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"you taste really good" i blurted. i couldn't help it! i was surprised i could even control my smile from attacking my face right now. i controlled my breathing but i could still feel and hear the beating in my chest. i could feel the flapping and flying of what seemed like a million butterflies in my stomach. she smiled and rolled her eyes.
"no i mean did you get what you wanted?" she asked. i did. i wanted to kiss her. that's what i wanted. i came up with a silly plan but i didn't think it would've worked. i thought i would've chickened out, but once i said that first question i couldn't just not go through with it. i did feel bad...she had beck and i tricked her into kissing me.
i just really wanted to kiss her. for real this time. i thought if i did my brain would stop thinking about my dream but instead practically all my thoughts were about the kiss. how good it was. how much i wanted it again...how nice her soft lips felt against mine, unlike any boy i've ever kissed. how it made my body tingle in different places when she was on top of me. how gentle her hands were when they were laying flat on my stomach when she was straddling me.
i found myself looking at those lips again.
"yeah.." i hadn't really thought this far into my master plan. i wonder what she thought of it. did she like it as much as i did?
"we should probably go to bed" she got
up and headed to the bathroom. leaving me to collect my thoughts. i got what i wanted. i couldn't just keep tricking her into kissing me. that was wrong.
by now i figured that with my dream and me even coming up with a ridiculous plan to kiss jade again meant something. it had to. maybe i just liked kissing her. maybe i liked her. i didn't know yet but what i do know is that whatever it is, i sure did not want to let go of this feeling.
when my heartbeat hammered in my chest it gave me a certain kind of rush. and the million butterflies in my stomach made me feel like they themselves were carrying me with them, helping me fly.
i got up myself to turn off the tv. i grabbed the two mugs and brought them to the kitchen sink. before entering the room where i'm sure jade will be, sitting on my bed, i flicked my tongue over my lips to relive that taste again.
i re entered the room to find her exactly where i thought she'd be, on my bed texting away on her phone. i quickly went to brush my teeth before turning off all the lights. she put away her phone when i climbed in next to her. my bed wasn't the biggest out there. my parents figured that i wouldn't need a large bed since i was so small, so for us to sleep in the same bed was always a little...snug to say the least.
out of pure instinct i'm sure, she wrapped her arms around me and pulled me closer. i slowly snuggled my way into her neck, my arm tossed across her stomach.
i felt..cautious, like she could throw me off any second and grab her things to leave. i don't know why, it's not like they haven't slept this way before. heck, it happens every time jade slept over at her house, if they didn't they both would just be uncomfortable.
but now it was different. maybe not to jade but definitely for me. i felt guilty for sleeping this close to her knowing how i felt about her. i was no longer snuggling with her in a best friend way but instead, in a romantic way. "goodnight" she whispered.
if only she knew how much it was killing me to be this close. "goodnight jadey"
i groaned. this was always a difficult task. i shoved her arm again. nothing. "jade!" still nothing.
i'd spent almost 20 minutes trying to wake her up already. sheesh this girl could really be a heavy sleeper sometimes. but in her defense i spent half the time just admiring her face. how relaxed it looked. how gentle her breathing was. how her lips weren't pulled down into a frown.
i had woken up earlier and already took a shower AND got ready. "jade wake up!"
a groan escaped her mouth, i smiled. progress!
i got on the bed and climbed on top of her stomach. "jadeeeee" i sung.
she groaned again, awake this time. she pushed me off with a frown. "cat! it's to early!"
i raised my eyebrows, looking past her at the clock. she turned around to look at it, 10:13 am.
she turned back with a glare. "okay okay i'll be ready in like 25 minutes" i squealed and hopped off the bed to head to the living room, leaving her to get dressed.
my parents were in ohio with my brother so we'll have the weekend to ourselves. that's if she stays anyway. i already had cereal not that long ago so i wasn't really that hungry. i decided to just pass the time watching tv.
she came up to the couch with a grin, her combat boots gruffing against the floor. "sooo i had a couple ideas of what we could do today" she announced hopping over the couch and plopping next to me.
"yay! what?!" i asked my mind racing with thoughts. maybe bowling? maybe shopping? maybe getting ice cream? maybe getting a new puppy! a new turtle even!
"well first off, we're gonna stop for coffee" i nodded my head, i could have guessed that but what about the other stuff?
"and then i was thinking we stop at the store and get some red velvet mix and then we can make it today. i know how much you've wanted some again. y'know if you want" she shrugged. my smile got so big it was really hurting my face now. see, that's the jade i know. the one that cares enough to remember these little things about me that no one else cared to.
i threw my arms around her, engulfing her in the biggest hug my body could bear. gosh, i wish i could just kiss her!
"no! get off!"
that's also the thing about her. i remember i had this class, some character development class i think. one of the lessons was to always read a persons body language when they speak, and not to just focus on their words. i didn't realize how true that was until i connected it with jade. like right now for example. she was yelling at me to get off of her but her hands gently, almost barely trying to pry me away and her face buried in my hug said otherwise. her words liked to lie a lot but i could always figure out what was underneath. something that not even beck could do sometimes. it was my specialty.
i hopped off of her and ran to the door. she slowly got off the couch and walked to the counter to get her keys. she was taking forever! on purpose! i jumped up and down next to the door waiting for her. she walked past me, opening the door, rolling her eyes. "quit bouncing"
"well you take soooo long" i clung to her as she practically dragged me to the car door.
she was watching me intently. the glare her green eyes were making made me fumble the sprinkles i was trying to perfectly place. what if she thought the way my hands move was weird? or was it my hair? i decided not to straighten it, i thought it needed a little break. what if she thinks it's ugly?! what if she thinks i'm ugly?! what if she hates my hair curls?! oh no! what if she hates me?!
"so can i eat one this time? i hate to admit it but..those look really good right now.." she admitted with a small smile. oh she was looking at my cupcakes. phew.
i never let anyone eat my cupcakes. these were my favorites. i'd make any dessert and i love sharing it with anyone who'll eat it but not these...i make these perfectly perfect just for me. but jade did buy the mix for me...and she is pretty special. maybe i could let her have just one?
i looked at the plate of already ready to eat cupcakes on a white plate. i picked one up and examined it. it was a prefect one...looking so delicious. i slowly carried my hand across the counter to hand it to her. she smiled and her eyes lit up a little, holding a hand out for me to place it in. i almost wanted to shed a few tears after she took it. only my brother had one. and that's because he stole one! i remember i cried myself to sleep that day.
i tried to focus back on finishing the sprinkles but how could i when she was eating my cupcake right in front of me!
"it's really good cat. like honestly."
"duh" i swiped my hands together finishing up the last cupcake.
"i've never seen you let anyone have a cupcake before. why did you let me?" she asked, swiping a finger across her bottom lip taking off frosting. my eyes curiously followed her finger before i shook my head.
"you asked" i shrugged. what was she asking?
"yeah but i didn't think you'd let me have one. i thought these were your" she raised two fingers on both hands quoting, "special cupcakes"
did she not think she was special enough for them? "well i only share them with people who are special enough"
she knitted her eyebrows together, thinking. "how many special people are there?" she asked.
"just one!" i stated happily, poking a finger into her arm causing her to smile.
"thank you"
"yep yep" i took a cupcake of my own and unwrapped it. sinking my teeth in it quickly. sometimes i forget how good these actually are. i finished it rather quickly, reaching over to grab another one for me to devour. i looked at the plate of cupcakes and counted them. 6 cupcakes left. i smiled. i slid the plate in the middle of me and jade.
"we can share these. see? look there's an even amount. we can share them" she smiled and nodded. lots of smiles today. i must be doing something right.
oh long chapter! you might be thinking, "author why the huge update? what's with the good mood?" you might also not be thinking that but regardless, i'll answer it!
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