Kyradia wrapped her fingers against the table as she sat waiting for Ashara to find something, it had been a couple days since they'd last encountered Zash and Kyradia was beginning to get agitated. Ashara had been adamant that using her connection with Zash was off the table and that she needed rest, Kyradia didn't feel like she deserved the rest every second she sat here Zash was out getting one step closer to whatever goal she had with the sisters.
Kyradia shuddered to think what they could do together, she didn't even know how Zash had found any last time she had checked the place was abandoned just like home. She must've missed someone, either way they were bound to have a plan of their own and Zash would be playing right into their hands. Zash was many things but she was less than cautious and she wasn't only endangering herself but the Mirilian girl, Kyradia frowned; she still didn't understand her place in all this. Was she just a naive accomplice? She clearly didn't appreciate Kyradia's efforts with the alliance but then again not many people did, she had to stop them though if she was ever going to do something 'good' or 'righteous' it'd be this.
She sighed getting up and making her way out of the ship; being cooped up in there wasn't helping her, she wandered around the base for a little bit before coming to the war room where she saw Lana was looking rather swamped.
She noticed Kyradia as she approached "ah commander good to see you I'm afraid I haven't much time running your alliance single handedly is not an easy task" the terse tone made Lana's annoyance with the position clear
Kyradia nodded "yeah I'm uh sorry I just got caught up in the mission you sent me on" Lana nodded folding her arms at Kyradia
Her expression softened "yes well as I'm told it has gotten rather out of control, I'm not so annoyed at you though Commander it's the other two advisors I have rather" she paused "choice words for" Kyradia nodded she didn't even want to think about the argument with Kavaraa right now
Kyradia sighed "yeah I gotta admit I thought they'd be back by now Lana" she didn't know what would've happened when they came back, she still stood by what she did but knew how strongly Kavaraa felt about it.
Lana sighed looking agitated "word is that the Basen'thor stumbled across something that required their 'immediate attention' something more important apparently than running the extremely crucial alliance" that didn't surprise Kyradia at all Kavaraa had a tendency to run off on some great quest for some bullshit
Kyradia nodded trying to keep civil about the matter "well um I promise as soon as this whole Zash thing is sorted I will get back to this pointless war" Lana nodded they both were heavily among the belief this war was stupid but the republic and the empire would always be just that and if they wanted to survive they had to pick a side
Lana shook her head "don't worry I've got people beginning to take over their duties so I'm not doing everything" Kyradia nodded they would be totally lost without Lana and she knew that
Kyradia thought a lighter conversation topic may be good "sooooo while I was away something else happened with you Lana?" Lana looked at Kyraida her eyes narrowing in confusion, Kyradia sighed of course "um I dunno the big 6ft Hero of Tython who you're apparently pretty farmiliar with?" Kyradia winked as Lana began to squirm.
Lana held her head "I told him not to tell everyone I want it on the down low to avoid this kind of stuff" Kyradia nodded her smile only broadening to Lana's dismay
Kyradia chuckled "see he didn't actually tell me that I just have a sense for these things" Lana's eyes widened before he let out a long sigh
She responded clearly agitated "I swear why do you do this to me" Kyradia smiled as Lana sulked at her
It was fun to see Lana squirm "Cause you're so cute when you're annoyed, come on Lana it was so obvious you too wanted each other and that comes from the galaxy wide expert of accidentally falling in love" she would never forget the moment when she realised she'd actually fallen in love with Andronikos, oh yeah totally just a 'casual thing' Ky well done dummy.
Lana stifled a laugh "well I guess you do have me beat there, he's sweet ok and he's been through a lot I think we're beyond the point of pining" Kyradia chuckled at Lana it was sweet she finally had someone. Lana changed the subject quickly "oh by the way we need you to have a check up with the doctor about your recent injury" Kyradia groaned more doctors stuff
"Ugh do I have to" Lana nodded seriously
She folded her arms "if you want to keep chasing the sith around then yes Ashara assured me it's necersarry" of course she did stupid Ashara trying to look after her.
Kyradia sighed "fine but I'm not gonna be cooperative" Lana nodded as she got roped into another conversation
She was glad she had someone like Lana who knew what she was doing behind the alliance otherwise everything would just fall apart she could tell. Kyradia made her way to the medbay where she was met by a black haired moustached man tending to a patient, as she entered he spun around to face her with a smile.
He held out his hand "ah Commander so nice to finally meet you you can call me Doc I'll be in charge of your checkup ok" Kyradia frowned at the man awkwardly taking his hand
Kyradia responded "I mean I would call you that considering you are a doctor" he chuckled awkwardly leading her to a table
Doc spoke up again "I must say it's an honour to finally meet your love-" Kyradia was not a fan of his 'oh so charming' tone and interrupted him
"Look 'Doc' if you want to keep your larynx keep the talking to a minimum" his eyes widened as he nodded without another word
Kyradia showed him the laceration scar still rather prominent on her stomach, Doc looked at it closely "looks like it's healing right at least although it's hard to see the scar tissue quite right with these uh markings" Kyradia raised her eyebrow at him "um sorry I uh" Kyradia had a feeling this guy was not used to people not being charmed by his persona
Kyradia stood back up "if you're referring to my Tattoos then yes I imagine they would, we didn't exactly have high tech when I got them so there is scar tissue" Doc nodded awkwardly giving a thumbs up, Kyradia chuckled it was fun to make people like that squirm.
She wandered around the base a while longer trying her best to calm the thoughts but couldn't seem to manage it, she tried to do as Dzûsa said though and headed out to the hill she normally found him on.
When she arrived however she found two men standing there in a rather difficult looking pose, Dzûsa smiled as he saw Kyradia "well hello Kyradia it's nice to see you alive and well, would you like to join me and Arcann we are doing calming stretches" Kyradia was shocked as she realised Arcann was with him
Kyradia looked around awkwardly, she was hoping this was just Dzûsa and her thing other people made it embarrassing "yeah um ok I'm uh surprised to see you here Arcann?" Arcann nodded returning to a normal pose
He spoke softly "Dzûsa has been helping me calm my mind, I find it quite difficult to think about some of the thing I've done and it can be overwhelming" Kyradia cocked her head that was kinda similar she guessed, it was still very awkward the only reason Arcann was alive was because Kavaraa stopped her from killing him.
He had forgiven her but she always felt kinda awkward, Dzûsa spoke up "I think you too share a lot in common Kyradia but mostly you both felt irredeemable" Kyradia guessed Dzûsa had a point it was still very awkward
Arcann spoke clearly noticing the tension "sorry if me being here is awkward I know it is still very difficult for you since you tried to murder my entire family" Kyradia shuddered she knew he wasn't being sarcastic but it sure felt like it
Kyradia shook her head "no no it's ok Arcann I think we're even on that front, I'd think I'd like to join you" Dzûsa smiled as he scooted over making room for Kyradia.
He began to explain each of the stretches they were doing and how to think during each one and after a while Kyradia began to feel much calmer, it was nice with these two there was no judgement one was a former tyrannical emperor and the other a vicious sith no moral high ground here.
After a while they sat down and Dzûsa spoke "I know for the both of you right now the mountain may seem an impossible climb but wherever you want to go you can get there, it is good to know your goal no matter how small or big" he looked at each of them to speak
Kyradia's seemed pretty simple "uh I guess I wanna stop my old master from gaining uncontrollable power" Dzûsa shook his head at her great she already did it wrong
Dzûsa smiled "that's not a personal goal what do you want to change about your headspace" he looked to Arcann to speak
Arcann nodded "when I look in the mirror I don't want to see the Masked man who killed his brother and stood complacent while his sister was corrupted, I want to see the man who worked to make things right and has been performing good deeds since. I don't want to be a shadow of my past" Dzûsa nodded. Kyradia tried really hard to think of what she wanted to change but she didn't know it was all so foggy.
Kyradia sighed "I uh I don't know what I want to change, shit have I done it wrong" did she really have no idea what she would do
Dzûsa took her hand "no no that's ok too you've just begun on this path, we don't all know what we want to change but the first step is knowing we at least want to change something" Kyradia frowned she didn't want to change that much though she just wanted to stop hurting people
Kyradia sighed "I guess it's just I want to stop losing people" Dzûsa nodded seeming to at least understand the sentiment
"That's a start and you may be able to but if you don't that's ok too just as long as you keep your morales in your heart things will work out, be kind that's all anyone can do really" Kyradia nodded not really knowing if she could ever be 'kind' but she appreciated the sentiment. Dzûsa continued "I hope I've helped and feel free to come back any time it's not like this old man is up to much" they both nodded and Arcann got up and left leaving just the two of them
Kyradia looked across to him "I don't think it's as easy for me as it is for him, I uh I have very destructive impulses I just can't control them" Dzûsa nodded stroking his chin
He smiled "Kyradia I was trapped and used as a battery for about 8 years it took me that 8 years to wear the machine down and gain enough power to send out a single message that saved me from 8 more" Kyradia frowned not seeing how it was relevant "we can control anything if we persevere and I'm positive you can control these impulses just keep at it and wear those bastards down" he gave a bright smile and stood up "I'm afraid I must go I am furiously hungry" he chuckled sauntering off down the hill
Kyradia sat there on the hill looking at the landscape around her 'wear them down' she guessed she could try no harm in that.
Her comm crackled to life and Ashara's voice came through "Kyradia I got a lead people matching Zash and Terristera's description just broke into a botanical plant on Kowak, told you patience paid off" the comm shut off, well looks like next stop Kowak maybe Ashara was right a rest had been pretty great...