A/N: Oh alright! Since I have it ready I won't leave you hanging. Feedback please! It makes me write faster!
Chapter 71
Sara and Erin slowly walked forward. The girl didn't move to look over her shoulder. "Carmen... it's okay... please just get down from there" said Sara softly. Carmen didn't reply. "Carmen... talk to me" she said. Carmen just let out a sob. Sara felt the adrenaline course through her veins like fire, her hands were shaking and she was breathing fast. "Carmen... I'm coming closer" she said. "Don't or I'll jump" sobbed Carmen. "Okay okay... we just want to talk Carmen" said Erin. "The only thing to say is..." she started.
Tegan burst through the door panting. Carmen turned her head around for the first time. She looked at Tegan. "Are you okay Tegan" she said and looked at her idol gasping for breath. Sara stood in the same spot with her hand held out to Carmen. Erin walked to Tegan slowly and put her hand on her back. "I'm okay Carmen" said Tegan still out of breath and moved forward. "Look at what I've done..." said Carmen and started sobbing again. "You didn't do anything" said Tegan. "I did... I made him so angry that he wanted to kill you... and he almost succeeded... God I can't stand the thought of it... you ... you ... helped me through so much and I just caused you pain and suffering. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." sobbed Carmen. Sara swallowed hard.
"None of this is your fault Carmen. It has nothing to do with you... he was crazy..." she said. "And I guess I made him crazy..." she said softly. "No... no why would you say that?" said Erin playing stupid. "The cops... they came here a few days ago and they told me everything... what he did to you and why he did it... exactly why he did it... I'm why he did it... it's my fault" said Carmen with an agonising sob. "Look at you... he hurt you so bad" she said pointing at Erin's arm. Clear mucus was running out of her nose into her mouth. "I can't any more I can't..." she whispered and turned back, she put her arms up, ready so jump. "Carmen no... Carmen please don't do this... Carmen" begged Sara, her voice shaking. "If you do this he wins... please don't let him win... it's over... he's gone... we're all safe... I promise we've never blamed you for this... not for a second. Please don't do this. Don't let him win..." she continued.
Sara heard the wailing of sirens. "Shit" she muttered under her breath. "Did you call the cops? Don't let them up here or I jump... get them away... this guy too..." she said pointing at Charles. "Go Charles... keep the cops away" said Erin never taking her eyes off the girl. Charles turned to the door. "If they come up here I jump" said Carmen through her tears. Erin turned the lock of the door. "I've locked it... they're not coming here" she said.
Tegan felt herself start to sway. It was a rare humid and muggy spring day in LA and the air felt like liquid. It was steamy hot. She shook her head and steadied herself with an air vent. "Tegan go inside please" said Sara, not taking her eyes off Carmen. "No... I'm not going anywhere until Carmen gets down from there" she said out of breath. She put her hands on her knees. "Please Tegan... go inside" said Sara raising her voice. "No... I told you... not without Carmen" she said stubbornly. "Tegan please" said Carmen through tears. "Not a chance" said Tegan and looked up. "You are brave, and you are so special... and you are remarkable..." Tegan got cut off by Carmen. "No I'm not... He said he was going to kill you because you made me gay... I never thought he'd really try" she sobbed. "You know that nobody can turn anybody gay right" said Sara. "I know... I wasn't leading him on I swear... I didn't think I was gay... well I guess I did I just didn't want to admit it to myself... then there came a time when I couldn't deny it any longer... I left him and for a while I was the happiest girl in the world... I had the best girlfriend... she was amazing... He started stalking us... tormenting us with messages... threatening us... she couldn't take it anymore and she left... I was a misery for a while... I tried my best to pull myself together... he wanted me back but there was no way I was going back... not when I finally figured out who I was... he attacked me and put me in hospital for two weeks... then... then... I heard on the news that you were kidnapped and I knew immediately it was him... I'm sorry... this is my fault. You guys... mean so much to me... your music pulled me through so much... you're all I have and I caused you to get hurt... Nobody wants me... nobody loves me..." she tailed off and started to sway. "Carmen... I've been there... At that point when you think your life will never recover... But it got better, it got awesome again... I've just fought very hard to hang onto the miracle that is life! Please... Trust me... It will get better... You've got an amazing life ahead of you... I promise" said Tegan with ragged breath.
"Carmen it's okay... we're okay... it's not your fault please" Sara started sounding desperate. "Please get down so we can talk about it" begged Tegan still standing with her hands on her knees. Another wave of dizziness came over Tegan and she stumbled forwards. "Tegan... shit... Tegan sit down" said Erin as she caught her best friend in her arms. "Tegan... Tegan are you okay" said Carmen looking around. Tegan hung lifelessly in Erin's arms, on the brink of unconsciousness. Sara had been moving forward a few inches every minute and was now standing relatively close to the girl. She was standing over her other shoulder and took the chance when she saw it. She reached forward quickly and grabbed her hoodie and pulled with every bit of strength in her. The girl stumbled back off the small ledge. Sara landed on her back and Carmen landed on top of her. Carmen started sobbing hysterically. Sara held her tight so she couldn't move. "Is Tegan okay" Sara shouted at Erin. "I... I don't know she seems pretty out of it" said Erin panicked.