Aston Martin Music

by CallMeJoz

What would you rather ride in a Prius or an Aston Martin? Would you rather wake up and eat a bagel, or fly to Paris and eat a bagel just because? Applebee's or Four Seasons? Crocs or Jimmy Choos? VIP section or general admission? Decisions decisions... They say cheating is bad but who knew it'd land you in the lap of luxury and in the arms or someone you love even more. Femslash

40. Bad timing, Dark times

Hi friend! Now frfr lets have a serious conversation real fast before you get into this chapter. So do you remember in all my past notes where I was all like im just gathering up brownie point for later? Well this is the chapter im cashing in on all those point. This chapter was planned since the beginning of this story. This is so crucial to the next set of future present chapters that there was no way around this.. I mean im sure there probably was but why take away all the drama? Anywhore Im sorry, I really truly am but I promise next chapter is going to be better. I say it because ive already started it and there's a dope scene that gets ur heart racing. Again Im sorry and ill hug and kiss you at the bottom. ILY

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Sasha's POV

"Right okay and so next you're gonna tell me that the sky is yellow?" I asked sarcastically.

"Look Sasha all I'm saying is if you ever see her again ask her about Spanky and she'll remember. She'll get mad but she'll remember me and how good I was." Spoke Spanky my drummer. Right now we're on the tour bus traveling through France. We didn't have a show today but we spent all day traveling so we're all a bit stir crazy from being coped up on the bus all day. It's little past four in the afternoon here meaning It's still morning back in the states so I have to be sure to call my Fiancé in a bit to check in. I haven't talked to her since last night before I went to bed.

"You do know I see her on a semi regular basis every time I go to LA.."

"I know and the next time you see Meagan ask her about Spanky. I promise you I was her first love."

"Spank I'm sorry but there's no way Meagan Goode and you were messing around. She's married I highly doubt she'd cheat especially with you." I spoke folding my arms.

"I know and that why we never got caught. Believe what you want but it's true. I put my penis inside of her one night after a party."

"If you're lying to me I'm going to punch you in your dick for lying to me. And then Imma fire you." He chuckled and shrugged.

"Okay and what do I get for you doubting me liked I'd ever lie to you?"

"Nothing because you're lying."

"When she proves you wrong and I know she will."

"She won't tho." I interrupted.

"You're giving me the keys to the Aston for a week." As soon as he mentioned my Aston Martin I let out a deep sarcastic chuckle.

"I wouldn't even let you look at it let alone get behind the wheel. Hell no boo try again." Nobody drives my Aston but me. I let Becks drive it one time and that lasted five minutes before I revoked her permission to drive it. She damn near crashed her and I almost had a heart attack.

"Fine one day."

"No. You can drive the Porsche or the Audi but never the Aston. Becks blew it for everyone so complain to her."

"Alright fine I'll take the Audi. Make sure you shine her up real nice before you hand me the keys." He smiled clearly very confident.

"You're very confident for someone who's lying because now that I think about it.. I'm almost a hundred percent sure Meagan doesn't go anywhere without her husband. So if she was at a party without her husband was it really Meagan Goode?" It's true I've been around them together, and those two are so far up each other's asses that her husband wrote books about their devotion to each other. So there's no way this story makes sense.

"Well of-" As he was speaking my phone started to ring signaling that Wifey is calling.

"Well nothing you lying bastard. You're lucky bae is calling or I would've beat your ass." Answering the phone I continued to talk to Spanky as I was walking off to find a quiet place so I can talk to my girl. "When I get done I'm throwing your ass off the bus."

"Whatever Sash." He replied laughing. By this time I was climbing into my bunk and put the phone to my ear.

"Hi baby." I spoke and I got nothing but silence for a couple seconds before I heard crying. Immediately I got concerned because I know she's dropping and so she's probably in a really fragile state this morning. "Baby what's the matter?" I asked only to be answered with the sounds of her balling her eyes out. Since the model incident I haven't done anything I shouldn't have been doing so I know I'm not the cause.

"He's not moving!" She got out randomly only crying even harder after choking it out. When she said that everything clicked and my heart broke. I know who she's talking about and I can't believe it. Our son is gone. "Sash I can't handle this! No no no no nooo nooo." And she's back to balling her eyes out making me cry too. I feel like my heart just melted out of my chest. No matter how hard I tried to maintain the role of keeping calm I can't stop the tears from coming. So many things are going through my mind right now and the main thing being Becky. I am absolutely terrified that she might do something harmful to herself because I don't think she has ever fell in a drop so bad like the one this is gonna cause. And the fact that I can't do anything about it really makes this so much more worse. I'd cancel the rest of the tour so I could go be with her in this dark hour but I can't do that. My label wouldn't allow it all because of my dog dying. I know it sounds pretty fucked up but that's just how they are, had it been a family member then maybe they'd allowed it. But those money hungry bastards wouldn't dare to waste millions all because my dog died. I have no idea of what my label will do for me but even if they give me a day off I'm going to her. Worst comes to worst I'll fly her to me.

"Babe where are you?" I need to know where she is and what she's doing so I can let Charlotte and Bayley know. If I can't help her then they can.

"The tub. You have to come home I can't do this on my own Sasha. I can't handle this right now. You have to come home I can't do this without yooou!" She mumbled out with her accent sounding thicker than normal.

"I know baby girl but I need you to stay strong for me. I don't know-"

"Sasha please come home! Sasha please I don't have anybody I can talk to please. I need you bad Sasha please. Come home come home come home." Hearing her plead like this tugs away at my heart. I knew I should've stayed with her my gut told me so. And now here I am in the middle of France while she's back home really all alone now. I have no idea how to fix this either. I'm torn about the rest of my tour or going home to take care of my fiancée. Then it comes to possibly flying her out here to me but I dunno if she'll want to do so. But that's literally our only option here bring her to me. She's in absolutely no condition to be by herself right now so I have to get into my nurturing mood and take care of her. The mental health of my submissive is the most important thing to me over most things.

"Baby you know I would if I could but I'm overseas right now. I'm gonna text Bayley and Char and they're gonna help you out till I can get to you mommas." I'm not even sure if she heard what I said because she's too busy crying. It's okay I'm just gonna do everything I can do to my ability right now. Wiping my tears I pulled out my iPad and began a group message between Charlotte and Bayley basically telling them that Shiloh must have passed in his sleep and that they need to get over there ASAP yesterday. I even explained to them not to call because I'm on the phone with her and to just get to the house. I'm positive Charlotte managed to copy herself key to the house and I can bet she made Bayley a key too so they shouldn't have trouble getting in the house. Once I did that I began to try and figure out my location so that I know where to make her destination for her plane ticket. I just want her to be with me as soon as I possibly can so I can take care of her. "Baby? Baby talk to me I don't like when you go silent on me. I need to know you're there." I spoke because her side of the line is quite.

"I can't handle this.. I-I-I can't. Shiloh." She spoke softly before I heard her sobs come through.

"Baby I'm so sorry. We're gonna be ok I know you love him but he's in a better place now." I reassured trying to hopefully get her to stop crying. It was here the girls both texted me back letting me know they were on their way to her now. Good thing it's Saturday so I know they don't work weekends. Well I know Charlotte doesn't but sometimes Bayley does but I guess today I lucked out. "Becky?" She looked at me with tears still falling from her eyes. Seeing her like this makes me so sad.

"I feel useless now.."

"You're not useless baby you mean everything to me."

"Y-you're overseas and w-won't be back for weeks. Shi is gone so I-I really literally have nobody anymore. I'm all alone and i-it hurts a lot more than I envisioned." She mumbled out wiping her tears. "Why couldn't you have just tied him up before you decided to get high? It was a two second job and all you had to do was clip the leash to his collar the same way you do to me. Who knew those missed three seconds would cause me so much pain?" She's not even looking at me anymore she's just staring at something to the side of her phone. I'd say something but I'm the cause of her tears right now. This is all my fault and I feel really shitty about this. "Crazy how three seconds can ruin everything you love barely a month down the road. It's not fair I have to suffer because of those three seconds my fiancée deemed unimportant. Had I just stayed home that night I'd still have my best friend here with me." She spoke still staring at whatever she's looking at.

"I'm sorry Becks. I don't know if I can say it enough times to-" And then she hung up on me. So I called her back it rang and then it stopped meaning she ignored my phone call. I called again this time it rang all the way through worrying me. I'm scared to death she might harm herself and I can't have that happen. I'm the one who got her in this state so it's my job to help get her out. It's going to be hard given I'm on a different continent right now but for Rebecca I'm gonna do whatever it takes. Using my IPad I pulled up the live feed to the beach house cameras. Checking each one I found her sitting in the family room sitting about five feet away from Shiloh and she's just staring at him. I curse these cameras for not having any audio because I'd love to know if she's talking to him or not. All I know is she's sitting with her knees to her chest facing Shiloh. I've never felt so helpless sitting here watching as my fiancée is sitting home all alone crying over the carcass of our furry child knowing there's close to nothing I can do to comfort her. And I hate this even more because I'm alone crying in my bunk knowing I failed my fiancée. I want so bad to hold her in my arms right now. I just wanna hug and kiss her until she stops crying. I knew I should've stayed home instead of coming back on the road again.

Fifteen minutes later Bayley's POV

"Hurry up where's the key?" I asked looking at Charlotte as she fumbling the keys trying to get us into the beach house so we can get our best friend.

"I'm trying Bay you're making this worse." She growled trying to fit the key in the door.

"Here let me do it." I offered.

"No I got it see." Finally after what felt like ages she opened the door. "Gingie?" She called out as we entered. It was very eerie walking in because all the blinds were closed and it's kinda dark in here.

"Becks where are you?" I called out still no reply.

"Becks it's us you're favorite duo." She chimed as we walked into the kitchen. She's not there but my poor nephew is on the coffee table in the family room.

"Char." I murmured pointing to him because I didn't want to believe it but he's really actually gone.

"Oh Shiloh." She sadly cooed going over to him so I followed.

"Is it him?" I asked hiding behind her because I'm scared of things that are no longer living. Charlotte has always been more brave than I am so when she reached out to touch him she let out a whimper.

"He's gone Baybay." When she said that I couldn't help the tears from pooling in my eyes. I loved that boy to pieces. Every time we'd come over he'd always tug at my pants until I sat and gave him cuddles and belly rubs. Sometimes I'd even hide treats for him and see how long it took for him to find them. Being he's a beagle it never took long for him to sniff them out. And now little did I know the last time I played that with him it'd literally be the last time we played it together.

"We gotta find Becks. She's probably more beat up about this than us." I reasoned wiping my tears. There's nothing we can do to help him right now but we can still help our bestie.

"You're right. But what should we do about him?" That's a valid question and I have no idea.

"I dunno let's just find Becks because that all comes down to her." I spoke turning to go into the bedrooms because I know she's here somewhere. The master bedroom door is open so I think it's safe to assume she's in there. Going in the blinds are drawn too making it damn near pitch black in here.

"Darkness isn't gonna help." Char spoke turning on the light. To reveal an empty room, however we can hear light sobs coming from the bathroom. "You hear that?"

"Yeah." I then moved towards the bathroom and the door is slightly ajar so I pushed it open to a heartbreaking sight. She's sitting on the toilet seat lid with her knees to her chest clutching what looks to be Shiloh's dog collar. And she's sitting facing the counter but it's what was on the counter that scared me. There's a razor blade, a knife, and a bottle of pills lined up on the edge of the counter and she's just staring at them. "Becky NO!" I spoke springing into action. I've seen this all before with my younger cousin only I couldn't save him because it was too late. But I have a chance to prevent this so I ran to her and grabbed her.

"Holy shit Orange!" Exclaimed Char noticing the items on the counter. Pulling Becky into my chest she immediately started to cry harder.

"Jesus Christ Becky you have so much more to be thankful for."

"Did you take any of these?" Asked Char grabbing the pill bottle which I think is just some brand of pain relievers. She didn't answer besides wrap her arms around me tighter and cry louder.

"Shiloh." I'd show sympathy but it's more important that we find out if she decided to take a handful of those before anything.

"Becks hey!" Char spoke urgently peeling her off me to look at her. "Did you take any of these?" She simply shook her head no. "Are you sure? Now isn't the fucking time to bullshit me Gingie."

"No!" She almost yelled but she's an emotional wreck right now so I don't expect her to have volume control of her voice right now.

"Nah I don't trust it. Bay hold her still." Char instructed rolling up her sleeve. Listening I held Becky tighter only for her to struggle before Char grabbed her face and forced her fingers down her throat.

"I'm sorry but this is for your own good." I cooed stroking her hair trying to comfort her.

"Jeez Becks it's like you have no gag reflex." Mumbled Char. "Don't fight this!" And then a second later she gagged and then threw up all over the floor. "Shit damn near basically had to shove my whole fist down there."

"I didn't take any you jackass!" Becky spat after she finished throwing up.

"Well I already lost my brother to an overdose and I wasn't risking losing another person I love." Char sassed washing her hands.

"Becks what the hell is wrong with you? What were you even thinking?" I asked pulling away from her enough to look at her face.

"Just gonna.. move these elsewhere." Murmured Char taking the blade and the knife and putting it further away from us on the counter. It was here that I decided to check her arms to make sure she didn't hurt herself already. "Can you handle her while I find something to clean this up with?"

"Yeah I can handle it." I shrugged still petting my friend's hair.

"Kay I'll be back." She then left taking the knife, blade, and pill bottle with her.

"Becks you know I love you right? I love you, Char loves you, and Sasha does too. What did you expect us to tell her if you did whatever the hell you were planning to do before we came in?" I asked trying to hopefully talk some sense into her and maybe get some answers. It took her awhile to calm down before she was able to answer me.

"Well I'm sure she'd have no trouble replacing me. She made that very clear the other day on the boat." She murmured emotionlessly. Pulling away from her I sat kneeled down in front of her and grabbed her hands.

"That's not true and you know it."

"Well neither of us really know for sure all we have to go on is the words of a guy who she easily could've manipulated."

"Okay but you know she wasn't in her right state of mind that night. You know she would never do that to you sober. She loves you Becky. She was the one who told us to come check on you and thank god we did. Think about everything she did just to be able to spend time with you. What about My Goggled Orange? She wrote that whole album inspired by you."

"Well this was all before she decided she wanted to give me a doggy and then a few months later rip him from my hands too soon before his time to go Bay. It's it's like she purposely did this to torture me. She knew how much I loved him Bay. He was the rock I clung to while she was gone and I was dropping. Shi was my best friend and she knew that but she didn't care. She couldn't afford to spend those three seconds to tie him up and now look at him." She then started to cry again. "He's gone now all because of Sasha."

"I understand that but it doesn't give you a right to cause harm to yourself. There's never a valid reason to do that."

"I wasn't gonna do it anyway." She murmured pulling her knees back up to her chest.

"We don't know that. We just saw you sitting here staring at a razor blade, some pills, and a knife. What the hell else were we supposed to think?"

"If I wanted to kill myself I would've locked the door."

"So then you've thought about it?" She let out a deep sigh before closing her eyes and nestled her face in her knees.

"Couldn't find the Pinesol. Is it in here?" Asked Charlotte coming in with a mop and bucket. Since it's morning I assume Becky didn't have time to eat before finding him so it was mostly liquid that she threw up.

"It's under the counter in front of you." Becky answered not looking up.

"Awesome. But real shit Becks I don't appreciate you scaring me like this. Like I real life thought I was gonna have to beat the hell out of you. I can't afford to lose you sis, Bayley is annoying as fuck and you're our peace keeper." I'd protest that but I feel the same way about Char.

"She's right ya know. She is annoying and you're always a nice person to be around having to put up with her stupidity on the regular. Still baffles me on how she's a school teacher."

"It's because I'm hot." Smiled Char flipping her hair and placing the bucket in the tub and began to fill it up. "Why is you're phone- Ooh Sasha is calling." She then picked up Becky's phone from the tub.

"Please don't tell her about this." Becky spoke immediately after Char finished.

"Well she deserves to know you tri-" It was here Becky got up and snatched her phone from Char.

"I'm not suicidal just depressed. I'm in a really deep hole and and I don't know how to cope this time. Sasha was always here to help me out of it then she went on tour and let me have Shi to make up for her not being here to coax me through it. He was my rock but now he's gone and Sasha's to blame and my head just can't compute that.. So I dunno... I figured maybe inflicting pain on myself instead of someone else doing it might help me feel better like it usually does. But I bitched out because I'm terrified it won't have the same euphoria and then it would've been a waste of my time. It's hard to explain but I just don't want her to know ok?" She explained very quickly.

"Hold on I am very fucking confused. Becks is Sasha beating you? Because I'll take the-"

"No! Never that we have.. I like.. ugh just nobody tells Sasha what happened here today okay?" She pleaded. Something in the way she said that doesn't sit too well with me. She's hiding something I can sense it. Getting to my feet also I looked at Char and she's staring at me.

"I'm worried." I spoke speaking for both of us.

"I'm fine.. or you know I will be." She murmured looking down at Shiloh's collar in her hand.

"Becks you were contemplating cutting yourself we can't just ignore that. If there's anything you wanna talk about we're here for you." I spoke placing my hand over Shiloh's collar.

"We've never seen you like this so it's our right to worry babe." Added Charlotte.

"I'm still in one piece. Didn't drop a single ounce of blood and I have nothing in my stomach to digest. I'm alright just a moment of darkness. I let my depression get the best of me and you guys woke me up. I was so upset about losing him that I couldn't see reason." She then pulled me in for a hug so I hugged her back. "Thank you for being here for me. You too Charlie." She then let me go and faced her. "You saved me from having an imaginary overdose and I appreciate you for that."

"Do you appreciate me enough to clean up your mess?" Char spoke pointing to the puddle on the floor.

"I told you no and you still forced your fingers down my throat. And not only that but they tasted weird and that's what made me gag."

"Ok but why did I manage to stick my fingers so far without you throwing up?" That surprisingly got Becky to smile.

"Well how do you think I keep Sasha coming back for more? Gotta get that thang sloppy wet before I let her put it in if you know what I'm talking about." She then winked and licked her lips.

"I'm fucking done. That's what I'm talking about Gingie. Deep throat it or don't suck it at all!" Chimed Char holding her hand out for a high five which connected.

"I'm disgusted." I spoke.

"Don't worry Bay I'm sure you'll understand soon enough. Just know you'll never see pure bliss on a mans face-"

"Or woman."

"Or on a woman's face other than when you deep throat'em." Becky simply nodded in agreement.

"Why every time we're trying to have a serious moment it always turns into us talking about sex?"

"Because sex is fun." Shrugged Becks.

"It's probably because you don't have enough of it. But now you have E and I know he has to have a third foot between his legs." Hearing them talk about my boyfriend I immediately started to blush against my will. I actually really do have a huge crush on him so I'm glad I have him. And they're right I do wonder what he has in store for me, but I told myself I wanted to take it slow. Sex isn't everything to me.

"Leave him out of this." I spoke because I do not want to talk about this subject anymore.

"All I'm saying is he's one of Sasha's childhood friends, so they grew up together. Sash radiates big dick energy and she does have a big dick, several at that. So I'm gonna say there's an eighty-eight point seven three percent chance he has a big dick too." Stated Becky sounding very sure.

"Have you seen him?! There's no doubt in my mind he was blessed with a dick that's gonna destroy you Bay."

"Guys quit it that's my boyfriend you guys are fantasizing about. Besides we aren't here to discuss my boyfriend's package, we're here for Shiloh." I reminded trying to get back to our task at hand. When I said that Becky's demeanor notably changed back to how it was prior.

"He's really gone guys." She murmured looking at his collar. And then she started to sniffle before the tears started to fall. "I didn't even get to say goodbye." She sobbed out looking at us making my heart ache. I've never seen her like this so my only instinct is to hug her.

"I'm sorry Becks." I cooed rubbing her back.

"Bay why don't you guys go hang out on the bed so I can clean this up and I'll catch up." Nodding I began to lead Becky out the bathroom. Sitting us down on the bench at the end of the bed she cuddled into my side resting her head on my shoulder.

"You know he's most likely in a better place now. Knowing my nephew he's probably running through a field of chicken and hamburgers." I smirked thinking of the time where Becky was grilling for dinner and while I wasn't looking he knocked my plate over and stole two of my chicken wings. Then later Char was holding her burger and he snuck up and took a bite. That got her to let out a small giggle.

"He loved chicken you should've known he'd do that."

"Well I thought we were cool. I didn't think he'd steal from his favorite auntie."

"He's was never loyal when it comes to food. He was low key a traitor."

"Well you're cooking is really good most times so I understand his stance."

"He was a fatass.. He was a big fat asshole, but he was my favorite asshole. I miss him already Bay." Naturally I put my arm around her and hugged her tighter.

"I know me too, but we'll get through this. Think of it this way, he's in a much better place now. And we have tons of photos and videos to remember him by. Honestly if you ask me he's always gonna be here with us in spirit and in our hearts."

"Hey are you guys craving some pizza? I can totally go for some pizza right now." Spoke Char coming out of the bathroom.

"Char we're in the middle of something." I replied because me and Becks were having a moment.

"Ok well all this grief is making me hungry. Can we go to IHOP? Shawty wants a five stack with extra whipped cream on top."

"Now is not the time to-"

"She's right. I am pretty hungry." Sniffled Becky looking between us both.

"See Gingie is hungry too from all that crying. Plus she did throw up everything in her stomach so I know she has the room. You can stay here Bay. You don't have to come if you don't want to."

"I didn't eat breakfast yet so I'm going."

"Perfect. Becks go get dressed and we'll handle everything else." When she said that she motioned towards where the living room is and that's when I remembered Shiloh is still out there.

"Yeah. For once Char is right." I see what Char is doing now. Gotta do everything we can to keep her mind off Shiloh until we can get her to Sasha.. or Sasha to Becky. Or just long enough for us to keep her from trying to harm herself for real and for us to figure out what to do with his body. Standing up I brought Becks with me. "Go put on something cute and then we are going to take you out somewhere to eat." I explained pushing her towards the closet.

"Are you sure y'all don't want me to just make us breakfast?"

"No! Oh jeez no that's the last thing we want right now." Char answered quickly. "Just get dressed. Bay come with me." Becky then went into the closet prompting us to go back out into the living room.

"How do you dispose of a dead body?" I asked looking down at our nephew.

"Hiding a human dead body I know tons of ways. Getting rid of an animal carcass I dunno. I guess we call the vet or something they'll know."

"True. Do you remember what vet they take him to?" I asked pulling out my phone to look up the number.

"Nah. Just call one and ask what to do. Then I guess we can go from there. I think it mostly comes down to if they want him stuffed or cremated."

"Hopefully they want him cremated." I mumbled searching up the nearest vet clinic to help find out what to do.

"Yeah it'd be weird seeing him standing in the same position for the rest of our lives. Anyway I'm gonna get a sheet or something to wrap him up in so we don't have to just stare at him like this." Char then patted me on the shoulder before wandering off to go find whatever she's looking for. I eventually find a clinic and called. They were very helpful and told me all the steps I needed to take in order to solve this situation. The only hard part was trying to ask Becky how she wanted her sons body disposed of without upsetting her or sounding morbid. Thankfully she just wanted him cremated so we loaded him up into the car and took him to the clinic. There we said our final goodbyes and headed out to go eat. Not surprisingly Becky didn't eat much of anything or talk as much as she usually does. We both understood why but she's our friend and we refuse to let her be sad on her own. That is also when Char and I decided to just spend the next couple days with her until Sasha figures out how to get to her. This way we know she's not alone and won't have to worry about if she's doing something she shouldn't be doing. As her best friends it's our job to be there for her in her darkest hours. She's always there for us when we need her and now it's our turn to be there for her.

The airport Becky's POV a week later

"I'm right outside the gate mommas. When you get off I'm to the left. There are cameras so wear your hood when you get off."

My plane just landed in Italy and once my phone got service again I got a flood of messages from Sasha telling me that she's already at the airport waiting for me. This whole week has just been hell for me and after all of this I just want my dominant. Shiloh is gone. I'm in a drop deeper than I've ever been and I feel trapped. I've just become numb to my emotions and I only want Sasha. Don't get me wrong Bayley and Charlotte did a wonderful job keeping my mind off things but they aren't my Sasha. She understands me, she knows how to make me better, she's the light that I desperately need to hopefully light up my darkness. I don't feel like myself and I can't do anything about it without my Sasha to help me. So this nine hour first class plane ride was absolute hell. Sure it was comfy but it allowed me time to think about everything that's been happening in my life recently and I pretty much cried half the ride and the other half I spent sleeping from crying so much. I just need a hug, a kiss, and snuggles from my fiancé to make me feel better. Besides my puppy back there's nothing I want more than to be with her. So when the plane finally connected to the dock I wasted no time putting on my sunglasses and getting off the plane. I wasn't first off but I was part of the first bunch to go and just like the text said she's standing right off to the side of my gate with a bodyguard. I felt a little bit of relief seeing those purple locks I've become used to. As soon as I started to head towards her the cameras started to shutter and it made me angry. How can they take pictures of us knowing we're going through some dark days right now. Why do they care so much about me flying in to see my fiancé after our son died? It's whatever I don't care I want my girlfriend and she made it clear she wanted me too being she met me halfway.

"Hi beautiful." She spoke hugging me and I hugged her back as tight as I could. Taking in her familiar perfume I momentarily got a sense of calm through my intense internal static. "I love you so much baby. You're with me now we're gonna be ok." When she said that I swallowed hard trying to suppress my emotions but they're all fighting and clawing to come out. I'm trying with everything I have to not let it show while the paparazzi are watching but it's hard. "Daddy's got you it's okay. We're okay now baby breathe." She calmed rubbing my back and holding me tight. Snuggling into her embrace even tighter I buried my head in her neck and took in a deep breath breathing her in like novacane and as soon as I exhaled the tears started to fall with nothing I could do to stop them.

"He's gone Sasha." I murmured because my best friend is gone and I didn't get to say goodbye to him.

"I know come on let's get out of here and I'm gonna take care of you." She spoke slowly releasing her grip on me. I don't want to let her go but she's right I don't need the world seeing me breakdown especially not in the middle of an airport. Pulling myself together I wiped my cheeks of any tears that might still remain. "I love you."

"I love you too." I sniffled out being I need to blow my nose. Sasha then gave me a soft kiss on the cheek making the whole right side of my face go warm. Her kisses are like magical healing potions and with every kiss she gives me I know I'll feel better in time. Interlacing our hands she began to navigate us through the airport. I just kept my head down not bothering to look at where we're going. I didn't pack anything but my phone, wallet, keys, phone charger, and headphones all of which I stashed in my purse and that was my carry on luggage. Sasha said not to bother packing and that we'd just get new clothes over here so I didn't pack. Besides I watched Sasha pack her bags for tour and she took a good amount of my clothes with her so I have an outfit or two on the bus already. Eventually we managed to get to the bus where I quietly passed all her dancers and climbed into Sasha's bunk on the bus. I normally would stop and talk to them but I'm not in the mood to talk and I'm sure they'll forgive me this one time. Laying in the bed I got under the covers and took off my sunglasses so I could lay my head down comfortably. It smells just like Sasha in here so it was only natural I cuddled into the blankets. I heard Sasha talking somewhere off in the front of the bus before her voice was speaking to me as she opened the curtain to look at me.

"You hungry mommas?" Thinking about it I am quite starving I was sleeping when they served lunch on the plane. Nodding my head I spoke.

"Yes."

"Anything in particular or do you trust me?"

"Can I have a kiss?" She smiled and gave me a kiss. As soon as our lips touched my whole body tingled. I've missed her lips so much so I couldn't help wrapping my arms around her neck pulling her closer to me. I just want as much contact with her as I can get.

"I know beautiful I will get to your needs in a bit but I gotta feed you first. You're hungry so you have to eat." Any other time I'd protest but I'd rather just do what she says.

"Okay." I spoke softly earning me a chaste kiss.

"I'm sorry this happened mommas. You're so bummed and I feel so bad. I'm so sorry for your loss darling." All I did was cuddle back into the blanket covering up my nose in efforts to keep the illusion that we are cuddling right now. I'd force her to just come cuddle with me but I know she won't until I've ate. "You look miserable but Daddy is gonna make you feel better okay?" I nodded in agreement.

"Okay." She gave me a small grin before kissing me on the forehead.

"I'll be back." And with that she closed the curtain leaving me to my lonesome. Letting out a sigh I began to scan Sasha's bunk and first being it's rather tight in here but it's not too bad. Then on the top of the bunk she has a picture of me and Shiloh from the time we took a family outing to the beach. I remember this day so vividly to. It was maybe sometime after Christmas and we were all lying on the couch doing nothing. I got bored and demanded Sasha take us out somewhere so we decided on going to the beach since I decided to get us all matching Hawaiian shirts. This was at the house in California and so we decided to go to the part of the beach that wasn't too occupied and set our stuff down there. I remember it was cute because I was playing fetch with Shiloh and Sasha wasn't paying attention and I threw the ball right to the side of her. Shiloh ran and basically jumped on her causing her to spill her ice cream all over herself. The whole time she was cursing us out Shi just kept licking her every time she went to speak. She eventually decided to go rinse off in the ocean and magically Shiloh decided that he would do the same following behind her causing Sasha to almost step on him thus throwing off her balance and while that happened a huge wave came and smacked them both making Sash fall completely. She was so adamant on not getting her hair wet only for it to get wet anyway. It was a fun day for us and I watched Sash be cute and angry about her wet hair. I eventually did start to feel bad so I won Sasha a stuffed chicken out of a claw game. Shiloh did end up stealing it and ripping it apart but it was still a good time. Plus later that night she tied me up and fucked me because it was my fault Shiloh decided to trip her up and make her fall in the water. It doesn't make sense but from her view it made perfect sense and somebody had to pay. "I ordered Chinese is that okay?" Spoke Sasha pulling me out of my thoughts.

"That's fine. You gonna cuddle me now?" I asked opening the blanket for her to get in. She complied and got in with me.

"Hi." She spoke once she settled in and got cozy.

"Hey." She then kissed my forehead then my nose followed by my lips. She then cupped my face and began to kiss me hard. She knows I need this and she made it clear by taking complete charge of the kiss. And just like always I found our tongues reacquainting themselves. I miss her so I wrapped my arms around her neck and pulled her torso over top of mine. I always like having her be on top while we're kissing to remind me of who I belong to. She took kindly to that and wrapped one arm around my ribs while the other tangled itself in my hair all of which created this euphoria for me. My whole body is on fire right now. This is exactly what I needed to help me feel again. The numbness is gone and I feel my fiancée's petite body on top of mine. "Daddy?"

"Yes?"

"You're not allowed to leave me." I murmured looking up into my favorite chocolate brown eyes.

"I won't I promise. See this?" She then shifted her position enough to show me her left ring finger that has the ring on it. "I wouldn't have accepted it if I didn't want to spend forever with you. I love you Rebecca I really truly do. I'd never purposely do something to make you think otherwise."

"I still haven't forgiven you for those models." I murmured because it's true. It still hurts. When I said that she laid back down in front of me and pulled my head down so it rested on her chest. Sasha then began to massage my head while her other hand grabbed my left arm pulling it over her midsection. Naturally I tightened my arm around her pulling her closer to me. We're snuggled up in my favorite position, lying with my head on her chest holding her while I listen to her heartbeat. She always plays with my hair soothing me. Calming my nerves always getting me to relax.

"I know baby but I promise you I didn't sleep with any of them. Deep down inside I know none of them could satisfy me the way you always do. All those girls aren't as obedient as you are and I haven't the patience to be troubled in finding one that is. I'm perfectly happy with you." She spoke softly kissing the top of my head. "I only have eyes for you."

"I love you too Sash." I replied placing a soft kiss on her neck. Then we fell into a comfortable silence besides the sound of the others and cars driving by. The more we lay here the more relaxed I get. I feel my melancholy slowly starting to dissipate. It's not a dramatic difference but it definitely has lessened since I got back into Sasha's arms. For once in this hectic week I've had, I feel somewhat at peace with my emotions. I don't feel like crying, I don't want to be angry with Sasha for those girls right now, I don't want to feel depressed, and I sure as hell don't want to feel lonely anymore. I just feel content. Content being with my dom finally after what felt like forever but has been just over a week. I'm finally here and I wanna forget all my worries and just be with Sasha.

"You know I was thinking about our wedding." She spoke softly still messaging my hair.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah I always thought I'd want a big one but I don't really. I think I want a small one. That way we can invite our closest family and friends. Like imagine this, me standing at the altar and you walking down the aisle in a beautiful big flowy dress. And I haven't quite pictured how your hair would be styled but I imagine you having pretty white flowers in your hair. And the whole time you're walking to me I just can't help but to cry because you look so beautiful. And the fact that it's you. I'd be marrying you my best friend and we get to spend forever together just me and you."

"You gonna wear a dress too?" I asked looking up at her because I wanna imagine what I'd be walking down the aisle to.

"Yeah I think so. Do you want me to?" Kissing her neck I nodded.

"Yes."

"Then I'll wear a dress. And we'll get married in a cute little chapel somewhere nice. I want the church to have big windows that showcase a beautiful landscape. Or we could get married at the office where we first met."

"That reminded me I have a message to you from Eli."

"Oh god!"

"He told me to tell you that he's breaking up with you. It wasn't you it was him. He found a new girl and he can't be tied down to one girl." I mumbled out laying on her chest with my eyes closed. Her fingers feel so relaxing and it's making me sleepy.

"That kind of hurts but I'll get over it." She then let out a small sigh. "I'm over it. But back to us. Our reception will really be the best part of the wedding besides you becoming my wife in front of everybody."

"Can we have a disco ball and a bubble machine?"

"Anything you want baby. It's your wedding you can have anything you desire. We have the funds so there's no limit." I simply nodded in response. "But really I can't wait for our honeymoon. We're gonna go everywhere to Australia, Maldives, Dubai, Greece, Italy, Barbados. Anywhere you've ever dreamed of going were gonna go." And it was around here that I started to drift off with thoughts of wedding bells ringing in my head. I didn't mean to fall asleep because I really did want to listen to her talk about our wedding but her fingers become to much for me and I fell asleep.

Sasha's POV

"I'm so in love with you Becky. I hope you know that." I whispered being she fell asleep on my chest. Poor thing has probably been crying all day so I wasn't surprised when she passed out so quickly on me. She's had a rough week so I know she needed this. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't need this too. I've missed her terribly and I don't know if she knows that but it's true. I love her so much and I'm hoping that this doesn't affect us in the long run too much. After all the dust settles I was the one who caused this. I was the one who allowed him to get hit by a car because I was too high to remember to tie him up. I still feel like she hasn't forgiven me for that in the first place so now I feel like I'm gonna be the blame for this at some point.

"Morning sleepy head." I softly smiled as she began to move around letting me know she's up.

"Morning lass." She mumbled opening her pretty brown eyes. Just seeing her eyes made me smile and want to kiss her.. so I did.

"I forget how much I love kissing you when you first wake up." She gave me this weird look so I continued. "You always kiss me so soft and slowly and I love that. But then again I always love kissing you. Your lips are my drug." I murmured then kissed her lips again this time making it a deep meaningful one. She welcomed that by pulling me closer to her. "Are you hungry?"

"Just for you." She purred kissing my neck. "Daddy I miss you and I need a fix. I'm in a drop and I need some help." Whenever she says stuff like this to me it makes me smile remembering how at the beginning of our relationship she wouldn't tell me what she wanted until I forced it out of her. Now she just says exactly what she needs and it's my job to fulfill her needs.

"To what extent?"

"Just an orgasm for now. Maybe some head later. I'd like a fucking but I don't suppose you bought a strap so I'm alright with settling." See, she just orders what she wants and I deliver.

"No with me you never have to settle. I'm sure they have tons of sex stores around here we just gotta find them. Then we can rent a room and I'll tie you up and fuck the hell out of my pussy." As I said the last part I put my hand in her pants and cupped her pussy.

"Mmm its yours Daddy. It's yours." She moaned out biting her lip. So I took to nibbling on her neck.

"Damn right it is. Take this off. Take it all off." I spoke tugging her hoodie and removing my hand from her pants so I could help her undress. It's a tight squeeze in here so this took a little longer than expected but eventually we managed her down to her bra and panties. "Mmm I swear you just get sexier and sexier every time I take your clothes off." I smiled kissing her chest.

"Well I've been exercising and eating right just for you." Rubbing my fingers along her abdomen I couldn't help but smile. My wife has such a hot body I'd be lying if I said I'm not turned on just looking at her.

"Well it is very much appreciated. Now let me enjoy." Pushing her onto her side I straddled her lap. There isn't much space for me to fully sit up meaning I have to keep close to her. But that's fine I don't want to be too far from her anyway. First thing first I need to do is reclaim my beautiful dropping submissive. It's about time I bring her balance back. I then began to place several kisses along her chest biting her soft flesh every now and then. You'd be surprised at how many moans that got me. Poor thing has been missing me like crazy and I feel so guilty. "You're mine Rebecca. You're mine and nobody else can have you. Mine." I then bit down on her neck hard enough and long enough to make a bruise. This way I can see where to suck on to give her several more new hickies. She loves it when I give her hickies also because she doesn't have a choice. I'm just making my mark on my property and there's nothing wrong with that.

"Daddy please I'm yours. I'm yours I'm yours please." She pleaded looking me dead in the eyes making me grin. I love it when she calls me daddy.

"Shut up I'm enjoying you. Just be quiet and enjoy this." I spoke ignoring her request because what I'm doing is more important than her cumming. Anyway I went back to giving her hickies all over her chest eventually moving down to her abdomen. Here I made sure to take my time here. Really admiring my girlfriend's hard work that she does just for me. I kept kissing her everywhere making sure to give her a little hickie every now and then. I kept going until I got to the top of her black lace panties. "Mmm if feels so good being home. You have no idea how much Daddy misses this." I purred using my finger to press on her clit through the thin piece of fabric. She's so wet I can't wait to taste her again.

"Daddy I miss you please-"

"Shhh! Or I'll gag you I didn't say for you to speak. Just for that I should just go." I growled letting her know of my displeasure. "Don't speak unless I say so. Do you understand?" I demanded. She nodded making me even more annoyed. That being said I leaned forward and smacked her. "Speak when I'm talking to you!" I snapped in her face making her shiver being I'm straddling her stomach.

"S-sorry daddy." She shakily let out.

"Oh you will be trust me." Biting her lip I began kissing her and she eagerly began to return it. I really love making out with my Rebecca because her lips always taste like sweetarts. It's just such a good taste that relaxes me and calms me down sending me into my own bliss.

"Shirt Daddy shirt!" I heard pant into my ear as I feel her fingers caressing my sides underneath my shirt. I don't need any other words I know what she wants, so I took off my shirt and tossed it out the bunk somewhere. My dancers aren't stupid they know we're fucking back here so I really don't care much for being discrete. "Thank you." She then began kissing my chest, her cool lips that touch my skin feel like little balls of ice melting into my hot skin. I feel myself getting goosebumps because this is a feeling I love so much and I've forgotten how much I love it. "Daddy?" She asked looking up at me with those beautiful chocolate brown eyes.

"Yes?"

"Is it okay if I leave my mark?"

"Of course you can. Don't you want people to know I'm yours?"

"Nooo I wanna cover you in my love. I'm just thinking about your costumes and some of-" I leaned down and kissed her making sure to sit up slowly so I don't hit my head.

"Don't you want people to know that I'm taken and yours?" I asked again because she isn't getting what I'm saying.

"I do but I-"

"I don't care Rebecca mark me up I want you to." I stated louder than her so we can get back on track.

"Yes Daddy." Before she went back on to kissing my chest. I let this go on for a minute or two rather just until I started to picture Becky's orgasm face and the fact that I wanna see it now. Reaching behind her back I unsnapped her bra. She hates it when only one of us is topless so I went to take off mine only to realize I was so deep in my trance I didn't notice her take my bra off. Explains why my ovaries feel like they are having a party inside me making my whole center throb. I always get this way when she sucks on my nipples. She knows that so that's why she's doing this.

"Mmm-ahhhaha you miss me?" I asked pulling away so we could make eye contact.

"Oh so terribly Daddy. I missed you, I miss kissing you." She then kissed me. "I've missed your lips, I miss you on top of me like this, I miss you tying me up and fucking me blind. I miss the way your fingers can make me cum so quickly. I especially miss the way you always filled me up. I miss you pushing into me inch after inch making my eyes roll the deeper you go inside me. I miss your skin colliding into mine while you fuck me wild. I miss having you deep inside me showing me exactly who the Boss is." She hotly purred in my ear making a smile from ear to ear appear on my face.

"You miss me dicking you down love?" I asked moving so I can start kissing on her neck. I also decided at this point to start slowing grinding on her.

"Yes I do Daddy." She purred trying her best not to squirm but when she gets turned on like this it's impossible for her to lay still.

"Good daddy misses dicking you down too. I can't wait to give you some pipe later. Gonna fuck you till your legs give out." That's not a lie I do have a bunch of steam I need to let out and my usual outlet is lying underneath me waiting for me to touch her. "For now I'm just gonna fuck you till you cum." I shrugged before getting off her and lying to her right side so I can easily stick my hand in her panties. "Mmm you're so wet. Is all this for me?" She bit her lip and nodded.

"Yes it's been so long we missed you." She moaned out grinding herself against my fingers.

"Good thing I'm here now then." I shrugged before I started to rub at her clit earning me a sexy moan.

"Fuck Daddy don't tease me!" I simply connected my lips to hers in an effort to silence her. We're still on the tour bus and everyone is up so I want to be semi respectful while I'm fucking my girl. They don't need to hear how I always get her moaning. "Mmmhmmmhm." She cried out in our kiss as I rubbed at her clit harder making her start to wiggle around.

"Mmm Baby your pussy is so perfect I swear I can't wait to stick my dick inside of you." As I said that I pushed a finger inside of her.

"Hmmm Yes Daddy. I want it so bad. Fuck me I need it. I need this. I need you." Well I'm never one to disappoint so I added a second finger and slowly started to move them in and out of her. That got her to smile and close her eyes letting my motions consume her. Normally I'd insist she watch me fuck her but she's been through a lot without me so I won't do that today. Right now my main goal is to make her cum so I started to speed up my fingers going in and out of her along with the strength I'm pushing into her. She loves being pounded so I did my best to really drive my fingers into her. She enjoyed that decision and let me know by moaning my name. "Daddy Yes! Ughhhh fuck fuck so good!" She moaned out grabbing a hold of my bicep and digging her nails into it. I'm pretty sure this is why she likes when I'm shirtless while we fuck. She always manages to leave scratches on my arms, my back, my abdomen, and sometimes my butt. Wherever she can reach she's gonna claw me and I'm okay with it. Let's me know I'm doing a good job. So judging by the way she's clawing at my bicep I believe I'm doing a great job.

"Good girl just relax I got you and I won't stop until you ask me." That got her to smile and arch her back. So I removed my fingers from inside her and began to rub at her clit making her bite her lip and open her eyes. When she opened her eyes I could see the pure pleasure and lust in her eyes making me shiver. She's giving me her fuck me eyes and boy have I missed them. She hasn't given me those eyes in quite some time so it shot a shockwave all the way down to my ovaries turning me on even more. She's so sexy in the best possible moments and I love that about her.

"Fuck you know how to handle me. But I want you back inside I need it." Listening I pushed my fingers back in her and went back to finger fucking her with authority. "Ahh yes! Yeeeess!" I took to just watching her face. The way her eyes sorta roll to the back of her head. And the way she bites her lip trying to suppress her moans but it's futile because she's still moaning.

"I love fucking you Rebecca you look so fucking sexy right now. And I'm just fingering you I love it can't wait to really get to fuck you. I'm gonna tie you up that way you can't run from me. Then after that I'm gonna tease you until you're pussy is practically drooling all over your legs and thighs." I poured in her neck placing random kisses. "Then perhaps I'll use my tongue and drink your delicious nectar that belongs to me." When I said that I licked her neck to emphasize my words. "Mmm and I bet you still taste the same way you did when I first ever tasted you. Remember we just got out of a heated make out session and I had to pull myself off you to keep from fucking you?"

"I wish you would've fucked me that day. I wanted you to I was too scared to make the first move. I wanted you so so bad baby." She has admitted that to me before but every time she reminds me I get so turned on but angry. Angry because that was the very first time she truly melted into my touch. It was even better than when I fantasized about her after I stupidly tried to push her away. The whole time I spent not talking to her she always plagued my dreams, and to finally see her damn near completely submit to me for the first time, and not fuck her then and there was a sin in my eyes. Had I fucked her that day I feel like she would've been mine a lot sooner.

"I know me too but I just wanted a taste. You tasted like honey so I bet you still do. I'll find out soon because I'm gonna eat you out till you cum in my mouth."

"Mmm." She purred clawing at my arm and chest.

"And then after you do that there won't be any time for recovery before I ram my big nine inch cock right into you." I couldn't help but grin when I said that because I felt her get wetter, and her pussy tightened around my fingers letting me know she's getting close to her orgasm. "Ughh I can't wait to watch you open up and take me I think it'll be so sexy. Watching your tiny little hole being stretched out by my huge dick has me feigning for you at just the thought." It was here I stopped fingering her and went back to rubbing her clit.

"No daddy don't stop." She whined out making me giggle a bit and kiss her.

"I'm not princess I promise. I just can't stop thinking about watching you ride me. I just want to watch you get fucked by me. It's been so long princess I'm sorry."

"If you're really sorry you'd fuck my pain away." I dunno what it was about that statement but it added gas to the fire burning inside me and made me decide to finally give her what she wants. No I'm lying I'm gonna take what I want and she's gonna have to just lay here and take it. Stopping my movements I pulled my fingers away from her completely. "Daddy no!" She immediately started to whine making me giggle and roll my eyes. She sitting here being dramatic like I'm not gonna finish her off. I always let her cum before I stop.

"You're a spoiled brat. I love you." Giving her a kiss I got back on top of her. I love kissing her and I've been deprived so I chose to linger for a bit.

"I love you too." She mumbled in our kiss. I then felt her soft hands caressing my sides making their way to my ass. Eventually gripping it with a nice smack to validate what belongs to her. "You've been working out huh? Doing a couple extra squats for me?" She asked in a confident flirty tone making me grin.

"You already know I gotta keep it sexy for you." I shrugged because I love it when she compliments me on my physique. I do it all for her so I'm happy she appreciates it.

"Thank you Daddy."

"You're welcome beautiful." I then leaned back in to kiss her. This kiss lasted all but thirty seconds before I felt her hand wiggle it's way into my pants.

"These v-lines are no joke."

"Careful don't cut yourself."

"Oh I will try." She grinned looking in between our bodies. It was here her fingers made it safely to my clit. "This all 'cuz of me?" She then slowly started to rub my clit sending chills down my spine.

"Mmmhaha! What can I say I miss you."

"Good I missed you as well. Especially how you taste." She smiled before pushing a finger inside of me. It caught me off guard so instinctively I tensed up. "Hey relax it's just me." Placing kisses on my neck she kept going. "It's been so long huh?" I'm at a loss for words so I simply nodded. I haven't been touched like this in a while so it doesn't surprise me at how her subtle movements have me shaking. "Mmm you're so wet for me I love it. Just trying to recapture what's mine since one of us can't seem to keep their hands to themselves when the other isn't around." Before I could get upset about that she bit my neck almost like she was trying to bite my throat out. "I really hate it that you even entertained it. Really made me look like a fucking fool aye? Well I tell you this lady ain't nobody and I mean nobody gonna get you wet like this Sasha. Nobody can handle you the way I can." When she said that she made sure to ram two more fingers into me proving her point. I am extremely wet all from watching her sex face. She's just so hot and my ovaries love it when I get to fuck her. And her telling me off is only adding to my pleasure. "You belong to me Sasha. You belong to Rebecca Quinn Lynch got it?" She stopped her movements to look me in the eyes when she said that.

"I belong to you."

"Damn right you fucking do. Don't get it twisted I have hoes in my back pocket too so try me. I wasn't gonna tell you this but Alicia tried to wife me. She made it crystal fucking clear she wants your spot in my life the other day." That snapped me right out of my trance. Just the thought of anyone else besides me touching my Rebecca angers me. She's mine nobody else's.

"Excuse me!?"

"Yup check fucking mate Sasha. The way she just took control of me had me shook Daddy. You know she's a dominant too and she made sure to make me aware of that."

"No you're mine so shut up!" I growled because I don't want to hear that. "I'm your dominant not her."

"Oh she knew that and made it clear she didn't give a fuck. Didn't keep her from attacking my lips either. Good thing you called before anything could really happen. But unlike you regardless I was pushing her off me before you even had a thought to call me. I remembered and I respected the fact that I'm engaged to the woman of my dreams and it sure wasn't her. Oh but I wish you would've saw what I pushed away for you. She has a rocking body and she let me explore it too. You got me hooked on chocolate so do you want me to explain to you how turned on I was while she felt me up or do you get it?" She gloated making me absolutely and utterly royally pissed off. Just the thought of knowing I could have lost my girl to some wanna be Sasha Banks really lit my fire. However at the same time it makes me realize that I can't always be there to protect her from people trying to steal her love away. Rebecca is fucking hot as shit and other people realize that to, Alicia being one also. Don't get me wrong Alicia is pretty attractive if I was single I would've been bed her so to know that Becks pushed her away because she loves me opens my eyes. I can't take this woman for granted the way I did on that boat. I mean I decided that days ago but hearing her confess her loyalty to me goes to show that I don't deserve her. She's too good for me but I have her and I'm gonna keep her. "Sasha the way she was eyeing me up was so obvious she was mentally ripping my clothes off, you sho-" I've heard enough. My next move was to wrap a hand around her throat and squeeze just enough so she can't speak. Getting in her face I made sure to talk nice and clearly so she understands.

"I don't care about her because she's not me. She can never ever fuck you the way I fuck you Rebecca. You and I both know you pushed her away because you were afraid of being disappointed if the sex was trash. You and I both know that nobody can turn you on just by threatening you the way I am now. I'm the only one who can work your body to the limit and have you beg me to stop fucking you. And when I fuck you, you always cum don't you?" She's just grinning at me with this devilish smirk so I loosened my grip around her throat so she could reply.

"Yes daddy I do."

"Oh Rebecca you're so lucky we aren't home because I'd bend you over my knee and spank the hell out of you for this. Remember what happened when you decided you wanted to go ahead and fuck your ex? Remember the way you cried when I took your ass against your will?" She nodded. God the crazy part about all this I can tell she's absolutely loving this. She always knows how to push my buttons to get me to react the way she wants. "I'm gonna do it again only there will be no stretching I'm going in raw and you're gonna lay there and take it." Releasing my grip on her throat I sat back up some and I slapped her just for pleasure. "Hands." I spoke holding out my hands for her to give me hers. She didn't hesitate she simply presented me her hands. Taking her right hand I placed it on my chest and gently let it explore my body. "She's not as hot as me is she?"

"No." I then grabbed her other hand and used them both to cup my breast.

"She doesn't have breast that sit comfortably in the palms of your hand like mine do does she?" Licking her lips she spoke up.

"No she doesn't." I then used her hands to roam my abdomen. I made sure to flex so she can feel on my abs.

"She's not ripped like me is she?" She swallowed hard letting me know she's turned on and ready for me.

"She's ripped but not as impressive as you are." And it was here her hands began to caress me on their own feeling every inch of my skin available. "Daddy I want you." She spoke looking me in the eye.

"I don't think you mean that."

"I do mean it." She then started to place kisses all over my chest. "So sexy and I want you inside of me. Please please please I'm aching for you Sasha please!" She begged kissing me on my neck and behind my ear. "Please baby I need you." When she begs I can't say no. So I leaned in and began to kiss her. Normally I'd take control of our kiss but she beat me to it showing me exactly how bad she wants me. Like a starving child she greedily devoured my mouth and I loved every second. So mid kiss I snuck a hand into her panties revealing to me the swimming pool I've created. "Mmm Daddy you did that. You caused that." She murmured grinding herself against my fingers.

"So what do you want me to do about it?" I asked blandly because I want to hear her say it.

"Make me yours again Sasha. I miss being the center of your attention. Show me you still care about me, love me Sasha please." Its been so long since I've genuinely heard her beg me to have my way with her so of course I have to deliver. Besides I've been dying to finally get my hands on her. Pulling my fingers from her panties I pulled them up to show her them.

"Can't tell you how much I missed this." I purred licking her essence off my fingers one at a time.

"Mmmmm Daddy please!" She whined wiggling her body letting me know she's very frustrated.

"Shh I'm just enjoying my fiancée is that such a problem for you?"

"Yes if you don't give me some sort of pleasure in the next thirty seconds I'm gonna scream."

"Scream for me then doll." I teased flashing my million dollar smile that she loves so much.

"Ugh! I hate you."

"We'll see about that." I then began to placing small kisses on her chest quickly making my way down to her abdomen. I lingered here for a minute so I could give her a few lovebites. Her old ones are healed up so she needs more.

"Sasha please!"

"That's not my name." I sang going back to kissing on her v-lines. She's so sexy I love it.

"Daddy! Stop teasing me!" She growled throwing a mini tantrum.

"Baby I don't see what you're deal is here! You told me to show you I care about you so I am. You tell me make you mine again so I am. You say ma-" I was interrupted by her pulling me by the hair up to kiss her.

"If you don't make me cum I'm going to tell everyone that you only faked being gay to boost your ratings. A real lesbian would've made me cum ages ago yet here you-" Before she could finish I gripped her up around the throat.

"Are you calling me straight?" I asked lowly not liking that she's challenging my sexuality.

"Well you're the one acting all scared to eat pussy so you must be." She challenged.

"Ugh haha you little bitch!" Grabbing her face I furiously began kissing her making sure she knew I was in charge. I waited until she stuck her tongue in my mouth before I bit it.

"Mmm!" She yelled but I simply pulled away and smacked her.

"You'll never encounter a straight girl who can do this." Moving down her legs I moved her panties to the side and began to furiously eat her out.

"Shit Daddy Yes!" She let out tangling her fingers in my hair. I just kept licking her clit paying extra special care to it so she knows I'm nowhere near being straight. "Mmmm oooh Yes like that I love it!" Of course you do love nobody can eat you out the way I can. To back up my ego I wrapped my arms around her thighs to help hold her still so I can aim my tongue strokes perfectly. "Mmm I missed you." She purred wiggling her hips making me stop and pull away from her.

"Stop moving so much." She grinned then forced my face back into her crotch. I'd get mad but I don't have a right to do so today. I simply went back to eating her out. I figured I'd take long firm strokes from her clit all the way down to her tight little pussy. Every time I do that it drives her mad.

"Hmmm Daddy p-please n-on-no more teasing." I just looked up at her and grinned before roughly sucking on to her clit causing her back to arch off the bed. "Shhiiit! Fuck Daddy like that." I made sure to tug on it too as I pulled away from her only to repeat it again a few more times making her eyes roll to the back of her head. I eventually got tired of that so I used the tip of my tongue to lightly tickle at her clit.

"You taste so good my doll." I grumbled out before going back to kissing on her thighs. "God I love you so much my queen." This time I decided to bite on her inner thighs close to her center but not where she wants me. I can tell she's enjoying it because with every new bite I gave her she let out a throaty moan and her legs spazzed a little bit.

"Daddy please!"

"Who do you belong to?" I asked still biting her thighs only now I've added licking all around her center careful not to touch any of her wet pink flesh. She's exactly where I want her.

"You! I b-belong to you." Right answer so I used my tongue to circle her clit before latching onto it. "Ooooh yes." She purred getting me to stop again and go back to kissing her thighs.

"Rebecca?"

"Yes?"

"Can Alicia eat your pussy like this?" I then placed a kiss on her thigh. "Can she turn you on the way I turn you on? You're like a waterfall down here babe."

"No Daddy. I want you and only you." Right answer again. This time I decided to use my right hand and insert a digit into her. I then slowly started to thrust it into her while I sucked at her clit. "More Daddy more I wanna cum for you."

"In a minute Rebecca. I'm just putting my claim back on you since clearly a lot more people are trying to steal you from me. Don't worry I'm gonna take care of you." To reinforce that I inserted two more digits into her making her let out a hearty deep moan.

"Fuck! Please I want more. I want you Daddy please!" She begged looking at me with her pouty fuck me eyes. It's so hard to resist her when she looks at me like that. Fine I wanna watch her cum. But one orgasm doesn't satisfy me up against the standards I've set for our sex life. No tomorrow we definitely have to find a sex shop and a hotel so I can fuck her the way I want. She needs it. This encounter we have going now won't hold very long so as her dominant I know I HAVE to dick her down. But for right now I have to make amends.

"Rebecca?" I asked stopping my movements once again getting her to lock eyes with mine.

"Yes Daddy?" She panted out running a hand through my hair. I then gave her clit a lick before speaking again. She's in that state where whatever I have to say to her I know she'll listen no distractions. I have her teetering on the edge of cuming so she's gonna listen to whatever I have to say.

"I want you to know that I love you and I'm sorry. I never meant to bring you any distress these past two weeks."

"Sasha now isn-"

"Listen or I'm not gonna let you cum." I warned getting her to stop talking so I continued. "I made a stupid mistake drinking so much on that boat knowing how I get. I don't want you to take Trey's word or Bayley's word about what happened. I want you to hear it from my lips that I didn't do anything with any of those females besides make out with them. And even admitting I kissed another female who wasn't you disgust me and I feel so shitty about it. It's been eating away at me that I did that and I have to get it off my chest. I've always been honest with you and I'm not going to stop being honest with you, even if it'd benefit me lying. Time always finds the truth and I'm woman enough to admit my mistakes when I make one. You're the love of my life, the woman of my dreams and I don't want this to ruin the trust we share. I realize that I burnt part of that bridge but I want to fix it. I have the tools to fix it I just want to know if you're in it to help me?" I spoke looking her in the eyes the entire time so she knows I really truly mean it. She didn't say anything but let out a sigh and cup my cheek.

"You choose a terrible time to apologize to me."

"I had to get you to where I knew you'd listen to me."

"If I didn't want to try and repair our bond I wouldn't be letting you eat me out right now. Thank you for being completely honest with me about this. I've always loved how honest you are to me. I can't think of a time where you weren't honest with me even if you knew it'd hurt my feelings. I'd rather you be completely honest with me and hurt my feelings rather than you going behind my back and doing shady stuff. I have so much trust and faith in us that I have no choice but to believe you. I know you're the one person who wouldn't lie to me and I've always appreciated that. So again I forgive you for the boat incident it's water under the bridge." Hearing that made my heart happy. Reminding me that I really don't deserve her being so understanding and quick to forgive me the way she just did.

"I hope you know that you're so out of my league. I don't deserve you but we're so perfect together it works out." The got her to blush and let out a small giggle as she looked away from me. That got me to momentarily climb back up so I could kiss her. "What'd I say about you hiding from me?"

"I love you." She pouted before locking me into a loving kiss. This kiss was magical, everything fairytales describe about true loves kiss. The only thing that matters to me right now is my fiancé.

"You're my only love. My only never ending love, Rebecca." I sang softly placing a small kiss on her lips. That got her to smile.

"You're a loser. Stop being all mushy and make me cum already. You've been prolonging this for so long. And now I'm demanding it that you make me cum of I'm gonna punch you in your stupid face. Give you a nice fat lip and shined black eye." All I could respond was a growl.

"I think I might enjoy that." She simply huffed then bit my nose before pushing me back down in between her legs. I didn't fight her because I do want to let her cum already. "You can rough me up any day sexy." I purred before licking two fingers and sticking them inside her attaching my mouth back to her clit.

"Ooo Sasha!" She moaned moving her hips to meet the rhythm of my fingers going in and out of her. Watching her she seems to be enjoying it so I decided speed up my fingers and nibble on her thighs. "Mmm oh Da-Daddy yes I love it. More I'm almost th-airrr fuck yes!" She cried out as I added a third finger and really began to ram my fingers inside of her as fast and deep as I could. It was here I briefly stopped so I could grab her hand and place it on her clit.

"Play with yourself." I spoke as I resumed fingerbanging her. When I did that I felt her pussy tighten a bit around my fingers letting me know she's almost there.

"Mmm fuck I'm s-so close Daddy! Can I cum?! Please let me cum f-for you Daddy!?" She begged furiously rubbing at her clit as I nibbled at her thighs not stopping my fingers. She's staring down at me fuck her waiting for my Okay to cum. "Mmm AH! D-Da! Please I'm I'm I'm gonna c-cum!"

"You wanna cum for me love?" She simply nodded at me biting her lip clearly concentrating on trying not to cum. "Answer me!"

"Yes I wanna cum! Daddy please!"

"Cum for Daddy Rebecca." I spoke not slowing my fingers. It was only seconds after that her body tensed and she began to convulse indicating her climax.

"Agh fuck! Fuck!" She groaned out as I slowed my pace allowing her to peacefully ride out her orgasm. Eventually I felt her body just go limp letting me know she just came fairly hard. Ideally this is where I'd give her a minute to breathe before I go back to eating her out but I want her to enjoy her high. This was just a little something to start getting her endorphins and dopamine back up where they need to be. It's important to make sure she's evenly balanced that way she won't drop to hard. I just need her to be okay until tomorrow. Anyway one I was sure she was relaxed I pulled my fingers out and more of her essence oozed out of her. Seeing that naturally I quickly moved into to lick it up before it gets onto the bed. Any other time I wouldn't care but the supply of fresh sheets is fairly limited on the bus so I prefer to try and keep them dry this one time. I then proceeded to lick up any mess I made of her before begging to kiss a trail back up towards her beautiful face. Before I left I made sure to fix her panties back to how they were before I started to fuck her.

"I love you. I love you. I love you Rebecca. Daddy love you so much." I murmured kissing her chest and neck until I got to her lips. "You're mine Becks and I love you."

"I love you too."

"The way you just came I know you have to be hungry. I know I am starving." She nodded her head yes. "Well I ordered it like half hour ago so I'm sure it's well ready to pick up. Gotta talk to Keenan and see how far we are from the place."

"What'd you get?"

"Our usual. I couldn't really understand what they guy on the phone was saying so hopefully he got it right."

"What if you fucked up and called someone's house and they decided to just take an order?" That got me to smile a bit because that'd be funny. And judging by the quirky smile she gave me while asking she thinks so too.

"Oh well. I guess we gonna have to have something else for dinner." I shrugged.

"Let's hope you didn't." She mumbled cuddling up to me. "You better not have ruined my dinner."

"Oh the pressure." I really hope I didn't fuck up either.

"Better go check on it." She's right and in order for me to do that I gotta first put my clothes back on.

"Right. You got a shirt over there?" She didn't budge or even make an effort to look. She simply shook her head no.

"No."

"You didn't even look."

"You can't leave the bed." She backed that up by wrapping her arm around me pulling me into her. "You're not allowed to leave me remember?"

"How am I sup-"

"I don't care figure it out." Wow the nerve of this woman. Acting all macho like I didn't just have her legs weak while I ate her out. She's one bad woman and I love it.

"You know what we're in Italy how about I take my beautiful orange out to dinner instead. You deserve it anywhere you want to eat we can eat."

"I want a Big Mac and a chocolate shake." She spoke looking up at me.

"You want McDonalds?" She nodded.

"Okay. Let me text Keenan and let him know."

"Kay." Looking around my phone isn't on the ledge at the foot of the bunk where I usually put it. And now that I think about it I remember hearing something fall out the bunk and it was most likely my phone.

"Now I know you aren't gonna like this but I have to leave you for like two seconds to grab my phone." To that she let out a groan. "It'll be fast I promise." She didn't let me go that's fine I know she'll keep me from falling out the bunk. Leaning over the edge of the bed I began sifting through the pile of clothes for my phone. This was fine up until Becky decided to finally let me go and I felt her hand pushing me out the bed completely causing me to hit my head on the wall. "Awe Babe!" She then poked her head out the bunk.

"Kissing other bitches." She spoke shaking her head in disappointment. "You're lucky it wasn't out the window. Gimme my shirt." I just handed her shirt to her and she took it. "Tell them I want McDonalds." She spoke in a semi degrading manner before closing the curtain and disappearing before it. As mad as I am about that and the fact that I should beat the hell out of her for that bullshit... I deserved it. That was fair so I'll let it slide. Sifting through the pile of clothes I found my shirt along with my phone. Putting it on I got up and traveled to the front of the bus.

"Hey Keen." I spoke softly standing next to my driver.

"You look like you just survived a tornado but you reek of sweat."

"Well Becky is a wild cougar that I had to tame. But uh change of plans. The next McDonald's you see pull up. Wifey wants a big mac and I don't want to anger her anymore than she is."

"Heard Boss."

"Thank you." Patting his shoulder I walked into the sitting area of the bus where my dancers were and plopped down on the couch.

"You look phenomenal."

"I need a fucking blunt." I breathed out because despite her coming to me and begging me for a fix I'm still very much in the dog house. She has just made that very clear so I'm trying me best to be on my best behavior.

"Hmm sounded to me like you guys had a great time back there, Daddy." Joked one of my dancers I'm too tired to care who right now.

"Yeah, but did you hear her kick me out the bed? Or her-"

"SASHA?!" I heard call out. I don't know what it is she wants but it doesn't matter. I gotta do whatever it takes to get back in her good graces. She's my world so I have to suffer my consequences for my actions.. even if I remember them or not.

"Coming baby." I called back before letting out a sigh.

"So much for always being in charge." Laughed Spanky before making the motion of using a whip.

"At least I have a bitch." I shrugged getting up and going back to my love. Poking my head in the bunk she's cuddled in the blankets. "Yes love?"

"What's taking you so long?"

"Huh?"

"Food dummy! How long before I get to have some food to eat?" She sassed.

"Dunno but I did talk to Keenan and he said the next McDonald's he sees we will be in there like swimwear." I smiled trying to lighten the mood.

"Well can I have something to drink in the meantime. I'm parched."

"Sure. We have sodas, water, Hennessy-"

"Get me a soda. And find a movie for us to watch while you're out there." She spoke waving me off before going on her phone. Yeah I'm totally whipped but it's Becky so I don't mind. She my soon to be bride to be and it's best I get used to catering to her now as practice. The first thing I did was go in the fridge and grab her out a coke because that's all we have that she actually likes drinking. Grabbing it I walked it back to her.

"For you my love." I smiled opening it and passing it to her.

"No straw?" I shook my head no because we don't have any.

"Sorry babe."

"It fine. And did you find a movie?"

"Not yet I gotta rummage through my duffel to-"

"Just go get one."

"Ok." I spoke not wanting to argue. Going to the back of the bus where we have our bags I grabbed my duffel bag and began to go through it looking for my Shrek dvd that I stashed in there. As I was going through it, I came across Becky's engagement ring. I couldn't leave it home because I knew eventually she'd find it so I decided to have them mail it to me on tour. Looking at it it's so beautiful and I know she'll love it. Part of me says to propose to her right now, but part of me says no. I want to propose but I want to wait for the right moment. I want to propose to her spontaneously. Like I want to wait to a moment where I'm positive a hundred thousand trillion percent that she's for sure for sure in love with me. I mean I know she loves me but after everything that's happened this week I don't think asking her to marry me would be appropriate. I wanna wait until all this dust settles and make sure she still wants me to feel confident enough to propose. I want an immediate yes from her, I don't want her to have to think about it for a second. And that's what's keeping me from doing it right now. The fear of her hesitation in wanting to be my wife. I know this all probably sounds crazy but it makes sense to me. I just don't think now is a good time. Taking one last look at it, I closed it and continued to look for my dvd which didn't take long. Once I found it I put my bag back and ventured over to her. "I'm back."

"What'd you bring?"

"Shrek!" I smiled showing her the dvd.

"Good enough." She then patted to the space next to her. "Get in hurry up." I listened without hesitation. I made sure to steal a kiss once I got in. Putting in the tape I relaxed back into the blanket with her.

"Do you still love me?" I blurted out because the ring is still on my mind. I just gotta know.

"At this point I don't have a choice. We have a life together Sasha. I want this I want us to work so bad. These past two weeks have been hell but what relationships doesn't have flaws. I'm still very upset with you but I trust you Sasha Banks. I love you and I don't think I'll ever stop even if I try. This is a low I'm sure we'll get out of. Fate is testing us to see how strong the bond she created between us is. It's our job to prove her right elsewise that means she's got something else in store for us both."

"Feels so good to hear you say that. I was so nervous you'd react differently." I murmured snuggling into her larger frame.

"Well I've invested way too much time into you babe. You make the stupidest mistakes that costed us so much but I can't hold that against you forever. You're only human and everyone makes mistakes.. even if they could've been avoided had you not been selfish about three measly seconds but it's whatever. It's in the past and I'm working on getting over it all. I just need you to give me time to heal. It's all I ask of you for now." I peeped the diss but I deserved it. I can't get mad because she's trying to forgive me for my mistakes. That's why I love her so much. She'd rather stay with me and try to fix our relationship rather than leave me and that means so much to me given my social status.

"I'll give you all the time in the world mommas just promise you'll stay and try to work this out. Becky and The Legit Boss have such a huge following and it'd break a lot of hearts mine included if we split." She kissed me and wrapped her arms around me completely pulling me into her chest.

"My heart would break too."

"I love you too Becks." That earned me a kiss before we both melted into each other as we watched the movie. It wasn't too long after that we got to a McDonald's. There I let her get whatever she wanted. Surprisingly she got a lot more food than I thought she would and I watched her eat it all while I had my burger and apple slices. She even made sure to order herself some food for later. When she's hungry she turns into a cute orange Kirby sucking up any food put in her way. But it's all just another reason why I love her.

The next morning

When I woke up, Becky was still sleeping. Poor thing ate herself into a food coma and passed out while we were finishing Shrek. She fell asleep right on my chest and it's so cute. Mostly because she's drooling on my shoulder but I don't mind it I'm sure that means she's having a good dream. Besides given our circumstances this is probably the best sleep she's had in a while. So I couldn't find it in me to get out the bed to disturb her. Plus her body isn't yet adjusted to the time here yet so I'm positive she's in a deep sleep. That being said I skillfully managed to grab my phone with my foot and pull it off the ledge. Grabbing it I turned down the brightness so it doesn't disturb her.

"More bucket." She mumbled shifting her head and pulling me tighter into her. When she did that I froze because I thought I woke her but she didn't open her eyes so she's still sleeping. Hmm kinda makes me wonder what she's dreaming about because what does she need a bucket for? Kissing her on the head I went back to my phone. I even opted to take a quick selfie of us because she's adorable when she's sleeping and I'm gonna post it if she ever does something stupid to me. This actually lead me to going through all the videos and photos we have together in my phone and boy are there a lot. Just looking at them I get so happy because she's so out of my league yet here she is cuddling with me right now. I was enjoying myself until I got a message from an unknown number.

"Sorry about the little guy, hope it didn't get you into too much trouble. So incase you need a little fix I got you boo, just don't let wifey see. Don't think this'll get you out the dog house but it definitely can get you off. Remember this is still all yours Boss."

And then about five risqué photos followed. I wasn't sure about who it was because it's a Boston area code number and anyone who is relevant to me in Boston I have their number saved so it confused me until I saw the photos. The first three were different angled mirror pictures of a female in this very sheer black lingerie. Then the last two were complete nudes leaving me nothing to my imagination. As random as that was to some degree I didn't enjoy that as much as I thought I would've. I hate it when females throw themselves at me like that. Especially when it's completely out of the blue from some random number. Honestly I didn't dwell on it too long before I deleted the message thread completely. I don't have time for temptation, not while I'm trying to smooth things out with my fiancée. That and because I'm engaged to my amazing fiancée who I love more than anything. I'm past trying new girls every night I'm content with the same girl I've had every night for almost two years now. I love coming home to Becky and I never want that to change. If anything those photos made me want to go look at the beautiful nudes my baby sent me because she always had the best angles. She'd have light in all the right places but it'd be dark on the parts I'd want to see most. And the sex faces she makes in them never fail to get me wet. Just looking at them triggers all the memories I have of her sex faces she makes while I'm fucking her deep and boy do I love them. Great now I'm horny and she's sound asleep meaning I have to wait for her to get up before I can get some. Oh well gives me time to plan my attack for when she's up.

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Im sorry, I really truly am and I apologize. I love Shi too, but he has a destiny and this was his since the get. It hurt me alot knowing that beautiful creature had to die but let us not have his death be in vane. let it breath to life an even bigger fire! from here on out take my hand and walk with me thru this fire. If you've made it this far in the story must mean you trust in my story telling so let me walk you thru hell to the hidden paradise on the other side. Its there and i promise you there is an open bar and an awesome pool with hella waterslides. We just have to get there and promise me you'll stay seated and not fight me just yet. I still have a few tricks up my sleeve so stay for the Shirley Temples and mini crabcakes. I mean at least we got some cute smut to end the chapter with. All that angsty shit was a lot to I hold but i told you itd be sad but this is what yall wanted so I delivered. Who the FUCK thought itd be a good idea to make paydays bi-weekly? Like im real life waiting to buy my a concert ticket and i cant till Friday and Ive been waiting to do so since like two weeks ago. i was unsure if I wanted to go at first because id be going by myself, but my friend was like do it anyway. The only friend ill need that night is gonna be RumCoke so Im happy with that. so come this Friday im gonna buy my ticket to go see my wifey but like my low key low key wifey. I mean shes a ginger so you know I'm smittin, hopefully shes prettier in person. idk anywhore im gonna go now because im just rambling. Next chapter will be a past and its gonna be a happy one. Kay on a random note I recently found a thought train I thought I lost forever... and im so excited about it low key. I miss my girls my OG pairing. Ard im outtie remember be kind to one another. ~Joz #itfuckip