Aston Martin Music

by CallMeJoz

What would you rather ride in a Prius or an Aston Martin? Would you rather wake up and eat a bagel, or fly to Paris and eat a bagel just because? Applebee's or Four Seasons? Crocs or Jimmy Choos? VIP section or general admission? Decisions decisions... They say cheating is bad but who knew it'd land you in the lap of luxury and in the arms or someone you love even more. Femslash

42. Hold it together

Hi nice to meet you Im Joz. This is my story and if you've made it this far chapter by chapter thanks and bless your heart for not wanting off this ride. I've been having the most exciting summer 2k19. Ive been working my butt off so that i can play hard. in the past month i've been to Six Flags four different times. I've been to Chicago and I've had several drunken nights. So i havent had much time to write but the much time i did have I used to bring you this present chapter. This chapter starts on 100 so have a seat, get comfy, and lets have some fun.

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A week later Sasha's POV

"Well fuck you how about that?!"

"I've been fucking trying but you keep giving me the cold shoulder."

"Because you're an asshole and I'm so fucking pissed at you." Becks yelled making it clear once again she's mad at me.

"I didn't do anything!" I yelled back because the longer this goes on the more frustrating this is making me.

"So then who the hell was that bitch?"

"I have no fucking clue! I have fans this is nothing new and you know this. Why are you acting new?" She just huffed and folded her arms glaring at me. For the past couple days she's been on tour with me again it honestly has been very rocky. I dunno how we went from making love one day then the next everything I say or do is the backbone to her anger. She's been acting up and I told her that. I even went to try and punish her for lashing out at me the way she did and she cursed me out. It's like we're two different people being forced to live on the tour bus together. Hell I don't even sleep in my bunk anymore she kicked me out and I'm stuck on the sofa in the main area of the bus. And we just got back on the bus from eating lunch at a restaurant. On our way out a very beautiful woman came up to me and started to hug me clearly excited to see me. Luckily my security was right there and got her off me but I never say no to my fans so I felt obligated to give her a proper hug and we took a photo together before parting ways. I know nothing about that woman, or where she came from all I know is she likes my music. But apparently according to Becky that's not okay and that I must know exactly who she is. Then that's how we got into this stupid argument today. It's a damn good thing I love that woman because I would've kicked her off the bus two cities ago while we were still in Italy. But like I've told her many times before I'm only invested in her. I put way too much time and money into making her my girlfriend that I'd rather sit and work it out with her rather than walk away from us. "Babe this is so stupid. Do you even hear how stupid you sound right now yelling at me over nothing? You're acting like I kissed the girl or something which you know damn well I didn't because you were standing next to me while it happened. Like I'm lost. I'm honestly so lost and confused right now."

"It's called common fucking courtesy to not out right hug another female in front of your fiancé." She growled making me let out a deeply frustrated sigh. "It's bad enough you're still in the doghouse for the yacht incident and you're gonna pull some shit like that? You just don't fucking have any damn boundaries huh? I'm grieving our child the last thing I need is-"

"God why do you have to constantly remind me that you blame me for Shiloh? I said I'm sorry okay?' I loved him too and I'm grieving his death the same-"

"If you love him why didn't you tie him up?! You had one job and your stupid ass couldn't even do it!" She spat with venom.

"Are you fucking serious right now?!" I yelled because I'm so tired of this shit. "You know what no." Throwing my hands up in surrender I began backing away from her to leave. "I'm not doing this with you right now. You're making a scene and my friends don't need to be in the middle of your issues."

"My issues? My issues?! You're my only fucking issue you dumb bitch!" She yelled making every drop of blood in my body turn to molten lava. Every bone in my body wants to turn around and slap the taste out her mouth but we're in front of my dancers and I'm not trying to change their opinions about me because my fiancé is being a dick to me. If I beat her ass right here and now I'm gonna be the bad guy. It also doesn't help we are crammed into this tiny bathroom on the bus. "Yeah. I was fine up until a month ago when you decided to put yourself above anything else because you're selfish!"

"No Sasha don't snap on her. She's distressed and not in her right mind. She's just upset about Shiloh and that's why she's acting up. Just breathe and count to ten. She doesn't mean any of wh-"

"Look at you, too coward to even face your own problems." Taking another deep breath I looked at her over my shoulder for a moment. The woman I love most is truly the only person who has successfully manage to get on my last nerve five consecutive days in a row. I'm honestly so ready to just say fuck it and go back to being single. But when I look at her I remember how sweet she is past this angry Irishwoman that's controlling her. Deep inside my loving Irish girlfriend is in there and that's why I'm walking away. I don't want to say anything that might make everything worse than it already is.

"No it's called being an adult. I'm walking away from this stupid meaningless conversation like an adult would do." I shrugged before opening the door.

"Being an adult my arse. Where I'm from adults don't run they fight it out until one man stands victorious." She spoke pushing me through the door. I was still holding the doorknob so I didn't go far, but it did allow me to reflexively turn and get back in her face.

"You're walking down a bad alley girly. You better back down before I fucking make you." I growled letting out my inner Boston attitude. She didn't back down but puffed her chest letting me know it's on.

"Woah there firecracker break it up." And then suddenly there was an arm wrapping around my waist pulling me away from her and out the bathroom. "Ain't nobody fighting nobody on this bus. We are family and that's it." Spoke Spanky placing me on the couch.

"Ooooh you got lucky Orange. You're lucky he pulled me back. Ahh!" I growled glaring at her from across the room.

"Yeah. Would've kicked your arse up and down these streets. Give all your little fans a real show compared to the one you put on every other night." I don't know what it was about that but it flipped a switch in me causing me to jump up onto my feet and charge her but Spank was in the way and my dancers held Becky back too.

"FUCK YOU! YOU BITCH!" I yelled trying everything I can in my power to get to her so I can smack her.

"Ok! Keen Imma need you to pull over before Sash claws my eyes out." Spoke Spank pushing me backwards closer to the front of the bus. There's a divider between the common area and the drivers pit. So we're in the pit right now.

"I'm losing my shit. I'm the Boss not her. She has no right talking to me like that. I'm Daddy and she's my bitch not the other goddamn fucking way around!" I growled because I'm beyond pissed. It was here the bus pulled over on the side of the road.

"I know Sasha but you gotta relax. At the end of the day y'all is my favorite couple so chill out. Let's just go get on the other bus and we'll smoke a clip, drink a couple brews, and you'll feel better." Thinking about it he's right. Becky and The Legit Boss is my favorite couple too. Every couple has their dog days and today is one for us.

"Fine but I need my charger and my phone."

"Okay I'll get it. Where is it at?"

"Don't know it fell out while I was trying to.." Honestly I have no idea what I was gonna do if Spank didn't hold me back. I can't see myself actually full on fist fighting my fiancé. Like I think I can but when it actually comes down to it I don't think I have the balls to actually do it. I'd hate to be the one who messes up that beautiful face I love so much. "I dunno somewhere out there." I mumbled.

"Kay." He then turned and opened the curtain to reveal an empty common area but the doors to the tv area of the bus are closed so I assume they dragged her back there to cool off. "It's clear go get your phone and whatever else you need and lets go get fucked up. We don't have a show tonight but we will be getting into town rather late tonight so I can do whatever I want. I was gonna take Becky to dinner but with how's she's been behaving I don't think so. Letting out a sigh I grabbed my phone off the floor being it must have fell out my pocket during the scuffle. Going further back to where the bunks are I went into my bunk and took her phone charger that way she has to use my charger that's on the road to breaking and charges really slow. I also took one of the blankets and her hoodie that was on the bed. Yeah I'm mad at her but that doesn't mean I don't want to feel like I'm cuddling her when I'm not actually. After that I grabbed my bottle of rosè I brought from a champagne house in France and walked back towards the pit.

"Kay I'm ready to go."

"Ard. Let's go." From there me and Spank got off the tour bus and walked towards the second tour bus. My other tour members were already waiting outside that bus wondering what happened. I never lie to my friends so I told them we had an argument and I needed my space. This bus is filled with my band and some stage crew so I wasn't to upset about being with them. Besides they were already drinking when we got on so I was quickly offered a shot before we even started moving again. Once back on the road we started to play Mario Kart and the losers had to take a shot. I may or may not have purposely lost a couple times but you can't prove it. Spank also had his dab pen so a few hits off that and I was feeling great again. However through all the shots and vape smoke I still couldn't help but send her a text. I sent her just one character and that was a rose emoji. It's just to let her know that even though we're fighting she's still mine and I her's. I have no intention to even speak to her for the rest of the day. Maybe tomorrow when I'm not so angry with her. For now I'm just gonna enjoy hanging out with my crew because that's all I can do right now.

Later that night

Sitting here it feels like the whole room is spinning. I can't remember where I am let alone the name of the club. I just know I've had eight too many shots of some light and dark liquids that burned going down. Someone an hour ago gave me a cupcake that tasted like weed so I'm cross faded as fuck. It probably didn't help that my crew smoked eight blunts before we even came in the club. And I've been drinking since three this afternoon so my vision is fucked.

"Yo Sash you cool?" Asked.. I'm not even sure but he looks like he's part of my band. I don't know.

"Never better friend. I feel sensational." I smiled I hope because I can't really feel my face.

"You sure?" I let out a laugh and gave him a shaky thumbs up.

"Positive brosef. Umm water Boss needs water." My mouth feels so wet yet so dry right now. I don't want another shot nor do I want... wait what?

"Okay." The guy then disappeared into the crowd of people on the dance floor. Studying my surroundings this club is surprisingly really lit for a Thursday night. There are tons of beautiful women out on the dance floor, many of which have begged to dance with me, but I can't. I'm way too drunk to dance. I feel like if I get up to try and move I will fall flat on my face and I need my face. Besides if I'm gonna dance I wanna grind I want to feel all on somebody and them to feel all up over me. Really I just can't steady my thoughts enough to pick out a pretty lady to dance with. So for now I am glued to this couch. What I like about being in Europe is that the club music here is so different compared to the music at home. Every now and then I'll recognize a beat to an American song then it'll go all techno and it's just a lot to explain. To be honest I'm starting to get tired I've been drinking all day I'm ready for bed. Especially since I have a show less than twenty four hours from now. Pulling out my phone I think it says four twenty-seven am. Damn I thought it was way later than that. My lockscreen is such an adorable picture of my beautiful wife. All just reminding me of how I ended up in this damn club. Why is she lashing out at me? I don't get it, we were fine a week ago making love like we do. And now she won't even give me my daily kisses. I miss and love the fuck out of her and it only took my blood turning into alcohol to really understand the gravity of how hurt she must be. I gave her the world and accidentally shattered it. Fuck me! Fuck me! Fuck me! I let her down. I made so many promises to her and I'm letting her down.

"Sasha are you crying right now?" Asked Luna, one of my background singers. I didn't even realize it until she said it.

"No I'm fine." She then sat next to me sitting a water bottle in front of me. I wasted no time opening it and taking a long chug.

"She still loves you ya know." That got me to stop drinking and look at her. She was there during the fight earlier. "After you and Spank got off the bus she got so upset you weren't on the bus anymore. She must have felt bad for snapping on you because she laid on your couch and cuddled up in your blanket. Think she may have even cried a little I'm not sure I had my earbuds in most of the time but Trev said she was."

"I'm a fuck up Lu. She deserves better than me. I basically killed her dog crushing her heart in the process. I'm surprised she hasn't left me yet she can do so so so much better than me." I mumbled staring down at the table top. It has tiny sparkles in it that reflect whatever color comes on the strobe lights. "She deserves someone who can-"

"You deserve her Sasha. You should see the way she always sings along at your concerts. Despite y'all butting heads hours before curtain opened last couple shows she always made sure she was watching you sing her songs. That woman loves you Sasha you guys are just going through a rough patch every couple does but that doesn't mean she's not worth fighting for. You wrote songs about her that has won awards, featured in movies, inspired a movement, hell now you're traveling the world to sing to people about how much you love her. I don't know about you but if someone were to write songs about me I'd love them forever. Especially if they spoiled me the way you spoil her."

"Really?!" She nodded.

"I bet you a million bucks if you call her right now she'll answer."

"She's probably sleeping. I'm not gonna wake her." That got Luna to laugh then look at her phone and send a text before looking at me.

"I have a feeling she'll answer. You won't know if you don't try. Call and as soon as she picks up spill your heart. Drunk minds speak sober thoughts. I told you before she's doubting you and you need to squash it."

Becky's POV earlier

"You want some agua?" Asked Trevor one of Sasha's backup singers. After they separated us they drug me into the back of the bus and I've kinda just been sitting here on the couch pretty stagnant... well on the outside at least. Inside I'm hurting a lot more than I let on. My baby is gone and it's all started to sink in. If Sasha would've tied him up I'd probably be in Florida out running errands with him hanging out in my front seat like he always did. I dunno for some reason I just can't look at her because it's so painful to think that my heart has been so stressed out lately all because of her. I'm so fucking mad at her like every one of my most recent major problems traces back to Sasha in some shape or form and it's aggravating. When I see her I just want to punch her but I don't because at the same time I love her so much. I hate that I love her so much but I love being in love with her. She's my everything but she has definitely been testing my love as of late in the worst ways possible. Ever since the yacht incident I'm so paranoid that she's cheating on me. Most of me knows it's not true but my insecurities always manage to turn unlogical things into serious logic that doesn't make sense but it does to me. And it's because of that fact that we aren't sharing a bed right now.

"Yeah thanks." I softly smiled taking the water from him. "Why'd we stop moving?" I asked because we've been parked on the side of the road for almost ten minutes now.

"Spank and Sasha switched busses. I guess we're waiting on them to get their stuff situated."

"She left?!" I asked because that's not how this was supposed to go.

"Yeah. You two have been at each other's throats for days now. It-" I completely ignored him getting up and going into the main area. Sure enough my fiancée is nowhere to be found. M-my Dom left me.. I didn't mean to make her mad to where she switched buses on me. I was fine with her sleeping on the couch because I knew where she was. Now I have no idea what bus she's on I just know she's at least fifty feet behind me constantly. I don't like fighting with my Sasha because I always crash once it's over and she's the only one who can bring me back. How is she gonna do it if she's not here to hold me and kiss me better?

"What bus? Where'd my Sasha go? What bus did she get on?" I asked going back into the back room looking at Trev since he knew she got off the bus first.

"Not sure. I only noticed them missing and I saw them walking through the window." Letting out an annoyed sigh I went up to the pit to talk to Keenan.

"Where'd she go?" I asked him.

"She's back behind us on Al's bus. Don't worry she's alright."

"Well I'm not. I miss her.." I murmured because I'm thinking now and I did blow up for no reason today. My paranoia got the best of me and now I don't know the next time I'm gonna see my Dom. I've been a brat recently so I know I'm in for some serious punishment in my future.

"Well judging how you two were seconds away from fist fighting I think it's best y'all have some space. Here." He then dug into his jacket pocket and pulled out a pill bottle. "Take two of these then lay down and I promise you'll feel better." Looking at the bottle it's ambien. Fuck it anything to keep my mind off my drop. Taking two I gave it back to him.

"Thank you."

"No problem. It's just something the doctor gave me to help with my insomnia. You need a good nap so I'll try and keep her smooth so I don't jostle y'all around back there." As he said that they radioed that they're ready to get back on the road again.

"Keenan you're married aren't you?"

"For twenty five years." He smiled turning back onto the road so I took the opportunity to sit in the seat next to him.

"How did you handle going back to normal after a big fight?"

"Well we gave each other space to cool off. Then later I'd bring her a carnation flower and apologize. Even if I was right I apologized and made sure she was alright."

"So I have to apologize?"

"I would. Just tell her everything that's on your heart seeing her after sitting for hours thinking about the argument that could have been handled differently. But eventually over the years you just learn to agree with your ball and chain. Because after a certain age fighting becomes too tiresome and it's easier to just talk it out rather than fighting. Fighting never once in history has ever ended peacefully with no casualties or regrets. Just say what needs to be said and find your middle ground."

"You're probably right."

"That's the first time any woman has agreed with me without me having to convince you." That got me to smile.

"Well I just don't want to lose Sasha. I already lost my son and I couldn't bare another heartbreak." I sighed. I kinda want to just lay down now.

"You'll be alright Peaches. Just sleep this off and by then we should be in the city and you guys can talk then."

"Mkay. Thank you. I'll see to it that I remember this."

"No need I'm just doing my job." Standing up I kissed him on the cheek and went into the main area. Everyone else is in the back room so I opted to just hangout in the main area. I'd get in my bunk but Sash must have took my blanket so I have no choice but to use hers. Just like at home she still doesn't make her bed so her pillow and blanket are just thrown on the couch. That's honestly fine because it allowed me to just lay down and cuddle into the blanket. It smells just like her, like sweat and flowers oddly comforting me. It took me a good minute to find a comfy part on the couch. How Sasha manages to sleep on this is beyond me because there's not much space to move around with. Eventually I was able to get kinda comfortable enough so I can be on my phone. I have a few text from Char and Bay wondering how I am. Me and Alicia are back on a more frequent talking terms. After the last time we hung out I've been keeping my distance from her. She is temptation and I want to stay as far away from that as possible. When she heard about Shiloh passing she stopped by the house and brought me my favorite fruit tart and coffee from The Planet. Then we watched a few movies together before it got late and she left to go meet some date she had. Ever since we've been talking almost every other day.. I guess it's just nice to have someone who understands my daily struggles being a musician's significant other. Thankfully she hasn't asked me about my drops since that day so it's back to how we were before we almost.. Yeah anyway as of late she's been my rock helping me rationalize my thoughts regarding Sasha and I's relationship. Despite knowing she has a thing for me she's been giving me fairly good advice and I'm thankful for her. Not only that she's a very bubbly texter using gifs and emojis wherever she sees fit so the conversation is never boring. Right now we're in the middle of discussing who our favorite characters are on Lost Girl. When I told her I was going overseas to be with Sasha she recommended I watched it on the plane ride here. I'm happy I did because Dyson is oh so fine. But Lauren.. oh Doctor Lauren is so sexy with how excited she gets about science. Science geeks are so attractive sometimes. Then mixed into it all are supernatural creatures.. I'm obsessed so of course it's what I'm going to watch before these drugs kick in. I was doing okay until I got a text from my fiancée. All she sent me was a single rose emoji, nothing more nothing less. Just a digital rose. I'm not sure what she means by it but I assume it's her way of letting me know she's still here. All that did was make me sad because she's not here with me right now. In return I sent a rose back so she knows I'm here too. I still don't want to talk to her but I'd love a kiss right now.

Later that night

I'm not sure how long after I laid down that I fell asleep but I had a really good nap. I woke up because Luna woke me up once we got to the hotel in the new city. Ideally me and Sasha are supposed to be sharing a room but it ended up the complete opposite. I woke up to Luna telling me that me and her were sharing the room me and Sasha were supposed to share while Sasha shared with Desi who Luna usually rooms with. I guess they all assumed that I didn't want to be near Sasha but little do they know I especially miss her now. I had a dream where I was being chased by some creepy demon looking creature and right as it was about to get me someone shot it dead in the head, and my savior turned out to be Sasha. Only she had cool glowing bright green hair with eyes to match. She looked like a cool space warrior it was awesome. So now I really miss her. Anyway to sum up this annoying situation I'm currently laying in a queen size bed watching tv as Luna is in the bathroom doing whatever she's doing.

"Okay how do I look?" She asked coming out the bathroom. She's wearing a simple crop top with leggings and a pair of heels.

"I like it. You look like a snack." I shrugged because I don't care but I don't want her to know.

"Really? I'm not sure if I want to wear this top." She spoke looking down at her shirt.

"You look good lass trust me." She sighed and looked at me.

"You sure you don't want to come out with us? After today you need a couple drinks." I frowned and turned my attention back to the tv.

"Well I'm not in-"

"Sasha's going." That caught my attention.

"Is she now?"

"Yeah this was all her idea. You were sleep but when we were checking in she suggested we all go out together tonight." If Sasha is going out she's definitely going to be cross faded. I know her well and she's in a vulnerable state right now. When she's sex deprived and drunk she turns into an orgasm donor and she'll literally have a bunch of girls at her fingertips at a club.

"I should probably go then." I reasoned out loud because I gotta watch her. Make sure we don't have another incident.

"Great I have the perfect dress for you. Please oh please let me do your makeup." She begged coming over to me and pulling me to my feet. "You have a gorgeous face and I'm dying to beat it."

"Luna I'm only going to make sure Sasha doesn't do anything stupid is all. I don't feel the need to get sexy tonight."

"No! Nonsense if that's the case you might as well just not go. Sasha doesn't need a babysitter she needs a boss ass bitch on her arm and that's you. You gotta keep her reminded of you and not all those skanky bitches that are going to most likely be all over Sasha. And you know without you there it's-"

"Please stop. I'm already dealing with that shit in my head I don't need you to say them out loud. But since you did you made me change my mind. I'm staying here and you're gonna go and keep an eye on Sasha."

"No. I'm not babysitting my unknowing boss slash friend."

"Oh yes you are. She's not gonna try to cheat on me if I'm there. So that's where you come in."

"Or you can just come and-"

"Luna please! I'm begging you please just keep an eye out on Sash for my sake. For my heart and for Shiloh's please. I'm in a fragile state more fragile than I've ever been in my whole life. I just need to know. I need to make sure what's between me and Sasha is still as real as I believe it to be from her side. I know we've been fighting a lot recently but I love her with everything I have. I share my life with her and I need to know she still loves me too." I then grabbed her hand and cupped it in both of mine. "Please do me this solid. I've never asked anything of you but now here I am in my darkest hour. Luna please make sure my fiancée doesn't do anything stupid tonight." I pleaded looking her right in the eyes. If my puppy eyes always work on Sasha I'm positive it'll work on her too.

"Gah damn it! Now I see why Sash can't say no to you. It's not fair that you can do that."

"Please Luna. I don't have any other options."

"Fine but you owe me man. Like you really got me playing both sides." She groaned going back into the bathroom. So I followed her.

"I know and I'm sorry but I have to look out for my heart over everything right now. I'm mad at her but I miss her so much right now. I'd do anything to kiss her right now but I can't. However I can make sure she's still loyal to me squashing any doubt I have. I need this more than anything right now. I'll owe you big big time after this." I then hugged her.

"I'm telling you this is a waste of time. Sasha would never cheat on you, you're different from all the others."

"What others?" She looked at me in disbelief before looking down at her hair supplies that were on the counter.

"Is there a curfew for Sash tonight too or-"

"What do you mean others?"

"Nothing just be thankful she believes you're the one." She then looked me in the eyes through the mirror before leaving the bathroom. Luna has been dancing with Sasha longer than I've known her so she clearly meant something by saying that.

"Lass what do you know that you think I don't know?" I asked coming out the bathroom and watching her. She's going around collecting her items to get ready to go. "I already know about most of the others. Gone because they were after fame and fortune not love."

"Oh well that's pretty close I guess. Anyway I have to get going before they leave my black ass again." She rambled putting on her heels. "Do not fear Mrs. Banks, the Mrs. will be returned home alive with you still the last kiss on her lips. Be good don't drink all the liquor in the minibar. Oh and this." She then began digging through her purse and pulled out a decent medium sized spliff and held it out to me. "Sasha told me to give this to you so here." Taking it, it's packed solid to the tip.

"She's something isn't she?" I smirked because leave it to her to give me drugs as an attempted apology.

"She wouldn't be a popstar if she wasn't. Phone, wallet, key card." She mumbled to herself going through her pockets. "Ok. I love your face and I'll see you later." She then came and kissed me on the cheek and hurriedly left the room. Well at least now I can rest slightly easier while they're all gone. I just hope I swayed Luna enough to just take my side this one time and help me. She's been one of Sasha's few trusted friends for years now so I can only pray she doesn't cover up for Sasha tonight. If Sasha is gonna cheat on me, I'd rather know now so I can get out before it's too late. Then again I guess that'd be what I deserve. What you put out into the world always comes back around to you. And so it's been two years since I cheated on Finn but I'm not sure where to gauge that karma coming back to bite me on the ass. I just don't want to have to hear Sasha let another woman put their hands on her. Looking down at the spliff in my hand Sasha always does roll the most perfect spliffs. There's never been a time where she didn't pearl something she rolled up. Though, thinking about it I'm not sure that's a good thing. My fiancée might be an addict lol. That's okay I'll make sure it never gets too bad. Studying the spliff some more she wrote on it with a sharpie. 'For my love' it reads. And that made me fuzzy inside. She must have rolled a lot more assumably because she labeled this one. I want to smoke this, but I hate getting high alone. And I only ever smoke with my fiancée so I guess I'll just hold onto it for next time I see her. For now I'm just going to sit back and watch tv and wait.

...

It is currently almost four thirty in the morning and I have no idea why I'm still up. No I'm lying I'm waiting up for my fiancée. I always do when she goes out drinking because she'll come home sloppy drunk trying to fuck and I'm not trying to have a dream spoiled because she wants to have sex. If I know my Sasha I know she'll find her way to me sober or not. It's proven true in the past and I hope tonight is no different. Right after I thought that my phone began to light up and low and behold it's my fiancée. I let it ring a bit before I answered.

"Hello?" I spoke but I mostly hear loud thumping music.

"Becky? Becky it's me! Babe it's Sasha." I heard softly.

"Sash I can't hear you." I spoke loudly so that she can hear me. Then there were some muffled voices and a long period of sounds like her moving around. Eventually the music dulled to a murmur and I heard her voice.

"I love you. I love you so so much Orange. I'm sorry I left I was just angry. I'm angry now because I'm drunk and I don't wanna be anymore. And also because I'm a failure. I had one job and my stupid ass can't even do that right. I don't deserve you B I don't. I don't understand what you see in me bu-"

"Sasha why don't you just come home. Get your ass up out of that club and come cuddle with your wifey."

"These females aren't you."

"I know love. It's getting late anyway so just come home and we'll chat some more." I reasoned because it's time for her to go to bed. Especially since we have a show tomorrow night and I have to make sure she's in peak condition to perform.

"I dunno when.. when everyone is is leaving." She stuttered slowly letting me know she's definitely cross faded.

"I'm going to bed soon so hurry up and get back or I'm gonna kill you." To emphasize it I even yawned.

"But I don't do didn't drive. Hell I could barely dial you to call. I miss you bae. I want you."

"Then come back to the hotel I've been waiting for you all night." When I said that she let out a small whimper.

"I don't wanna fight you anymore. I just wanna kiss you."

"Come kiss me then you stinking drunk."

"Ugghhhh! Call me an Uber I don't know where I am. I'm drunk, high, and depressed."

"Yeah alright." I then put her on speaker while I went to schedule her a ride home.

"Baby I don't feel good."

"Did you eat anything today?"

"Not since lunch."

"That's why. Lucky you I saved an extra burger for you when I got dinner earlier."

"Even though.. even though you you're mad at m-me?" After finding the address of Sasha's location I put it into the app and got her a ride.

"Well somebody has to take care of you. Anyway you better get out front because he's like three blocks away from you." I then screenshot her the information and sent it to her. "Driver is Roberto and he's gonna be in a blue four door BMW."

"Despite taking your charger my phone is dying."

"What percent?" I want to stay on the phone with her on her way home so I know she's safe.

"Seven percent doll. What's the room number?" She's drunk so there's no way in hell she's going to remember the room number. I'm just gonna call the front desk and tell them when she arrives to walk her up here or let me know so I can come down and retrieve her.

"Room seven- thirty seven."

"Seven three seven. Okay got it. Sasha remember seven two seven. Without it no love." She mumbled to herself before the music started to get loud again with sounds of her moving around with voices in the background. This lasted maybe three minutes before the sound of wind hit her speaker letting me know she's outside. "Babe where are you I'm outside."

"Look for a blue four door BMW and get in ok." The app says he's out in front of the club so she should be able to find it.

"Blue BMW? Anyone see a blue BMW?" She asked away from her phone meaning there must be people outside. I find this funny because in return she got a bunch of answers that weren't in English or people realizing that she's Sasha Banks.

"Babe he's probably right in front of you. Just look." She then mumbled some gibberish before I heard her open a car door.

"Are you Robbero? Robino? Robbaz? Ro- Uber?"

"Roberto hun." I then heard the guy respond yes and correct her. "Apologize for calling him the wrong name.

"Sorry Roberto! I'm very very drunk and very very high. My fiancée called me this Uber so we can go have sleep together. You know I'm so lucky to have someone who puts up with me. I mean what female in their right mind would-" And then unfortunately to my demise the call ended meaning her phone must have totally died. Just fucking great. The last thing I need is to not be able to know her exact location when she's fucked up. Let's just hope homeboy brings her back safe and sound. I put it in the instructions box to just walk her into the lobby and that I'd do the rest. Now to call down there and let them know to keep her in the lobby when she arrives.

Half hour later

"Hello?"

"She's here now."

"Okay thanks." Good thing they called when they did because I was starting to fall asleep. Sleep however isn't important getting my fiancée is most important right now. Getting out the bed I put on a hoodie and headed down to the lobby. Is it weird that I have butterflies right now? It's just Sasha but I haven't seen her since our fight earlier and I miss her so much. After what felt like a very slow elevator ride I made it to the lobby. And I can see her purple locks sitting in a chair furthest from the elevators. I'm just happy to see her alive I guess. Going over to her she's holding a single yellow tulip. It's a sweet gesture but I remember seeing those out front of the hotel meaning she must have ripped it from one of the bushes on her way in here. "Hey drunkie."

"Beautiful." She whispered looking up at me with a giant smile on her face. "Here. For you." She then held out the tulip for me to take, so I took it.

"Thank you. But you really gotta stop stealing flowers for me when you're fucked up." I cooed caressing her cheek. She's so adorable when she's fucked up sometimes especially when she gives me her innocent eyes the way she is now.

"Sorry Daddy." She cooed before leaning forward and hugging me around my thighs. "I'm sorry for everything."

"It's okay we can talk about it later let's go up-" Before I could finish she pushed me out the way and grabbed the vase that was on the table and began to throw up in it. "Stairs.. Shit Sash you couldn't wait till we got upstairs to do this?"

"Noooo!" She got out before throwing up some more. I simply looked over to the workers behind the desk and mouthed an apology towards them. Judging by how much she's throwing up it's safe to assume she's had a lot more drinks than I think she did today. It's rare that she throws up only when she passes her limit does she start to puke. But honestly I'm more impressed that she managed to hold it in for so long.

"You good bud?" I asked once it seemed like she was finished throwing up.

"Did I look cute throwing up my insides? I don't want them to judge me." She murmured.

"You looked so hot. I wanna bone you after watching that five star performance." That got her to smile.

"Good. Happy you enjoyed it. But can we go this bra is squeezing the soul outta me." I kissed her on her sweaty forehead then spoke.

"Yes come on love." She then put the vase back on the table and took a deep breath before getting up.

"Kay I'm ready."

"Kay well grab your vase and let's go."

"That's not my vase silly."

"Your whole life is in there now. That's your vase now babe. We can buy them a new one."

"You sure they look worried were gonna steal it. I'm black so I'm already guilty and-"

"I told you to do it. Grab it and let's go. It's ok I swear. If anything they probably want us to take it now." She gave me a worried look before grabbing the vase. "You're fine come on." I then began to walk towards the elevators with Sasha quickly following me holding the vase.

"This is nice isn't it?"

"It's nice."

"You think Vickie is gonna like this? From work that Vickie whose annoying."

"Yeah most definitely." It was here the elevators opened and we got on.

"I can see her fac-blaaaah!" And she's throwing up again. Great. She threw up the entire ride up and the walk to our door. "Ka' I have a kiss?" She mumbled leaning up against the wall outside our room. I opened the door and pulled her inside.

"Right after you brush your teeth and get ready for bed."

"I want a kiss now!" She demanded stomping her foot.

"In the bathroom now!" I demanded back. She didn't move and her glare didn't waver off me for a second. I stood my ground too even opening the bathroom door and turning on the light so she can go. "Bathroom now." After giving me an ugly face she went into the bathroom. There I began to take care of her like I usually do when she's drunk. Take off her clothes and put her in some pajamas, take off her makeup, brush and wrap up her hair, brush her teeth, and feed her, all before tucking her into bed. That took about half an hour but it's still dark out so we have time to sleep.

"I can have my kiss now?" She asked as I climbed into bed with her.

"Yes you may." Leaning over top of her I gave her a long kiss. "Happy?"

"No. I can't be happy unless I know you're happy." This caught me off guard.. I didn't expect her to respond with that. I know the right answer to this but now isn't the time to express this. I want sober Sasha, not drunk Sasha... even though now would be the best time to pick at her brain and get honest answers. But again I trust her so much, and I trust her never to lie to me.

"For right now, I'm happy to be here with you." I then caressed her cheek with my free hand before giving her a kiss. "I'm just happy you're home safe and sound lass." I whispered because I feel better knowing exactly where my Dom is. Sometimes she doesn't even have to stimulate me to help me from dropping, just seeing and being around her is good enough. Mainly because I can't seem to be able to completely center enough trust into her to want to give myself to her the way I always have in the past.

"I'm happy that you made me come here cuz Daddy misses you." She then pressed her lips to my neck giving me small kisses. "Been thinking about you all day. Wondering what you were doing, if you were thinking about me too." She then got to behind my ear and kissed there before nibbling on my earlobe. Crazy how she never forgot about my weak spots but couldn't remember to tie up our child.

"Baby-"

"Shhh my doll. I'm sorry. Let me take care of you."

"Sasha no. Please I'm tired I just want snuggles." I spoke honestly because I'm not in the mood to have sex right now. Part of it is genuine but another part is my own thoughts keeping me from doing so. When I said that she pulled away and gave me a weird look. "I'm tired Sash I'm sorry." I murmured placing a small kiss on her lips before moving off her and lying next to her.

"What's wrong? I didn't mean when we fight earlier. Daddy's sorry." I simply kissed her on the forehead before responding.

"It's okay. Just water under the bridge love. But we gotta go to bed you have a show tomorrow."

"I love you. Do you still love me?"

"You make it hard but I do love you." She smiled a very cheeky smile then kissed me.

"Good." She murmured before cuddling into my chest so naturally I put my arms around her. "Mine no matter what." And then from there I held her until she fell asleep leaving me to my own.

The next morning

"Babe let me have a bite."

"No! I asked you if you only wanted the omelette and what'd you say? You said yes and that you weren't hungry so why do you need some of my waffles if you're not that hungry?" Sasha sassed pushing my fork away from her plate.

"Because it looks good and I wanna try." This time I grabbed her left arm and held it that way I could steal a piece off her plate anyway.

"Staaahp! Rebecca?!" She groaned watching me eat the piece. I just smiled and kissed her cheek.

"This is really good to be honest with you." She huffed then moved her plate further from me. We're currently sitting at this random cute restaurant that we found not too far from our hotel. This morning once Sasha finished throwing up the rest of her guts into the toilet, we cleaned up and decided to go get breakfast together. Just us and one of her security guards. After the events of yesterday Sasha decided we just needed to be alone this morning. I didn't protest because it's exactly what I wanted.

"Good I hope you enjoyed it because you not getting anymore of it."

"Heh. Okay love." I spoke sarcastically because I'm definitely going in for another bite.

"Is there ever gonna be a meal where I can have my plate and you don't ever eat some of my food?"

"So what do you want me to die of hunger or something?"

"Don't-"

"Okay fine whatever I'll just never eat around you again. I'll eat on my side of the room and you eat on your side that way you don't have to feed me ever again." I shrugged turning back to my plate. That got her to turn towards me pushing her plate closer to me.

"Fine here."

"No it's too late I don't want any anymore."

"Oh cut that shit out knowing damn well you'll be in my plate again ten minutes from now. Here, you greedy bastard." She then put some of her waffles on my plate.

"Stop I don't want it."

"Too bad. Eat it." To that I rolled my eyes at her as I went to take a sip of my water. Right when I did that she hit my cup making me spill some on myself. "Don't roll your eyes at me. You know better." She spoke continuing to eat her food. Yes I'm still mad at her, but I still listen to my Dom no matter what.

"Sorry Daddy." I murmured softly so that only she'd hear it.

"It's okay mommas. But I know you probably don't want to but we have to talk about yesterday. This past week actually." She spoke putting down her fork and using her hand to push a lose strand of my hair behind my ear. "Talk to me Becks. Tell me what's wrong so we can fix it together. I hate fighting with you, you know that. I love you and I know you still love me too. We're going to get married so it's best we learn to work through our problems now instead of staying mad at each other." When she said that I let out a deep sigh and sat back in my chair as I watched her watching me.

"Sasha I'm hurting. It hurts in my heart knowing that I'll never come home and get attacked by Shiloh ever again. He was our first true real commitment in our relationship. A big big big milestone in our relationship and I feel like I'm the only one who cares about his passing."

"No. No it's not like that at all. The same way he meant so much to you he meant the same to me. I let you get him as my way of helping you work through your drops while I'm away working. A world tour sounded like a childhood dream of mine and then a year ago it was coming true. Then suddenly the next thing I know we're selling out shows world wide. I thought it'd be just me and you traveling the world by day and doing shows by night. Never once did I stop to think that neither of us would have to return home to Mattson's. Then I also didn't factor in how much time we spend together to the point where you never really experienced a drop before. I was always there to catch you before you ever could."

"We basically spend every day together."

"I know and so when I realized you were experiencing a drop I realized this tour was a huge mistake."

"Your world tour wasn't a mistake. You're traveling the world spreading love with your beautiful voice and it's something the world needs." That got her to blush and smile a bit.

"Thank you. But after Shi got hit I feel like I let you down. I had one job and I couldn't do it and it made me feel really shity. It's my job to protect you and him and I failed you both. Then sitting here overseas, eight hours by plane away from you both and not being able to do anything really fucked me up inside. I couldn't do anything but basically sit and listen to you suffer with almost little I could do hurt me a lot more than you think." It was here she started to sound like she's getting emotional. It's very rare that I've really seen her breakdown like this so I instinctively pull her closer to me this way I can hold her. "Gah Beck I knew, I knew it the whole time. From like the third day since I had to come back on tour this last time. You never said it till he passed and couldn't hold it in anymore, but I could see it in your eyes, and I felt like that inside too. I never noticed how much time I've spent with you until I could barely talk to you when I wanted to talk to you the most. I made a mess at home and this tour makes me feel like I'm running from my mistakes."

"No you're not running. You were with me as much as you could." I softly spoke kissing her on the forehead. She looks so sad and I'm partially in awe. Here I go bitching her about how I feel when I never asked how she felt. And the fact that her expressing herself is making her cry, out in public to specify this moment, must have broke her heart just as much as mine was. Surprisingly she did an amazing job dealing with how I've been treating her lately. I feel like such a jerk about this.

"I know but I needed to be there with you. I'm your dom and I'm supposed to be there when you're down and I failed you. I failed at everything I've ever promised yo-" before she could finish I wiped the running tear from off her cheek bone and cupped her face before planting a long meaningful kiss.

"I don't think you failed at everything. However I reset everything and you're good to try it again baby. Sometimes life knocks us down and you know what you gotta do?" I asked kissing her nose as she sniffed.

"Gotta stand back up."

"That's right. You get back on your feet, why? 'Cause you're the only legit Boss on these streets!" I sang just like how she sung it in her song. This got her to let out a light giggle. On the rare occasions I've seen her cry I've always been able to make her smile right when she knows she's about to cry.

"And ain't nobody touch'n me, It's me I'm Sasha." She sang back earning her another kiss.

"That right." I spoke letting go of her face and sitting back to stare at her.

"And to make it worse you've been a total bitch to me for the past two weeks." She spoke wiping another tear off her cheek.

"I know and I'm realizing it now. I'm sorry lass." I then reached out to grab her hand and kiss her knuckle. "I'm sorry. I love you."

"It's okay. I should have told you my side earlier. You just know how to pick at everything that makes me angry and you just.. ugh I hate that we know each other so well, but I love it most other times. Same way I love you." She smirked sticking out her tongue.

"Good. So this means we're good again? I don't wanna fight anymore I just wanna hangout like we always do." I asked putting my left hand on her neck and my right elbow I leaned against the back of my chair. We're in the corner of the room so I'm able to do this here. I then used my left hand to rub her neck. "Let's make up."

"No." That got me to look at her like she's crazy. She's stuck with me and I figured she knew that. "Let's get married-" She smiled showing me that sexy smile of hers. To add to it she held up her left hand and flipped me her ring finger showing me the engagement ring I gave her about a month or so ago. "Bitch."

"When and where? You can't escape me, and if you really try I'm gonna ruin you Sasha Banks. I will make sure I'm the only person left on this Earth that associates with and you'll have no choice but me. Don't you ever cheat on me either because you will lose your life and only I will know it's location. I'm forgetting everything you did. And you're going to forget Alicia ever tried to steal me from you the way she did. Clean slates for us both, okay?"

"Kay." She then reached in her plate and ate a piece of waffle. "It's getting cold." That got me to shake my head. She would be the one to remember food in the middle of one of our heart to hearts. Leaning in I gave her another kiss before taking a piece of waffle off her plate and eating it. "Hey?!"

"You're right lets finish. We gotta get to sound check in three hours anyway."

"It still gives me goosebumps when you say that. I have a sold out show to preform tonight. I Sasha Banks have a concert to put on later for thousands of people who love my lyrics. Thousands of people who I made fall in love with the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." She smiled looking at me. "Who the fuck told you it's okay to be so goddamn beautiful like this? And where the fuck where you all those years ago when I was out there getting my heart broke by females who didn't give a shit about me?!" She growled glaring at me making me giggle. She's so fucking weird but I love it.

"Well apparently my parents when they decided not to use a condom."

"I thank god every day they risked getting an STD to create you." To that I leaned in for a kiss which she gave me.

"And by the way, I want a new charm for my bracelet. This fighting caused a lot of emotional damage to me that only a nice new one karat giraffe charm from Tiffany's will fix."

"You've been plotting I see."

"Well I'm your baby girl and I always get what I want."

"Well I'm putting my foot down. No you-"

"Perfect I already ordered it online and several others this morning while you were showering." I smiled taking another bite of my omelette. She let out a sigh.

"You're a piece of work I hope you know that."

"Yeah but you love the way I moan for you." I grinned, raising an eyebrow to let her know I still find her sexy.

"Been a good while since I heard it to be honest witcha."

"That's true boss." I shrugged going back to eating my food. This lasted all but five seconds before she tightly gripped my cheeks with her right hand, and then turned my head to face her causing me to drop the fork I had in my hand.

"What do you need. I'd play this little game you're trying to get me to play, but I'm concerned about whether or not we go back to the hotel or just going straight into rehearsal. So tell me now so I can give you what you want. Just say it Mot." Ugh I haven't heard or said that in so long. When she said that my heart fluttered just like it always does. And then on top of that I am for some reason soo turned on from her sudden action. I want her more than ever right now. But I just don't know if I can do it.. I know I said it never happened but it still bothers me. She promised me that she'd never share her love with anyone but me, and I have no idea now if she broke that promise. I just don't know and it's paralyzing me with that constant burden. I don't know. I dunno. I just don't know and I hate it. I have no choice but to believe her but she's done a lot of questionable stuff lately. I want her to play fight with me and how hard I fight back determines how annoyed she'll get. I need it badly so I'll play rough and dirty because I know she loves it when I do. And depending on how mad she gets she fucks me with all that annoyance. Fucks me so crazy it's insane every time I cum, and right now that'd be very delicious.

"Mmm I could never make you do that. Every show we warm up for three hours exa-"

"Get to the point."

"We have to go to rehearsals." She just stared at me before pulling me close enough to kiss her. She gave me several small ones being she squeezed my cheeks to give me fish lips. Then once she did that she loosened her grip just enough to forcefully ram her tongue in my mouth. It's such a turn on when we kiss like this... when she's being The Boss. I love the way her mouth tastes like the waffles and coffee right now. Whenever we kiss like this I can't help but suck on her tongue and bite it as well. Damn it she knows how to melt me into a giant puddle. It's been a good week since she's kissed me like that. And just like always I become putty in her hands.

"Mkay babes." She then smiled and giggled at me. "You are so sexy when you're horny. I'm gonna take care of this later." She then gave me several more kisses before letting my face go. Well that was wildly refreshing and definitely did the trick.

"Yeah okay, great we go now. We go right now." I said taking a sip of my cranberry juice then reaching into my purse to grab any spare bills I had that I figured would cover the bill. I only had a fifty so I left it. Yeah it's probably gonna be a big tip but I will not miss it. Throwing it on the table I got up taking Sasha with me.

"Hey where's the fire?! I'm still eating!" She whined behind me but we need to get into the car ASAP.

"No we go now." I spoke pushing open the doors leading us outside. When we got outside Sasha must have caught on and pulled me into her grasp.

"I really wish you would've let me finish my waffles because you know I always perform my best on a full stomach." She then bit my neck making me shiver. "Luckily your hickies are healing and Daddy has to give you new ones." She purred in my ear as her hands found their way to my ass. "Who do you belong to?"

"To you. I belong to you Daddy."

"Good girl. Now where's our ride?" She murmured moving her one hand to pull out her phone, while her other hand pulled me closer to her. I simply got closer to her and rested my head on her shoulder. "You ok baby?" I nodded and kissed her neck before answering.

"I just really want you right now Daddy." She looked up from her phone at me when I answered.

"Don't worry I'm gonna take care of you. You sure you don't wanna go back to the hotel?"

"We won't have enough time. You know I like my pillow talk after we finish and there's just not enough time right now. But we will on the way to practice." I spoke before connecting our lips together. And again she took control of the kiss allowing our tongues to dance together. When we kiss like this my legs always go weak so I'm grateful she has a tight grasp on me holding me to her.

"You know I'll sacrifice time to spend it with you right?"

"I know but I don't want you too this time. Today your fans come first then me."

"That's not true. You always come first to me."

"Okay but-"

"No you're always going to be my main priority." As if she planned it our ride stopped right in front of us. "Now get in so I can show you." Letting me go she opened the car door for me to climb in which I did. She wasn't too far behind me while our bodyguard got in the front seat. "Umm so he knows where we gotta go. Don't look back, trust me it's gonna get hot so feel free to open a window, and don't turn this down." Spoke my fiancée reaching up over the center console and turning up the radio. While she did that I took the opportunity to take off my jacket and get comfortable. This isn't anything new to me so I know the most comfortable position is leaned up against the door with my right leg across the seats. This way she has full access and she's mostly right on top of me. Sasha then sat back and looked at me giving me a slow glance over before smiling at me and licking her lips. "So beautiful." She mouthed before moving so she was right in between my legs. "I love the fact that you automatically get ready for me." She spoke in my ear as her hands began to rub at my sides.

"Well I want you so of course I'm gonna give you full access." That earned me a nice size kiss. "My pussy belongs to you Sasha." I purred in her ear visibly making her shiver and I felt her get goosebumps

"I love it when you say that." She grinned before sticking her tongue in my mouth again. She made sure this kiss was definitely leading in her direction. So I just stuck my hands up under her shirt. "Mmm I love how warm blooded you are. Surprises me every time." She murmured against my lips before going back to kissing me. Her statement prompted me to rub both sides of my hands on her abdomen. We've had this running on-going joke about how my hands are always warm compared to Sasha's cold ones.

"That's 'cause you're an evil ice queen." I joked slightly pulling out of our kiss.

"But yet you still wanna fuck me." She spat before biting my neck. However right when she sank her teeth in me the car suddenly stopped and nearly threw Sasha off me had I not had my hands in her shirt allowing me to somewhat keep her from falling to the floor completely. "Owe! Hey! Easy up there man damn!" She groaned getting up and sitting on the seat.

"Yeah you jackass!" I added going to cheek on my fiancée.

"Sorry the guy in front don't know how to drive."

"Just keep it smooth alright?" Grumbled Sasha so I pulled her into a hug and gave her a kiss on the temple.

"You okay?"

"Yeah. I forget why we don't really do this very often."

"Well at least you didn't smack your head on the door." I spoke because that happened the last time we got frisky in the backseat some time before she started her tour, and we haven't tried it since.

"That's true. You still wanna finish?" I simply nodded before answering.

"Yes."

"Great me too. New position. Put the seat back and then I'll get on top." Listening I did as she said and she wasted no time putting her right knee in between my thighs and sat on my leg. "Mmm much more cozy."

"Much agreed. But umm.." I questioned pointing to my neck.

"Right sorry. Where were we?"

"You were here." I then grabbed her shirt and pulled her down so I can kiss her. She liked that and showed it by cupping my face and giving me several kisses. "Mmm and I was like this." I spoke going back to feeling her up. "Oh my god! Oh my god!"

"Shut up!"

"No Sash wait." I spoke pushing on her abdomen letting her know to back up a little. She got the message but let out a growl to let me know she's reluctant.

"This better be good."

"You haven't been eating a lot while we've been apart have you?"

"I eat."

"Are you eating or snacking because you're usually not this chiseled." I then lifted her shirt. "You can get rid of that by the way. But damn Daddy I'm moist as fuck. I don't know why I'm just now noticing but I am and I'm in love. I love your washboards." I then leaned in and kissed her abdomen. Naturally when I did that I wrapped my arms around her so she doesn't have to stretch.

"It's all that dancing I've been doing." She replied flexing. Damn I love how fit my girl is. It's such a turn on for me.

"No it's because I'm not there to cook for you so you're losing weight. Awe baby I'm sorry. I'm sorry we were separated for so long. I gotta fatten you back up." I pouted resting my chin on her abdomen.

"I missed this. I missed you in general. Becks I have nobody here who understands me the way you do. And nobody laughs at my jokes." She mumbled breaking my grasp around her and pushing me backwards. This way we were able to kiss.

"Ever think that maybe your jokes aren't funny?"

"Ooh the shade." She chuckled kissing me then taking off her shirt. "I'm funny."

"You can be whatever you want."

"Well right now I wanna be in you." She then began kissing behind my neck while her right hand managed its way to my abdomen.

"Ice blocks for hands." I giggled getting her to pull away and lift the end of my shirt and pull it over my face. This way I unfortunately can't really see too good but I can feel her still on me.

"Shush." Then I felt her tongue on my chest along with several small nibbles. She's marking me up again and it's relaxing to me. Nothing is more reassuring to me than her purposely claiming me with her love bites.

Sasha's POV

"You've got lots of spots that need me, but I'm only gonna focus on these." I spoke inspecting her torso making sure there are no foreign marks on her that aren't from me. I know she'd never cheat on me but I just have to make sure. Oddly enough she's wearing one of those bras that snap in the front. "You must have known we'd end up like this huh?"

"What?" I simply kissed what I assume are were her lips are underneath her shirt. To explain my statement I unsnapped her bra.

"Easy access." I then attached my mouth to her left nipple earning me a moan. Oh how I've missed her body. She still looks as good as the day I first met her and mentally undressed her. Only difference is now she's covered in my hickies and love bites. "Baby?"

"Yes?"

"Can you unbutton yo-" I didn't even get to finish my sentence before she unbuttoned her pants. She then took her shirt and moved it from off her face allowing me to gaze on her big warm chocolate eyes.

"I want you to see the joy and pleasure you give me." She spoke making me shiver. Ugh sometimes she says the most random yet sexy things to me. So it was only right I kissed her. I made sure to kiss her with every time I've longed to kiss her since the first time she left me alone on this damn tour. I'm literally just trying to show her that she's my girl. Becky is the only female I've ever loved so much and I need her to know that no matter what anyone tells her. Ideally when I need to prove a point to her it involves my handcuffs, a blindfold, my thick leather belt, my eight incher, my ten incher, my ball gag, her leash, and a vibrator. Trust me every time I did it she believed me afterwards. Hence why I wanted to go back to the hotel. But hey I'll take whatever I can get from her.

"Rebecca?" I asked pulling away and staring right into her eyes. I can basically see my reflection in her very lust coated eyes. She's exactly where I need her to be so I know she'll listen. I even began to use my right hand to rub at her abdomen just above the waistband of her panties.

"Yes?"

"You're the only person I've been intimate with for the last two and a half years of my life. It's you Rebecca. It's always been you since the day you first let me have you the way that I wanted you. You have my loyalty and I know I have yours. It's been written on your face ever since you came back to me. I am just as committed to making us work as you are if not probably more." When I said that she smiled, letting out a small giggle.

"She told you?"

"Yeah. She told me before we left for the club last night. Baby don't do that. Don't tell anyone that you doubt our relationship. You only tell me those kind of thoughts. Nobody is going to reassure you more than me. Our business is our business and it's for us to settle nobody else. If you got a problem you come tell me first and we'll work on fixing it. You have to trust me when I say I love you. You're everything I need." I then leaned down and gave her a hard I love you kiss. "And now I know and you know what you mean to me okay?" When I finished that she had a crazy lust flooded look in her eyes. She absolutely loves it when I admit my love and loyalty to her.

"Yes Daddy." She then grabbed my right hand and shoved it in her panties. Mmm just like I expect it's a wet mess down here. "I believe you Daddy, I'm sorry. I love you but please finger me already. Back up your words." Well that was all it took for me to take my middle finger and start to rub at her clit. "Mmmm." She smiled letting her eyes roll back. That made me smile.

"You're so dramatic!"

"Less talking more fingering." She spoke pulling me in for a kiss. I'm not gonna ignore her request this time and pushed my finger inside of her making her moan. I made sure to push into her as hard and deep as I could. I continued this for a few more minutes because I love the face she makes every time I push inside her. "Daaa-Dad-Daddy?"

"Yes my love?" I already know her question so I added another finger inside her. She let out a very deep satisfied moan. "What were you gonna say?"

"Ooh Sasha!" She mewed in my ear smiling letting me know I'm doing good. "You feel sooo goooood! Mmmmmm yes!" She's so hot when I touch her. The faces she makes are so fucking sexy. I just kept fingering her with long slow thrust. I want to maximize her overall pleasure by starting off slow then getting faster over time letting her orgasm slowly build being we have the time.

"You're the only female I wanna do this to. No other female can get this wet for me. You're so wet and I love it. I wish we went to the hotel because I wanna eat you out so bad." I then withdrew my fingers from her and sucked her juices off one of my fingers. "Mmm my favorite flavor. Taste." I then took both my fingers and shoved them in her mouth. And like the slut she truly is she sucked on my fingers like a vacuum.

"Mmmm." She purred before trying to gag herself on my fingers. Went she started doing that I immediately started to get weak. She knows how to turn me on and it works every time.

"Damn my doll. You must miss me gagging you with my dick huh?"

"So much. I love it when you face fuck me." She smiled in a raspy voice before pushing my fingers back in her panties. "I need you to fuck me here too."

"Anything for you princess." I murmured before pushing my fingers back inside her. I even decided to add a third to add to her pleasure.

"Mmm so good!" She breathed out using one hand to dig her nails into my right arm, while her other hand tangled in my hair pulling me in for a kiss. I made sure not to stop the pace of my fingers while we made out. "D-Daddy?" I simply kissed her again before moving to bite her neck.

"Yes my doll?" I cooed slowing my fingers down because I actually wanna here what she has to say.

"I w-want, I want you so bad. I wanna go to the hotel." She pouted making me smile.

"You know I can't say no to you like that."

"Then take me to bed." She purred in my ear. Then she made her fuck me face and I fell for her all over again.

"Fuck." Reluctantly I pulled my fingers from inside her and sucked them clean in front of her. When I did that she smirked and bit her lip letting me know she liked that. "You taste so good."

"Mmmm only for you." I then gave her a peck before turning to look at my guys up front. I leaned over the center console and turned down the volume before I spoke.

"How far are we from the venue?"

"Twenty minutes."

"And what about the hotel? The Mrs needs some extra attention." It was here I felt Becks grip me around the waste and start kissing my lower back.

"Umm let me see." Spoke my security guard as he started to look up the distance from our current location to the hotel. While he was doing that I looked back at my fiancée and she's doing her own thing feeling me up and leaving kisses.

"I didn't forget about you love. I know you're back there." I smiled looking at her getting her to look at me.

"Come back. I miss you."

"In a minute."

"It's like thirty in the other direction." He answered showing me the map.

"Baby what time do doors open?"

"Mm seven fifteen." She mumbled still planting kisses on my back.

"And it's four now. Need an hour for sound check. Another for wardrobe. Damn it!" I then began to sit back down. Immediately after I sat her lips were on mine. Then the next thing I know I'm on top of her. .

"Changed my mind I can't wait. I don't want to. Just make me cum already." She demanded. Well I'm not gonna deny her request. That being said I began making out with her letting our tongues dance together. Just like every time we makeout like this we both get into it. Her hands are busy grabbing at my pants tugging on them pulling me closer to her. Meanwhile my right hand is busy rubbing her abdomen letting her know I'm going back for seconds. Then on top of all that Becks gets very peckish in these moments and she starts to chew on my lip or she'll bite my tongue. As annoying as it may seem it's actually really sexy to me. Let's me know she's ready to go and I'm not one to deny her. However for the sake of kissing on my dream girl I decided to continue making out with her while my hand found its way into her panties and right to her clit. "Mmmm shit." She purred wiggling her body a little bit. I simply reconnected our lips and kept rubbing her clit. I love teasing her because the noises she makes are so sexy.

"Hope you know you're so sexy when you bite your lips like that."

"Only foooooor yoooooouu! Fuck!" While She was talking I pushed two fingers in her and began to fuck her the way I know she likes. "Yes like that keep going." I decided to keep my pace every now and then slowing down to give her that throbbing feeling when I change pace so abruptly. She didn't seem to mind because she started to move her hips to my rhythm. "I'm almost t-there!"

"You gonna cum for me when I ask?" She bit her lip and nodded her head. That got me to stop moving completely and bite her neck hard enough to get her attention. "Use your words. I hate that I still have to remind you." I snapped because she knows better.

"Sorry Daddy. Please keep going I wanna cum for you. I wanna cum all over your fingers."

"It's okay." Giving her a peck I went back to ramming my fingers inside of her quickly making her eyes close and a smile graced her lips. She's loving this and so am I. She doesn't know this but when we get to our dressing room I'm spreading her in the coffee table and I'm gonna eat her out like I never have before. For now I'm more concerned with making her cum.

"Yes! Yes daddy I love it! I'm so close keep going just like that." I listened and kept her pleasure going. To add to it I began nibbling on her neck and collarbone. She loves the feeling of getting new hickies. So it was no surprise after the third new hickie I gave her in this moment she was ready. "I'm gonna cum! May I please cum?! Mmm fuck! Fuck! Fuuuck!"

"You wanna cum for me my love?" She nodded and bit her lip.

"Yes I wanna c-cum!"

"Open your eyes first." She listened and I was able to see her beautiful eyes. "Good girl keep them open. Now you may cum." I spoke looking her directly in her eyes. Moments later I felt her pussy start to tighten letting me know she's cumming.

"Sasha!" She moaned out as she erupted all over my fingers. I simply slowed my fingers to a slow steady pace while kissing her lips.

"Good girl Rebecca." I cooed placing kisses all over her face. She's all sweaty and out of breath. "I love you."

"I love you too." And then we engaged in a long loving kiss. "That was.. I needed that."

"I know my love. You know I'll fuck you the way you need." I spoke going to kiss her neck.

"Babe?"

"Hmm?"

"You definitely didn't turn the radio back up." When she said that my head shot up to look at the guys up front. There's definitely no music playing.

"Ah shit. Sorry fellas. Only partially though y'all could've turned it back up." I teased because I'm not sorry.

"Well now I guess we gotta kill them." Spoke Beck. That got me to giggle a bit before giving her a kiss.

"Or you can just level the playing field. I need love too." She raised an eyebrow at that.

"Well I can do that." Then suddenly I'm being laid on the seat with her on top of me. "Just gonna turn this up again." She mumbled reaching up front to turn up the volume on the radio. "Much better." I found it funny because it's not very loud at all. Definitely not loud enough to cover up my moans but honestly whatever. Regardless of how loud the music can get I'll probably be louder. "Now back to you sexy." She grinned coming back to kiss me. Compared to yesterday afternoon, this afternoon is definitely much better.

Few days later.

"Sasha I don't wanna go."

"I know baby. I don't want you to go either but they need you. Our kingdom needs their queen."

"But I need you Sash. I dunno what I'm going to do without you again!" She cried tightening her grip on me. Right now we're laid up on the tour bus in my bunk. Unfortunately there's some sort of problem at one of the stores where one of the managers were stealing money out the registers and it's been happening for over a year now so they racked up quite a bill. So my Orange has to go back home and try and help build a case for our lawyers.. "Please don't make me go alone." When she said that she looked up at me with those big tear filled brown eyes of her and it made my heart melt. We just got back on the same page and rekindled everything that went out after Shiloh.

"I don't want you to go either love. We're both on our highs and separation is the last thing we need right now." I cooed cupping her cheek and wiping away her tears. "God you're so beautiful when you cry but I hate seeing you cry." I murmured taking in her appearance because she's so vulnerable and innocent looking and it tugs away at my heartstrings.

"Then come with me."

"Six shows left my doll."

"Fuck those six shows. You've given your fans more than enough time. You're mine. You were mine way before you became theirs and I'm taking you back." When she said that she hit my chest to reinforce her statement. "I feel neglected and I refuse to-" All I needed to hear was neglected and I pulled her down for a kiss. I made sure to tangle a hand in her hair and gently massage her head. Kisses always calm her down. If there's one thing I've learned about Becky over the span of our intimate relationship is she's a baby stuck in an adult body. I can never go or do anything without her wanting to come with me. She's so clingy and I have nobody to blame but myself. I spoiled her rotten and now it's a really big deal whenever we separate. That's not a complaint because other than Becky and my squad I have no friends or a life so I'm very upset she's leaving.

"You cut that out. You are not neglected and you've got the marks to prove it. You know I always go out my way for you to make sure you're okay."

"Well not recently."

"So you're telling me the love we made last night meant nothing to you?" When I said that she frowned at me.

"It doesn't feel the same when we aren't home." That got me to raise an eyebrow. "I mean it was good. You always make me cum but I just enjoy being intimate with you in our own bed. In the houses we made a home. I dunno this whole touring life just isn't for me." She then rested her chin on my chest. "Traveling for weeks on end just isn't us. You're miserable on the road without me, and I'm miserable at home without you."

"I hate that you always see through me. But I miss our bed too. Then again I think you just miss your collars huh? You just miss being fucked into the mattress don't you?" She bit her lip and smirked.

"I need some dick from you pronto. ASAP, head don't cut it no more. I need all of you." That made me smile because it's been a long time since I've dicked her down and I miss watching her eyes roll.

"Naw I miss it too. Haven't fucked you stupid in a long time." It was here I tightened my grip around her. "Honestly I wanna make love to you the way I know you love. I want your nail marks on my back again."

"You always complain that I did when we shower afterwards."

"I know because it stings like a bitch afterwards, but it's a token of your love and I wouldn't trade it for anything." I then kissed her on the forehead. "Take me home with you."

"Nope."

"Why the fuck not?!"

"Daddy, you gotta finish your tour then you can come home to me. I don't want you home unless you're staying home for more than a few years."

"Then I better finish touring huh?" She simply nodded. "Where do you wanna go on vacation when I get back?" She let out a deep breath before responding.

"To be honest with you I really miss me mum. Ever since we came out to her we don't talk as much as we used to. I'll call her every now and then but with the time difference it's hard to get a hold of her. And when I do get her it's usually pretty brief. Just wish everything with them was how it was before they found out about us." She spoke softly resting her head on my chest again.

"What about your brother?"

"Nothing's changed between us. He knew before our parents did. He's just happy I'm happy."

"Well if you want we can go visit them. We-"

"No. No I don't think we're exactly wanted after our last visit."

"Well you don't want to go, but I do." That got her to sit up and look at me like I have four heads. "I want their approval babe. I want to look them both in the eyes and tell them about how much I love you and how happy you make me, and that I intend to have their baby girl for the rest of her life. It might be far fetched but they both seemed to like me before they found out we're together so I don't see why I can't convince them that regardless of my gender I can support and love you the way you deserve to be."

"Do you really honestly think my dad will say yes?"

"After I flash my million dollar smile and do a little dance for him I think so."

"Or we can just get married without them knowing."

"Who's gonna walk you down the aisle to me? Bobo the clown?"

"Well I mean we have the same hair color."

"No babe seriously. I want you to have your perfect dream wedding. The dream where your entire family is on one side and mine on the other. I'll probably have my mom walk me down the aisle first, then your dad is gonna walk you down the aisle to me, and we'll say our vows to each other. And boom we'll be making love on the beach as a married couple."

"That sounds like a fairytale Sasha. You heard him when we left. I'm not his daughter anymore."

"We'll let me ask you this. Do you want your parents to be with you on one of the biggest days of your life." She took a moment to think before slowly nodding her head.

"I still love them both regardless."

"Then it's settled. I'm gonna make sure they're there to see you.. us get married." She gave me a small smile before it turned into a frown.

"What if they say no?"

"Then I'm gonna marry you anyway. I've never let anyone stand in my way from chasing my dreams, and I'm not about to let some asshole stop me from marrying the love of my life and starting a family. Sorry babe but you're stuck with me and they are gonna have to learn to deal with it." That got her to crack a small smile before poking my cheek.

"You make me feel so safe with you. Like I know with you, my future is as safe as it will ever be."

"Good I want you to be able to feel that way around me always. You are loved and you are wanted and that's what you need to remember always." That earned me a kiss.

"I love you."

"I love you too gorgeous." And from there she snuggled into me and we just laid there as we watched Shrek for what feels like the hundredth time since she's come back on tour with me. At this point I think I might just get all the Shrek movies so we can just binge all four movies and not just the one. We mostly just hung out in my bunk until we got to the next stop in the next city. We finish out the last leg of the European tour in Spain. Then my final five shows take place back in the states. Since my orange leaves tomorrow before my show, I organized a cute little date for us since I don't have a show tonight. Basically I plan to take her out to a fancy restaurant then afterwards we're gonna see a show. I have no clue what it's about but I'm sure it'll be great. I just want to spend as much time with her as I can before we separate one last time.

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So this was a chapter of just loops and corkscrews. What if Spank didn't stop Sasha from swinging on Becky? Who would win if those to actually fist fought? Questions I wish I had answers to but to some degree I do know who wins the fight. Yes that means what you think it does, next chapter might be a past chapter. Im in a crossroad rn with like three chapters to this story. So what comes next really depends on what i finish first. Anywhore can we just stop for a second and acknowledge the fact that Sasha has a dog now?! like now we'll get Flex/Ryu play dates and i couldn't be more happy about that. Then again Im also waiting for Bay and Sash to just all move in together since dispite Sasha not being on the road anymore (which i hope isnt for much longer) They're still always together. This also reminds me of another big problem I have rn... it has been over a year and some months since Abel has dropped an album and im just sad asf waiting for him to release it. i have a theory its gonna drop next month sometime. hopefully im right I've been a good egg all summer long so I deserve that kind of good karma. Oh and I also wanna put out some good karma for Ember because I'd love to see her as champ. Hell itd just be nice to see a colored Divas champion because its been a good minute since we last had one. Dont get me wrong I love Bay shes a total baddie, but shes had her fair share. time to let someone new hold the spotlight for once ya know? #GiveSisAChance Anywhore im done talking for now. Tell me Orange pineapples for next chapter to be a past chapter, or Blue grapes for a future chapter next. Till then remember only circles will protect you from a seabear attack. ~Joz #fuckitup