Let's continue a little with them. I'm just happy to write me some fluff. I missed it so much. This is continued from the last chapter.
Ch 36: Let's Go Home
(Heart's POV)
Alastor just looked at me in the eyes lovingly.
"Can I kiss you?" Alastor asked in a whisper.
My smile widened. "Of course, you can."
I just saw his face almost light up with excitement. He gently laid his other hand on my cheek and he slowly was leaning in. I understood that he wanted to take his time with me, but goddammit man just kiss me already. I know you want to crash your lips into mine. I know he missed kissing me as much as I missed him.
With my one hand behind his neck still, I pulled him forward until he finally placed his lips on mine. Softly of course, I wanted to savor the moment of this kiss. I heard him give off a small buzzing noise when we first connected but it slowly faded away. I felt my mind melt and I relaxed so much. It almost felt like that first night when we kissed, my mind flashed back to that memory of our dance and when he kissed me after. I laid my other hand on his chest as he leaned in. I missed him kissing me. His lips against mine. So familiar, so safe, so loving.
He soon pulled away, but I kept my forehead against his. "I missed that." I whispered.
Alastor let out a hum. "Me too. I missed you my love. All of you." He said as he put his hands from my cheeks to my neck, lacing his fingers.
"Want to kiss me again?" I asked with a small chuckle.
"Absolutely." He breathed out.
"Let's go on the bed." I suggested. "We can be more comfortable, and you don't have to be on the floor."
He nodded as he stood up. We headed over to the bed. Of course, I didn't want to go more than just kissing with him today. My body wasn't ready. I wasn't healed fully. It will be a little while till I have him take me again. At least for now, I can catch up on this first. the little things that I missed.
I jumped into the bed and sat against the headboard. Alastor was still standing by the side of the bed. He almost looked worried and I heard him give off a buzzing again.
I tilted my head at him, putting an ear down. "What's wrong, my buck?"
"I just...don't want to do something again. I don't know if I can trust myself." He said and I saw his ear give a slight twitch.
I just smiled. "I trust you Al." I pat beside me on the bed. "Come on. It will be ok."
I saw him bite his lip a moment but then crawled into bed with me too. His buzzing was softer but not fully gone. He sat down next to me and leaned against the headboard. I leaned against him and just let out a sigh of content. He put an arm around my shoulders. I felt him relax and his buzzing went away. He put his head on top of mine,
"This is nice. I missed just lying in bed with you." Alastor said. He took his other arm and wrapped it around my waist. Pulling me closer to him. "I never want to let you go again." He whispered.
"And I won't let you." I said as I snuggled into his side.
I felt him kiss the top of my head. I looked up at him and then leaned up to kiss him. I wanted to kiss him this time. He was surprised at first but soon started to kiss me back. I took my arms and wrapped them around his shoulders.
I trusted him, I wanted to make the kiss deeper. I missed him so much, I just wanted something...more. I pressed my tongue against his lips and he gladly opened his mouth and he let our tongues dance with each other. I let out a hum at the feeling. I enjoyed this so much. He managed to slip his tongue into my mouth, and I let him explore what he was missing. I know he missed it, the feeling of me. I felt static come off him lightly as we kissed and my fingertips tingled. I missed this feeling.
We separated from the kiss and Alastor surprised me when he picked me up from the bed and then sat me down in his lap. I let out a yelp in surprise. I sat sideways on his lap; I had my arms around his shoulders still. He pulled me close to him. I laid my forehead against his.
"Can you come home with me?" Alastor asked.
I shook my head. "Not yet. I need more time to heal. I'm not fully there yet. Dr. Talon said I'm not allowed outside yet till I am. He has been keeping an eye on me." I explained.
"Then I'll stay here with you. I'm not leaving your side unless you tell me to." Alastor told me sternly.
I lifted my head and opened my eyes to look at him. "Al, you don't have to do that."
"I am and I will." He smirked. "You going to stop me?"
I smiled and gave a laugh. "No, I guess not. I'd rather you be here anyway." I kissed his forehead.
"It's settled then. I'll make sure your nightmares don't haunt you tonight." He said smiling wide.
I looked at him confused and put one of my ears down. "How did you know I was having nightmares?"
"I left my shadow here to watch over you while I wasn't here." Alastor told me.
"That's right. I was wondering about that. It comforted me this morning. I was grateful. He was here the whole time?" I questioned.
"The whole time. I told him to stay hidden so that you wouldn't get freaked out. I still wanted to keep an eye on you." Alastor told me with a little sadness in his eyes.
I leaned into him, so my head rested on his shoulder. "Thank you, Al."
"I'll still try my best to protect you." Alastor put a hand on my head and pet me lightly. "Even when you don't want me to" I felt my tail start to wag at the touch. Alastor chuckled at that. "Your so cute."
I blushed. "Oh, stop it." I whispered as I buried my face into his shirt.
"Darling, can I ask you something?" Alastor asked me as he continued to pet my head.
"Anything." I responded softly, enjoying his touch.
Alastor took his one hand and put it in his pocket. "I hope it's not too early to ask but-" He pulled his hand back out and in his fingers was my engagement ring. "Do you still want to marry me?"
I just stared at the ring in amazement, my ears going up in surprise. "You found it? I was so afraid I lost it when it came off." I reached out gently and grabbed it off him. I laid it in my palm.
"I found it on the bed when I arrived back home." Alastor told me. "I never let go of it. I left it on the bedside table by our picture the whole time you were gone. That way I knew where it would be."
I smiled, "I'm glad it wasn't lost then." I sighed. "I'm sorry you had to come home to that wreck of the aftermath."
"No worries dearest. I will admit it was probably another moment him my life where I felt real fear." Alastor told me.
"I'm sorry." I whispered and my voice cracked a moment from the memory.
Alastor wrapped his arm back around me. "Shhh, its ok. We don't have to think of that day. It's behind us now." He whispered into my ear calmingly.
I just curled up tighter in his lap. It was behind us. I just hated when I would get nightmares about that time. I never want to experience that again.
I looked at the ring in my hand and then just smiled. "To answer your question though." I was glad to see the piece of jewelry again. "I don't need to think about it at all." I slipped the ring onto my left ring finger and just looked at it. "Of course, I still want to marry you, Al." I finally answered his question.
Alastor had a big smile on his face. He took my hand and brought it to his lips. He laid a kiss upon it. "I'm happy to hear that." He said softly.
We were silent for a moment now. I just enjoyed this. I absolutely missed him. I missed these moments of quiet with him. He just kept petting my head. I missed his gentle touch. I laid my head on his chest, enjoying the rise and fall of it with his breath. The sound of his heartbeat under my ear, I missed that a lot. He was calm, he was relaxed. I was glad to be back in his arms again. I sighed in content.
Our moment was ruined when I heard a knock at my door. "Hey kid, ya ok in there?" It was Angel just checking up on me. He opened the door since I did not answer right away. I understood that he was just worried about me with Alastor around since he probably didn't hear anything going on.
When he laid his eyes upon us in bed, he squinted his eyes at us and crossed both sets of his arms. "Comfortable?"
I blushed. "Maybe." I laughed.
Angel groaned. "Well I take it you forgave him, considering your position." I could hear the annoyance in his voice.
I lifted my head from Alastor. "Only slightly, Angel. I'm still mad at him but those feelings are buried further down then my other feelings I have right now." I buried my head back into Alastor's neck and wrapped my arms tight around him, I felt him hold onto me tight as well. "I missed him."
I heard Angel huff. "Whatever." I lifted my head up a little and saw him glaring at Alastor, "Don't think you're getting it off easy Strawberry Boy. I'll keep my eyes on you." Angel warned.
"I am aware. I'll be on my best behavior." Alastor responded.
Angel did that 'I'm keeping my eyes on you' motion with one of his hands. He stood up straight. "I'll leave you guys alone then. I'll let everyone know what happened." He started to close the door. "I'm not in control on what happens after the fact." He said before finally closing the door.
I sighed in relief when I heard his boots echo and leave down the hall. "I know people won't understand." I said sadly, putting my ears down.
Alastor put his hand on my head and I felt him play with my ears. "Don't let it bug you my wolf. It will be ok in the end. You'll see." I relaxed at his touch, closing my eyes. "We have something special so of course they wouldn't understand." Alastor added.
I gave a chuckle. "You can say that again."
Alastor moved himself down the headboard until he was now laying on the bed and I was laying halfway on top of him. I looked down at him and blushed slightly. He chuckled. I still put on a small smile and laid my head down on his chest. I nuzzled into him and just let out a breath. I needed this. Just time to ourselves like this. I felt his one arm wrap around me and he laid his hand on my hip while he took his other and rubbed it up and down my back.
"Can you hum something Al?" I asked him, it was muffled since my face was still in his vest.
As much as I liked the silence, I just really wanted to hear him. Just being like this was almost lulling me to sleep. I didn't even want to sleep but I honestly didn't care.
"Of course, I can." Alastor answered me as he kissed the top of my head. "Do you want anything specific?" He asked softly.
I shook my head as I held on tighter to him. I closed my eyes and hid my face in his side.
There was a moment that went by since Alastor was thinking of what to hum. He knew what I liked though, he started to hum 'I Don't Want to Set the World on Fire'
This man, he knew just what to do to get to me. I missed these moments so much. I was in a more calming state as he continued to hum. I relaxed against him and then I felt myself falling asleep. Just being wrapped up and warm in his arms just added even more worth to it all. I didn't even make it to the end of the song because I just succumbed to the darkness of sleep, the way I've wanted to for the last week, wrapped up in Alastor's arms.
I stayed at the hotel for about 3 more days, during that time Alastor didn't leave my side. He didn't want to, but to be honest I didn't want him to either. He slept with me in my room, he always had me wrapped up in his arms when I woke up. I craved that so much from him and I was glad to have that feeling again. Waking up to his arms around me, the rise and fall of his chest, it was just so content for me. The thing I may have missed most of all about the morning was my little morning kisses he gave me. I would feel him kiss the back of my neck when I was just waking up or having kisses planted all over my face. All depending on which way I was facing him when I woke up. It made me wake up with a laugh and I would smile big from it, Alastor just liked to see me happy. I'm sure he was glad to have me back as well.
I still had my nightmares; I woke up to Alastor soothing me from the night terrors. He would just hold me tight against him. One night I accidently dug my nails into his skin so hard he started to bleed. I was just holding him that tightly. He kept telling me not to worry about him, it was something small that would heal in a few hours. I still would apologize up and down for it. I knew he was a fast healer but that still didn't stop me from worrying. I felt bad that he had to deal with me right now with how my nightmares were. He would always say he didn't mind it because he always wanted to make sure I was ok. Even in my dreams.
Everyone came by to see us, one at a time because they were all curious about what was going on. After Angel saw us, to my surprise, Husk actually came up. He said he was seeing Alastor, but I honestly didn't want to believe that, but it was still nice that he came by. Charlie and Vaggie came together, of course Vaggie was still pissed at Alastor even though he did apologize. She didn't understand why I forgave him. In my opinion, she didn't need to understand, she just had to accept it. Charlie was just glad that we made up and just got everything situated. Back to normal almost. It was nice to hear her say that at least. She told me that she was around Alastor the whole time I was gone and told me how upset he was during everything. I just thanked her for keeping Alastor company and helping him through all that. Nifty came by as well, a little ball of energy still. She said she was happy that we figured stuff out and got back together. Of course, being the curious little thing she was, asked when we planned to have a baby. Of course, I just blushed and Alastor just kind of looked away from her. I then went on to explain that my body needed to heal first before I did anything. We didn't plan anything yet, but it would be soon. The girl was happy with that answer, so she dropped it after the fact. When she left, we just chuckled about it.
Alastor came with me every day when I would go see Dr. Talon. He would wait outside though, because the scientist was uneasy with Alastor being in his exam room. Alastor didn't argue, he just went across the hall then stood there and waited for me. The red wolf demon wanted me to come every day to check on my wounds and see how I was doing. I was just hoping one of these days he would tell me it was ok for me to go home. I was glad my wounds were faded, and I was basically fine. I feel that he mainly kept me around for the last few days because of his experiment to see how I was doing. Of course, I was doing a lot better with Alastor around, but I did still have a few aches now and then but nothing too crazy.
The fourth day I woke up to my surprise, I didn't have a nightmare last night, it was the first time in the last week I didn't have one. I opened my eyes and was met with the chest of Alastor, not bare chested, he was wearing one of his night shirts, but his top buttons were undone, and I saw his skin underneath. I looked up to see he was still asleep. I snuggled into him closer and breathed in his scent. I took my hand and placed it on the bare part of skin and gently rubbed my fingers against him. I loved the feel of his skin under my fingers.
"Having fun my dear?" I heard Alastor chuckle.
I must have woken him up. I took my hand away from his chest. "Sorry." I said shyly.
Alastor grabbed my hand and put it back on his chest. "You can continue darling. I won't complain."
I didn't move at first as he put my hand back on his chest. Then I slowly started to rub him again. I felt Alastor start to kiss the top of my head and then put his face into it. I let out a giggle from it. I was enjoying the feeling of his skin under my fingers, but I wanted to feel more of him. I took my hand and went to the hem of his shirt and slid my hand underneath his shirt to touch the skin of his stomach. He was surprised by the touch as he picked up his head to look down.
"Being explorative, are we?" Alastor chuckled.
"I can stop if you want me to?" I said as I just placed my hand on his side.
Alastor kissed my forehead, "No, you can keep doing what you're doing. I want you to get back to your normal ways, so I'll let you do what you need to in order for you to be comfortable."
"But I don't want you to be uncomfortable." I told him.
Alastor took my chin so that I could look up at him. "My love, you can do whatever you want to me. I'm comfortable with you, no matter what you do. I'm used to your touches and I honestly missed them slightly." He admitted to me and let go of my chin.
I smiled at him. "Thank you, Al."
Alastor leaned down to plant a kiss on my lips quickly. "I'd do anything for you. You know that." He laid his head back down and I continued to rub my hand across his stomach and his chest. I let out a breath of content I was feeling from the moment.
As much as I wanted to stay like this all morning, we had to get up though. I had to go see Dr. Talon. I saw him each morning once I woke up. I just hoped today that I would be ok enough to go home. I loved it here at the hotel, but I still missed Alastor's home and the quietness of the woods.
I took my hand out from under Alastor's shirt. "I have to get up Al. I need to go see Dr. Talon."
I just felt Alastor tighten his hold on me a moment to hold me still. I laughed and looked up at him. "Do I need to kiss my way out?" I joked.
Alastor looked at me with a smirk. "Maybe."
I smirked at well and then just leaned up to kiss the deer demon. I pushed him down until he was on his back and I was laying half on him. He didn't fight back, he just let me do it. I kissed him deeper and I felt him kiss me back. I felt him put a hand on my hip and the other on the back of my head. He pulled me close to himself and he decided to make the kiss deeper as he forced his tongue in my mouth. I gladly let him take over the kiss. My tail just wagged with happiness.
I eventually pulled away when I needed air. "Can I get out of bed now?" I asked him, trying to catch my breath back.
Alastor let out a radio chuckle. "You may."
I smiled, kissed him quickly again and got out of bed to get dressed. I went into the bathroom to get ready, leaving Alastor on the bed. As I got ready, I managed to look at myself in the full-length mirror that hung in the bathroom. Almost all my bandages were gone except for the ones that were for my back. I sighed. My ears going down. Valentino dug his claws so deep into my back, I know I'll have scars. Alastor never dug that deep so when I healed, he left no marks. Now I will. I don't want them! I didn't want anything to last from those few days I was in their hold. Luckily, he didn't do any other damage to me. I wrapped my wings around myself for comfort for a moment.
I got out of my thoughts slightly from a knock on the bathroom door.
Then I heard Alastor say, "Dear, are you alright? You've been in there a while."
Have I? I didn't even realize. How long was I standing in there looking at myself? Hating myself. I didn't even notice that I had tears falling down my cheeks. When did I start crying? My thoughts going back to those few days. I wrapped my wings tighter around myself.
I heard another knock. I was zoning out again. I decided I shouldn't keep Alastor wondering about me, so I went to the door and opened it. I saw Alastor standing there, a look of concern on his face. I didn't care if I was still topless, my bandages still wrapped on me and covered me up for that most part, but I wrapped my arms around him in a hug. I held onto him tightly and cried into him.
I felt Alastor stiffen from my sudden action. It was a few moments till I felt him wrap his arms around me gently and lay his head on top of mine. "My wolf what's the matter?" I heard him ask me in a whisper.
I just continued to cry into him, not saying a word. My ears were tight against my head. I was just too wrapped up in my emotions now. I then felt Alastor pick me up into his arms and carry me over to the bed. I didn't fight back; I just gripped his shirt tightly. He got in my bed, sitting himself up against the head board and he made me sit in his lap as I cried still. I just had my face in his chest as I held him tightly. He had a hand on the back of my head, stroking my hair while his other hand laid on my hip. I don't know how long I cried for, but I eventually started to calm down. I felt Alastor pet my head and every now and then would bring his fingers to my ears to gently touch them with his fingers and back down again. His hand on my hip found its way to my tail as he brushed his fingers in it. He knew what to do to calm me.
My tears slowed and I eventually was getting my breath back. I was breathing so hard, but I tried to control it and calm myself.
"You feel better dear?" I heard Alastor ask quietly in my ear.
"I think so." I whispered in reply.
I felt him kiss the tip of my ear. "What brought that on?" He wondered, his voice still low.
"I don't know." I admitted. "I was just looking at myself in the mirror." I gripped his shirt tightly as my ears went back down. "I hated looking at myself. I hated everything about me." I took a breath, so I didn't start my tears again. "I don't want these scars. I don't want them." I said that last part with a growl in my throat in anger.
"I understand, I don't want them on you either." Alastor laid his hand on my back gently. "You know what though." He took a pause as I looked up at him. "Scars can show weakness, but they can show strength as well." He told me.
"How?" I wondered.
Alastor smiled and moved some hair out of my face. "Because they tell a story of how you survived. Even though they were made by cruel hands, you still managed to make it past it all. You fought even though you were down. You were brave through it all."
I looked down at him a moment as he spoke. "I wasn't brave. I was used. I was a toy. That's not bravery. That's weakness."
Alastor took one of his clawed fingers and put it to my chin. He made me look back to him. "It's' not easy to overcome an overlord's power. Especially the strong ones. Even after all that though, you still came out with your head high and never lost hope. You still had your fire burning even though you were in a weakened state."
I sniffed. "Yea, I never wanted to give up. I just felt so tired after everything I had no strength to fight back. Plus, I didn't want them killing me, so I just cooperated." I paused. "I just wish I could have stopped what they did."
Alastor leaned forward and placed a kiss on my forehead. "Everything will be ok darling." He then leaned his forehead against mine. "I won't see you any different in my eyes any longer. I won't let my darkness take over again." He opened his eyes to look into mine. "You are beautiful my little wolf. Don't hate yourself, love yourself. You know why?"
"Why?" I bit my lip so I could hold back tears.
He leaned over and kissed me softly on the lips for a small kiss and pulled away, "Because I love you and I will always love you. No matter what. I'll look at you and always think you are beautiful. I love you for who you are."
I couldn't hold back anymore as tears fell from my eyes again at his words. "Alastor." I breathed out his name as I closed my eyes. "I love you too." I put my face into his neck. "Thank you." Was all I whispered as I let tears fall.
I felt him hold me tightly. I didn't want to leave the room. Not with myself being this much of a mess. I figured I could hold off seeing Dr. Talon till later. For now...I just wanted to be like this. Wrapped up in Alastor's arms until I calmed down.
Eventually I did feel better after a while. I ended up taking a small nap on Alastor, was only about 45 minutes but I guess I just needed it to rest my brain. I felt better once I woke up and did finish getting ready. I figured I can go see Dr. Talon now and get it over with. Alastor told me that if I were able to leave today, he would take me out for breakfast. I got so excited then, I just hoped I was strong enough to go out now.
We were in the elevator now, heading up to where Dr. Talon was. My hand laid in Alastor's as I leaned against him. Part of me was nervous. I shouldn't be but I was just having things run through my head. My ears were back, and my tail wrapped around my leg slightly.
I felt Alastor kiss my ear and I looked up at him. "Calm down my love. It will be ok." He said with a small smile.
I took in a breath and let it out. "I'll be ok." I whispered.
I felt Alastor squeeze my hand in reassurance. I looked up at him and gave him a small smile. The elevator stopped and we walked out into the hallway. Alastor let go of my hand as we got to the door and he stepped back until he was on the other side of the hallway. I knocked.
Soon the door opened to show the red wolf demon and he had a smile on his muzzle. "Ah, Heart, my young lady, it's good to see you. I was worried when I hadn't seen you earlier this morning." He gestured for me to come inside. "Come on in and we can check you out."
I went inside the room and Dr. Talon closed the door behind me. I went to the table and sat down. I took my shirt off because I knew he would want to check my back. I held my shirt to my chest. We went over the normal stuff, him asking me how I was doing, if anything hurt. Anything of that nature. I answered his questions and then he checked all my wounds. He unwrapped the bandages that were wrapped around me and I turned so he could look at my back. I felt him run his furred hands across my back, examining the scratches.
"They look really good. They healed up well. I shouldn't have to worry about wrapping them up now." Dr. Talon told me.
I gave a sigh of relief. "Thank goodness. They were getting uncomfortable." I told him.
The wolf demon gave out a chuckle. "I can understand that. Although I will say that your back will probably have scars."
I frowned and put my ears down. "I figured as much."
Dr. Talon put his hand on my shoulder and his ears were back. "I know you don't want to hear that, but I wanted to let you know. If anything, I can put some oil on your back to help with the scaring later on. That's about it though."
"Thanks Doc, I understand. Not much I can do about it." I said sadly.
"It will all be ok. Don't worry. Things will be ok." Dr. Talon said as he went over to his desk. "By the way, you should be all healed now after your miscarriage. So, you can be sexually active if you choose to." He added.
I put my shirt back on and just looked down at my lap. I didn't even have a thought of sleeping sexually with Alastor yet. My thoughts of what Valentino and Vox did to me still haunted in my mind. I don't think I was ready for that yet. I knew I would eventually, but it would take me a little while. Plus, I still had to talk about the baby stuff with Alastor.
"Thanks Doc, but I don't think I'm going to be doing anything to to soon." I told him. "I'm not ready after what happened." I said low as I played with my pants.
"I understand." Dr. Talon then walked back up to me. "Plus, if you do get back to that step and want to continue my experiment I'll be staying here."
"You're going to stay at the hotel?" I wondered, my ears going up.
He nodded. "Yes. Princess Charlie said I can stay permanently since I don't really have anywhere to go anyway."
I smiled. "That's awesome Dr. Talon. I'm glad you'll be around here still." I put my hands together. "As for your experiment. I'm sorry I'll be putting you on hold for it." I apologized. "I still need to talk to Alastor about it all."
"No need to worry. This time I can try and work on the formula and try to get it better. I want to make it permanent but I'm still trying to determine if I want it to be a permanent thing or not." He shrugged. "I'll work it out. Hopefully when you decide to help me again, I'll have it all situated."
"Thank you. I still want to help you. I'll be happy to when I get back up to snuff." I just smiled. "Because I do want to have a kid with Alastor at some point. I think we might wait till after we get married though."
Dr. Talon just smiled at me as well, "I hope you guys make up fully then." He chuckled. "Better invite me to that wedding."
I chuckled as well, "I'll make sure you get an invitation."
The wolf demon sat down at his desk. "You can go home today if you want. I know you want to ask me. The answer is yes. You can go out now and go home with Alastor if you want." He told me.
I stood up from the table with excitement. "Thank you, Dr. Talon. I appreciate it so much for you looking after me with my wounds."
Dr. Talon winked. "That's what I'm here for." He waved me off. "Now go off. Don't keep the Radio Demon waiting."
I nodded. "I hope I can see you soon." I said as I waved goodbye and walked out the door.
As I closed the door, I looked across the hallway to see Alastor standing there twirling his mic cane. He saw me and pushed himself off the wall and made his mic disappear. "How'd it go?" He asked.
"Very very good." I answered as I wagged my tail. "My back wounds don't need to be wrapped up. My other wounds are fully healed." I told him with a smile.
"And?" Alastor seemed to be pressing me for more.
I gave a giggle. "I can go home with you finally."
Alastor's smile widened. "That's fantastic." He went up and pulled me into his arms for a hug.
"I agree. I want to get some of my stuff together and we can head out." I said.
Alastor nodded, "And I can treat you to some breakfast." He poked my nose.
I giggled again. "I'd really like that."
We headed to the elevator when we stepped inside, we went back down to my room. With help from Alastor I was able to get some of my stuff all packed up and some of the clothes that Charlie let me barrow. I folded them and put them at the chest at the foot of the bed so Charlie could see them and get them cleaned. We walked down to the lobby after I got everything together and I could say goodbye to everyone before I left.
When we got to the bottom of the steps, Charlie ran up to us. "Oh Heart! Are you ok enough to go out?"
I nodded. "Yes, I just saw Dr. Talon and he ok'd for me to leave." I smiled.
"Aw I am glad to hear." Charlie smiled with excitement. "You still going to the garden before you leave? I found that flower you asked me to get for you."
I saw in the corner of my eye Alastor looking at me funny, but I paid him no mind and I just smiled at Charlie and nodded. "Yes I am. Thanks so much Charlie for doing that for me."
The hell princess nodded. "No problem. Let me go get it for you." She walked away.
Alastor turned to me. "You didn't mention going to the garden." He whispered to me.
I look at him with a sheepish smile. "I didn't want to keep it a secret and I didn't want you to stop me from what I planned to do." I told him.
"What do you plan to do?" Alastor asked.
"You'll see" Was all I said as Charlie walked back up to me.
She had a purple flower in her hand. "This is the right one correct? The Hyacinth?"
I smiled and took the flower from her that was in a tiny pot. "That's it. Thank you, Charlie, I wanted to just close the door finally and I feel that this is the right thing to do." I told her.
Charlie smiled at me, but it showed a little sadness. "I understand and I think it's a good idea." Charlie agreed.
While I talked to Charlie, Angel Dust was just walking down the stairs.
"Hey there babe?" He greeted me as he stood next to me. "Ya all good to go out back to the real world huh?"
I laughed at his statement. "Yes I am. I am all good to go."
Angel put an arm around me. "Glad to see ya doin' better, kid." He grabbed my cheek. "If ya need me for anything I'll be open to help ya. Alright?"
I gave the spider demon a smile. "Thanks Angel. I know you're a phone call away."
Angel smiled and messed up my hair then walked away.
I looked up at Alastor. "Let's go to the garden before we leave." I mentioned and all he did was nod.
I looked back at the demon princess, "Thank you again, Charlie. I'll be back soon. I'm going to just relax at home for a few days."
"Take all the time you need. I even called Glenn for you to let him know you wouldn't be at work for a few days." Charlie let me know.
"I appreciate that." I gave her a hug. "We'll be off."
We both waved goodbye and we headed down a hallway that headed to the back of the hotel and to the small garden in the back. Alastor was quiet and I looked at the flower in my other hand. We walked out into the garden and Alastor let go of my hand. I went straight over to the small tree of the garden. I remember helping plant a lot of this stuff in the garden, this tree was here but I carved into it like the teenager I felt. Head over heels in love and I wanted to show everyone. I laughed at the thought.
I kneeled in front of the tree and dug a little hole beside it. Once I thought it was deep enough, I looked at the flower one last time before putting it into the hole. I put the dirt back over the base of the flower until it was covered back up. I just kneeled there at the ground and looked at the flower. Lost in thoughts.
I felt Alastor walk up behind me. "What's your plan with this my dear? I'm interested in knowing."
I looked over my shoulder at him. "I wanted to plant this flower." I answered, I got nervous about it.
"What for?" Alastor wondered.
I looked away and gripped my hands onto my pants, I was worried about telling him the real reason. I decided to explain the flower first. "The Hyacinth is a flower that's a symbol of sorrow and regret. It is to let a loved one know that you are aware of their suffering and that you care. It acknowledges the pain when dealing with loss." I explained. "I thought it seemed fitting."
There was a long pause until Alastor spoke, "Did you plan this for the baby you lost?" I heard Alastor ask, his tone didn't change. He didn't sound angry.
I sighed lightly. "Yes. I just felt it was fitting in some way. To close the book on all this. A goodish ending." I looked at the flower. "A proper goodbye."
Alastor put his hand on my shoulder and I just looked up at him. "I think it is a good way to end it. I will agree. I won't be mad at you wanting to do this. I put you through a lot."
I smiled, "Thanks Al. It's all ok. I forgive you." I looked at the flower again and just gave it one last smile before standing up.
Alastor wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "Let's go get some breakfast and head home darling."
I nodded as I leaned into the deer demon. "Let's go home." I whispered.
I have a lot more planned. Get ready for all the cuteness!