily.
"Hey don't talk like that everyth-"
"And it's all because you didn't tie him up." She whined out before pushing me off her. "God Sasha I'm sorry. I want to but I can't look at you." She then got up and off the bed. "You almost let our son die and I'm scared. Not that you'll hurt me but what if it were a real child? What's a family if I can't leave you alone with our children without worrying that you'll let something terrible happen to them." As she said that I could hear the sadness in her voice. I fucked up I just hope I can fix it. "I'm going. If I'm not back I'll just meet you at the hospital." She spoke putting on her jacket and putting her phone into her pocket. "Clean up your mess." She then headed towards the door. "I'll text you." With that she opened the door and walked out. I didn't bother moving because I'll probably end up back here.. And because I know she probably doesn't want me to bother her anymore right now. This is bad. Mid foreplay she left and I'm baffled for a few reasons. One being this hasn't happened since when she first started taking interest in me. We'd be kissing and rubbing up on each other and at the last second she bails like she did not too long ago. But mainly I'm confused on the fact that she refused a session and I know she needs it. Obviously we've had sex since I've come back off tour, but it was just regular sex. I haven't dominated her since.. shit I don't know but I know it's been a good minute since. So from that alone I know her hormones are a little out of whack. Then add to that this whole Shiloh situation probably made it even worse and I'm concerned. I just hope she doesn't do anything crazy because she gets moody when she doesn't have sex for a while and I don't want to leave her unsatisfied.
Honestly setting all that aside I'm more concerned about her in general. I'm letting everything she said to me sink in. I hope I didn't ruin our dream. I want the mansion filled with kids and I want Becky right beside me helping me raise them. I want beautiful little mixed babies boys or girls I don't care. I want kids who look just like us that way we really fit the part. I want to take cheesy family portraits and put them on our family Christmas cards. I want to embarrass my kids in front of their friends by feeling up my wife. I want to go on family vacations to Disney. I want it all the whole nine yards but I don't want it if she isn't going to be there next to me. I don't know how I'm going to get her to trust that I'm not a shitty babysitter. I had one moment of weakness and I gotta somehow prove that I'll never fuck up like that again. She'll forgive me one day and I'll be waiting.
Now before you leave me a mean review because of Shiloh just remember he isn't gone. If you know me you'd know that there is usually a method behind my madness and this was a good example. If you ask me I think this was the climax of the story. This is the big duck in a little pond chapter of this story. I hope you guys have been taking notes and reading in between the lines while looking at the bigger picture all story long. I've been dropping hints like I do with fake people.. I don't know how many times I have to tell you but it's the little things you have to look out for in this story. This chapter was pretty explosive and so imagine how the next present chapter is going to go. Too bad next chapter most likely is going to be a past chapter because I started writing it the same time I started this chapter so it should be out soon but don't take that seriously because it probably won't lol. Next chapter starts off with smut so make sure you look out for when I post it. Honestly it's HOTT AF so far I get goosebumps reading it. You know I was reading AMM from the beginning the other day like I often times do when I'm stuck, and this story went from something so innocent to so naughty it's crazy. Like Some of the smut scenes in this story are fucking crazy and even I wonder where the hell I get those ideas from. Hmm perhaps I'm just a perv.. then again if that's true wouldn't that make you one because you're the one pervy enough to read it? Sounds like nonsense but fuck it man the smut is good here it usually always is. I mean who do you know that can't write several smut scenes in a story and keep a good percent of then from all being the same basic shit? Seriously who because I wanna know who's giving me a run for my money here. I'm sorry I'm low key horny rn so excuse my cocky smut talk but everyone likes smut so I'm not too sorry about it. Anywhore Let me give you some brain food right fast in regards to the coming present chapters. Just so you all know Dominate and Submissive relationships can sometimes be very physical and just as much mentally exhausting. Taking the events of the ending of this chapter Becks clearly isn't doing too good mentally. Then throw in the fact that her way of copeing with all that was the dog. Sasha is the reason behind the dog getting injured so now not only is Becky's copeing buddy gone but the one person she can turn to help her is Sasha. Enter another cute light skin that happens to be gay also. But remember not every mask has a a pretty face underneath it. Then remember two chapters ago when a blue eyed beauty got blocked ceasing communication? Idk about you but when I exchange numbers with a new person I just use their phone to call my phone that way we both have each other's number. Then if you've ever google deep dived into the magical world of BDSM you'd know about some of the crazy shit people do to their submissives. It's clear Sasha was anal about not being too extreme while dominating Becky but strict enough for her to know who's in charge. Doing and saying things that should be left between two people requires a lot of trust in hopes for a big reward. Trust is a big factor and with trust comes love. Once you get in the habit of trusting someone with your life over and over again I'm pretty sure it's hard to break that cycle... I dunno that's up for your own interpretation you take it in as you can but always remember just when you think you know what I'm doing I'm always two steps ahead of you and on a totally different path than You think I am. Basically what I'm saying is I'm about to take you guys on a ride in the loony car straight to the loony bin. ~Joz #fuckitup