Inspired by sneek peek to Crazy Train [S8E07]
Sam and Callen entered into the bullpen. Deeks heard them but wasn't really paying attention. "Deeks! Power of invisibility or flight?" Deeks looked up at Sam. "Um, yeah, I don't know. I don't know. That's a good one." Deeks continued on with what he was doing. Sam and Callen looked at each other. "You sleep at the hospital again last night?" Deeks looked over at Callen. "Yeah" "How is she?" Sam was studying Deeks. When did his tee shirts start getting looser? His face paler? "You know, she's the same. I mean but she's better." His eyes looked unfocused. Sam saw him glance over to the empty desk. "Better? Better is good." "Yeah, no it is." Deeks just stared off into the abyss that was his mind these days. He snapped back to real time when he heard Eric announce that they had a case.
Sam was still at his desk as the sun was starting to set. Callen mumbled something about an "appointment" but he thought that G was heading over to Arkady's. As he started heading down the tunnel towards his car, he heard movement in the gym. He went to the entrance and saw Deeks wailing on the heavy bag. Apparently he had been at it for a while based on the amount of sweat on his arms and how wet his hair was. This has got to stop he thought. Sam slipped into the locker room and got his boxing gear on and went out to join the detective.
"You're angry." It wasn't a question. Deeks just looked at Sam and then went back to hitting the bag. "Is that helping?" Still no answer. Sam shoved Deeks off the bag. Deeks just got back in position and continued hitting. Sam shoved him again, harder. Deeks turned and looked at the Seal. Sam asked again. "Hitting a bag is not helping is it?" His arms dropped. "No it's not but I can't very well punch myself, or Kensi or the job." Sam looked at Deeks, saw everything. His fears, frustrations, anger, loneliness. He had started to notice how Deeks almost seemed numb and that worried him more. If he could get Deeks to let his feelings out, that would help his perspective. So willing to risk their friendship. Sam punched him on the shoulder.
Deeks looked at Sam and took a step back. Sam came out again, hitting the other shoulder. He saw Deeks start to get upset, good. Sam took a shove at Deeks. And then the dam burst. Deeks swung back. Back and forth they went exchanging blows in their imaginary ring. Sam pulling his punches but letting Deeks go full out. Deeks kept coming and coming until just as raised his right hand to send another punch, he stopped. He looked at his glove and then he looked at Sam and he dropped to the mat. Deeks curled into a ball, pounding the mat with his glove and then the tears flowed. "I'm drowning Sam." Sam knelt down and rubbed his friend's back. "Let it out Deeks, let it out." It broke his heart to see two people he cared so much about hurting so badly.
Finally, the tears subsided. Deeks sat up, embarrassed but actually feeling a bit better. "You don't have to do this alone." Sam got Deeks to look at him. "I don't even know what to do for Kensi let alone ask anything of you." "Well the first thing you need to do is take care of yourself. You look like shit. When's the last time you ate a decent meal?" Deeks just shrugged. Mostly he would bring something to the hospital to eat in Kensi's room. "Well that ends tonight. Michelle is waiting on us. And tomorrow, she is going to the hospital to visit Kensi. You and me, we are going to spend some time here. You look like you lost some weight and probably have not been surfing?" Deeks hung his head. He knows he has not been taking care of himself. "Yeah" was all Deeks said.
Sam and Deeks arrived at the Hanna house. Kam jumped into Uncle Marty's arms and gave him a big hug. Michelle was next with a hug and kiss on the cheek. "Sit down you two, supper is ready." Sam pulled Michelle aside. "Baby, I need you to go see Kensi tomorrow. I think she needs a woman to talk to. Maybe you can get her thinking clearly again." Michelle nodded, "I'll take care of my girl. You take care of Shaggy. We will get them moving forward again."
Deeks loved Michelle's cooking and ate way more than he expected. Michelle filling his plate constantly probably helped. Kam entertained him with stories about school and maybe about the boys who were flirting with her. There may have been steam coming from Sam's ears when he heard that. But it was fun, and relaxing and just what Marty needed. After dinner, the family watched a movie. Kam was on the couch with Deeks when she waved at her dad. Marty had drifted off to sleep. Kam slipped off the couch, Sam put a blanket on him and they left the room. Michelle called Kensi to let her know that Deeks had crashed on their couch and that she was coming to visit her tomorrow. Could she bring her anything? Girl stuff, etc.? Kensi actually sounded relieved that he had gone to the Hanna's. She gave Michelle a list of personal stuff that she would love to have. Michelle said goodnight to Kensi.
Sam was turning off the lights when Michelle finished her call with Kensi. He put his arm around his wife and pulled her close. They knew what was needed and they were going to do everything they could to support Kensi and Deeks. They were family.