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The butterflies in Alessia's stomach started to flutter around as Kylo came closer. She nervously scanned the room to shake the thoughts of him away.
"You're going to block me from your mind." Kylo stated.
'Fuck.' Alessia thought to herself.
Kylo stopped nearly inches from her personal bubble, almost but not completely crossing the boundary.
She gulped as she felt him starting to peer into her mind. It didnt hurt nearly as much as the first time he searched. Alessia crossed her fingers behind her back, hoping he wouldn't look too far.
"Why are you crossing your fingers, Alessia?" Kylo asked dryly.
"No reason, sir. Just fidgeting?" She replied/asked nervously. Every time they spoke, she let her nerves get to her. Of course he was intimidating; He found the siblings and is basically keeping them alive. Not only that but he was infamous throughout the entire galaxy for showing no mercy on the battlefield.
He sighed at her cowardice.
'I have to change this. I cant work with someone so... fragile.' Kylo thought to himself.
"Your turn. Try easing into my mind." He commanded.
Alessia nodded, slowing her breathing down and pushing herself into his thoughts.
It was like a brick wall. No door or opening for her. He was guarding his mind without letting up.
"I cant."
"Yes you can. You're not trying. I'm not even fully blocking you." A hint of irritation sparked in his dark brown eyes.
Alessia noticed the flicker and decided it was best to just try again, harder.
The same brick wall was thrown up. Again, no entrance. She tried with all her might but still nothing. Thirty seconds passed as she still continued trying until finally, she fixated herself on his eyes, the walls slowly sunk down into oblivion.
His mind was clear of thoughts but memories appeared. Memories of his meeting with the tactics group he recently attended, arriving on Jakku, and oddly enough even a memory of him brushing his teeth this morning.
Kylo watched as the corners of her mouth turned upwards, obviously amused.
Alessia's smile soon fell as she was involuntarily pulled into a deep, dark memory. It was of him as a youngling. Fear. Fire. Anger. Children screaming.
Her heart broke at the memory and tears started to prick her eyes. She couldn't pull herself away until Kylo finally pushed her out of his mind.
She let the tears stream slowly down her cheeks. Unsure of what to do, she glanced down at the floor, then back up to her Commander.
His eyes welled up with tears but none would fall. Instead, his brows snapped together and he clenched his jaw.
"My mind is a very dark place. I dont suggest snooping past minor things that I intended for you to see." His voice was slightly shaky but full of anger.
Alessia bit her lip until she tasted the metallic taste of blood. Guilt ran through her.
"Commander, I didn't intend to see..that. I was only on the surface, I honestly didnt try! It just pulled me in.." She tried to explain, wiping away the few stray tears.
Kylo grabbed her wrist tightly. Alessia squeaked.
"Sir, I'm sorry! You're hurting me, please stop!" She begged. Her nose crinkled together and her bottom lip trembled.
Kylo let her hand go, realizing what he had done to her.
'Pull yourself together, Kylo. You've been through this before. Stop.'
He looked at the pain stricken woman and slowly turned towards the door, leaving her alone. Alessia heard the sound of crashes and objects being thrown as he walked away. Her wrist would bruise but her mind would be scarred by what she had seen. Kylo in his youth killing other younglings at the Jedi Temple.
•Alessia saw some of Kylo's background! emotions ran a bit high in this chapter, but dont worry, itll get worse ;) i hope you all continue reading this story, it has so much potential and im determined to reach it all. what should this ship be called? Kylessia? Alesso? Let me know!•