I Don't Think We Can Be Friends Anymore

After getting home from an uneventful day at school, I was a little miffed that Bella hadn't told me anything about what happened between her and Edward after I left. All throughout lunch she kept avoiding my glances so I opt to stare down Edward from across the mess hall instead. He was a lot tougher since he could probably read my mind and knew exactly what I was wondering about. Occasionally he would glance in my direction, catching my eye and smiling at me, which only irritated me more. Well, whatever! Bella will most likely text me after school when she gets home. The text I was expecting never came. And for the longest time I was becoming more and more impatient until finally Colt asked me to box a little with him. His excuse was that we haven't boxed in a while I was probably getting rusty, something he didn't like the idea of, but I knew he knew I wasn't in the best of moods and decided to hep distract me.

When I was in middle school and he was in high school, according to him, all his friends would comment on how pretty I was and how boys are going to start noticing me more and going after my attention. They also mentioned that if they noticed, other high school guys will notice too and will probably try to go after me. At the time Colt had started boxing as a hobby and to keep him in shape and decided that was the best way to teach me to defend myself and if anything scare away any boy that found out I was a pretty decent kick boxer.

It was definitely a good distraction, not at first no, because as we started out I was thinking about what secret Edward and Bella were keeping from me which caused me to become more and more aggressive and I accidentally gave Colt a black eye. He was a bit pissed off afterwards but let it go, especially because since we were, at the time, in the heat of the moment and we boxed harder so I didn't walk away without getting my own bruises either but his plan worked, I had completely forgotten about Bella and Edward the rest of the night.

The next morning was one of the worst I've had in a long time. I was so sore I almost didn't get up to go to school but Evan came barging into my room demanding I hurry up and get ready so we can head out. Ugh! Curse you for barely getting your license and not convincing mom and dad to get you a car already! Quickly I got up and threw on a black T-shirt that said "Talk Nerdy to Me" and a pair of jeans with some brown ankle boots before putting my hair in a sloppy pony tail and headed out to my car where Evan was probably waiting for me.

When we got to school, like usual, Evan ran out of my car as fast as he could and I walked up the Mike and Jessica's group. They were talking about the theme for prom when Angie spotted Edwards car with an extra passenger inside. We all turned and was greeted with the sight of Bella stepping out of his car with him holding the door open for her. I laughed to myself when she realized that everyone was staring at them and that she was definitely going to be the talk of the school, yet again. They didn't exactly wait for me to catch up, probably to avoid everyone's stares, so I just stayed behind with Jess and Angie. For the rest of the day all we heard around us was the news about Bella and Edward's new relationship. We even talked about it for a little while but it got very old very fast and we just ignored all the talk and went about our day like nothing happened, we enjoyed each others' company rather than drawing attention to ourselves.

Later on after school I was at home waiting while my family got ready to go over to Bella and Charlie's to watch the game. My dad and Colt digging around the pantry for condiments to go along with Billy's "famous" fish fry while my mom packed the coleslaw and french fries she made to go along with the main dish. The twins were "watching" Jenna for mom while playing video games and Mia was making plans to go over to a friends house to hang out and bring Honesty and a play date for her friends younger brother. While I waited I sent a quick text to Bella.

Dang girl! You sure work fast don't you? ;)

What are you talking bout?

I leave you alone with Edward for one day and you two end up dating!

Oh that. It just sort of happened.

Obviously. I didn't think you would be all that interested in him anymore after he started being a dick to you.

He had his reasons.

Hey hey! No need to get all defensive about him, it's your life.

As an afterthought I texted a compliment so she wouldn't be so butt hurt.

You guys look cute together anyway.

Thanks. Do you want to come over for dinner and to watch the game with Charlie?

Way ahead of you. My family is getting into the cars as we speak.

Ok.

True to what i told her, my dad shouted to us all throughout the house at the top of his lungs to get our butts into the car.

Everyone was having a good time at the Swan residence watching and "watching" the game. The men's and Colt's eyes were glued to the flat screen. Evan was trying to watch but kept getting into wrestling fights with Adam who wasn't as interested in watching sports on tv as the rest of them. My mother and I were on a separate couch from the men and occupied ourselves with our phones while Bella tried to look interested but kept getting bored and Jacob was whispering to her not so secretly the entire time whist me trying to ignore them while they sat nearby on the ground in between the couch and the love seat everyone else occupied. I had texted Cami as soon as the game started and hoped that she'd be able to help entertain me during the game and as luck would have it.

How do you politely tell someone you want to hit them with a brick?

After reading her message I almost spit out my tea causing everyone to stare at me while I was trying not to die of laughter. After reassuring everyone I was ok and calming myself down I answered her question.

One wishes to acquaint your facial features with a fundamental item used in building walls. Repeatedly.

That was the most beautiful thing I've ever read.

After that conversation started we began talking about the what happened in the past couple days because Cami had been grounded for a while due to sneaking out and going to a party while her parents were on a date night. We texted all throughout the game and I found out that our old friends miss me a lot. They had decided that they were going to get jobs and save up money for new phones or computers so we can skype each other. Hearing that made my heart ache with anticipation. We talked about boys and the usual girl things since nothing interesting has happened to us very recently. After the the game we piled into the family car and headed over to Mia's friends house to pick up her and Honesty before heading home for the night.

Colt and I practiced boxing while the boys watched and imitated and the girls watched a movie in Colts house leaving our parents with some alone time or really alone time and time with Jenna.

The next two days were really boring. Jessica, Angela and I hung out both days planning how they were going to do their hair and make up for prom, going shopping for the hell of it and just chilling out at Jessica's house. On the third day though, I was at home reading "Blood Secret" by Kathryn Lasky in my room when I got a call from Charlie asking if I knew anything about why Bella all of a sudden hated forks and is literally leaving town as we speak but I couldn't tell him anything since I haven't really seen her since the night of the game and actually spoken to her a few days prior to game night. I promised I would keep trying to call her while he called Renee to let her know that Bella was heading over. I called and called, leaving text messages and voice mails but she wouldn't answer. At some point I had gotten angry with myself for not getting Edwards phone number so I can demand answers to what he did and why he wasn't stopping her from leaving. I thought and thought so many things from ideas as to what happened to cussing out Edward for being a fucking jackass and occasionally Bella for making me care about her.

That night I had a hard time sleeping but I didn't let it bother me as I headed over to Charlie's to get his part of the story and see what we could do together but we couldn't do anything since she was probably already with her mom and Charlie told me that Bella had said the most hurtful thing to him before leaving and I sat there and comforted him for a bit before making him something to eat because I knew he probably hadn't eatten since she left. That night I had my parents come over to help me keep Charlie company before he went into a depression about Bella when he got a call saying that Bella was coming back to Forks the next morning. The day of prom I asked Charlie if he wanted me over while Bella got ready but he declined and said he'd like to be with Bella alone and to be alone with Edward while she got ready. I knew he was going to try and intimidate the boy for what he did and was probably hoping Edward would back out and leave her alone forever. Despite everyone's begging and complaints I didn't want to go to Prom. I'd rather stay at home curled up in a blanket and hang out with my family for another movie night. Music was my life, but not with people I hardly knew as well enough as the ones I left in Bakersfield.

New Moon

It was my senior year in high school and I planned on making the the best of it. Over the summer Jessica, Angela and I had gotten pretty close and I started to let my crazier side out more often, it took some time for them to get used to but not they say that they actually really liked that side of me. Today was September 13th , Bella's birthday she is now 18 years old, but she had begged me not to make a big deal about it so I decided not to but that didn't mean I wasn't going to not get her a present! I spent weeks looking for the right gift for her that I knew she would at least like and/or use and I finally decided on a couple of CD's: Beethoven, Debussy and a few classic rock CD's. I was hoping to get her to start listening to at least SOME of the types of music I listen to.

I was chilling in front of school with the group when Bella walked up, while the group chatted with Bella I sneakily pulled out the stack of CD's wrapped in a small ribbon and handed it to her with a wink. She took them with a frown and continued talking to us until Edward pulled up. The group made unenthusiastic cheers about his appearance before we all headed inside the school. As we were walking inside Angela randomly asked when my birthday was and I told them that it had already passed, my birthday was February 14th, on Valentines Day and I was still only 17. They laughed and/or made comments on how it must have sucked but it really didn't, my family always made sure to spend the day as my birthday and not get me too many things in red or pink, that day is all about me.

In class we were watching a movie on Romeo and Juliet and oddly enough everyone was into it, except me. I hate Romeo and Juliet, who kills themselves over someone they just met and new nothing about, like the fact that Romeo was a complete player up until the moment he laid eyes on Juliet, ugh!

After school was a pretty boring day until Colt got home, I was so bored but so full of energy but I knew one way to get rid of all my energy and give me a good work out so i threw a punch at his face which he dodged. He glared at me until i threw another one, then one more until he ran off into his house. I knew he was getting ready for some practice with me so i ran up to my room to get changed as well before heading into the backyard and waiting for him to open his door to let me in.

It was lunch time at school and hell must have froze over because the Cullens weren't in school today and Bella was at our table though everyone welcomed her. We went on and on about multiple topics but all she would do was stare at the Cullens empty lunch table. I kept it to myself but all day, I had a feeling that something bad was going to happen. I couldn't figure out what it was going to be but it gnawed on the back of my mind until I got home. By the time it was late evening the feeling had completely disappeared from my mind. That is, until Charlie called asking if Bella was with me. He said her truck was out front but she wasn't home.

It had been hours since school ended and he was getting incredibly worried so my family went over to his house to keep him company and to help him look for her. Practically the entire town became a search party for her and we looked in every inch of town until it was dark. Everyone met up at Charlie's for news or to be told where else to look when an incredibly handsome guy walked up with Bella in his arms. He had found her passed out in the middle of the woods completely alone. When i get my hands on Edward he's gunna get an ear full!

After the incident four months went by and she didn't say a single word to anyone the entire time. It was heart breaking but also incredibly annoying. I was both empathetic with her and angry at her but I never voiced my opinions to anyone outside of my family. All four months Charlie asked me to stay near Bella as much as possible to try and get her out of her depression. It was really wearing on him as well. All of September the group constantly tried talking to her and getting her to left her house to go do something.

Constantly I've tried literally dragging her down the stairs but nothing worked. So my entire routine for the next four months was to go to school, go home to eat and change, go sit in silence in Bella's room for a few hours, then go home or go out with someone from the group for the night and repeat. Around November I had completely stopped even trying to talk to her since I never got any kind of response back. In all honesty I only did it this long for Charlie. In the past, when any one of my friends became unbearably depressed over a stupid boy I'd drop them until I saw them getting over it themselves.

In January Charlie had convinced Bella to go out with a friend and she probably knew I was completely fed up with her BS so she had called Jessica to hang out. The reason I know is because Jess had called me right after she and Bella made the plans. Later, on the night they were hanging out, Jessica had called me because Bella had no crazy and decided to go for a joy ride with some random biker dude. Of all the things to do for adrenaline she had to pick the single, most dangerous option of all damn it!

That very next morning I went over to her house after Charlie left for work and gave her an earful now that I knew she's at least reacting to things and somehow after yelling at her and her confessing that she suddenly started getting into motorcycles, she had convinced me to help her find one for her but my ultimatum was that we were going to get two bikes so I won't have to leave her alone to kill herself with it. Reluctantly she agreed, but only after I suggested going to a junk yard to find some and then finding someone to repair them for cheap.

That is how we ended up driving to La Push to go see Jacob. Bella says that apparently he;s a great mechanic. After pulling up it her big red truck with the motorcycles in back, Jacob came running up yelling Bella's name. He probably didn't even notice I was there too. The jerk. "Bella! Where the hell have you been Loca?" he asked her giving her a big ass huge that didn't do anything to hide his crush. Rather than going into small talk Bella went right to the point. "I uh, I brought you something." she said pointing behind her at the covered bikes.

Jacob made a small joke about the scrap metal in her bed when she went on explaining why she got them. "Ok, so that's your new hobby." He stated after hearing her out, "But why is there two?"

By this point I was done being a ghost and answered him. "One is for me since it was my idea to get them from the junk yard and so I can make sure she doesn't get hurt."

After looking into Bella's puppy dog eyes he agreed to fix the bikes and he suggested starting their recovery that day so we followed as he lead us into his garage standing at a distance so as to not get in the way while he took them apart to start from scratch.

"That was a good song." Jacob said after Bella turned off his radio. I ignored her as she told him she no longer liked music while I fished out my Ipod and put one ear bud in before scrolling through and finding a song to start with. I half listened while they went on about doing homework together so she didn't look like a bad influence that lead to age difference that I didn't care to listen to.

Days passed as we went over to Jacob's house every day to hang out while he worked on the bikes. My parents were getting kind of worried about my absence in my own house when I reassured them that I was making sure Bella was doing alright. Some days I would drive up in my own car so that I can leave whenever I felt like it. I'll never admit to feeling like a third wheel most days and sometimes it was nice when he would talk to me while Bella went to the bathroom or went to pick up some food for us to eat.

Finally the day has come, the bikes were finished and I followed the truck as Jacob instructed Bella on where to drive to place where it's relatively safe and no one would bother us when Bella suddenly pulled over and got out of her car. Turns out she saw a group of guys jumping off of cliffs and thought the worst of it. In all honest it looked like fun but I'd much rather wait until its a bit warmer before getting into the water.

Getting to the secluded area we immediately got the bikes out. I waited for a minute while Jacob went through the instructions with Bella to make sure she understood what object did what before getting impatient and going without her, promising Jacob that he'll get a turn on the bike I was using in a few minutes. I was riding around enjoying myself when I noticed Bella finally got started and I cheered her on as I headed towards Jacob so he could get a turn when Bella crashed. It all happened so fast I couldn't see what went wrong, all I saw was Bella flying off her bike and slamming into a bolder. It all happened as I was getting off my bike and pushing it towards Jacob, so when he got a hold of it he used it to get to Bella as quickly as possible while I ran after him.

When I caught up to them I heard Bella saying she wanted to go again. I didn't even hear anything Jacob said to her because I began exclaiming, "Are you crazy! You can't go again you're fucking hurt!" She looked confused as to where she's hurt until Jacob pointed out that the injury was on her head.

I was about to yank of my sweater and give it to her to hold over her cut when Jacob pulled off his shirt completely distracting me for a moment until I noticed they were having their own moment. So I stood up and walked away while yelling to them, "I'm gunna put the bikes up and call Charlie, we need to get you to the hospital!" I couldn't take it any more, I mean, I'm glad she's finally got over Edward but now she's starting to go after the only guy I'm kind of attracted to in this town and he has nothing but eyes for her. When am I ever going to catch a break? I don't think this friendship with Bella and I is going to last much longer.