The Grand Finale!

Recap: Ana and Christian had a bit of a heart to heart to clear the air between them. Ana apologised for snapping at Christian but he said he understood after everything she had been through. Ana confessed that she had feelings for Christian and he admitted that when they kissed in his office, he meant what he said about her and his feelings for her. They were both missing each other that evening so Ana knocked on Christian's bedroom door and asked to stay with him for the night to which he agreed and they fell asleep in each other's arms in the moonlight.

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Poison Apple: Chapter 15: Hidden Secrets

Christian
Ana has been staying at Escala now for three weeks and I'm impressed with her progress, it was only a month ago that she got shot in the stomach and almost died but you wouldn't tell looking at her. She was pretty much back to her old self, of course I was still making sure that she was taking it easy and not getting too over excited but she has been doing really well.

She is back to doing college work but only through e-mail, she hasn't gone back to class just yet and the college understand why. They don't want to be blamed if Ana goes back and something happens to her because they didn't give her the time to fully heal. I also know a lot of board members of the university so I made sure they were aware of the situation between myself and Ana, I know she didn't want me to do that but I wanted to do everything I could to help her and it worked. For the foreseeable future, they are allowing Ana to do all of her work by e-mail and she is being sent copies of the PowerPoint lectures and so on.

Of course I have made sure that work is covered for her too. She said she was happy to go back to the office as she just sits at a desk but I didn't want her going back yet, not until she was completely healed. She thinks I'm being over dramatic and over protective but I'm just looking out for her and doing my best to keep her healthy and free from infection, the fewer places she goes and the less people she mingles with the better.

Physically she is healing really well; there is going to be a small scar from the gunshot but according to my mother it shouldn't be too noticeable, there is also going to be a similar scar on her back from the exit wound but again, it shouldn't be too noticeable. Either way if I was Ana I wouldn't rule out bikinis just yet.

Over the past few weeks we have been getting closer and closer. Ana has opened up to me a lot more and told me some things about her relationship with Jack that not even Kate knows, she has opened up about her childhood and other things. I haven't opened up much with her yet as I just want her to focus on getting back to 100% and not worry about me and my fucked up head but I don't think I can get away with it for much longer.

Ana has become worried about me being so closed off and I don't know how to explain to her how fucked up I am without her running away. She was in an abusive relationship with Jack and I don't want her to think that I'm going to do the same thing to her or worse but when she sees my playroom I can't help but think about how freaked out she is going to be.

I made the decision last night that Ana needs to see the playroom after she tried getting in there and became really curious as to my reasoning for keeping it locked up so securely. I tried explaining to her that she wasn't ready to see what was in there yet and I had things to talk to her about first but she wasn't going for it, I caught her trying to find the key to open it this morning. You should have seen her when I caught her; she was like a deer in headlights. She apologised but said she didn't want there to be secrets between us because that always makes things worse. Of course she deserved the truth but it was just about where to begin. My whole life has been a fuck up from the minute I was born and things are going so well with her that I don't want her to become scared of me and leave me... this is why I don't do relationships, why I've NEVER had a real relationship.

I wanted to do this the best way I could so I had arranged for Mrs Jones to make us a nice romantic dinner and then she was going to make herself scarce for the rest of the night. After dinner I was going to talk to Ana about my childhood and the reasons why I got adopted by the Grey family, if that didn't scare her away I am going to delve into my troubled childhood/teenage years and if she was still here after that, I am going to tell her about Elena Lincoln and everything after that and show her the playroom. It was going to be a long evening and I'm sure a lot of shocks and home truths but this is what Ana wanted so I'm going to give her everything she asks for and from there she can make the decision or not if she wants to leave or stay.

Since Ana came to my room three weeks ago we have slept in the same bed every night since. She has seen the scars on my chest and has of course asked me about them, I told her that it happened before I went to live with the Greys but I didn't say much. I have explained to her that it's a sensitive area for me to be touched in and she apologised but I told her it was fine, with her it didn't seem as bad however she has done whatever she can to keep away from that area, knowing how uncomfortable it made me.

Ana is the most amazing woman in the entire world. She is kind, caring, beautiful, smart, funny, selfless and sweet. I am never going to meet another woman like her in my lifetime; she is one in a billion! I have decided that if Ana doesn't want to be with me after tonight then I am never going to find another proper girlfriend again, I will just stay single and go back to normal life with my subs. It won't be the life I really want but if Ana doesn't want me then I don't see any other way for me. It's a lot of pressure to put on Ana I know, which is why I'm not going to tell her that, I don't want her to blame herself for my fucked up life.

I was so nervous about tonight but it has to be done. I can't put this off any longer and Ana deserves to know what kind of person she is with, it's only fair to her that she has all the facts, no matter how scary the facts are.

I told Ana that tonight was a big night so she had decided to dress up and she looks absolutely breath taking. She had her hair up in a bun but a few loose trails around her face and her makeup was lightly done with dark eyes that just drew you in, I couldn't stop looking at her lips which were a light pink colour. Her black jumpsuit hugged her figure well and with the straps being off the shoulder it gave a rather delicious glimpse of her blemish free skin.

I couldn't help but watch as Ana ate her food, she kept glancing over at me and caught me staring at her 100 times but each time she just rolled her eyes at me and went back to eating. Seeing her roll her eyes did something to me but until she knew everything and saw everything, I was going to have to hold back.

"That was delicious," Ana said, I came back to Planet Earth and saw her plate and wine glass empty, I refilled her wine for her and realised that I had only eaten a few bites of my dinner, which wasn't like me at all "Did you not like it?" She asked.

"It's lovely, I'm just not as hungry as I thought I was going to be," I told her and pushed the plate away from me slightly.

"Is everything ok?" She questioned.

"Erm... I actually wanted to talk to you," I started and refilled my wine glass to the top "I know that over the weeks you have opened up to me about a lot of things, things that even Kate doesn't know and I have to say that I am so happy that you trust me with all of that stuff. I also know that you've noticed that I haven't said much about my life; my adoption, my childhood, my school years, my past or ex relationships and there is a reason for that but it's messy and to be honest I don't want to scare you away," I told her.

"Is this about that weird room you have locked up?" She asked.

"Kind of," I answered.

"I shouldn't have gone behind your back to try and find the keys," She stated.

"It's ok, I'm not mad," I replied and she took a deep breath "You have no idea what I have been through and how difficult it is for me to talk about but if I'm going to tell anyone, I want it to be you. I want you to understand that what I'm going to tell you is going to sound really fucked up and insane but I want you to know," I took a large gulp of my wine leaving my glass nearly empty so I topped it up.

"You don't have to tell me-"

"I want to," I interrupted.

"Ok," Ana leaned back in her chair and waited for me to tell her about my life.

"My birth mother was a drug addict and a prostitute. The men she had round to the house were awful and they hurt the both of us. My birth mother was never that great of a mother because she loved the drugs more than she loved me and one day the drugs took her, she had an overdose and she died. I don't know if it was intentional or not and I'll never know. I was locked up in that house with her dead for a little while before I was found and then I was taken to the hospital where Grace worked. She took care of me and showed me love and affection, which wasn't something I was used to, she spoke to Carrick and they wanted to adopt me. It took a little while and some foster homes but eventually they had permission to adopt me and make me one of theirs," I explained, I could see the tears in Ana's eyes but I carried on, knowing if I stopped I would never get this opportunity again "Grace and Carrick welcomed me to their family with open arms. They already had Elliot and the three of them did everything they could to make me feel at home and safe but after everything I had been through, it was hard for me to allow them in. I was a quiet, confused and scared four year old boy who had never had a family before," I paused to let everything sink in to Ana.

"Oh my God," She sighed and wiped her tears away; she took a small sip of her wine but sat back in her chair so I could continue my story.

"Growing up I was an angry child and I was kicked out of a couple of schools for fighting. I used to fight with Elliot a lot, I was quite mean to him even though he did everything to be a good brother to me... he still goes out of his way for me. The Grey's were so good to me but I was awful to them but I didn't know how else to let out my anger. Grace and Carrick did everything they could from sending me to boxing lessons, piano lessons, dance lessons and one of one time with Carrick as father and son. They even had me locked in a jail cell one night when I was fourteen to show me how I would end up,"

God this was harder than I thought it would be. I undone a couple of buttons from my shirt and took the jacket off to give myself some air but it didn't do much good.

"My mother's best friend, Elena Lincoln, she knew what sort of troubled background I came from and offered to spend some time with me to try and get through to me. My parents thought that I might open up to Elena as she wasn't a parent and I might find it easier to talk to and at first I did, I talked to her about how angry I was and how I didn't mean to get into so many fights and so much trouble but I didn't know what else to do. Elena showed me a different way of expressing myself and it helped... a lot. It helped so much that I carried on doing on, until a few months ago. I haven't done it in a few months but it's ok because I've had you," I finished.

I know Ana is going to have a lot more questions but at least I've opened up to her and given her my background and it might help her understand the sort of relationship me and Elena had with one another.

"What did she teach you?" She questioned.

"Before you make judgments or freak out-"

"Christian," Ana jumped in "You're freaking me out, what did she teach you?" She asked.

"To put it bluntly, she taught me how to fuck," I stated

Ana spat her drink out over the table and looked at me in complete shock. She kept opening and closing her mouth to say something but no words came out; she got out of her chair and then rested her hands on the table in front of her.

"How old were you?"

I could see in Ana's eyes that she knew I was under 18 when my relationship began with Elena, there was no point in lying about it.

"I was fifteen," I answered.

"Oh my God Christian, she groomed you!" Ana exclaimed.

"It wasn't like that. I stopped fighting people; I wasn't hurting anyone or myself anymore. It was a good solution to the problem and it worked," I told her.

"Sex isn't supposed to be just some... fuck... it's supposed to be about two people who care for one another. They call it 'love making' for a reason. What she did Christian was teach you how to push feelings away and disengage from other people," Ana said.

"It wasn't just fucking," I admitted.

"What else was it?" She asked.

"It's better if I show you," I said and Ana looked at me wide eyes "It's in the locked room... the playroom." She looked at me scared but allowed me to take her hand and lead her upstairs.

As we headed upstairs I could tell Ana was beginning to regret this evening and I felt bad, maybe I should have done this in stages and not all in one go. It is a lot for one person to take in but I've told her everything else now so I might as well get this last bit over and done with, Ana can then make the decision on what she wants to do next.

We reached the playroom and I stopped Ana outside of the door and fished the key out of my pocket. Ana was tapping her foot nervously, this was a bad idea, and she isn't taking to any of this well. I slid the key in the lock and turned it.

I opened the door and walked in, Ana followed.

That is the end of Poison Apple but have no fear because I have an exciting little announcement to make. There is going to be a SEQUEL! Rotten Apple will be published on Wednesday January 6th 2021. We are going to get to see Ana's reaction to Christian's playroom and follow on what happens after that, I am very excited about it and I think you are really going to enjoy it!

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What a day to end this story! Today is my birthday but it is also the last post I am going to make of 2020! I have got so much planned for next year but I'm going to take the rest of this month off just to enjoy time with my family and take a time out. It has been one hell of a year, I know this year hasn't been great for many people so I send my love to all of you and wish you all a happy and amazing 2021. I will be back on Wednesday January 6th 2021 with 2 brand new stories so I hope to see you all then. Wishing you all a very merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year!

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