Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Stephenie Meyer owns it all. I am merely having fun with her characters.

Author's Note: HUGE shout out & thank you to my beta dolphin62598 for getting these chapters back to me so quickly! And another big thanks to my pre-reader teacher1209 for reading over these and giving me her thoughts! Song inspiration for this chapter is Say Something by A Great Big World with Christina Aguilera. Hang on my lovelies.

Chapter 5

BPOV

Say Something

I was mindlessly filling out charts and doing busy work at the hospital as my head swirled with the events of the past few weeks. Today was my first doctor's appointment with the OBGYN and my last day at Forks General.

I wanted to go ahead and meet with the doctor here before heading to Phoenix. I was going to speak with her today about setting me up with someone there once I was settled. One week from today Paul and I would be Arizona bound.

Yes, there had been many new events over the past few weeks.

Flashback

When I came out of the bathroom that day I found out about the baby, I found a shaken Paul standing in front of me. His cool, calm and collected manner genuinely looked worried.

"Are you okay, Bells?" He asked.

I shook my head no and nodded to Leah.

"Hey, you two crazy kids, I'm gonna get out of here. Bells, call me later?"

"Of course," I said as she hugged me.

I grabbed Paul's hand and gently led him to the couch so we could sit comfortably.

"Are we breaking up?" He asked.

"I'm not sure…but I do have something I need to tell you."

"Okay," he said hesitantly.

There was no easy way to say it so I just laid it out there for him, "I'm pregnant, Paul."

His face went ashen and I knew it was good he was sitting for this.

"I'm gonna be a dad?" he asked immediately.

I reached over to place my hand on his. "No sweetie, I'm going to be a mom. The guy I was seeing right before you is the father."

He looked a little relieved and I felt better for him.

"Are you two getting back together?"

I shook my head no. "He will not be in the baby's life or mine for that matter. I may want to tell him but that is the end of it."

"Well, okay then. Do you want to break up with me?"

"No…but you didn't sign up for this Paul. So I completely understand if you want to break up with me."

He pulled me in for one of his hugs and said, "Not a chance. You're awesome, Bells. I'm not going to let a little baby scare me away. I will just consider this my next big adventure. How hard can it be?"

We both laughed.

"I am going to remind you that you said that, mister."

End Flashback

The next day, he came over to my apartment full of excitement. He told me he had thought about everything and he remembered that my mom and stepdad lived in Phoenix.

He said he had Sam call a construction place there and he found out a job was available. It would be at least a few months to a year's worth of work. He asked me if I would like to come with him on his next big adventure. He thought it would be good for me to get away from everything here, especially the baby's father.

Paul never once pressured me about who the father was which was a relief because I was not telling anyone but Leah.

He was so enthusiastic and had put so much thought into the idea that before I knew it I was just as excited and agreeing to move to Phoenix.

The first phone call I made was to Leah, then my dad, my mom, and finally Carlisle. I did not want to leave the hospital in a bind but the more I thought about my decision, I knew it was for the best.

I asked to meet with him face to face and he agreed.

That meeting was very nerve racking. It felt like he knew more than he was letting on during the conversation.

Flashback

"Is everything okay, Bella?"

I had always idolized the man who sat across the desk in front of me. He was an amazing doctor and at one time, I had prayed he would someday be my father-in-law. I adored him and his wife, Esme. They were both always kind to me.

"I'm leaving Forks, Dr. Cullen."

"Can you tell me why? Are you alright?"

"Yes, I'm very happy here at the hospital. It has been an amazing job and I really appreciate the opportunities you have provided for me here. If I share something with you, I trust you will keep it between just us?"

He nodded, "Of course. What we discuss stays in this office, you know that sweetie."

"I'm pregnant," I said quietly.

He hesitated and then smiled, "Well this is wonderful news, Bella. Paul must be thrilled."

I knew how news traveled through the hospital and everyone would automatically assume it was Paul's baby. In a moment of weakness, I decided to go with it.

"Yes, he is very excited. He took a job in Phoenix that is going to put us closer to my mom. I think it would just be good for all three of us to have a fresh start."

No one needed to think any differently than Paul being the father and a new start as a family being the reason for the move. Yes, this was working out perfectly.

"How long before you leave?" He asked.

"I want to give you two weeks to replace me and then we want to try to head to Phoenix a week or so after that."

"Wow, that is fast."

"Yes, when I called my mom and told her all the news, she was on top of everything pronto. I think she had found an apartment by the end of the day," I laughed.

She actually found two apartments. One for me and one for Paul. We had discussed that we did not want to live together right away. We were not ready for that and that was exactly what I told Mom when she questioned me about living separately from my boyfriend and father of my child. She seemed to accept what I told her, reluctantly but she accepted it eventually. One of the amazing things about my mom was that when I really needed her to not push, she would not.

Paul and I would be living apart in the beginning but it was going to be awesome to have him there with me. I was going to need all the moral support I could get with this baby on the way.

"Which hospital are you applying at?"

"Phoenix Memorial," I told him.

"Wonderful hospital. I am friends with the Chief there, Dr. Volturi. I will put a call in to him okay? I want to make sure you are taken care of with a good solid job. You are one of the best we have ever had here. I'm sorry to lose you."

"I'm sorry, Dr. Cullen," I started but he interrupted.

"Please, Carlisle now, consider my boss hat gone. Esme is going to be disappointed; she does enjoy your company."

Esme…she was amazing as a wife, a mom, a friend. She always welcomed me into her home and I loved to watch her around her husband. They were the super couple of Forks. They had it all. I would miss them both…and my dad….Leah…Seth…Jake…Edward.

No…I was not going to let doubt seep in. This was the right decision for my baby and me.

"I will miss you both. But I will keep in contact. As soon as I get a new cell number, you both will have it and you know I will be coming back to visit family here. I will definitely visit you and Esme as well."

"I hope so…you know my silly wife was sure that one day you would end up with our Edward and be a part of our family."

What?

Did he just seriously say that?

I was shocked at those words.

"I'm sorry, what? Dr. Cull…er….Carlisle, Edward is married…to a beautiful successful woman. There is no way we would ever end up together."

I tried to cover my feelings as best as I could.

He gave me a skeptical nod and then said, "yes, I suppose this is true. That would be why she is silly."

We both laughed an awkward kind of laugh and then he asked me about my OBGYN and offered to call one here for me to see before I left just to make sure everything was okay.

I agreed and left the office. After meeting with Carlisle, I looked all over the hospital for Edward but kept missing him. I tried leaving a few more messages but was unsuccessful at reaching him that way either.

End Flashback

The more I tried to get a hold of Edward, the more he dodged me. It was becoming clear he was not interested in anything I had to say.

The day I finally cornered him in the on-call room, it was a test. I brought up the baby thing with Tanya to see what he would say. He had the reaction I thought he would. He was not ready to be a dad and I did not think that would ever change. I could not put my child through that.

Wrong choice or not, in that moment, I made a split decision that I would never tell him about this baby.

He needed to stay with Tanya and live his life. I was moving on with mine and it was time for him to do the same.

"Earth to Bella, come in Bella," I heard Leah beside me.

"Yes, can I help you Miss Clearwater," I laughed.

"Shouldn't you be getting to your doctor's appointment?" She asked pointing at her watch.

"Oh crap, yeah. Thanks!"

She hugged me and whispered in my ear, "Good luck. I still can't believe you are leaving me. This place is going to be so damn boring without my Bells here."

"I guess Jake will just have to keep you occupied."

She laughed and said, "Oh you know it, sis. Now scoot! Go see about my nephew."

"How do you know it's a boy?"

"I'm just good like that," she smirked.

I was really going to miss her.

Dr. Horton's office was pretty packed. She was one of the best OBGYN's in Forks. I was happy Carlisle got me in to see her and sad that she would not be seeing me all the way through my pregnancy. I hoped that she would set me up with someone equally as wonderful in Phoenix.

"Miss Swan," the nurse called.

I followed her to the back, answered all the questions, let her do all the things she needed to do to get me ready for the doctor. All I seemed to be thinking about was my last kiss with Edward. He seemed so vulnerable that day. I wanted to tell him about our baby so badly.

In my heart, I felt I had made the right decision by not telling him. He would always be the love of my life and my baby's father. But that was going to be my little secret.

Dr. Horton entered the room and discussed everything with me. She told me we were going to figure out how far along I was and listen to the baby's heartbeat.

Heartbeat

My baby's heartbeat

This was all beginning to feel so real.

Dr. Horton estimated me to be about eleven weeks pregnant putting my due date at March 17th. I was going to have a St. Patrick's baby if he or she was on time.

She hooked me up to allow us to hear the heartbeat and it sounded so foreign to me. I had done this before, and knew what was going on and what to expect…but it is very different when you are the one it is being done to.

I was lost in the sound of my baby's heartbeat…so lost that I did not realize what I was hearing.

"Oh my dear," she smiled.

"What?"

"Listen, do you hear that?" She asked.

Oh…my…God….

When I stopped and listened…really heard what I was listening to…I knew exactly what she was referring to.

There were two heartbeats.

It was a good thing I was sitting already.

Paul was meeting me at my apartment after my appointment. We were going to celebrate my last day at Forks General and the beginning of our adventure.

The appointment went great except for one little unexpected discovery. Heading home, my mind was racing in a million directions from what the doctor had told me.

Paul was surely going to bolt at this news. I was still dealing with it myself. Overall, I felt I was handling it better than I ever could have expected.

Two babies instead of one. Couldn't be that much harder, right?

That's what I would keep telling myself to make it through the next few months. At least that explained why I was showing as I was already. I had been covering it pretty well so far but that time was going to be over very soon at the rate these two were growing.

I found Paul waiting outside of my apartment. He kept telling me he didn't want to go in there if I wasn't there. We had seen each other naked so that didn't make sense to me but it was how he felt. I was wondering how he was going to take the news I was about to share with him.

Well…no time like the present. Let's get this over with.

"Hey sexy," he said with a wink.

"Yeah, you're not going to say that here pretty soon."

"Are you kidding? Bells you are glowing! And you are going to look fine as hell the more pregnant you get. I can already tell."

I let us into the apartment and led him over to the couch. I wanted to make sure he was sitting.

"Why is it you always sit me down on the couch for these talks? What's going on?"

Like ripping a Band-Aid off I blurted out, "I'm having twins!"

"Tw…twins? As in tw…two babies?" he stuttered.

I nodded.

"So, it's just an extra addition to our new adventure. All we can do is try, right?"

"Really? You seriously want to date me even though I am pregnant with another man's twins?"

"Bells, I don't know what's going to happen between us or how things will end up. I don't want to try to be their dad or anything but I will be there for you and them…and be their cool Uncle Paul. Is that cool?"

I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tight. "That's perfect, Paul. It's just perfect."

My babies did not need a dad. I would be both to them and that would have to be enough.

It was the day before I was supposed to head to Phoenix with Paul. I wanted to bring a basket of cookies I had baked for all of my fellow nurses. I was going to miss them terribly and hoped I bonded with my new group of nurses as well as I had at Forks General.

I saw Edward barreling towards me while I was speaking with the nurses and saying my goodbyes. Talk had been all over town about how Paul and I were moving to Phoenix together and were expecting twins.

We agreed to start telling people and once we moved away, we would deal with us and working out the specifics of our relationship. My feelings for him were growing to be more and more platonic every day and I was not sure why.

I was unsure of where his feelings stood for me but I knew he cared a lot to be doing what he was doing.

"Miss Swan, I need to speak with you in private, please." Since I knew Edward as well as I did, I could tell it was taking everything in him to be as civil as he was in front of our audience.

Here we go. I followed him down the hall and he turned and gently grabbed my arm ushering me into the on-call room.

Why in the hell did everything happen in this damn room? I was ready to be rid of it that was for sure!

"Yes, how can I help you, Dr. Cullen?"

I was trying to keep it as professional as possible. I just wanted to get out of there and go to sleep. I was so tired these days.

Edward stopped in his tracks and just stared at me for a minute. He looked me up and down and it was making me uncomfortable.

"Did you want to tell me goodbye? Or what? If you are just going to stand there and stare at me, I'm leaving. I have things to do."

I started to brush past him but he was not budging.

"Edward, come on."

"I have two questions for you, Isabella."

Why did he have to pull the Isabella card? He knew how that affected me, that asshole!

I crossed my arms over my chest as I often did when I was pissed and said, "And what would those be, Edward?"

"Is it true you're pregnant with twins? And are they really Paul's or are they fucking mine?"

Ooops…guess I was busted. This was my chance…lay everything on the line and tell Edward he was going to be a daddy to two small humans…or continue with my façade that they were Paul's babies.

The question was, which option was I going to choose?

Author's Note: I think I'm just going to go into hiding for a bit…please just bear with me! I told you it's going to be bumpy! Since I feel really bad leaving you with a cliffhanger like that, any reviews I will respond with the teaser for the next chapter that will be where Bella gives him his answer to his questions.

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