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Author's Note: HUGE shout out & thank you to my beta dolphin62598 for getting these chapters back to me so quickly! And another big thanks to my pre-reader teacher1209 for reading over these and giving me her thoughts! Song inspiration for this chapter is My Heart Can't Tell You No by Sara Evans. You guys! I just have to say thank you for joining me and I was blown away by the response I got from the Prologue. So, without further ado I am updating a little early. Hope you enjoy! See ya next Wednesday!

Chapter 1

My Heart Can't Tell You No

BPOV

I had finally made my way from the bathroom floor to the sink to start cleaning my face when Leah entered the bathroom.

"Bella? Are you all right? You look awful! What happened?"

Seeing the worry on her face made a fresh round of tears start falling. I put my face in my hands and let the sobs roll through my body.

"It's him…isn't it? The married guy you're seeing?"

My stepsister, Leah Clearwater was the only person who knew my secret. She was one of my dearest friends. We went through nursing school together and both managed to get jobs at Forks General. My dad, Charlie, married her mom, Sue, when we were both sixteen. Seth was eleven.

She knew that I was seeing a married man, but I would not tell her his name. No one else knew I had a boyfriend at all.

I nodded and she wrapped her arms around me.

"He's not leaving her, Leah! He was supposed to leave her…he was supposed to pick me! He's going to stay with her, and he didn't even bother to tell me. The fucker is still trying to play me so that he can keep me on the side and still have his wife," I sobbed.

I explained about our plans for tonight, what I saw and the text message that he sent.

"I'm going to go find this sorry asshole! Is he still in the restaurant?"

Fear gripped me when she said that. I didn't want Edward to be found out, his reputation would be ruined in Forks and at the hospital. Everyone knew of the great Dr. Edward Cullen, son to Dr. Carlisle Cullen.

I shook my head frantically. "No, they left already. He doesn't even know I was ever here."

"Maybe that's for the best because I would totally castrate that low-life piece of shit right now."

"Leah, stop. I'm a big girl. I was stupid for getting involved with a married man. I knew what the chances were of him leaving his wife…I was just too blinded by love to let it sink in."

"Still, he shouldn't have led you on like that. I really want to hurt him, Bella! No one fucks with my sis."

She pulled me into her arms and let me cry a little while longer before she spoke again, "What do you want to do about Seth's party? Are you still up for it?"

"I think I need to go home. I'm not exactly in the partying mood now but I don't want to ruin Seth's night."

"Girl, please! That boy started slamming back drinks as soon as he got here. He couldn't wait till we got to the club. He probably won't even realize you are gone! I will just tell everyone you were not feeling well. They'll buy it; you know that flu bug is still going around."

"Thanks Leah, I really appreciate it. Love you."

"I love you too. Get your mourning out tonight though because no man is worth all these tears. You need to let him go and move on my dear. Call me in the morning…but not too early. Jake and I plan on having an all-nighter if you know what I mean," she said wiggling her eyebrows at me.

"Ew! I did not need that visual," I said laughing.

"Got you to laugh, didn't I?"

We hugged and she left the bathroom.

I didn't look back at his table on my way out of the restaurant, nor did I stop by to say goodbye to my friends. All I wanted to do was find the exit and get home as quickly as possible.

Since karma was seriously being a bitch to me today, My Heart Can't Tell You No by Sara Evans came on in the car during the drive home.

Did I mention that it even played on three different radio stations? If that was not a sign, I didn't know what was.

When I got home to my apartment, I played the messages on my machine.

"Hey Bella, it's Mom. I haven't heard from you in a while. You need to call me honey. I miss you. Love ya."

Delete. I will deal with her later. I loved my mom, but I did not feel like calling her and listening to her upbeat, perky self now.

"Baby, you didn't respond to my text and I tried calling your cell, but you didn't answer. Please call me back, I miss your voice…"

He was interrupted by a female voice in the background.

"Eddie, who are you talking to? Come on, I rented the room. Let's go make good use of it."

The call abruptly ended after that.

As if my heart could not break any further, it shattered a little more knowing that they could not even wait to get home to rip each other's clothes off. They had to rent a hotel room to fuck each other.

I yanked the machine from the wall and threw it across the room. It shattered against the wall just like my heart.

From there, I stormed through the apartment and grabbed every picture I could find of Edward or of us together and promptly smashed them to the floor.

Next, I went to my bedroom and pulled out every piece of clothing from his drawer. I grabbed scissors from the kitchen and proceeded to rip every item to shreds.

How could he do this to me?

Did he know that I could hear her when he called?

He told me she wasn't pretty, when in fact the bitch was a knockout. She was probably the most gorgeous woman I had ever seen.

After destroying any evidence of Edward throughout my apartment, I didn't even bother to put pajamas on before throwing myself down on the bed and trying to sleep the pain away.

Fortunately, falling asleep came easily. However, I did toss and turn all through the night and woke up a few times in a screaming fit. Then the tears would begin again.

My mind kept playing through all the moments I had enjoyed with Edward over the last six months.

Flashback

Dr. Cullen had been working a long shift and he was in the on-call room resting. I wanted to go check on him during my lunch hour to see if I could bring him something. He was exhausted between saving lives at the hospital and fighting with his wife at home.

She was pushing him to start a family and he didn't want children. He was sexually frustrated because he was afraid to sleep with her, fearing that she would either poke holes in condoms or not take her birth control pills.

We had been dancing around our attraction for one another over the last few months. Not only did we spend time at work together, but we had started getting together outside of work as friends on the nights his wife was either working or out with her friends.

Our secret friendship was stressful to say the least considering we both knew that we wanted to rip the other's clothes off and do dirty things to each other.

When I walked into the on-call room, I noticed that he was alone. He was sleeping so peacefully, and I was going to leave and let him sleep…until I heard him start moaning.

"Fuck, Bella…just like that. You're so beautiful. Want you so fucking much," he mumbled.

I bit my lip nervously and warred with myself in my mind. Moisture pooled between my legs as his moans continued and he started rubbing his cock through his scrubs. He must have been dreaming because his eyes were still closed.

I took a deep breath before reaching my hand behind me to lock the door I was currently leaning against.

It was now or never…there wouldn't be any going back after this. The last time Edward and I had discussed our attraction, he made it clear that if I said the word, we would be having sex.

I kept telling him no.

I couldn't fight it anymore. I wanted him and in this moment a part of me didn't even care that he was not going to leave his wife.

I stepped out of my shoes and made my way to the cot where he was sleeping. His hips were gently thrusting up and down and he was still palming himself unconsciously.

I straddled his waist and leaned down to press my lips to his. His eyes darted open quickly. As he pulled back, he said, "Bella? What are you doing?"

"I'm tired of fighting it, Edward. I need you."

"Thank fucking, God!" He growled.

He crashed his lips to mine and placed his hands in my hair gently tugging the scrunchie out of my hair to set it free.

"This is going to be fast and hard. I won't last long, baby. I've wanted you for so long."

"I don't care…I just need you to fuck me. We can worry about sweet and gentle next time. Right now, I need it deep, hard and fast."

Another growl erupted from his chest as he started pushing my scrub bottoms down. I dismounted his waist and quickly dropped my bottoms to the floor before stepping out of them. While I was doing this, he simply pulled his bottoms and boxers down far enough to let his cock spring free.

Dear God, he was huge! I was a lucky girl.

"Get back over here," he commanded.

I straddled him again and started rubbing his cock with my cloth-covered pussy. I hadn't removed my panties yet.

He pulled me to his mouth forcefully and our tongues were thrusting in and out of each other's mouths as I grinded on him while he thrust his hips up towards me.

"I need to be inside of you…now. Do you have a condom?"

I pulled away as if he had burned me.

"Fuck! No…I didn't plan on this."

"Goddamn it! I don't either…are you on anything?"

I shook my head no. I wasn't exactly that sexually active and there had not been a need for birth control in a long time.

"Motherfucker! You've got to be kidding me!"

He started punching the bunk above us and was muttering one curse after another. I shifted a bit and his cock was still very hard and ready.

"Please don't move, baby. I'm going to lose my mind."

Before I could offer any further suggestions, he pulled my face back to his to kiss me roughly. When we broke for air, he was determined. He looked deep in my eyes and said, "I'll fucking pull out just please let me fuck you right now. We are both going to have to get back out there soon…please Bella…I have to have you now."

I didn't even think twice before I nodded and begged him to enter me. He ripped my panties from my body and lifted me up before impaling my small frame onto his cock.

It hurt like a bitch but felt amazing at the same time. However, I could not contain the yelp that left my mouth.

"Fuck! You feel fantastic. Did I hurt you?" he asked.

"No, it's just been awhile for me."

I never did anything like this and as I rocked up and down on him with fervor, I knew exactly how stupid I was being. I knew the pullout method was not a very reliable form of birth control, but I didn't care.

In this moment, having sex with Edward was the best feeling in the world. I had never felt so incredible. He was doing amazing things to my body as his hands roamed all over while we were still connected.

He pulled me down again so that we could lose ourselves in our kisses as we met each other thrust for thrust.

He lasted longer than I thought he would but unfortunately…he did not even bother to pull out.

"Shit! I'm sorry, Bella. I forgot. I was lost in the moment; it felt too good to stop. Go down to the pharmacy and get a packet of Plan B and we should be fine, okay?"

I nodded and reassured him that I would do so. We had to dress quickly and get back to the ER.

Before we left the on-call room, he asked me to go to a hotel with him when our shifts were finished. He said he would call Tanya with an excuse explaining his absence at home.

That was the first night of many that I spent lying in his arms after hours of lovemaking. Our first time together was more like primal fucking.

And over the next six months, we had some of both. Sometimes we had tender loving sessions and other times, it was animalistic.

Either way, the more time we spent together, the closer we became. Edward said the L word before I did. I was afraid of my feelings, but he wasn't…or so I thought.

End Flashback

I really thought he was different.

I noticed the big red numbers on the clock mocking me and they said it was eight in the morning. Figuring that sleep would not be happening anytime soon, I decided to get up and begin cleaning the mess I had made the night before.

With a heavy heart, and red, puffy eyes, I began cleaning. It was around one in the afternoon when I heard a knock on the apartment door.

All I really wanted was a nap, but it was probably Leah.

Without even bothering to look through the peephole, I opened the door and let out a gasp when I saw Edward standing there.

He pushed his way passed the door, closing it quickly and scooping me into his arms. His hold on me was tight.

"Thank God! You had me worried sick, Bella. I thought you were lying in a ditch or something. Why didn't you respond to any of my texts or call me back?"

I shrugged, unable to find my voice just yet.

He pulled back and looked at my face. "Baby, why have you been crying? Let's go sit and you tell me what's bothering you."

I let him walk me over to couch. He sat down first and tried to pull me on his lap, but I fought his hold and sat against the opposite end of the couch.

Apparently, he noticed my silence and posture towards him. He held his head down like the scoundrel he was and spoke quietly, "I guess you heard Tanya in the background when I called you… I can explain."

Barely above a whisper, I found my voice and said, "I saw you."

"At the hotel?" he asked raising his voice.

"At the restaurant."

"Oh…"

Tears were already threatening to fall, and I hated myself for it. I took a deep breath, stood from the couch, and went into my bedroom quickly. When I started cleaning this morning, I took all the rubble and put it into a box for him.

When I returned to the living room, Edward was sitting there with his elbows on his knees, face in his hands.

I slammed the box down on the coffee table in front of him causing him to look up at me.

"Wh…what is that?"

"It's all of your stuff…what's left of it anyway. Take it and get out!"

He stood up and grabbed my hands, which I promptly pulled away. "I want you out of my apartment and out of my life, Edward. I'm done being your whore!"

I sat down on the couch in frustration and pulled my knees up to my chest trying to hold back the tears. Edward paced in front of me.

"It's not like that, Bella. I swear to you…I love you. I just have so much fucking history with Tanya. I don't know what to do. I'm torn in two here."

"I'm making it easy for you then. I am taking myself out of the equation, no longer an option for you. Get out and go back to your wife, Edward! I don't want to see you ever again!"

I stood angrily from the couch and started to storm into my bedroom when he grabbed my arm, turned me towards him and kissed me hungrily.

Like an idiot, I kissed him back at first before pushing him away forcefully.

"No! These lips are no longer yours to kiss! Get OUT!"

"Please let me explain…"

"Fine! Explain! Explain to me how you led me on for six months! I didn't ask you to leave your wife! Not at first…that was your idea! You made me fall in love with you and then you started promising me things I never even knew that I wanted.

"Then last night the rug was pulled out from under me. I heard you tell her you still loved her! I saw the way you looked at her…the way you touched her! And she's fucking beautiful, Edward! You made it sound like she was plain and that I had nothing to worry about. Your wife could be a goddamn supermodel you lying asshole!"

"Bella…"

He was walking towards me and the next words out of my mouth stopped him dead in his tracks.

"Did you fuck her last night at that hotel?"

"Baby, don't…"

"Did you?" I yelled once more.

He didn't say anything, and he didn't have to…his body language and the way he held his head told me everything I needed to know.

"Your silence speaks volumes, Edward. Please get the fuck out of my apartment and don't forget to leave the key. I will figure out a way to work with you for now…but please don't go out of your way to speak to me or acknowledge me. I gave you everything I had, and you tore it to shreds. I have nothing more to give so please…just put me out of my misery and ignore me at work unless you absolutely must speak to me."

With those words, I made my way to my bedroom. I closed the door behind me, locked it and slid down to the floor.

I heard footsteps coming towards the door and I could feel him standing on the other side. "For what it's worth, I do love you, very much. I wish I had met you first."

His footsteps then retreated away from the door and I heard the clinking sound of a key being thrown into the bowl on my bar before I heard the front door being slammed shut.

Edward Cullen was officially out of my personal life and I was an adulterous slut no longer. Now I just had to get through working with him.

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