Chapter 58
The next afternoon Lindsey and Tegan was sitting waiting in Dr Montgomery's office. Tegan looked pale and tired after another busy morning. Lindsey and Kate wanted her to stay home to take a nap but Tegan insisted on joining Lindsey for the check up. Leaving the house and getting into the hospital was a difficult task even with 5 bodyguards joining them. Paparazzi were still everywhere and Tegan silently wondered whether the news tonight would speculate on Tegan's health with her being back at the hospital so soon after her release. She clutched Lindsey's hand tightly and tried to still her mind. She was tired but excited.
Lindsey and Tegan stared at the monitor as Adison squirted some gel on Lindsey's stomach and stated rolling the ultrasound around. "There they are! Look at how much they've grown!" exclaimed Tegan. "Yes, they're about the size of two apples now" said Adison and she pointed out arms, legs, ears, noses. Tegan felt a tear roll down her face and she kissed Lindsey on the cheek. "It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen" said Tegan in awe. "You guys want to know the sex?" asked Adison. "Yeah! If you can tell" said Tegan. "Well it could still be a bit early and also it depends on how modest they are. They could be hiding the goods" said Adison. "Their mother is a rock star... I doubt they'll be shy" giggled Lindsey. "Okay let's have a look. Baby number one is... ahhh there we go, look at that... it's a girl" smiled Adison. Tegan and Lindsey smiled broadly. "I've always wanted a little girl" said Tegan. "And your little girl is going to have a... come on baby don't hide from us now..." Tegan swallowed hard and waited as Adison tried to get a better angle. "Ahh... She's already sitting on her brother's head" smiled Adison. "It's a boy?" asked Lindsey. "Yep, there's the penis" said Adison. "Yes! Perfect... this is so perfect... I love you mommy" said Tegan looking into Lindsey's eyes.
Tegan and Lindsey was sitting in Adison's office again holding hands as they waited for Lindsey's blood test results. "Okay guys, bloods are back and I'm happy to report that everything looks just fine" said Adison sitting down. "I want you to take it easy though Lindsey. Get lots of rest please. Try not to get worked up about anything... I want your BP stable. I don't want another scare" said Adison. The smile disappeared from Tegan's face and she looked as if she'd seen a ghost. "What do you mean another scare" she asked. "Tegan... I... you were so sick and they told us not to upset you" stuttered Lindsey. "What happened" said Tegan glaring at Lindsey. Adison could see Lindsey tear up and proceeded to tell Tegan everything that happened. How Lindsey almost lost the babies while Tegan was unconscious and how she was now absolutely fine. "I'm sorry Lindsey, I thought she knew" said Adison. Tegan's tears were now flowing freely. The ripped her hand out of Lindsey's in anger. "Why didn't you tell me... why..." she said looking upset. "Baby... they told us not to upset you under any circumstances... and since then... I don't know I haven't had the heart to..." whispered Lindsey. Tegan got up looking upset and angry "Thank you Dr Montgomery. We'll see you soon for the next check-up. I'll see you in the car Lindsey" she said as she glared at her.
Lindsey came jogging up behind Tegan who was weakly walking back to the car. "Tegan! Tegan please... look at me... Tegan!" she begged. Tegan stopped and turned around. "Not now... not here" she said and continued to walk towards the basement parking lot. She felt winded and tired but the adrenaline rush kept her going. She got into the car and slammed the door. "Give us a minute please" said Lindsey to the driver and security guard as she closed the door. They got out and closed the doors behind them. "I'm sorry Tegan... we couldn't tell you in the hospital and since then... well I didn't want to ruin your happy day yesterday and... I'm sorry... I should have told you earlier" she said. Tegan was still fuming and looking out of the door with her fist in front of her mouth. "I'm not some fragile thing you need to protect Lindsey... I would have been fine. I'm disappointed and angry I'm not gonna lie. But I'm happy everything's fine. Can we go now please. I want to get home" said Tegan. Lindsey waved the driver over and he got in and started driving. Lindsey could see tears rolling down Tegan's face. She put her hand over Tegan's but she yanked it away without a word and folded it over her waist. Not a word further was said on the ride home.
As soon as the car stopped in front of the house Tegan got out, not waiting for Lindsey or the guard to help her. She walked towards the house and felt dizzy but she always felt dizzy when she got this angry. She shoved the door open and wordlessly walked past Sara, Emy, Kate, Erin and Sonia sitting in the living room. "How'd it go Tegan?" asked Sara. Tegan glared at her. Her nostrils started flaring in anger. "Tegan?" said Sonia. "Is everything okay?" Tegan stopped and looked at them. "You... you didn't tell me..." she muttered. "Tell you what Tegan?" said Sara. "That Lindsey almost lost the babies... that... that" stuttered Tegan looking pale. Her chin started quivering with emotion. "Sweetie... shhh... just calm down please Tegan" said Lindsey looking concerned. Tegan was breathing heavily as she closed her eyes trying to contain her emotions and get rid of her dizziness. "These are my kids too you know... who do you think you are making the decision on whether or not I should know about their health and safety" screamed Tegan.
She suddenly felt the world spin. Sara and Kate jumped up and ran over to her. "Easy Tegan... sit down please... you need to calm down Tegan... Tegan..." she heard Kate's words grow fainter and felt her legs buckle underneath her. Sara and Kate caught her and lay her down on the couch. "Shit..." exclaimed Sara. "Can somebody grab my medical bag and send somebody to go fetch the oxygen in Tegan's room please" said Kate. She put her fingers on Tegan's neck and felt for a pulse. It was fast, her breathing was shallow and rapid. "Is she okay... Tegan... wake up sweetie" said Sonia panicked. Lindsey was in tears. "Tegan wake up don't do this again please..." she sobbed. Kate repositioned Tegan's head to open her airway and she rubbed her knuckles over Tegan's sternum. Tegan's eyes fluttered open. "There we go Tee" muttered Kate looking relieved. She was on her knees next to the couch and took her stethoscope out of her bag to listen to her heart and lungs. "Tegan just relax. Stay calm please" she said. Lindsey was at Tegan's head holding her face in her hands. Tegan still felt dizzy and the fury she felt earlier came back to her fast. She pushed Lindsey's hand away. Kate quickly put an oxygen mask over her face and instructed her to take long deep breaths. She took her BP, blood sugar and her pulse ox. "Your BP is very low and so is your blood sugar and pulse ox. Relax please! Somebody get her a cookie or something sweet to eat" she said. Lindsey was hysterical. "I'm sorry Tegan" she sobbed. Tegan pushed the mask away. "It's okay... Lindsey... calm down please... I'm sorry for upsetting you... I'm okay just calm down" said Tegan and looked into her eyes. "Please Lindsey... Adison said you shouldn't get worked up" Tegan seemed to be calming down. "Your BP is still too low I'm putting you on drip" said Kate. "Do you really have to" asked Tegan under the mask. "Yes!" said Kate not taking any shit. She inserted the IV and injected something else into it. Tegan assumed it was glucose.
A few minutes later Tegan slowly sat up in the couch and took a sip of tea. The hurt boiled up again. "I just want to know... what else didn't you guys tell me" she asked looking around the room. "Oh and you want us to tell you now after this kind of reaction... " Sara shook her head. "Yes... I'm fine why couldn't you tell me earlier..." asked Tegan looking upset again. "Oh boy here we go again" said Sara. "Piss off Sara" said Tegan glaring at her. Sara stared at Tegan for a minute. "Tegan I don't think you... " she was cut off by Tegan "I don't think YOU..." said Tegan angry. "Tegan... let me talk please... just shut up for a second before Kate sedates you for fuck sakes" said Sara sternly. Tegan took a few deep breaths of the oxygen flowing into her nose through a nasal cannula. "Tegan... I don't think you understand just how sick you were... just how close we came to losing you" said Sara looking upset. "Everything we do we do with your best interest at heart... I need you to know that... I'm sorry you feel betrayed but this happened while we were... taken... Everybody was given strict instructions not to mention it to you... you simply weren't strong enough to handle it. It would have sent you spiraling down and you know it. And yes, we should have told you later on but we didn't want to worry you. You had been through so much already. There was nothing to worry about any more and we knew you would. I'm sorry. But please understand..." said Sara sincerely. "What do you mean how close you came to losing me?" asked Tegan seemingly calming down. Kate had her hands on her hips and shook her head walking towards the window. "You... umm... Tegan... your heart stopped... twice. And it took really long to get you back. I thought we'd lost you. I've never been so scared in my life... and I... none of us wanted to jeopardize your health by... by..." Sara stumbled for words. "I died?... I... died?" asked Tegan looking puzzled. "Fuck... yeah I guess you could have told me that a bit earlier too... but I'm glad you didn't... holy... How? Did I get CPR and stuff? Did you need to use those shock things Kate?" asked Tegan still looking perplexed. Kate turned around to face Tegan. "Yes, numerous times actually..." she said sternly. "How long was I gone?" asked Tegan looking at Kate. "About 3 minutes the first time and almost 10 the second time" said Kate. "It was close Tegan... really close but you came back to us" she smiled. "You got a shock to your system..." said Sara blankly. Tegan laughed... "I guess I've been alive longer than you have now... " shrugged Sara. Tegan swallowed hard "Okay... I'll give you that" she said and motioned a teary Lindsey over and held her in her arms as soon as she sat down next to her. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Linds... I'm a dick..." she whispered. "No your not... I'm sorry baby" said Lindsey. "I'm sorry guys... you did not deserve that temper tantrum... I understand and I guess I would've done the same if it was one of you... And I... I'm sorry for putting you through so much. I can't imagine what you went through" said Tegan as tears welled up again.
Sara walked over holding a book in her hands. She handed Tegan the large, thick journal. "Here you go... it's a journal we wrote for you. It details pretty much everything that happenend. And it's also so fucking fluffy with our poems and letters you may puke but it's yours. It's probably not the best idea to read it right now but you can keep it. Read it when you're ready" said Sara. Tegan put both her palms over her eyes. "Thank you... I feel like such an asshole" she said. "Hey let's drop it... water under the bridge okay" smiled Lindsey. "Looking forward now not backward" said Sonia. Tegan exhaled and closed her eyes. The meds and the drip was starting to make her feel a bit better. Kate wrapped the BP cuff around her arm again. "You going to take it easy now or do I need to book you another hospital room? Because trust me, I will" she said raising her eyebrows. "I promise... I'll take it easy" she said smiling weakly. "Everything went great at the doctors office" smiled Tegan. Who wants to see a pic of our babies. She said pulling the ultrasound image from her pocket and showing it off. Lindsey just sat with her eyes closed and her arms around Tegan. Happy that she was talked down her anger cliff. "It's a girl... and a boy" smiled Tegan and kissed Lindsey's hair. Everybody congratulated them and took turns looking at the pictures. Kate had to explain what was what time and again and everybody pretended to make something out on the blurry images.
A/N: Tegan! Stop scaring us like that ;) Review please!