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As reference - Dr Montgomery is Adison from Private Practice

Chapter 12

Tegan's condition remained unchanged for the next few hours. Stable but critical. It was around 10.45, Lindsey was holding Tegan's hand whispering things to her. She looked at her wrist watch and felt a spurt of adrenaline. She kissed Tegan's hand and got up "I have something that I need to go take care of, I won't be long ok guys. Stay with her please" she said. Erin and Sara looked up at Lindsey confused but nodded reluctantly. Sonia was finally sleeping after being up most of the night taking care of everybody else. "What's that all about?" asked Erin as soon as Lindsey had left the room. Sara shook her head "No idea... take care of? Anyway... whatever" Sara looked up at Tegan's heart monitor and studied it intently.

Lindsey was on the table in the exam room wearing a gown waiting to be examined by Adison. A nurse already took a blood sample and send it to the lab. "Hi Lindsey" said Adison gently. "Hey doc" said Lindsey nervously. "How you doing? I heard about Tegan, I'm so sorry, it must be really difficult for you right now" she said rubbing her hand. Lindsey burst into tears for no apparent reason. Adison just put her arms around Lindsey and held her close as she shook with emotion. "It's okay Lindsey, Tegan's a fighter she's going to be okay" said Adison trying to calm Lindsey. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry" said Lindsey still sobbing. "It's ok, let it out, I understand" Adison spent a few more minutes comforting Lindsey who was a wreck. She looked like a zombie due to the worry and lack of sleep. "Okay, let's have a look. Nice deep breaths" said Adison. Lindsey swung her legs onto the bed and lay back. She breathed deeply and relaxed a bit. She felt Adison squirt cold gel onto her stomach, she felt the ultrasound under her bellybutton" She looked at the screen, unable to make out a thing. Her heart was racing. "The blood tests should be back in minute" said Adison gently. With that a nurse came in holding a piece of paper. Adison looked at the screen with a blank expression on her face...

Sara was standing on a balcony getting some fresh air. "There you are kiddo!" said her dad walking over to her with a cup of much needed coffee. "Hey Dad" said Sara and gave him a weak smile. "How are you holding up Sar?" Stephen asked concerned. He hated seeing his kids in pain, physical or emotional. It was the worst feeling in the world. "I'm okay... how are you dad?" Asked Sara. "I'm fine munckin" he said putting his arm around her giving her a squeeze. Sara started to break down. "This is all my fault dad... All my fault... My fault" she sobbed. "What on earth are you talking about Sara?" asked Stephen confused. "We're supposed to look out for each other... I should've looked out for her better... We look out for one another, that's what we do! I should've taken her to a doctor earlier" she sobbed hysterically. "Don't be silly Sara. This isn't your fault... There's no way you could've seen this coming!" Stephen tried to soothe Sara. So many feeling and emotions were running through Sara. "She was sick before she went on stage dad, I could tell she was sick... She was sick the whole day and I let her go on stage anyway instead if rushing her to a hospital... Maybe if she got here earlier..." Sara trailed off "Kate was clear about the fact that she would probably be just as sick now even if she got here earlier Sara... Shhhhh... It's not your fault Sara! You know as well as I do that when your sister makes up her mind about something, nothing and nobody will change it for her. She would've gone on stage anyway unless you chained her to something"said Stephen reassuringly knowing that Sara was bearing her soul to him. "I know... But I... I should've tried harder... I thought she was okay Dad... She seemed okay... I'm sorry... I... Tegan's the most important person in my life and... I feel like... I've let her down. I've let my best friend down..." Sara said softly still sobbing... They suddenly felt a rush of air as a helicopter came around the building. A photographer and a camera man was hanging out a window taking photos and video of a distraught Sara and her father.. "Those fuckers!" yelled Stephen. He shielded Sara's face and hastily led her inside.

Tegan's condition was unstable, she would be better one hour and worst another. Kate seemed worried as she stood next to her bed checking her vital signs and listening to her heart and lungs. "there's still a lot of fluid on her lungs, we should get her in the prone position as soon as PE is ready for her" she said to Karev with concern in her voice. He left the room to go organize Tegan's physical therapy. "Guys, we've got this okay" she said looking at the 4 women around Tegan's bed. "We've got this" Lindsey took Tegan's cold hand again and held it to her cheek. She watched Tegan's chest move rhythmically up and down, up and down. The ventilator hissed and added to the many other sounds of machines that could be heard in the CCU. Tegan had pillows under her arms and knees and some sort of blow up boots around her feet that came up to her knees. They got pumped up and released a few times every hour to improve Tegan's circulation. They just finished one of their pre-programmed sessions. Lindsey noticed that the critical numbers the doctors were referring to often didn't improve... they stayed the same or they got worse. "Tegan, sweetie, you need to fight ok! You need to fight this with all your might Tegan." She said sternly "With everything in you... you've got to be ok... I love you so much and I'm right here with you... I know you can hear me Tegan, I know you can. And I know you're not giving up." Sara felt as if she was intruding, listening to a private conversation so she got up and stared out of the window... "I love you angel, please fight Tegan" she said louder this time "you've got to be OK Tee..." she said in a softer tone, her voice breaking with emotion. "You're going to be a mommy..."

Sara spun around and faced Lindsey. Erin, Sonia and Kate stared at her speechless for a few seconds. "What did you just say?" asked Sara confused. Lindsey kept quiet for a few seconds and just stared at Tegan's broken face. She was still so incredibly gorgeous. "Tegan's going to be a mommy guys, I'm pregnant..." said Lindsey softly, eyes still on Tegan. Tegan of course didn't stir – the monotone, rhythmic beeping of the heart monitor continued... "That's where I was earlier, I went to see Dr Montgomery... " said Lindsey looking sad. "That's such great news Linds!" said Sonia smiling and gave her a hug "Thanks grandma" said Lindsey smiling for the first time in what seemed like days. Erin turned to Lindsey and took her hands in hers "I'm so, incredibly happy for you! Congratulations... Are you OK Lindsey?" Lindsey nodded quickly "Tegan's going to be fine okay! She's going to be just fine" continued Erin rubbing Lindsey's hand fast. "That's awesome, we're going to make sure this mommy is ok Linds..." said Kate. Sara's face was expressionless at first while she tried to comprehend what she just heard. The corners of her mouth turned up and turned into a huge smile "I'm going to be an aunt! ... I'm.. going to be an aunt guys! Congratulations Lindsey, you guys are going to be amazing mommies... you hear that Tee – you're going to be a mommy... that's weird..." smiled Sara. Lindsey just closed her eyes and mouthed "thank you" and held Tegan's hand to her cheek. "I didn't know you were trying again?" asked Sonia. Lindsey took a deep breath. "We kept it quiet this time. Didn't want to disappoint everyone again. This REALLY is Tegan's baby guys... we used her eggs this time" Sonia was getting emotional again and had her hands in front of her mouth. "You go Tegan! Quin for the win!" said Sara jokingly while mock punching Tegan's shoulder. "We implanted two embryos but it's too early to tell if both are viable, we'll know in 15 to 20 days and hopefully we'll see the heartbeat. But they say I'm definitely pregnant. The blood tests showed a very high hormone count... I know Tegan would have wanted to give you the news herself but I ... I can't keep this to myself ... I just can't" said an emotional Lindsey. "Tegan will understand Lindsey – you need support right now" said Sonia rubbing her back. "Guys, don't tell anybody else yet please? I ... I just want Tee to get better first and make sure this pregnancy is viable" asked Lindsey. "Sure. Listen, you need to start taking care of yourself if you want a healthy pregnancy Linds" said Sara sounding concerned. "Dr Quin's right you know. You need to get some rest – I guess there's nothing you can do about the stress factor but take it easy ok?" said Kate. Have you told Jeremy?" asked Sara. "No, not yet... I'll tell him today"

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