Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Stephenie Meyer owns it all. I am merely having fun with her characters.

Author's Note: HUGE shout out & thank you to my beta dolphin62598 for getting these chapters back to me so quickly! And another big thanks to my pre-reader teacher1209 for reading over these and giving me her thoughts! Song Inspiration for this chapter: At This Moment by Billy Vera & The Beaters. You will find a big variety of music in my stories. I love all music genres. Music is my biggest inspiration for my stories. I listen to the music and then kind of see everything play out in my head.

Chapter 6

EPOV

At This Moment

After the day Bella left me with a broken heart in the on-call room, I tried once again to make my marriage work.

It was failing…miserably. Tanya and I were never going to make it and I put in a call to a divorce attorney without her knowing. I wanted to make the first move.

When meeting with the attorney, we discussed hiring a private detective. I explained that both of us had been unfaithful in the marriage but we were trying a fresh start. However, I told him that I suspected my wife was still cheating. All I wanted was some proof of infidelity so Tanya could not lay a claim to any of my money. She made enough money on her own, but it would be just like her to come after everything I had worked for just out of spite.

She was giving me more excuses of working later and later all the time. I missed Bella more than ever. A part of me wanted to see if it would be possible to ever get her back and return to how we once were…but with Tanya completely out of the picture.

There was one issue that we did not agree on and it would still stand between us now. Bella wanted children while I did not. Motherhood would suit Bella perfectly and I could never take that from her. Perhaps Paul was the better man for her.

I started spending more time at the hospital just to be away from Tanya when she was actually home. There was nothing left there; I honestly could not stand the sight of her.

A part of me wondered if I blamed her for losing Bella, which was ridiculous. I was the one who fucked that up in many ways. However, being a man, and being selfish, I was sure I laid some fault on Tanya for being without my Bella.

One night I decided to come home instead of staying at the hospital, of course it was a night when Tanya was home.

I found her sitting at the table in the kitchen nursing a bottle of Tequila. From the looks of her, she had been drinking for a while before I arrived.

"Hey honey, I guess there isn't any dinner waiting for me," I said sarcastically as I snickered.

I walked toward the refrigerator and opened it to see if there was anything good to eat. The words I heard next made me freeze where I was standing.

"So, dear…was it her? Was it fucking Bella Swan who rode your dick while knowing you were a married man?"

I decided to pretend I had not heard her and continued to look in the refrigerator, praying that she would let this conversation go.

Hmmm…leftover takeout from my favorite Chinese food restaurant. That sounded good.

I heard something whiz past my ear and then I heard the crash as the Tequila bottle she had been drinking from hit the wall beside the refrigerator.

"What the fuck?!" I yelled as I slammed the refrigerator door and turned to face her.

She sneered at me, "Oh, have your attention now do I pumpkin?"

"I'm way too tired for your games, Tanya. I'll clean up your mess, just go to bed for Christ sakes. You're going to have one hell of a hangover tomorrow."

Before I could retrieve the broom to clean the shattered glass she was in front of me poking at my chest.

"I asked you a goddamn question, Edward! Was it her? Was it fucking Bella Swan? I asked you before and now I realize you answered a little too quickly to that question and then conveniently had to leave!"

"Was what Bella Swan? Jesus, you aren't making any sense!"

I knew exactly what she was talking about but I had to find out how the fuck she knew who it was.

She would not stop jabbing her damn fingers into my chest as she ranted about Bella. Her words were running together and she spoke with nothing but venom in her voice. I walked her back to the chair at the kitchen table and got her to sit in it while I knelt down in front of her.

"Look at me Tan, speak clearly, please. What are you going on about?"

She had no tears, not even one….just plain anger and hatred showed on her face.

"I want to know if Bella Swan is the girl you were fucking when you cheated on me and don't you dare lie Edward!"

I placed my fingers under her chin and tilted her head to look at me. "Tanya, no. It was not Bella that I cheated on you with. We both agreed that we did not need to know who our other partners were. It's better that way, remember? But no…I can honestly say it was not Bella."

Yes, I was lying. I did not want Bella to be dragged into the middle of our future divorce dispute. She was leaving Forks and starting over and she deserved that. I had hurt her and drug her through the mud far enough for one lifetime.

Tanya said nothing. I didn't like the anger I saw on her face. There was definitely no way in hell I wanted Bella in the middle of this or anywhere near Tanya. One thing about Tanya, she hated to lose…especially to a woman she viewed as beneath her.

"Tan, why would you think it was Bella? Can you tell me that?"

"I came to see you today to discuss the disaster our marriage has become. I couldn't find you so I went to talk to some nurses about paging you and I overheard them talking about you and Bella. They were talking about her being pregnant with twins. When they were discussing how far along she is it added up to when we were unfaithful.

"Add all that into the way I have seen you look at her and how fond of her your parents are, of course I would think it was Bella you were fucking. Now that I think about it though, you're right, of course it wasn't Bella Swan. You are used to being with me. She is excessively plain."

She took a deep breath and began to smile before she started speaking again.

"I'm feeling much better now. I'm going to go take a shower and crash. But tomorrow, we really do need to discuss this marriage…if you can call it that."

She stood from the chair and stumbled a little. "Guess I drank a little more than I thought," she said as she laughed and hiccupped. She was good at holding her liquor but she was an angry drunk and zero fun to be around when she had been drinking. She did have a high tolerance though so I wasn't going to worry about helping her to the shower.

She was on her own.

I was reeling from what she had just told me.

Bells…pregnant…twins….

Bella…was…pregnant….with a baby….babies….as in two…

Were they mine?

Could it be possible? Lord knows we were more careless than we were careful whenever we had sex. Most of the time my need to be inside of her overruled our need for any kind of fucking protection.

Shit…

Fuck….

I felt sick.

If Bella was pregnant, with MY children, she was about to leave Forks forever with them.

I had to find out what the hell the truth was.

I knew from listening to my mom and dad talk that today Bella was bringing a basket of baked goods to the nurses she worked with at Forks General. This was my chance to talk to her so I woke up and hauled ass to the hospital.

Tanya and I had a discussion the morning after her drunken outburst. We decided as long as neither of us had been cheating a second time, we would go through with a divorce for irreconcilable differences and split what we had fairly and be done with it. I was actually shocked she was being so calm about it all and actually reasonable.

The more I thought about Bella being pregnant, the angrier I got. How could she keep something like that from me?

Truth be told, I had no idea how I felt about it.

Did I want them to be mine?

If I was completely honest with myself, I felt that I wanted them to be Paul's.

What would I do with kids? How did they fit into the lifestyle I had become accustomed to? Kids were messy, I was not. Kids needed people who were not selfish, I definitely was.

I just had to find her to make sure that she had not been lying to me. I felt betrayed either way if she was pregnant with my children and had been keeping it from me. I at least deserved to know, didn't I?

When I found Bella, she was standing at the nurse's station speaking with Leah and some other nurses.

I barreled towards her with one thing on my mind, finding out the truth and I was pissed.

My blood was boiling because when I figured up the dates Tanya overheard, Bella and I were together. That meant, she had cheated on me if these babies were not mine.

When I reached the nurse's station, I held back my anger as much as I could. I wanted to raise hell right there, not caring who was listening. Thankfully, I held it together and asked if I could speak to her privately.

She followed me to the on-call room and I ushered her inside. Once in there, I was hit with so many memories we had in there. Bella was beautiful and Bella was glowing. I had never seen her look better.

And suddenly it hit me, she was happy. And it was not because of me.

Then, I could not speak at all.

She was speaking to me and when it finally registered that she was about to walk out of the room, my anger returned and I found my voice.

"I have two questions for you, Isabella."

I knew how it affected her when I called her that. She would usually melt into a puddle of goo. She said it made her putty in my hands.

My sexy girl crossed her arms over her chest in a defiant stance and said, "And what would those be, Edward?"

Finally getting the nerve to ask what I wanted to know I spoke again.

"Is it true you're pregnant with twins? And are they really Paul's or are they fucking mine?"

I watched every move she made very carefully and tried to take note of ever expression on her face in the minutes that followed. It took her a bit to respond. She was giving nothing away on her face or in her body language.

It was frustrating as hell.

After what felt like a lifetime of waiting, she finally responded. "What do you want me to say Edward?"

That was not what I wanted her to say.

"It's not polite to answer a question with a question Bella. You owe me a fucking answer! And I asked you two! So let's break this down slowly. First question, are you really pregnant with twins?"

I was losing my patience quickly.

Her voice came out as barely a whisper as she answered me, "Yes, I'm pregnant with twins."

She was looking down at her feet as if she were ashamed of something. Now was the decisive moment.

"Second question, are…they…mine?"

Tears were falling down her face as she raised it up and looked me straight in the eyes, "No."

I gasped and took a few deep breaths. I was trying to decipher my feelings on the matter.

There was a hint of something poking inside of my chest that I did not recognize. I ignored that one and embraced the overall feeling that was consuming me.

Relief.

No nasty diapers to mess with.

No crying babies to wake me up at two in the morning begging to be fed.

No gross vomit and spit up to deal with all day every day.

Then the final thought hit me.

No…Bella either. She was carrying another man's children…any fleeting hope I ever had for us was now gone.

If she had been pregnant with my babies, there may have still been a chance for us to work things out and find our way back together. But she was happy…with another man…and pregnant…with his children.

My thoughts started swimming all over the place and Bella was still standing there still as a statue. And one thing finally started coming into my mind, who was the father?

Was it Paul?

Who all had she been sleeping with while we were together?

"Tell me Bella, who exactly is the father of these babies? If it isn't me, then who? From what I hear, your conception date matches up with when we were together. So how many men were you whoring it up with behind my back?"

I felt the sting before I realized what had happened. When I recovered, I recognized that Bella had just slapped me across the face, hard.

Her arms were at her side now, hands balled into tiny little fists. There was my spunky girl.

"You have a lot of nerve, Edward Cullen! I understand that sleeping with a married man, may be considered acting like a whore but I assure you, I was not whoring it up as you so eloquently put it.

"You were still sleeping with your wife for all I knew! You were never there for me as you said you would be. Not completely! You were never completely mine! One night I had a moment of weakness and needed someone and you were not there! But Paul was! We had a drunken night of passion and it felt amazing to be with someone other than you and your lies!"

Shock must have registered on my face. She did not give me a chance to speak. She kept going.

"I didn't get pregnant on purpose. I knew it was a mistake after and I still prayed you would leave your wife as you had promised me. But of course you were lying again. After the restaurant debacle and I finally woke up and realized that you were never going to leave her, I got smart. I ended things with you and started dating Paul whole-heartedly. Then we found out about the babies and now here we are.

"I'm leaving Forks, Edward. Nothing is going to change that. You will never see or hear from me again. I've moved on and I hope you do the same. I hope you have a great life, whatever you choose."

With those words, she brushed past me and left the room.

I did not chase after her nor was I going to.

This was for the best. I was angry Bella had slept with Paul while she was with me. But damn it, she was right, she was never really with me.

I was married the entire time.

I guess what we had would be considered a fling at best. There was still that feeling in the back of my heart that I chose to ignore. I embraced the relief I felt at not being a father.

Bella and her babies were Paul's problem now.

Good luck to them.

Bella and I would never have worked, because of the fatherhood thing. I enjoyed my freedom too much to be tied down like that, didn't I?

Ignoring feelings that were biting at me from deep down in the pit of my stomach, I started to look ahead to what was to come for me.

I had a divorce to look forward to and some serious celebrating. Tanya and Bella had dragged me down and I had been trapped trying to live up to the family expectations my father expected. I was Dr. Edward Cullen and I was going to start living for me for once.

Author's Note: *going into hiding* don't hate me! Just trust me. I do have a teaser of the next chapter in BPOV for anyone who wants to tell me your thoughts on the chapter.

Story Recommendation: The Journal by MsEm. This story IS a cheating story & it really got me in my feels this weekend. It's really well written.