Nothing good will probably be in this chapter so get ready with some tissues. Angst, lots, and lots of angst.
Ch 51: Heartbreak
(Heart's POV)
I opened my eyes and I saw I was in the middle of our bedroom. I was honestly confused as to why I was here. I looked around and everything looked the same and ok. I don't remember much of what happened. I remember being in the restaurant with Alastor and everyone else. I remember dancing with Alastor. I remember going to the restroom. Then I remembered...Mimzy.
She did something to me. I don't even know what. I remember my dragon form. Then it smacked me. I had transformed...I wasn't supposed to! Dr. Talon said it could jeopardize my pregnancy. I started to think of what happened after everything. I couldn't and I was honestly starting to freak out.
I don't remember what happened after I turned. But Alastor flashed in my head a moment as he looked at me sadly and he was petting my head.
Everything went dark after that.
It didn't make sense that I was home though. Standing here in the middle of the bedroom. Why? I was trying to wrap my head around everything.
Maybe I was dreaming? I had to have been. If I was dreaming, then maybe she was here. Maybe it was a sign if she was here.
Running to the door I opened it and ran out into the hallway. "Elena?" I called out softly.
Waiting to see if I heard a response, I heard nothing. I walked into the study and didn't find a thing. I went to the stairs and investigated the living room and I didn't see anyone at all. There was no one here?
Walking down the stairs and looking into the kitchen. "Alastor?" I looked around and didn't see him at all.
Turning around I looked around the living room again. I didn't even see Rufio. I opened the front door and I didn't see anything. No hound. I turned down and looked down the hallway and slowly walked down it. If Elena was here, then all the pictures would be too right?
"Elena?" I called out again.
Getting closer to the door, it was not the same. There were no pictures. Just a plain white door. I tried to keep my mind straight. Not freak out and keep my breath even. I continued to walk until I hit the greenhouse. I opened the door and looked around. There was nothing, the flowers were blooming and the normal stuff that Alastor grew was still sprouting.
My breath was coming out shaky now. I didn't know what was going on. I couldn't find anyone. Everything seemed different. The only thing my mind could think of was...Elena didn't exist.
No. No that can't be true.
I walked out of the greenhouse and back into the house. I looked at the door again and I felt tears starting to form. I put my hand against the door and my tears then fell. I slid down till I was on my knees.
"She can't be gone." I whispered out loud through my tears.
I put my face in my hands and cried there. My mind was working on things. Going through everything that happened. No. If Elena wasn't here, then she doesn't exist. That can't be possible. No. I don't want to think that. I don't want to think that I lost her. That she was gone. She was the only comfort I had some days in dreams after I had nightmares. No.
"She can't be gone." I whispered again as I grabbed the front of my shirt in anger.
It was all Mimzy's fault. All her fault!
My brain then stopped when I heard a voice, but it was different, almost a little deeper but it still sounded like a kid, "Mom? What's wrong?"
My ears shot up, I felt like I stopped breathing. Did I hear that right? I didn't move. I watched as my tears hit the floor.
A hand then was placed on my shoulder, it was a small hand, "Mom, are you ok?"
I froze then turned my head to look over my shoulder. I was met with the face of a boy. He must have been about five. It was weird to say but he looked like Alastor. His hair was black with red trim, with deer ears and I noticed dragon horns on his head. He had that smile like Alastor with sharp teeth but not as yellow. I saw a pair of wings on his back. He was in a red dress shirt with a purple bowtie with a heart shape.
He snapped his purple hands in front of me, "Mom, it's AJ, snap out of it. It's like you're seeing a ghost or something."
Saying nothing, I slowly felt myself breathing but I was having trouble. It was like I was taking gasps of breath. I saw the boy's purple eyes look at me scared; he didn't know what to do with me.
He let go of my shoulder and ran down the hall, for that split second, I saw a deer tail behind the young boy, "Dad!" The boy yelled out then disappeared around the corner. "Dad! I think Mom's having a panic attack, I don't know what to do!"
Then before I knew it, I fell to my side and my world went black again.
I opened my eyes and shot up from my lying position. Pain shot up through me a moment that made a wince escape between my teeth, but I ignored it for the time being. I sat in a bed and I looked to be in the hotel, but the room didn't look familiar to me at all. I was still breathing heavy still and I didn't realize that there was someone there until I felt a hand on my shoulder. I jumped in surprise and looked over to see Dr. Talon standing there. I felt at ease a moment seeing him.
"Wo, wo, easy." The wolf demon told me, trying to keep me calm. "It's ok, you're safe. Take deep calming breaths."
Doing as the scientist said I started to take deep breaths and I felt my heart rate return to normal. What in the world happened? I looked down at myself and noticed that my torn up dress was no longer on me. I was naked and was just being covered by a blanket.
"Lay down." Dr. Talon ordered me and lightly pushed me back down.
When I slowly went back down onto the bed, I felt that pain again. I didn't know if it was a wound I had received or if it was from me transforming, either way it was dull but still stabbing.
Dr. Talon patted my shoulder, "You seemed to have had a bad dream, but I am glad you are awake now."
"What happened after I passed out?" I asked, still groggy from sleep.
"From what Alastor told me, you went on a rampage and then passed out. They brought you straight back here to me at the hotel. He said that this Mimzy woman was the one that made you demon transform." I nodded. "I see. Then I took some of your blood to see what happened and I saw the puncture wounds still on your wrists, so I assumed she used her nails. It seemed like there was some kind of chemical or toxin on the end of her nails that seems to trigger demon aggression. Make them angry and spiteful. Never seen something like it before so it was interesting to study."
"I see. So, me getting more angry than normal wasn't my imagination." I sighed and put a hand to my face. "How long have I been out?"
"At least a day." Dr. Talon answered me.
A sigh escaped me, and I rubbed my eyes, "Where is Alastor?"
He let out a small chuckle, "He is down in the lobby with the others. I wanted my space so I could examine you."
"Ok, at least I know he is here." As I put my hands down and looked at him, I could see that the scientist was not telling me something as I saw a sadness behind his eyes. "Doc, is there something else you need to tell me? Looks like something is troubling you."
Dr. Talon ran his hand through his tuft of fur that sat on his head and looked away from me with his ears down. There was something and I had a feeling I knew what it was. I was scared to think about it. My dream couldn't be real...right? It was just a dream. Sometimes when I had a dream like that though it was weird to imagine if it was or not. Plus, I didn't know who that boy even was. I sat up in bed a little, pulling the blankets with me to cover me, and put my back against the headboard, the pain was there but I pushed past it.
The scientist sighed and just looked at his clawed hands in his lap. "Yes, there is, but I know you won't like it as much as I didn't." He took a pause. "With you having transformed into your demon form, the anger and stress you were in from this Mimzy, plus the chemical that was unwillingly put into your blood; it all added up and it went downhill." The wolf demon looked up at me and it looked like he was about to cry.
"Dr. Talon...Please." I said softly and I felt my tears building. This couldn't be happening. Not again.
"I'm sorry Heart." The wolf demon took one of his clawed hands and put it on top of mine. He held onto a moment then squeezed it. He sighed. "You miscarried." Finally, a tear fell from him. "I'm sorry it turned out this way. There was nothing I could do. Believe me if I had the power to change things I would, but I can't stop what had already happened."
At those words, my tears that were building had started to fall. No. No. Not again. Why? I pressed my free hand to cover my eyes as I cried. It wasn't fair. I was doing so well. I did so good. I did everything I was told. Why did fate have to be so cruel to some. Of course, what more could you ask for when you are in hell? It was only natural to have shit happen to you.
Putting my hand to my cheek I looked to the wolf demon. "Does Alastor know?" I asked low.
He shook his head. "No, I haven't told him yet."
I took in a shaky breath. "Can I be alone? Please?"
"Of course." Dr. Talon patted my hand. "I'll go down and see them in the lobby. Want me to send them up after a little while?"
All I did was nod as a sob escaped me and I covered my face again. I felt the wolf demon give my other hand a squeeze again as I heard him get up and leave the room. After he was gone and I sat there alone in my thoughts I started to cry more.
Hell was just how it sounded, a miserable place. No such thing as a happy day. My happiest day was my wedding, but at least that went as planned. I wanted our wedding and honeymoon to end on such a happy note. Which is why I decided to get the serum injection in the first place. To have our special day be even more special. To have that happy ending. Ha. Happy ending? What the fuck was I thinking. This was hell. There are no happy endings. Just endless torment and pain...like I was feeling now.
Here's to me hoping everything would have gone ok for me. That I would have gone nine months without a problem. What a joke that was. I don't deserve anything nice. There was no light at the end of my dark tunnel. My dreams will just always stay that way. It just pulls at my heart though...to see something I can never have. I'll never have the life I want. Sure, I had Alastor, that's all I would ever need. I had it in my hands though, the chance for us to start a family and it was all shattered. This experiment had given me this thought of a family and its what I wanted, but I guess I wasn't allowed to. Hell was all I was going to get. My life was hell.
I don't deserve my life. What was the point of it? I didn't deserve Alastor. All I did was bring him misery since the beginning. All I am is an annoyance. A thorn in his side. I wasn't worth it all. I wasn't worth fighting over. I can't even protect myself most days. All I am is weak. Why would he even love me like this? We both didn't deserve to bring another life into this hellscape. We probably never will. Maybe it was better off that way.
Plus, maybe Mimzy was right, I'm just a sad pathetic dog. A dog with nothing to give in return. He just married me to get close enough to kill me. He was secretly afraid. Maybe my best way out was to escape. To run away. Get away. I wasn't important enough in others' lives. What was the point? I know Rufio would miss me, but I know he would have a home here with Charlie at the hotel. I know the girls enjoyed him so I know he would be best in their care. There would be no way that Alastor would keep the hound around if I were gone.
My tears continued to fall down my face as sobs got stuck in my throat. I looked up and over to the bedside table as something shined from the light entering the room. I saw that it was my necklace I was wearing last night and my wedding band. I grabbed the ring and looked at it a moment. Looking on the inside of it to see the deer antlers engraved on the inside.
I gripped my hand around the ring. "I'm sorry Al. You don't deserve me, and I don't deserve you. All I am is just a nuisance." I cried.
I looked at the window of the bedroom. It was painful but I got up out of bed and walked over to the window. I looked out into the city. The forest just beyond that. Maybe it was my best option. I looked at my hand and saw the ring still sitting in my palm. Walking back over to the bed, I placed the ring on the end of the bed. Hopefully, he would see it.
Cleaning away my tears as best I could, I walked back over to the window. I opened it and stuck my head out, there was a gust of wind in my face. I sighed and backed away from the window. Not like I was restricted anymore, I transformed into my wolf demon form. I shook my fur a moment. I looked at the room one last time before I jumped out the window. My wings carrying me. I still didn't like to fly, but for now, for me to get out, I had to. I flapped my wings, heading for the forest. To get away from the city. Be somewhere quiet and secluded. I wasn't going home. I couldn't go home. Should I even call it home anymore? Didn't matter, I flew and tears still fell from my eyes. I tried to clear my tears away with my paw, but it was no use because they just continued to fall. I gilded through the air and before I knew it, I had hit the tree line.
I looked down at the treetops below. I saw Alastor's house break from the trees. It was hard to see but I knew where it was so I could see it. I continued and looked down still and saw the clearing with the waterfall, the place where Alastor proposed to me. Still I continued to fly on. I don't know where I was going, but it had to be away from here. I saw a small cliff face to my left with a small clearing and a river going through it. I flew down and decided to land in it.
As I trotted to a stop, I looked around the small clearing by the cliff. I licked at the water a moment, it tasted fine. I looked to see a giant tree by the cliff with a few bushes nearby. I walked over to it and I was protected from the harsh hell sun once I got out of the clearing. I pushed a few fallen leaves and pieces of moss around to make a softer place to lay. Then I decided to settle myself down by the tree, my head laying on one of the tree's roots.
I'll just live my life like this now. Roaming the forest in my wolf demon form and away from others. It would be a different kind of living but I am sure it was something I could get used to. Until I was hunted for and killed. Then I could be stuffed like the hell wolf Alastor had in his trophy room back in the bayou. That or until the extermination came.
A sigh escaped me as I closed my eyes and my tears came back again. "I love you Alastor. I always will. I'm just sorry that I had to be a burden on you." I sniffled and tried to get comfortable as I laid on the ground.
(Third Person POV)
Alastor was waiting in the lobby. He has been all day. He didn't leave. He couldn't leave. Not with everything that happened last night. He knew he wouldn't worry but he was anyway. Especially after what happened to Heart. The deer demon had one thing that he was afraid of what happened, but he tried not to think of it. Heart herself was probably ok, but everything else he wasn't sure about.
He had Husk go to his house to take care of Rufio. Alastor was sure the hound was worried for them when they didn't come back home last night. Hopefully, the winged feline could handle the beast. Charlie had stayed by Alastor's side through all this while she had Vaggie take care of the hotel. Just because they were sitting around waiting doesn't mean the hotel could.
Charlie was just as worried for Heart, especially her mentality after all this. She was her friend, she had to stick by her no matter what. Her mind was also in the same place as Alastor's, even though they didn't know it. Heart had gone into her dragon form; she wasn't allowed to. It would cause complications with things. Charlie tried not to think of the worst, but she couldn't help that.
Angel had gone to his room with Russ, who stayed the night. Angel wanted to wait with them but it was too much for the spider demon, so he went to his room. He just told Charlie to come to him if they heard anything. Russ was just as worried about Heart, he cared for her wellbeing just as much as everyone else. So, he went with Angel to keep him company and calm.
Alastor sat on the couch in front of the fireplace while Charlie sat on the other side, she wanted to give the radio demon some space. He just stared into the fireplace, but the fire was not lit. He just stared, not thinking of anything. He didn't trust his mind for anything right now. Plus, he knew that his radio waves have been everywhere this whole night and he was sure it was getting annoying to some. He already thought the worst of this outcome and he wasn't ready. Alastor smelled blood coming from Heart while they drove to the hotel and he didn't take that as a good thing. As soon as he took her to the wolf scientist he was kicked out and had been pacing all night since then. He finally rested his feet by sitting on the couch.
The deer demon looked to his left hand and just looked at his wedding band. He had been messing with it all night. Something had to be wrong. He kept twisting it around his finger unknowingly as his mind was lost. He has been lost multiple times but this one was different. A different kind of unsettling feeling weighed down on his heart. Finally, he just sighed. He put his elbows on his legs as he leaned forward and put his face in his hands. He had been trying to hold back the urge to cry all night, but it was slowly becoming a losing battle. Still he tried.
Charlie saw Alastor lean forward with his head in his hands. She frowned. She has been watching him. Watching over him and she could tell that he was holding back really hard. He was trying to be strong as he could right now. She watched him pace the hallway then pace the lobby. She watched as he messed with his ring on his finger without thought when his hands were behind his back. Even just now when he was looking at his hand. She could hear his radio frequencies fade in and out all night. Going high in volume sometimes that not even he realized. She was worried about him. Worried about what he was thinking or holding back on.
Both of them were brought back down when they heard the elevator ding. They both picked up their head and looked over the couch to look at the stairs. Dr. Talon soon appeared and was walking down the steps. He saw them and they didn't say a word and watched as he got to the bottom. He walked over to them and then stopped in front of the couch.
"Any news Marcus?" Charlie asked him.
Dr. Talon took off his glasses and put them in his lab coat pocket. "Yes. I came down to tell you that she is finally awake."
"Oh, that's great to hear." Charlie gave a sigh in relief but Alastor did nothing as he continued to sit there and look at the wolf demon. Charlie looked at the deer demon with a worried frown.
Alastor flicked his ears and finally said. "I know you have something else. I can see it in your eyes."
Dr. Talon nodded and cleared his throat and took a breath, his ears went down as his tail stopped moving. "I'm sorry Alastor, but she had a miscarriage. There was nothing I could do."
Charlie didn't say anything as she held back a gasp and put a hand to her mouth and then looked to Alastor. He had his hands balled up into fists and was looking at the ground with his jaw clenched. His hair covered up his face, but Charlie could see the red glow his eyes gave off. She also heard his buzzing become louder and louder until it finally just cut itself off.
The wolf demon continued, "She is taking it very hard I'm afraid, so when you go up to see her please be aware that she is in an unstable condition. She most likely will go into a depression of some kind so I recommend keeping an eye on her when possible." Dr. Talon informed him.
Alastor took in a deep breath to calm himself. A few tears had escaped his eyes, but he didn't want anyone to see that. Damn Mimzy, damn her. He wanted so bad to run out those doors to find that devil woman and rip her to pieces, but he had to keep himself calm. He had to deal with Heart first before he could go out and deal with Mimzy. He took another deep breath.
Alastor picked up his head and looked to the scientist. "I want to see her."
Dr. Talon nodded, "Come on then." The wolf demon started to walk towards the stairs then.
Alastor stood up from the couch and walked after him, but when he passed Charlie, she grabbed a hold of his sleeve. He would have not been ok with this action, but he knew she did it because she was worried about him.
"Al, are you going to be ok?" Charlie asked him softly.
Alastor looked down to the demon princess with hurt in his eyes, "No, but for the time being I have to be." Charlie frowned. "Afterwards though, once I get my hands on Mimzy, I'll make sure to take something of hers like how she took something from me." Alastor growled as his eyes glowed again, his radio stations flickering a moment.
Charlie slowly let go of his sleeve, "Want me to tell the others?"
"If you wish." Alastor answered her and continued to follow the wolf scientist.
Charlie just sighed and stood up to go to Angel's room to tell him first.
Alastor and Dr. Talon walked into the elevator and back upstairs. The ride in the elevator was silent, except for the flicking of radio stations now and then from Alastor. The wolf demon looked at Alastor from the corner of his eye as the deer demon had his head down. That was definitely a first for him. To be honest, Dr. Talon felt back for him. Just in this last year they both have been through so much. Just when there was a small bit of light at the end of the tunnel, it collapsed on them.
Soon they reached the floor and Dr. Talon took him to the second room on the left. "Charlie said I could keep her in here while she rested." He knocked on the door. "Heart, we are coming in ok?"
Dr. Talon headed inside and Alastor walked in behind him. When they both walked in, they were in a state of shock.
Heart was gone.
Alastor knew that there was something else wrong. He wanted to freak out but tried to stay calm. He looked around the room and he noticed the window was open. He walked forward and looked out the window but saw nothing.
Dr. Talon on the other hand was freaking out. "Oh my god where did she go! I swear to Satan that she was here. I promise you! Oh no, oh no!"
"Doctor! Please calm down." Alastor shouted. "This is not your fault."
The wolf demon took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He took a seat in the chair that sat by the door.
Alastor looked to the bed and walked over to it. Her scent was still strong, so she didn't leave that long ago. Now as to where she went, he was not sure. Alastor then saw the shine at the end of the bed from the corner of his eye. He looked and then he saw it sitting there, it was Heart's wedding band. He picked it up and put it in his palm. She must never have put it back on. He looked to the bedside table and saw her necklace. Alastor was worried that she didn't take these things with her.
The deer demon summoned his shadow. It uncurled from his feet and appeared in front of him. Its normal grin on its face, "Find her. Then tell me where she is. Go look in the forest first in case she headed back home."
The shadow nodded and then sank back to the floor with a few other shadows following suit as he sent others with it to search.
Alastor looked back down at the ring in his hand and gently placed it in his pocket and then picked up the necklace and put it into the same pocket. He then turned to the wolf demon who was still trying to catch his breath. "I will find her. Don't worry. I'm sure she didn't go far." Alastor told him.
"Thank goodness. I really do hope she is ok. I just worry about her mental state." Dr. Talon said worriedly.
"I'll take care of her. I'll make sure she comes back here to see you." Alastor said.
"Thank you. I just want to talk with her a little myself, but if you want to take her back home first then be my guest. She just needs to rest for a few days." The scientist told him.
The deer demon nodded. "I'm going to head home and see if she went there, but if not I'll make sure to let you know what happens."
Dr. Talon nodded and Alastor walked out of the bedroom.
Alastor walked out of the hotel and into his car. He started it up and drove off down the road back home. She had to have gone somewhere. As soon as he got home, he would look for her in the woods as well. It's the only quiet place there was that she would want to escape to. He knew her, she likes it when its calm and quiet. Especially when in a bad state of mind. Soon he pulled up to the dirt road that led to the house and one of Alastor's shadows came back to him. They found her. Very deep in the woods but they would show him the way.
Once Alastor got to the house he parked the car and got out. He took off his jacket and set it on the driver seat of the car. He made sure Heart's jewelry was secure in the jacket before closing the door. If he was going to go running through the woods, then he better be suited better for it. After a few seconds Alastor had transformed into his deer form, his red fur shining in the red light the beamed down from overhead.
He took off into a gallop and the shadow led the way for him. Deep into the woods he went, elegant as he could probably be in this form. They went past the clearing with the waterfall and basically followed the river for a little while until it branched off and they followed one of the streams. Taking a leap over the river he continued his stride as he jumped over fallen trees and rocks that littered the forest floor. Keeping his nose sharp as well he could soon pick up the smell of Heart not too far away. He saw the looming of a small cliff face up ahead and there was a clearing as well. The shadow still leading the way. He jumped into the clearing and slowly stopped.
The shadow returned to him. Alastor flicked his ears as he tried to listen, but his nose was flooded with her smell. He took a few licks at the water before he walked over to the bigger tree on the outskirts of the small clearing. Using his nose to follow. As he went around the tree, he soon found Heart. She was still in her wolf demon form, which surprised him. She was laying there asleep on the ground in a pile of leaves and moss. Her one wing was draped over her while her muzzle was tucked under her paw. He could see that her muzzle was still wet from tears that fell.
"My poor little wolf." Alastor whispered sadly.
He walked up closer to her and put his head down to put his nose in her fur around her neck. She did not stir from his action. He walked around her to her back. There was enough space between her and the tree for him to lay. Tucking his front legs under him he laid down behind Heart and was close to her since their sides touched. Again, she did not wake from his movement.
Alastor looked down at her a moment and felt his sadness wash over him as well. He was hurting just as much from the loss, but he was trying to stay strong. It was very difficult to do so. He laid his head down until it was on her neck and nuzzled into her fur and got comfy. He took in a breath then let it out, taking in her sent again. It was a weird way to be laying as they both were in their animal forms, but he was ok with that because at least he got to lay next to her. Comfort her while also comforting himself. At least he still had her.
Soon his tiredness was catching up to him from not sleeping all night as he soon fell asleep as well, in their comfy little spot under the tree.
(Heart's POV)
I was waking up from my nap. I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep. I had cried myself to sleep. I opened my eyes and looked around to see that I was still laying under the tree in the forest. I took a breath through my nose and it was then I smelled something familiar, but at the same time different. I went to try and lift my head but when I did, I felt weight upon it. I was confused. It was then I felt the body next to me as well, its breath rising and falling against me.
Slowly I lifted my head and looked back. It was then I saw him.
It was Alastor.
Sleeping peacefully with me in his deer form. His head resting against me. He had moved it further down when I lifted my head and he mumbled something.
Why was he here? Why was he lying with me? How did he find me? I was all so confused. I tried to run away to get away from him, but it looks like it didn't work. I had to get away again. I had to leave. All I am is a burden to him. I tried to shift out from under his head slowly but that didn't seem to work as he then was waking up. I should know better, Alastor could be a light sleeper sometimes.
He blinked open his eyes and then slowly lifted his head with a yawn. I saw his sharp yellow teeth all along his mouth as he yawned big. He shook his head a moment before looking towards me. Even in his weird deer form he was still able to smile.
"You awake now darling?" He asked as he looked down at me.
"Yea." Was all I answered softly and looked away, putting my ears back.
I couldn't see but Alastor had put his ears down. "It wasn't easy trying to find you at first you know."
"I didn't want to be found." I answered him quickly as I put my head back down on my paws.
He laid his head back down onto my neck. "Why?" He paused but I did not answer. "Talk to me my love. You know you can tell me anything."
Without reason I just started to have tears form again as my thoughts from earlier returned. "I ran away. All I am is just a burden and a nobody. A nuisance. All I do is cause you trouble and then you have to come and save me. I'm just a weak pathetic demon. I'm just a scared dog. You don't deserve me." My tears started to fall again.
Alastor started to rub his nose against my neck and up to my ears. "Heart look at me. Please?"
Sniffling I tried my best to raise my head and looked over at him. I saw the concern in his crimson eyes as he picked his head back up to look at me. "I don't know why you think this but I want to let you know that you are not a burden to me, because I care about you and I never care about anyone other than myself. You are the exception. You're not a nobody to me, you are my wife, my lover and I love you very much. I don't want you to forget that. I deserve you. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me." Alastor put his nose against the side of my head and nuzzled me.
Tears still fell and I tried to blink them away to get the blurriness to subside. "But all I do is bring trouble. That and I guess I am not allowed to have nice things for once. The one thing in hell I want, and it seems like I am not allowed to have." I put my head back down and covered my face with my paws. "It's all my fault I lost the baby. I lost Elena."
"How do you know it was her?" Alastor asked.
"My dream I had after I passed out. She wasn't there. She was gone. I lost her." Tears fell as I recalled the dream. "No one was there. Not even you. I was alone." Then I remembered the boy, but I decided not to tell Alastor about him. Not yet.
"My darling, who knows what the dream could have meant. I assure you, that she will be here still. No matter what. Maybe she will return to your dreams. Don't lose hope."
"Maybe your right." My mind went back to last night in the bathroom. "I should have had better control over myself despite what Mimzy did to me. I should have fought harder." A sob got stuck in my throat and it rocked my body a moment. "I just wanted our wedding night to be special with conceiving the baby then. I wanted to have that be the final light at the end of our tunnel. Now I'm back in darkness. Now I feel that it was all for nothing."
There were a few moments of silence that went by because Alastor didn't know what to say at first. I felt Alastor get back up, already missed the feeling of his warmth beside me. I heard him walk around me then I opened my eyes to see him lay down in front of me facing towards me.
He leaned forward and put his nose against mine. "Heart, it's not your fault. The only person to blame is Mimzy. I'll make sure she gets what's coming to her. Not only for what happened but for hurting you as well." I put my paws down so I could see him better. "She is the reason our fawn is gone, and I will make sure I take something from her as well. It only seems fair. No one hurts my family and gets away scot free." I looked at him and I then saw a tear fall down into his fur as well. I knew he was hurting too. "Our wedding night was special. That whole week we were away was special, baby or not. It will still be a special time for me. So, don't go beating yourself up over it."
"Al." I whispered out. "Thank you. I'm sorry for doing all this. Making you worried."
"It's alright my little wolf. As long as I still have you in my life that's all that matters right now." He rubbed our noses together. "Don't think of yourself as weak. I've told you many times how strong of a demon you can be. We can get through this together. Ok?"
I took a small breath to calm myself. "Ok, we can get through it together."
Alastor paused and then whispered. "You know we can always try again."
A sigh escaped me, "I know, but I think I'm going to wait again. I need to get over this first. I've been hit harder than the first time so I don't know when I will want to try again."
He rubbed his nose against my muzzle. "Of course, sweetheart. I'm just letting you know that I am ok with trying again. Whenever you are ready, I'll be ready. Then the next time we will make it the whole way. I know we will." Then Alastor let out a chuckle.
I lifted my head and tilted it. "What's funny?"
He stopped his chuckle. "Nothing my dear. I just want to picture what you'd look like with a baby belly."
My ears felt hot. "Al stop it." I whispered and covered my face with my wing.
"Sorry love, I couldn't help it." Alastor smiled. He then stood back up. "Are you ready to go home? You need to rest still, Dr. Talon's orders."
Moving my wing away I looked up at him. "You still want me at home?"
"I always want you at home. You are the one that makes that place brighter." I finally smiled at that. "Fully dressed my dear. That's how I love to see you."
I giggled and stood up on shaky paws. "I know, I'll try to smile more right now. I'm ok now but who knows about later."
"I'll be with you the whole time. Don't worry." Alastor reassured me. "Now it might be hard walking back normally so we should stay like this until we get home."
Giving myself a good shake to get my flat fur even I took a stretch. "Guess that's a good idea. Unless you want to ride on my back, and I can fly us home?"
Alastor shook his head "No no dear. Save your energy. You are still healing after all."
"Guess you're right." I agreed.
I looked up at Alastor and even though I was in my wolf demon form he was still a little taller than I was. My head came to about his neck. I walked up to him to nuzzle my muzzle against his neck. "I love you, my great buck." I said into his fur.
Alastor chuckled. "And I love you, my little wolf." He responded and put his head down to put on my neck as well.
Taking my head away I said, "Let's go home. I promise not to try and run away again."
"Splendid idea." Alastor turned and started to walk into the clearing. I walked next to him. "Doesn't matter where you are or where you go darling. I will always find you." He said looking down to me.
My wings flapped a little as my tail wagged. "I know. I don't expect anything less."
We walked together side by side into the woods and back home. Where I knew I belonged no matter what.
(Third Person POV)
Mimzy sat back in her office as she spun around in her chair as happy as can be. "Oh, I bet he will be here any day and I know he will take me. After what happened last night, he has to come running to me."
It was nighttime now. Mimzy had the radio on as she stopped spinning her chair and fixing her lipstick with a tiny mirror on her desk. After she was done, she made sure it was perfect and then sat back in the chair with a happy sigh.
Then something weird started to happen. The radio shut off and she lost power in her office for a few seconds before it came back on. Then a loud screeching started to come through the radio but as she got up to turn it off it stopped. It was now doing a low buzzing noise.
"What the hell?" She thought out loud.
She turned around from the radio but then something creepy came through. It was low and was almost hard to hear through the buzzing. It sounded like her name.
Mimzy turned back around to face the radio. "Al?"
The buzzing noise became louder and her name was more audible. "Mimzy."
She was now freaking out. "Alastor this isn't funny if it's you." She shouted over the buzzing.
The buzzing then stopped, and the radio turned off. Mimzy looked at it confused. She shrugged it off and then turned back around, but when she did, she was faced with someone she was and wasn't' expecting.
A shadow stood by her door, but the blackness disappeared and there stood Alastor as he leaned against his mic cane. She watched as his shadow locked the door.
"Al, what a nice surprise. I was hoping I would see you. Not this soon though." She said smiling.
Alastor said nothing, but the radio did turn back on and it made her jump in surprise. 'Who's Afraid of the Big, Bad Wolf' by Henry Hall started to play. The area around him started to distort and his eyes started to glow as his eyes slit in anger.
Mimzy started to laugh but there were hints of terror in her voice. "A-Al, y-you seem upset. D-Do you want to t-talk about it?"
"Talk?" Alastor laughed but there was strong radio static behind it. He picked his cane up with a twirl. "There is no time for talk, witch. Only action!" He put his fist up with enthusiasm.
Mimzy then watched as his antlers started to sprout from his head and start to twist around like tree branches. His eyes turned into radio dials and his static was more pronounced and was spreading around the room. Voodoo symbols floated around him. His claws grew longer, and he held out his mic cane as it started to glow as well.
Mimzy was now on her knees in front of him. "Alastor please. What did I do? I'll make it up to you, I swear."
"You hurt me. You hurt my wife. Now you have hurt our very hearts for what you did." He scraped his claws against her desk as he walked over to her.
"I-I'm sorry, Al. I'm s-s-sorry. Please. Please don't hurt me." Mimzy was now crying on the floor.
He did not want to hear no please or pitiful excuses. He grabbed the woman by her dress she was wearing, she looked at him with teary eyes as he opened his mouth as he showed off his sharp teeth. "Heart was pregnant, Mimzy." The woman let out a small gasp but Alastor continued. "Now, because of you, she miscarried, and had our family ripped out from under us both! All because of your disgusting jealousy and selfishness."
"A-A-Alastor I didn't know. I'm s-s-sorry. P-Please." Mimzy whimpered.
His voice now clouded in static all he said was, "You took something from me." Mimzy's eyes widened in horror. "Now I get to take something from you!"
Mimzy screamed and it was heard all over the radios of hell that night.
Mimzy probably wont be coming back, but if she does...she wont have much to say. I hope you enjoyed this very heart wrenching chapter. Was nice for myself to get seme feelings out as well.