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Chapter 18

"All right that's another minute let's shock again at 360" said Teddy looking at the clock. Kate grabbed the paddles and put them on her friends chest. Her breathing was fast and heavy. Outside Sara felt another shock run through her and yelled in pain, the crushing feeling didn't go away. Sonia couldn't understand why Sara jolted every minute.

"Clear – shocking" Tegan's body jumped once more. Kate's head whipped around to face the monitor. ...

Sara started loudly wailing again "Noooo Tegan, please, Tegaaaan... this is taking too long mom, this is taking too looooong" Sara was losing it completely, her entire body was shaking. Arizona came running into the room with a syringe. "Sara, calm down it's okay. Calm down Sara" she said calmly. Sara screamed louder than ever "Tegaaaan" Sara's screams felt like knives into Sonia's soul. "We're going to sedate her Sonia" Arizona said to Sonia. Sonia just held Sara even tighter preventing her arms to move. Sara felt something sting in her upper arm... double vision... blurring... then the blackness took her away... away from this pain.

"I love them so much Corey, I want to be with them... and I want to live but I just can't ... do it... It's too hard. I can't fight anymore" said Tegan as she started crying.

The monitor's squiggly line went straight after the shock. "Asystole" said Teddy calmly but emotion broke in her voice. Kate started pumping on Tegan's chest again "No Tegan, NO, not like this... I'm not losing you buddy... " mumbled Kate. "Nooo, FIGHT Tegan!" wailed Lindsey. Erin still had her steady arms around her but she started to sink to the floor taking Erin with her. She started shaking, still hanging onto Erin. "Come on, come on Tegan, come on" whispered Kate under her breath. Tears started spilling from her eyes and rolled down her cheeks. She looked down to hide them and saw a tear fall onto Tegan's chest. "Let's get another epi into her... IV push and an antropine bolus" said Kate out of breath still pumping. "Dr Altrman can we switch please" she asked. Teddy took over compressions and Kate took a penlight out of her pocket. She shone the light in and out of Tegan's pupils. "Pupils 6mm, very sluggish but reactive. Still flatline!" she said. Time passed and CPR continued in silence. About a minute later Kate looked at the monitor and yelled "we're back in Fib let's shock at 360.

Corey held Tegan in his arms. "I want to go back Corey, I want to go back" she jumped up. "That's my girl" smiled Corey. "Tegan, you need to run into the lake, that will take you back. You have to do it quickly!" Tegan smiled a massive gummy smile at Corey. "Love you Corey, see ya later bud" she ran towards the lake.

"Clear – shocking"

Tegan got thrown back by what seemed like an invisible force field. A shock sent her flying to the ground. She landed on her back. "What... What was that..." she asked confused. "You have to try harder Tegan" said Corey.

"No conversion let's try again at 360" yelled Kate.

Tegan ran towards the lake again with more determination this time.

"Clear – shocking"

Tegan felt the force field knock her back violently again. "I need to get back... Corey how can I get back" she pleaded.

"Dammit –still no conversion, let's try another round of compressions and epi" said Kate looking petrified. Lindsey started crying, never taking her eyes off Tegan... "Tegan please baby, please Tegan. I love you Tegan, you can do this" she pleaded.

Tegan could suddenly hear Lindsey's voice... pleading for her to get back. Tegan started sobbing ... "I can't Linds... I can't..." she was sitting in front of the force field with her head in her hands... She heard Sara's screams and she flinched... I'm sorry Sara ... I tried... Sara... she fell to the side and lay on the grass, seemingly in pain.

"Time? asked Kate loudly. "7 minutes doc" said the lady recording the code. Kate was out of breath, tired, scared but not giving up... not yet... But she knew she was running out of time.

"Tegan please my love, please come back. This baby needs you Tegan... she needs her mommy" Tegan jolted up, she stared at Corey. "A baby? Why didn't you tell me?" she asked looking hurt. "I couldn't Tee. Not allowed... try again Tegan, try for your baby" said Corey. Tegan stood up and ran towards the force field with all the determination in her body. She felt something suck her in forcefully. Suddenly she was hovering over her hospital bed. She saw Kate pumping hard on her naked chest. She saw Lindsey and Erin whimpering in the corner.

"I need a cardiac needle, I'm going to try and remove some fluid from the cardiac sack" said Kate. She knew it was risky doing this under these circumstances without the proper equipment, but that equipment would take time. Time she didn't have. "Dr Morgan I don't think you should..." Karev got cut off by an irate Kate "If I hear anything except 'Yes doctor' from you I'll have your license ... I'm running this... Do it" she yelled.

Tegan was scared, she tried with all her might to get back into her body but she couldn't. I can't leave them... I have to get back.

"Hold compressions - fine VF" Kate ran her fingers over Tegan's rib cage. When she found the spot between Tegan's ribs she was looking for she plunged the hideously long needle into Tegan's chest. Sweat beads were forming on her forehead. She slowly pushed the needle in with her eyes closed. "I feel it, I'm in" she retracted the plunger of the syringe slowly producing a watery liquid. She pulled some more, the syringe filling fast. She pulled the needle out of her chest slowly and looked up desperately to the monitor. "Stronger VF, I want one more epi and 20 seconds of compressions to circulate before we shock again" said Kate taking the paddles. Teddy started cardiac massage again. "Okay Tegan, this is the one, come on buddy come back to us" Sonia entered the room again looking dazed.

Tegan watched Kate put the paddles on her chest and heard her yell "clear" She felt the sucking sensation again... Everything went black.