Chapter 1
Silently, the wolf awakens to the gentle breath of his mate who is lying beside him, asleep from their earlier activities. Reverting back to his human form, he called one number he knew by heart to return his soul mate back to his home. "Please remember me Yonekuni." Gently he reaches down to brush the strands of blonde hair from his beloved's face. "You come everytime it rains, then the next day you treat me with so much indifference. Why can't you realize? Do you realize how much you hurt me keeping me at arm's-length? To keep me so close, yet so far. Never allow to embrace you, the one I love with my whole heart. It hurts. Do you know how much it hurts?"
The vibrations of the cell phone snaps the wolf out of his daze, silently he opens the door for the only other who knows of such an arrangement for the last few years. "His soul has already chosen you; he is just too slow to realize it."
"You told me this before. Countless times before, time and time again, it still does not change the fact that it hurts. It does not change the fact that… Please. Just… take him home." My voice conveys my defeat, and sounded even worse when it was said out loud. I had long resigned to a love that will never return. Love I given unconditionally, yet toss away by the one I love with each morning light. Stepping aside I let him in to take my heart, my soul, my mate, my other half away.
"…"
"I have waited for almost three years," I waited much longer than the years he has known me. "I… Nothing changed. The pain that is bearing in my soul every time he looks at another. When he is with another; returning to me only when he feels like it. What would you do if you were in my place?"
"I don't know."
"Neither do I. I was happy in the beginning as long as he comes back to me, but it hurts, it still hurts, so much. I can't keep on doing this anymore, please keep him from coming here."
Silently the nekomata departs with his mizuchi brother over his shoulder, looking back one last time trying to crush the unsettling feeling in his stomach.
From the window he watches his love carried away once again on the back of his brother. The wolf was left alone to question his decision; the offer his grandfather made seems to be his only escape. With graduation only a few weeks away, there is nothing to hold him back other than the feeling he has for Yonekuni, his soul mate. A wolf can only mate to one in their entire life, his grandfather explained that when he approached him a few months back. Never will he have Yonekuni to himself; never will he be able to have the only one he loves.
Will it be ok for me to leave Yonekuni? To never see each other again? Will you miss me? Will you even remember me?