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Things are going to heat up a lot during this chapter,

Chapter 43...

{Clary's POV}

Something about being in Jace's actual room somehow made the whole situation feel more intimate.

But I followed regardless, cursing myself as I went up the stairs.

I had rehearsed over and over in my head what I was going to say to him - but instead I had frozen on his doorstep like some deer in headlights.

Great one Clary, really smooth.

Jace had strolled into his room and sat down on the edge of his bed leaning forwards on his knees.

I closed the door silently behind me and took a few deep breaths before turning to face him.

I had to know something though.

I marched straight up to Jace and pulled his shirt over his head, amid the questions he fired at me he did not resist.

Then I stared directly at the white scar on his shoulder, my hands moving to surround the wound, as if touching it could take back what I did.

Jace, noticing what I was looking at covered my hands with his.

"Hey Clary, look I'm fine. It's just a scratch, it's nothing."

He coaxed, my hands hardened under his and I moved myself firmly away from him, but so I still stood opposite him.

"No Jace it's not fine. I can't ever lose control with you."

My voice cracked at the end but I didn't care.

I knew that the best thing for both of us was for me to walk away and tell him to not follow me.

However, I knew that I couldn't ever leave Jace. Not now, not until my last breath.

"Clary it was just a one off, it's ok-"

"Jace please don't say it's ok. I could have killed you. The worst part of it was I wasn't sure I was gonna stop. I didn't want to stop."

His expression didn't change, making me even more exasperated.

"Jace, you can't look me in the eye and tell me that you don't feel any different-"

Jace abruptly stood up and closed the distance between us to about 10 inches.

"I do. I feel different about you every minute Clary, every second I'm with you I am mesmerized. Whether your trying to kill me or not. I love you Clary."

I felt my eyes widen, he… he what?

"And I have known it since the moment I met you. I don't care if you lost control for a split-second, to love someone is to be beyond yourself. And I love you Clarissa Morgenstern, demon blood and all."

Nerves began creeping into his voice, but I could infer that his words were coming straight from the honesty of his heart.

{Jace's POV}

I didn't know what I was going to expect, but I was certainly startled when Clary reached up with her hands and pulled her lips up to mine.

Her delicate hands knotting in my hair at the back of my neck.

She pressed her soft lips to mine, a kiss that spoke of sorrow and longing and love.

I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her close to me, the need to be touching Clary was overwhelming.

Slowly, Clary pulled her head back from mine and we bent our foreheads in toward each other.

"I love you too."

She whispered into my face.

Shocked that she had said it back, I looked deep into her widely deep eyes.

Cracking a smile I pressed my mouth to hers again, this time the feel of her mouth against mine was different.

Her mouth told me tales of passion, carefully I moved my hands to underneath her upper thigh and lifted her into me.

Wrapping her legs around my waist she tangled her hands further into my hair, making me moan softly against her lips.

Turning around I layed Clary down on my bed with her legs still locked on my waist, breaking our kiss for a second I leant on my elbows to ask her,

"Clary are you sure?"

I knew I had to ask, because Clary would be a virgin and I would never want to make her feel vulnerable.

She smiled up at me sweetly, tracing a finger along my jaw and my lower lip she answered,

"Yes, I'm sure."

I couldn't take anymore after that, I crashed my mouth down onto hers and began removing her clothes as she was mine.

I knew Clary could feel how much I wanted her, but I wasn't ashamed.

Clary was the first girl I had properly loved, and I had a feeling she would be the last as well.

{Clary's POV}

I was completely entranced by this man laying next to me.

Last night had been, well, amazing.

His every touch sending shivers down my skin, it was as if I could still feel his hands on me even as he lay gently asleep next to me.

I had woken as the sun had risen, sending a warm beam of light onto my eyelids.

Jace however remained sound asleep, the rise and fall of his chest easing my mind.

I had been watching him now for around an hour, not wanting to wake him as he looked so peaceful.

Earlier, I contemplated going to put on my clothes which were in various places in the room. But I had been captivated by Jace's calm beauty, how could I boy as beautiful as this want me.

"Why are you watching me sleep?"

A mocking voice sounded, I looked at Jace's eyes and noticed that they were close - yet his mouth was quirked up at the corners.

"How long have you been awake?"

I replied quickly, a knowing smile playing on my lips.

"About 10 minutes, I was beginning to wonder if you would stare at me forever you know."

Jace answered in his normal witty voice, this time his eyes cracked open and managed to light up his whole face.

In response I grabbed my pillow and slammed it straight into his face.

Totally unaware Jace muffled from beneath the pillow - something about 'kissing it better' but I just ignored him and rolled back over to check the time.

"Holy shit."

I breathed when I realised that me and Jace had about 2 hours before we needed to leave - had we really been in bed that long?

"What's up tiger?"

He asked as he wrapped one arm around me and pulled me back down next to him in bed.

I pushed on his chest so I was half lying on top of him - looking straight into those perfect golden orbs.

"We only have 2 hours till we need to leave and I think it would be a good idea to get out of bed now."

I said in as even a voice as I could, Jace's hand was caressing my inner thigh - sending shivers through my whole body.

"Why, 2 hours is plenty of time?"

Jace asked in the most innocent voice I had ever heard him use.

Opening my mouth to reply I suddenly felt Jace's lips on mine - but this kiss wasn't like the ones last night. This kiss was passionate but gentle, there was no desire in his mouth, just pleasure.

Returning his kiss for a few seconds I drew away and I could tell he was about to complain so I acted first.

I rolled off Jace and went straight for the bathroom on the side - very aware that I was butt-naked in front of him.

Slamming the door behind me I heard him say

'I could join you if you want some company…?'

With a blush I thought, well he has seen it all now hasn't he.

As soon as the blush came I suddenly felt naked, not physically. Jace had seen me for who I was now, he had seen all of me - the good and the bad.

Surely if he was still here that counted for something?

Deciding to not let myself think anymore I stepped into the shower and let the hot water consume my body and thoughts.

{Jace's POV}

I was a bit annoyed that Clary had left bed, but I knew she was right.

Today was a day not to mess around, I had to take my assigned mission seriously - even if it had been Clary herself who had told everyone I was the only one able to carry it out.

It had dawned on me that this would be the first time I would have to say goodbye to the ones I love. As this was the first mission I had embarked on where returning was not a guarantee.

Thinking about it was hard enough, but I didn't know if I could say goodbye to Alec, Izzy, Jon and my parents. All of a sudden the word 'goodbye' held a totally new meaning in my head - most people use the word in confidence that you would see that person again. But that was not to be the case today - and as much as I hated to admit it to myself that scared me.

Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter - very centered on Clace.

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