Chapter 87
"Oh come on, don't be such a grouch!... You're going to love it" said Tegan a week later and jumped on Sara's bed where a suitcase was open, waiting to be filled. "I can't believe I'm going... I really couldn't think of anything worst right now" said Sara. She had been a total misery since Emy left, spending most of her time in the furnished apartment Emy rented for them but never got used. She avoided everybody but Tegan, only Tegan was allowed close. Only Tegan saw her break down into pieces over and over. They wrote music in separate rooms, sang together in the lounge and sometimes just watched bad television. Tegan was happy that Lindsey and Kate finally gave her a bit more freedom and didn't want her to take a nap or take her BP every 10 minutes. Somebody came to pick them up every afternoon at 5 and they felt like they were back in middle school. Sara finally reached the place where she didn't feel as if her heart was ripped out of her chest anymore. She just felt numb.
Sara was staring out of the minivan window in silence while everybody else was chatting excitedly. Kate sat next to Sara in the back and turned to her. "Hey Sar... haven't seen you around much lately" she smiled. Sara just shrugged. "You doing okay?" she asked softly. "I'm fine thanks" mumbled Sara and turned her head, a clear indication that the conversation was over. Kate just bit her bottom lip and gave Tegan, whose head just whipped around, a weak smile.
The van drove past the normal drop off area at the airport. An area Tegan and Sara knew exceptionally well. "You missed our stop" said Sara dryly. The paps were already waiting at the door and ran after the van as it passed them. "Ha! Suckeeers" yelled Erin. The van drove through a gate and into a secure area. "Where are we going?" asked Tegan confused. "To the plane silly" said Alex and winked. The car stopped in front of an impressive private jet. "No way... we're going in that? I thought we're, well not you two the rest of us... are going in cattle class?" said Tegan. "Nope... only the best for the best" said Erin and opened the door. "How did we get a van instead of a limo though" laughed Alex and put his arm around his wife. "Well the plane broke the budget" smiled Erin. Sara got into the plane first, wanting to pick the most secluded spot. Everybody else were taking photos outside. She found a single seat away from the rest and sat down. She put her earphones in, closed her eyes and threw her head back. An air hostess tapped her shoulder slightly and she looked up "Miss Quin, can I offer you a drink" she asked sweetly. "No... I'm fine I just want to sleep" said Sara. Kate was looking at her from across the plane but swiftly looked away when she caught Sara's eye. "Hey hey... careful with the guitar please... No we can't put it in the hold" said Sara annoyed to an air hostess. "Sara chill... even Gerty's down there. This is not friggen Delta" chuckled Tegan. "No... the guitar stays" said Sara and turned to the flight attendant. "I'll have a Jack Daniels after all" she said. "It's going to be a long vacation" mumbled Sara and rolled her eyes. Tegan clenched her teeth and grabbed Sara by the elbow. "Get up... come with me..." she said as softly as her angry voice would allow. She led her into the luxurious bathroom. "Sara... look at me" said Tegan annoyed. "I'm sick of this... your behaviour the last week has been unacceptable. I know you're going through a difficult time and God knows we've all been there for you but... but pull yourself together for fuck sakes... and if you can't please don't spoil this trip for the rest of us." said Tegan. "Oh I'm sorry... If I'm annoying you all so much why don't you just bugger off and leave me here" screamed Sara.
There was an uncomfortable silence outside as everybody heard Sara screaming. Kate put her hand behind her neck and rubbed it. She started making small talk in an attempt to draw attention away from the fight happening in the bathroom. Everybody pretended not to hear a thing.
"Sara stop it... just stop acting like such an asshole... Stop feeling so damn sorry for yourself!" said Tegan. "Fuck you Tegan" said Sara and leapt forward, she shoved Tegan hard in the chest. Tegan was far from having all her strength back and she stumbled against the wall. Tegan flinched and put her hand over her ribs. "O shit... Tegan I'm sorry! I'm sorry are you okay? I didn't mean that... I didn't mean to hurt you!" said Sara sounding petrified. Tegan looked up at Sara looking hurt; she shook her head and struggled to get up. Sara tried to help her but she shrugged her off. "Get to your seat we're holding up the plane" said Tegan softly. "Tegan..." Sara called after her sister. Tegan turned around slowly as she reached the door. "I'm sorry... I don't know what I'm doing... I promise... I'll try... I'm sorry Tee. You've been my rock and now I hurt you..." said Sara looking distressed. Tegan nodded slowly, "Alright Sara... apology accepted... Let's go now" she said.
"Baby what happened" whispered Lindsey to Tegan. "It's all good... everything's under control now" she said. Tegan flinched as she tried to buckle her seatbelt. "Sweetie are you okay, let me help you... what's wrong is it your ribs" asked Lindsey. "I'm fine..." said Tegan softly before the captain's voice came over the speaker system.
Tegan seemed to be in more pain than usual during the flight. Sara passed out ten minutes into the it after a couple of whiskeys. "Tegan, what happened? Let me have a look at your ribs please. I can see you're in pain" said Kate. "Nothing happened... I'm fine, I just bumped into the wall. I'm such a klutz... It's all fine" said Tegan defensively. Kate simply reclined Tegan's seat as far as she could and pulled her arm up slowly over her head. "Does that hurt Tee?" she asked. Tegan didn't answer but her face answered for her. Kate pulled her shirt up to reveal a large slowly healing bruise. She felt Tegan's ribs under her fingers. "This hurt?" she asked. Tegan let go of the breath she was holding "A little" she whispered. "Yeah? A little?" asked Kate. "What did she do to you Tegan?" said Lindsey looking pissed. "Nothing! I told you. I just took a tumble" breathed Tegan. "I think you just agitated the injury again Tegan. The area feels warm to the touch so I think we should just ice it for the rest of the flight. I think I have some anti-inflammatory gel in my bag we can put on and give you some pain killers. Stay conscious of your breathing ... Keep taking deep breaths okay?" said Kate. She walked over to one of the closets holding her medical bag. She looked at Sara and shook her head not buying a word of Tegan's story. She wanted to punch her... she also wanted to hug her...
A/N: I know... Sara's being a total ass right now. Here's hoping she'll be back to her old self soon. Review please!